2020-11-09

Not Quite NaNo

 I thought that listening to Claridad and lighting a candle would help motivate me to write some more of Virtue and Vice.  But, nope.  Still just as sleepy.  And I can't consume caffeine because I have fasting labs tomorrow.

Speaking of tomorrow, I might give in to the caffeine and go nuts on the NaNo.

I think my issue is that I want to write, but there aren't any scenes that I'm particularly motivated to write as of right now.  It's hard to know when to combine and when to separate fact from fiction.  It is kind of nice that I decided to make it take place over a regular bonspiel; it's less intimidating that way, and I can also have mixed teams.

I'm nervous about writing up the games.  Maybe I'll fall asleep reading some of Devin Heroux's coverage of past games.  Doing a play-by-play of fictional games is hard when I don't even follow play-by-play reviews of games I played.  Am trying to be better about remembering shots this league.  Reviewing them when I get home/on the way home, and as much as I can at work the next day.  If I decide to do another league, I'll either go for Fridays or ask for Wednesdays off.

2020-09-19

Reflections on a Broken Mirror

 On Sunday, one of my Sunbeams, accompanied by his mom, came up to me after church and invited me over for to their house for popsicles on their porch.  It was so cute, and I looked forward to it for the three days I had to wait.  I went over, and found, to my pleasure, that we were joined by the other teacher.  I didn't realize that his grandparents (who are serving in the mission office) were in the house, cleaning up after dinner until they came out to leave.  I had thought it was strange to see four vehicles when there were only two drivers who live in the house.  I parked perpendicular to the driveway, and I remember being hyper conscious about how far I pulled up.  I remember making a choice, but don't remember what I chose.  

I'll attribute it to the Spirit because, as the grandparents were backing out, we all heard a crunch and stood up to see that they had backed into my minivan.  They busted a tail light and knocked my mirror out of the socket.  It didn't even crack, and I thought I'd be able to pop it back in.  As it was, I have mailing/packing tape in my van (it's come in handy often enough for me to not bring it in; also, I have some inside).  I told them not to worry about it, and I didn't even want to exchange insurance information.  That's a lot of unnecessary hassle, as far as I'm concerned.  Unless they're anxious to meet their deductible or want their rates to increase, I see no need for it.  My van's old enough to buy alcohol.

She was going on about how important of a piece it was, and it is, but also, it's fixable.  And I don't need to travel a lot; most of my driving is for Passporting.  I could even walk to church PRN.  He mentioned that it might be difficult to find a part for something so old.  That part is pretty universal, especially on minivans.  At the time, I didn't even think it would need replacing, since the mirror itself wasn't cracked at all.

So I put off taking it in to the shop until today.  I got called in to work (kind of; they asked and I volunteered, so they let me go at 11 instead of noon) and I headed off to my regular mechanic.  I did a routine oil change there the Tuesday before Labor Day, and went in just this Tuesday for a headlight change.  The guy who gave me an accidental oil change (and therefore remembered me) did what he could.  I could tell he was kind of new.  He determined that the screw had busted that adjusts it to go up and down, but wedged it back in to adjust it pretty well.  I wasn't entirely confident about it, but drove off.  He hadn't even charged me (he probably realized, deep down, that it wasn't really fixed).  

Sure enough, I went to the Arboretum to finish reading a book and do some meandering, and knocked it loose when I shut my door.  I sighed, pulled out the mailing tape and headed to my neighborhood (secondary) mechanic.  The guy who helped me out with my brake line and subsequent issue took a look at it and pretty much determined the same thing.  The components holding it in had broken.  They'd have to order a part, and it'd be a couple of hours worth of labor, which they didn't have time for today.  He told me to call at my convenience on Monday and get it all sorted.

Which means I'll probably drop it off Monday after work and pick it up when they're done with it on Tuesday.  I might try and duck out a few minutes early to get there, although that's not really necessary.  I was able to walk there within 20 minutes the last time, so.  I did a quick google search on cost estimates, and it's probably going to run $200.  Which bums me out because they insisted on reimbursing me.  Which is why it's going to cost so much.  Otherwise, I'd leave it taped for a while until I could get a part and try my hand at it myself (before asking my dad and/or his handyman friend and/or my roommate's family who are mechanics by trade; they just live far away) and go about my business.

But, because there's someone else involved, and I don't want them fretting, I'm rushing it.  So I missed out on Passporting today and may miss out on Tuesday as well.  Hopefully they can fit me in before noon and I can squeeze in the Quilt Museum and Bakers candies, which close at 4 and 5, respectively.  In retrospect, it's the inconvenience of dealing with the consequences that bothers me more than the actual mishap.  That was easily, and instantaneously, forgiven, no questions asked.  But I didn't go anywhere today because I didn't want to tape my mirror a third time.

It's also September, and I had a bit of a breakdown on Thursday.  It was my first day of bleeding for the month, and this whole week, Boomer (the other receptionist) and I have been on the receiving end of all of the things that aren't getting done.  When, in reality, it's Boomer who is doing (or, more often, not doing) the offense in question.  So, I'm getting blamed for things Boomer is responsible for.  I get that she probably didn't get the best training because the girl training her was also still kind of training the new tech in back.  But Boomer doesn't help things by not learning or putting effort into fixing her mistakes.  Ever.  I'm guilty of sweeping some things under the desk every once in a while, moreso lately than I'd like to admit, but not to this extent.  

For instance, we told/reminded her to start saving the insurance benefits/auths as a doc in the charts.  She knew about this before because she would scan the hard copy instead of printing as a pdf to save.  And she stopped doing it, until it became a problem when we'd go in to the chart to look for it.  Now, for about a month, the only task she really does is chart prep.  And since she does 4 days worth of charts (while I do 5, and also invoicing and checking email and occasional contact lens orders, and answering 60% of the phone calls), she found herself weeks ahead on charts.  Now, when we told her about saving the auth/benefits, do you think she went back through the ones she had already done?  No.  She just made the change going forward.  Now, I could see that being one approach if you were only a day or two ahead, but it remained an issue for weeks.

Her three month review is coming up, and I hope their honest with each other about it.  (The only critique I received...no, I didn't even receive any at my three month.  We did office-wide annual reviews in November, and the only critique was to be there before the 8:00 patients more often than I had been.)  She said to me yesterday that she was kind of questioning whether this was what she really wanted to be doing.  I didn't make much of a response because I've learned it's better to say nothing when you can't trust yourself to be nice, and I didn't say anything about that when I worked with the office manager up front this morning.  Although, I did mention that the Boomer had considered calling out Friday as a mental health day.

But, Thursday morning was rough, and I lost it just before lunch.  Went to the bathroom, took off my mask and splashed my face.  Went home for lunch as soon as it was convenient, cried a little more, and just took a bit of a breather.  I knew the majority of my problem was that I was in a "even Convoy is going to make me cry today" kind of place with my hormones, which is why I went home.  Because, sure enough, going home, taking care of it, and taking 65 minutes instead of 60, pumped me back into productivity.

I need to start taking my vitamin D again.  It's that time of year.  I also have some ants in my bedroom.  My dad gave me a bag of candy for my birthday and I brought it into my room to show off to my Zoomstacking crew.  I left the suckers out, and I guess that attracted the ants.  It's not as bad as earlier in the pandemic when they came out of nowhere.  I'm thinking moving the suckers and wiping with vinegar ought to do the trick.  And I've already spent longer at the computer than I planned.  I might still go get the mail, but I'm probably going to skip writing and dishes.  Again.  Which really need to be done.  I meant to write after Labor Day, because I've got to get that scene while it's still relatively fresh.  (Although....I suppose, no, I ought not to justify the fact that I know I can jet out there and back in a weekend's time.)

2020-09-15

Five Star Day

 Has since been downgraded, but we'll get to that.

Started off waking up without neck pain, for the first time in over a week.  Neck pain due to stress, might I add.  Called the IRS office to get a copy of my W2, which I can't actually get.  They can only send me a transcript of my wage earnings.  I told the agent I spoke to, "As long as I can use it to file, I don't care."  I'll be glad to finally be done with place, other than keeping in touch with some of the coworkers I liked best.  Because I called before 9 a.m. their time, I was done with the whole process is less than 90 minutes.  

After my happy dance, I gathered my things, hit up a drive thru for my weekly breakfast out.  The lemonade went out just as they were filling my cup, so I replaced it with Dr. Pepper.  Got a good chuckle when the guy at the window called it "BBQ water."  Ate it on the way to the mechanic to get my headlight fixed.  (Which reminds me, I need to look for the receipt for the pair I bought and decided it was too much work to put in myself.)  I could tell pretty much right away that they had a new guy working, along with a couple of fairly newer, less experienced guys in the bays today.  One of them read the wrong work order on the stand, and started giving me an oil change.  Which meant he had to finish giving me an oil change, even though I literally just had one two weeks ago.

Next stop was the storage unit to change my payment information, and address, since I had apparently skipped over that part in the chaos that was last fall.  A little disappointed that the lady behind the desk didn't put a mask on, but I'm not terribly worried about it.  We stayed far enough apart, she didn't breathe in my general direction, and there was limited touch points.

I had accomplished three things, one of them being a call to a government agency, all before noon.  So I went to the Arboretum with my book.  It was beautiful weather, even a little bit chilly just sitting on a stone in the shade.  There was a woodchuck who startled me and we stared each other down for a little bit.  It was a beautiful time, and I had the impression to let a new family in our ward know about it.  I'm the teacher for their youngest, even though we aren't having class.  The mom homeschools the kids until high school, and the Arboretum has a lot of educational plaques and not even many locals seem to know about it.  Plus, it's free.  I found a cool nut that works as a worry stone.

Came home, had a decent lunch, bit my lip and joked with my roommate that it's been the worst part of my day.  And I've been due for a good day.  Went to my room, listened to a couple of episodes of Firefly, played a few games, took a nap.  Had an invite to a webinar focused on women in curling, set to finish just as my regular Zoomstacking starts up.

Woke up and shortly thereafter saw a text from my sister, asking if I had talked to Mom recently.  It'd been a couple of weeks, but my sister said that Mom was recently diagnosed with Stage 1 Kidney Failure.  Which shouldn't throttle me, but she's also diabetic and has less than reliable doctors.  Probably doesn't help that she doesn't take very good care of herself. 

I called her and left a message on her machine that I'd be up for another hour (which has come and gone) or she can call me on Thursday.  I have plans tomorrow after work.  One of my Sunbeams invited me over (with the help of his mom) for popsicles on their porch.  Hopefully it's not raining and I can walk over. 

Have been doing pretty well with the Firefly binging.  Would like to get two in tomorrow, perhaps, and get a head of schedule so I can maybe do some Passporting on Saturday.  Which I should have been working on planning out today.

2020-01-29

One Vacation at a Time

I'm trying to get my brain to focus on just one thing at a time.  Not very effectively.

There's a lot happening in the future.  It's so bright, I've got to wear shades.  Not really, but I have screen-timed myself into an astigmatism worth correcting.

First up, we have the trip to OCEANside, California.  That's happening pretty quick.  I was nervous about rides, but I've had one offer already.  I hate knowing that I'll inconvenience someone, which is partly how I got into this pickle.  I chose flight times in and out of my destination based on when would be convenient for my sister to be at that airport.  Which puts me at my airport at times inconvenient to the people here.  But, I figured I could play the odds, since there are more ride options for me here than there. 

The problem with focusing on that trip, though, is that it's rife with anxieties.  Yikes.  Because they live on the marine base, security gets tightened.  But I sent pics of my DL so my sister could get a headstart on getting my pass.  I still haven't worked out transporting their wedding blanket or what weather to pack for.

I've been trying to do Sports Movie Sundays, since they're usually uplifting stories.  I skipped last week, though.  This week, I've got one from the library: Chasing Mavericks.  It's about surfing, so I'm hoping it'll help me feel more comfortable about California.  I also need to try on my swimsuit and make sure it's all good.  And I may see if I have room for a pair of shorts to wear over them.  Because I don't really want to shave more than I have to.

The next trip is kind of a two-fer.  But I can't really plan the second part for another month.  I'm going with my curling club to Arena Curling Nationals.  They're in Wyoming from April 27th-May 1st.  Which is the day that the Nebraska Passport season opens.  The curling location has 2 wards, is about 3 hours from one Nebraska ward and 4 from the one I attended last time I went to church out that way.  There's also a branch 5 hours from nationals, depending on where the stamps are.

There are anxieties there, too.  Mostly financial.  It's a week long event.  Work approved me to take the whole week, but I need to check with my bank account.  (And I really need to put money back into my savings account, and probably change those addresses, and do my taxes...I think I'll just have my taxes deposited into my savings account....I hope I get something back....I can't remember if I'll get credit for student loan interest, but I don't think I claimed any last year....my life is a mess sometimes, and I just need to rule it, but that thought only occurs to me when I don't have enough spoons.)  I'm trying to get info on if the alternate can play for me the first two days, and since I don't think she wants to take a whole week, either.  And they listed a coach, but neither of our teams listed one, so I don't know if we just aren't taking anybody, or what.  Then there's equipment issues, mainly for me and one other woman, possibly a couple of the guys.  My shoes are good, but I use club brooms.  Which I learned this morning aren't kosher.  One of the other girls uses a step-on slider, which I guess are kosher, as long as she picks it up (we burned a stone last night because it fell out of her pocket while sweeping). 

But, like the title says, one vacation at at time.

2020-01-08

Back to Routine

I'm trying to get back into a routine.  This new routine is going to include blogging every Wednesday, since that's my day off.  The exception will be when I am out of town, or have plans all day and evening.  That is not the case today.

My foreseeable routine includes a lot of things.  It makes space for curling, crocheting, reading, and exercising. 

Sundays, I'm at church now from about 10 to 1.  This affords me time to have an easy morning, wherein I can do some reading in the living room, or have an actual, legit breakfast.  Afterwards, if the weather allows, I'll take a walk or ride outside.  If the weather doesn't, I'll hit up the fitness center at the clubhouse.  Naps are a must on Sundays.

Mondays are a long day at work, so the winter schedule means I don't expect much from myself on those days.  A little bit of light therapy and reading, but not much because that will keep me up too late, which screws me up the next few days in terms of spoons.

Tuesdays will be a workout day.  If no one needs a sub for curling, I'll spend a couple of hours working out.  My overall goal is to be able to travel 3 miles in fewer than 45 minutes.  Once the gym time is over, I'll bond with my roommate.  Which reminds me, I should bug HMA for Leverage before Saturday.

Wednesdays are my day off.  The day that I go out and enjoy the world, which includes coming to the library and blogging.  It's my roommate's night to work at the temple, so I get all the me time I could imagine at home.  Later tonight, I plan on turning up the radio and cleaning in the kitchen. 

Thursdays will look a lot like Tuesdays, except there will never be curling.  There may be Relief Society activities.  But light therapy when I get home from work, then to the gym.

Fridays I'm skipping team No Hit Sherlock.  I'll be wearing a fabulous hat and got some new gloves.  I'm all about accessorizing.  I'm trying to look at the challenge aspect of this particular team dynamic.  But that's for some personal reflection, not likely to be published.

Saturdays will always include temple time.  It kind of bums me out sometimes that my shift is from 3-8, which means I need to be at home by 2.  So I don't really get a true Saturday, especially if I work in the morning.  But, "sacrifice brings forth the blessings of heaven," as the fourth verse says.