-Kathleen Kelly
I am pretty sure I can learn all wisdom from You've Got Mail. Ok, maybe not ALL wisdom (the rest is on NPR). Really though, I was watching You've Got Mail the other day because sometimes I do that...like a recharge of a battery...and I realized this quote is sort of how I am feeling right now. I am a stay-at-home-mom and most of the time I really love it. But sometimes I also wonder about my life just like Kathleen Kelly. I really like being waking up to a schedule of snuggle, make pancakes, playtime, playdate, nap time, make dinner, get ready for bed. Sure, there are a few tantrums, too many poopy diapers, frequent sickness that messes with our plans, difficult decisions on letting them cry it out, how to discipline but in general it is great. We have been able to enjoy visiting my family and friends since I haven't been working. I get to spend more hours giggling with, smiling at and kissing my kids. Life is more relaxed, not perfect, just more relaxed. The point is, I enjoy it and I love it, but I miss my work. I miss seeing patients and doing clinical work. I don't miss the hectic tiring days, taking home paperwork, and dealing with some of the extra pressures and stress. BUUTTT....I worry if I don't keep up with seeing patients my abilities and knowledge will be lost. I wonder do I stay at home because I like it and I want to be there at these moments or do I do it because it is easier than trying to find a job, get kids ready for a babysitter, finding an a trusted sitter and having to take time off to be able to go on vacation? Maybe it is a combination of loving these moments of being home and being not ready to get back to the grind. Maybe part time is my answer, maybe when the kids get older is my answer, maybe I'll know what to do when then right thing presents itself. Maybe I just need to be brave. Just like Kathleen Kelly...I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So goodnight, dear void.
And here is some pictures of life lately (I have been letting Charlotte pick her outfits everyday because it makes me smile and I take a picture each day. Enjoy her creativity)
