Once again, your actions truly reveal how selfish you are.
All along, you are expecting people around you to give in to you, compromise to you, following exactly what you want which is nothing but beneficial to your own self. I was stupid and foolish enough to gone through this experience in past one year. I guess I had enough simply because I do not get anything in return.
I now then realize all the money that I spend on you is merely to fulfill your pleasure needs and wants. From luxury gifts, overseas getaway, fanciful entertainment gadget and household goods, not forgetting the meals that we used to have together.
I'm glad i made my decisions here and continue my life direction clearly without you. Thank you for your harshness, ruthless, selfishness which was feed on my love for your, my personality of selflessness and generosity in the past. Just because I don't mind, I don't insist, I give in easily, I now see myself as nothing but a fool.
You dun deserve my love.
Happy New Year 2016!!
Time flies!! it's 2016 already.. and I'm not ready for the new 2016!
First of all, let me begin with new year resolution... hmmph.. *think think think* .. In fact, I already gave it a thought when I was in Bintan last weekend:
1. Read at least 3 books in year 2016 (english, chinese, japanese... which i don't read japanese actually.. haha.. the truth is i did completed three books in year 2016 *wink*)
2. Run at least 80 km in year 2016 (I haven't been running in 2015.. don't think i even clocked 50km this year..) shall challenge another 21km marathon in 2016
3. Travel to at least one new oversea country (no hongkong no batam no bintan no malaysia !!)
4. Find a new job !
5. Submit and apply for SG citizenship
6. Meeting new friends ! shouldn't be hard isn't it ? I'm thinking if i change new job, new environment, i probably will make some new friends!
7. Have a blast on my 32nd birthday!
8. Debt free! *hard sia*
Hope this is not too difficult to achieve.. except for no.8, which probably will still take me a year or two.. still, the key is to control my expenditure..
I would like to sum up my 2015 in terms of love, works, family, friends
Love
My romance relationship in 2015 is definitely roller coaster + ship wrecking. alright, maybe the ship is not sank yet.. but its pretty "broken" and seems difficult to repair. It has been a lot commitment going on, we moved in together, we travel together.. but it is no longer passionate, we both no longer love on fire. perhaps we're getting more n more distance apart.. unfortunately I do not know when, we both realize we are giving less towards each other. I do not feel love anymore, i do not feel i'm important to him anymore. We both do not know how it will turn out to be.. yet.. I mean things will come to a clear pic in end Jan, I assumed. Let's see what's gonna happen in Jan 2016.
Hoping that year 2016 is a year for good romance and a year to settle down for a home which i would call my home. It could be him, if he still sees what we used to see.
Works
works turn out to be still alright in year 2015 but I'm not too sure in 2016 anymore.
I was unofficially promoted.. became a team lead to lead 2 minions under me. However, work loads has significantly increased over the time. Although i managed only two sites, i still have to work closely with my two kiddos to ensure their works is on par.
Pay is still alright, i supposed. In fact, i'm still quite grateful for what the company is paying me now. Thankful to my SPM who has been a great mentor and supportive superior. I supposed, as times go on, she changed too.
Family
Family relationship is still as bad. I'm still mad with my mum despite she tried to make good on the relationship. I just get very mad when she call to just ask for $. Things are getting better with me and my bro, at least we talk once in a while.
Friends
I'm thankful that I've always been surrounded by lots of friends who care and concern about me. I'm thankful that they are always by my side and standby me whenever I need help. friendship forever and keep in touch !! may all my friends stay in good health and be happy!
I cant express how grateful I am as I've come this far in year 2015. Not much great achievements or spectacular milestone to be proud of, but I still thankful for people who has shown their love and care for me in 2015, opportunity and learning guidance that was offered to me, friends who cheer me up when I was upset, thank you to those who has been harsh on me and I've learnt my lesson..
So, that's all for first post in 2016! Stay strong sook cheng and be happy!!
First of all, let me begin with new year resolution... hmmph.. *think think think* .. In fact, I already gave it a thought when I was in Bintan last weekend:
1. Read at least 3 books in year 2016 (english, chinese, japanese... which i don't read japanese actually.. haha.. the truth is i did completed three books in year 2016 *wink*)
2. Run at least 80 km in year 2016 (I haven't been running in 2015.. don't think i even clocked 50km this year..) shall challenge another 21km marathon in 2016
3. Travel to at least one new oversea country (no hongkong no batam no bintan no malaysia !!)
4. Find a new job !
5. Submit and apply for SG citizenship
6. Meeting new friends ! shouldn't be hard isn't it ? I'm thinking if i change new job, new environment, i probably will make some new friends!
7. Have a blast on my 32nd birthday!
8. Debt free! *hard sia*
Hope this is not too difficult to achieve.. except for no.8, which probably will still take me a year or two.. still, the key is to control my expenditure..
I would like to sum up my 2015 in terms of love, works, family, friends
Love
My romance relationship in 2015 is definitely roller coaster + ship wrecking. alright, maybe the ship is not sank yet.. but its pretty "broken" and seems difficult to repair. It has been a lot commitment going on, we moved in together, we travel together.. but it is no longer passionate, we both no longer love on fire. perhaps we're getting more n more distance apart.. unfortunately I do not know when, we both realize we are giving less towards each other. I do not feel love anymore, i do not feel i'm important to him anymore. We both do not know how it will turn out to be.. yet.. I mean things will come to a clear pic in end Jan, I assumed. Let's see what's gonna happen in Jan 2016.
Hoping that year 2016 is a year for good romance and a year to settle down for a home which i would call my home. It could be him, if he still sees what we used to see.
Works
works turn out to be still alright in year 2015 but I'm not too sure in 2016 anymore.
I was unofficially promoted.. became a team lead to lead 2 minions under me. However, work loads has significantly increased over the time. Although i managed only two sites, i still have to work closely with my two kiddos to ensure their works is on par.
Pay is still alright, i supposed. In fact, i'm still quite grateful for what the company is paying me now. Thankful to my SPM who has been a great mentor and supportive superior. I supposed, as times go on, she changed too.
Family
Family relationship is still as bad. I'm still mad with my mum despite she tried to make good on the relationship. I just get very mad when she call to just ask for $. Things are getting better with me and my bro, at least we talk once in a while.
Friends
I'm thankful that I've always been surrounded by lots of friends who care and concern about me. I'm thankful that they are always by my side and standby me whenever I need help. friendship forever and keep in touch !! may all my friends stay in good health and be happy!
I cant express how grateful I am as I've come this far in year 2015. Not much great achievements or spectacular milestone to be proud of, but I still thankful for people who has shown their love and care for me in 2015, opportunity and learning guidance that was offered to me, friends who cheer me up when I was upset, thank you to those who has been harsh on me and I've learnt my lesson..
So, that's all for first post in 2016! Stay strong sook cheng and be happy!!
和嗣龙在一起的第109天
Today might be the last blog post on our relationship.
27 Oct 2014 - I returned from my HK trip. Si long came to pick me up at airport. It was an exciting day. But sadly he has to leave so soon immediately after he helped me with the luggage. Well, I have to let him go so that he can finish his homeworks and project and in time for his lecture.
28 Oct 2014 - mum and dad had some problem. I called si long and told him what had happened. I was in tears when I talked to him over phone. He din reply much. I supposed he was busy. But he still replied as usual. And I really appreciate that he still took my call and listened to me despite his busy schedule.
29 Oct 2014 - I greeted goodnight n good morning like we always do. Suddenly, there is no more good morning and goodnight from si long. It took longer than his usual time to reply in apps. He started to become very quiet. Sometimes, he is online in apps but he may b quiet and not replying at all. I thought that it was bcoz he is super stress at his projects. N he needed his personal space. But I kinda get worries when he suddenly mia. So I did leave a few msg in apps and hoping he is at least alright. But no reply.
30 & 31 Oct 2014 - quiet or rather no reply at all sometimes. No good morning / gd night from him anymore. I become puzzled and asked if he doesn't wan to reply me or he is just busy. He replied that he was busy n he is sorry. I thought I must have overreacted and I should juz leave him alone to settle his things.
1 Nov 2014 - I began to think through again these few days. Something is not right. Si long no longer greet me morning n bless me goodnight like he always does. I realized he no longer reply me in simple phrases.. or let's just out it that he doesn't wan to reply me. It reminds me how si long and his ex ended their relationship where he said that they no longer seeing each other and they parted away. So midnight 1 am, I told him that I don't feel right and I asked if he has something to tell me. He say we should meet on Tues. I further asked him if I should be mentally prepared if he has something to tell me. Indeed, he said yes and he is sorry.
The ending I fear most is finally happening. I felt the pain in my heart but my tears won't let me. There are times tears rolling in my eyes but it refuses to come out.
Of course, I did not expect this outcome at all.. not at this moment. I still remember his happy face when we met at airport after I came bak from the trip. But he has just changed so drastically to the extent that he felt is is the best for the 2 of us and his decision is final.
I'm sure when we met on Tues 4 Nov 2014, it is unlikely to change his mindset. But I will try my best to salvage it. At least I must try.
I'm not sure if I will still be in good shape to post the photos we have taken together and record the complicated feeling I have now after 4 Nov. So I better post it now.
He will be so mad if he knows I post these photos. He doesn't allow me to take photos nowadays. These memories could be one of the best we ever had.
I blame myself for this outcome. Perhaps I didn't empathise enough and notice that my expenditure is creating tension to him. Perhaps it was my mum problem making him thinks that I'm a burden. Perhaps I always distract him from his studies. Perhaps I asked him out too frequent that he got annoyed and irritated. Perhaps I'm too illiterate in finance and he feels that I'm a dumb. Perhaps ...
I do not know why and mayb there is no why too.. but it pains me a lot to write down all these..
I must thank him for bringing the good changes to me.. He told me it's important to maintain a good health and to workout.. He encouraged me to read.. These are good habits that he has inculcated to me.. I'm not even sure if I could continue without him by my side. I always thought he is the right one.. until 1 Nov 2014.. He told me he doesn't want to waste my youth and he doesn't see our future. He probably is right.. I dun see it now either.. but I believed it is something that we both should work out. We have never sat down n set our goals tgt. Perhaps we will never do that anymore since it is cleared and it has been cleared and decided at his end.. I'm afraid I can't change much..
Power of love might not hold 2 people in love in a reality world ? The reality that I'm already working and he is still studying ?
Sigh.
Xoxo. Love you. Si Long
27 Oct 2014 - I returned from my HK trip. Si long came to pick me up at airport. It was an exciting day. But sadly he has to leave so soon immediately after he helped me with the luggage. Well, I have to let him go so that he can finish his homeworks and project and in time for his lecture.
28 Oct 2014 - mum and dad had some problem. I called si long and told him what had happened. I was in tears when I talked to him over phone. He din reply much. I supposed he was busy. But he still replied as usual. And I really appreciate that he still took my call and listened to me despite his busy schedule.
29 Oct 2014 - I greeted goodnight n good morning like we always do. Suddenly, there is no more good morning and goodnight from si long. It took longer than his usual time to reply in apps. He started to become very quiet. Sometimes, he is online in apps but he may b quiet and not replying at all. I thought that it was bcoz he is super stress at his projects. N he needed his personal space. But I kinda get worries when he suddenly mia. So I did leave a few msg in apps and hoping he is at least alright. But no reply.
30 & 31 Oct 2014 - quiet or rather no reply at all sometimes. No good morning / gd night from him anymore. I become puzzled and asked if he doesn't wan to reply me or he is just busy. He replied that he was busy n he is sorry. I thought I must have overreacted and I should juz leave him alone to settle his things.
1 Nov 2014 - I began to think through again these few days. Something is not right. Si long no longer greet me morning n bless me goodnight like he always does. I realized he no longer reply me in simple phrases.. or let's just out it that he doesn't wan to reply me. It reminds me how si long and his ex ended their relationship where he said that they no longer seeing each other and they parted away. So midnight 1 am, I told him that I don't feel right and I asked if he has something to tell me. He say we should meet on Tues. I further asked him if I should be mentally prepared if he has something to tell me. Indeed, he said yes and he is sorry.
The ending I fear most is finally happening. I felt the pain in my heart but my tears won't let me. There are times tears rolling in my eyes but it refuses to come out.
Of course, I did not expect this outcome at all.. not at this moment. I still remember his happy face when we met at airport after I came bak from the trip. But he has just changed so drastically to the extent that he felt is is the best for the 2 of us and his decision is final.
I'm sure when we met on Tues 4 Nov 2014, it is unlikely to change his mindset. But I will try my best to salvage it. At least I must try.
I'm not sure if I will still be in good shape to post the photos we have taken together and record the complicated feeling I have now after 4 Nov. So I better post it now.
He will be so mad if he knows I post these photos. He doesn't allow me to take photos nowadays. These memories could be one of the best we ever had.
I blame myself for this outcome. Perhaps I didn't empathise enough and notice that my expenditure is creating tension to him. Perhaps it was my mum problem making him thinks that I'm a burden. Perhaps I always distract him from his studies. Perhaps I asked him out too frequent that he got annoyed and irritated. Perhaps I'm too illiterate in finance and he feels that I'm a dumb. Perhaps ...
I do not know why and mayb there is no why too.. but it pains me a lot to write down all these..
I must thank him for bringing the good changes to me.. He told me it's important to maintain a good health and to workout.. He encouraged me to read.. These are good habits that he has inculcated to me.. I'm not even sure if I could continue without him by my side. I always thought he is the right one.. until 1 Nov 2014.. He told me he doesn't want to waste my youth and he doesn't see our future. He probably is right.. I dun see it now either.. but I believed it is something that we both should work out. We have never sat down n set our goals tgt. Perhaps we will never do that anymore since it is cleared and it has been cleared and decided at his end.. I'm afraid I can't change much..
Power of love might not hold 2 people in love in a reality world ? The reality that I'm already working and he is still studying ?
Sigh.
Xoxo. Love you. Si Long
Working on Weekend..
30 and 31 Aug 2014..
Company has to return one of the HDB site and we are getting our tenants to move out.
It is not the first time we are vacating residential sites. The first time was in 2012, we were clearing another site in boon lay, 4 blocks with hundreds of residents.
I felt tired, exhausted and getting sick of the work. Perhaps it is the work scope or the working environment, I felt depressed when I was on site today. As compared to the previous residential project clearance, i personally feel the last round was more exciting despite the number of tenants we dealt with was doubled. The PM team was more merrier, bonded. We shared information and worked very closely as team. Had so much fun back then.
Company has to return one of the HDB site and we are getting our tenants to move out.
It is not the first time we are vacating residential sites. The first time was in 2012, we were clearing another site in boon lay, 4 blocks with hundreds of residents.
I felt tired, exhausted and getting sick of the work. Perhaps it is the work scope or the working environment, I felt depressed when I was on site today. As compared to the previous residential project clearance, i personally feel the last round was more exciting despite the number of tenants we dealt with was doubled. The PM team was more merrier, bonded. We shared information and worked very closely as team. Had so much fun back then.
For this recent project, we have not taken any photo.. >.< Shall do that tomorrow! =D
But one thing in common for both projects.. the illegal dumping issues is seriously a headache. Had to squeeze myself through all the rubbish and dirty furniture. I can still remember the dirty mattress which bed bugs.. blood stains.. Eeeeewwwww.. Aghhh... in fact.. there is another common traits, i.e tenant's behavior. Somehow we can't evade from quarrels.
Hope tomorrow is a smooth day!
- 和嗣龙在一起的第42天
- I came across this song 2 days .. It was on my iPhone playlist. Reason why I have chose to post it because Si long is my love angel !! Haha..
- 愛的天使
- 安：別說愛情會是美麗和甜蜜 如果沒有妳我會傷心
蔡：我說愛情就如生活在夢裡 沒有你的世界只有孤寂
安：一見妳我心會意亂情迷
蔡：愛上你二十四小時 合：在想你(妳)
合:安:You're my Angel 蔡:我是你天使
合:安:是我愛的天使 蔡:愛的天使
合:你(妳)讓這空虛世界充滿了回憶
合:安:You're my Angel 蔡:我是你天使
合:安:我是天上星星 蔡:um...ya...
合:安:閃爍著幸福 永遠 合:愛著你(妳) my Angel
蔡:原來愛上一個人好不容易 我才相信愛你是天意
安:天上星星都是在期待黎明 沒妳愛情太陽永不升起
蔡:一見你我心會意亂情迷
安:愛上妳二十四小時 合:在想你(妳)
合:安:You're my Angel 蔡:我是你天使
合:安:是我愛的天使 蔡:愛的天使
合:你(妳)讓這空虛世界充滿了回憶
合:安:You're my Angel 蔡:我是你天使
合:安:我是天上星星 蔡Surprisedh......
合:安:閃爍著幸福.永遠 合:愛著你(妳) my Angel
合:安:You're my Angel 蔡:我是你天使
合:安:是我愛的天使 蔡:愛的天使
合:你(妳)讓這空虛世界充滿了回憶
合:安:You're my Angel 蔡:天使
合:安:我是天上星星 蔡:ya......
合:安:閃爍著幸福 永遠 合:愛著你(妳) my AngelThank you for being here to love me. Love you for as long as time allow me to.
Hope your wrist recover soon.. Just do not wan u to get hurt or injured.. No one likes injury or suffer from pain. It pains me seeing u get hurt. So plz be more careful nx time..
- Xoxo. Love you.
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和嗣龙在一起的第40天
We were together for 40 days already. Yay... Haha.. His school has started and just began his second week. It seems that his school restarted doesn't really impacted negatively our relationship like what I've been worried about. Perhaps still early to tell, after all it is only the 2nd week.
I wanna record down our first JB trip on Saturday 23 aug 2014 too. It has been amazing. We had curry fish head.. then bak gut teh. . Then we watch the expandable 3. It was great!!!! Nice movie btw.. action pack with humors. Love to watch it with him. In fact, i have watched it just one week ago w jamie but the movie was great and I would love to watch the same movie again with si long.. still can remember his laughters n silliness like the Galgo in the movie. ; P
We then went to suteramall collect my lens n tried the blood test. There was this shop in suteramall which sells some metal accessories which so called has some special effects and help to boost your health, reduce radiation in the body .. bla bla bla.. silly baby tried it.. looks like he realli healthy n fit. Haha..
We then went for dinner.. my favourite steamboat porridge. I dun think it is his most favourable meal out of the three meals. After dinner, we went massage .. focusing on foot reflexology and shoulder massage.
I hope it is a fun day for him. Coz I do have lots of fun. Haha.. just amazing .. wonderful.. memorable.. still can remember his laughters in the cinema, his satisfied face after the meals.. haha.. but guess we need to work out a lot a lot to burn the calories..
Let's talk about our 39th day tgt.. haha.. Monday night meet up shall now be habitual thingy for us.. at least till the end of the semester.. every monday his lessons end at 1015.. n i will pick him up from school n send him home. I felt like suddenly Monday isn't the hardest day to live with.. haha.. just amazing isn't it ? U would realize that when u have something to look forward to, ta da~ there u go. U would be happy to see him.. more than anything else.. just delighted n u will carry a smile when u are with him.. smile from the bottom of the heart.
It is just miraculous and wonderful thing to bump into si long 2 months ago.. such a joy and pleasure to spent time with him.. I have to admit he has brought me so much joy n laughters that I never expect of.. guess that's y people call it love. Small little silly thing come from him just made your day. Simple and contented.
Which is why I know I need to blog it down. I know I have short term memories. Haha.. best way to remember things is to write it down..
I sincerely want to thank si long for bringing me so much happiness and joy to my life. Even if it is only 2 hours. You encouraged me, inspired me in many ways. I hope you have enjoyed yourself too with my companion. I love to see that smiles on your face.. love every moment that you are happy. Seeing u happy makes me happy too.
Think I'm getting long winded. Haha.. that should be all for today. Look forward to more posts to come.
XOXO, love you! 💖
We were together for 40 days already. Yay... Haha.. His school has started and just began his second week. It seems that his school restarted doesn't really impacted negatively our relationship like what I've been worried about. Perhaps still early to tell, after all it is only the 2nd week.
I wanna record down our first JB trip on Saturday 23 aug 2014 too. It has been amazing. We had curry fish head.. then bak gut teh. . Then we watch the expandable 3. It was great!!!! Nice movie btw.. action pack with humors. Love to watch it with him. In fact, i have watched it just one week ago w jamie but the movie was great and I would love to watch the same movie again with si long.. still can remember his laughters n silliness like the Galgo in the movie. ; P
We then went to suteramall collect my lens n tried the blood test. There was this shop in suteramall which sells some metal accessories which so called has some special effects and help to boost your health, reduce radiation in the body .. bla bla bla.. silly baby tried it.. looks like he realli healthy n fit. Haha..
We then went for dinner.. my favourite steamboat porridge. I dun think it is his most favourable meal out of the three meals. After dinner, we went massage .. focusing on foot reflexology and shoulder massage.
I hope it is a fun day for him. Coz I do have lots of fun. Haha.. just amazing .. wonderful.. memorable.. still can remember his laughters in the cinema, his satisfied face after the meals.. haha.. but guess we need to work out a lot a lot to burn the calories..
Let's talk about our 39th day tgt.. haha.. Monday night meet up shall now be habitual thingy for us.. at least till the end of the semester.. every monday his lessons end at 1015.. n i will pick him up from school n send him home. I felt like suddenly Monday isn't the hardest day to live with.. haha.. just amazing isn't it ? U would realize that when u have something to look forward to, ta da~ there u go. U would be happy to see him.. more than anything else.. just delighted n u will carry a smile when u are with him.. smile from the bottom of the heart.
It is just miraculous and wonderful thing to bump into si long 2 months ago.. such a joy and pleasure to spent time with him.. I have to admit he has brought me so much joy n laughters that I never expect of.. guess that's y people call it love. Small little silly thing come from him just made your day. Simple and contented.
Which is why I know I need to blog it down. I know I have short term memories. Haha.. best way to remember things is to write it down..
I sincerely want to thank si long for bringing me so much happiness and joy to my life. Even if it is only 2 hours. You encouraged me, inspired me in many ways. I hope you have enjoyed yourself too with my companion. I love to see that smiles on your face.. love every moment that you are happy. Seeing u happy makes me happy too.
Think I'm getting long winded. Haha.. that should be all for today. Look forward to more posts to come.
XOXO, love you! 💖
Black 14/8/14
Dear diary,
Today is an unlucky day.
I was involved in an accident. My car got hit by the van behind me. I was horrified. Till now I still can feel tat instance of the van knocked onto my car. It all took place in few seconds.
I must admit. This is not the first time I got involved in accident. I remembered I knocked onto an Ang Moh car before.. He forgave me.. Followed me to my workshop and I helped him repaired the car. Private settlement..
Today, when this incident took place, I was shocked, didn't know what to react. Din get any injury.. But was traumatized. We eventually settled at his workshop. They said will help me fix back my car, paint back and touch up. So I din pursue further. I agreed to this private settlement and let the matter rest.
The first person I shared the incident to was Silong. Sadly, the message din reach him. He probably busy w his works in school or gyming.. Somehow.. It just upset me that he din call immediately to see if I'm alright..
Well.. Francine called.. Kelley called.. But he din..
Sky came to look for me. We have appointment in Eunos anyway.
When he finally see my message, he din call me either.. I tried calling.. But it seems like bad time to talk. When he called back later, I have decided to continue w my appointment in Eunos and wasn't able to talk as I was about to meet my tenant.
It was heartbreaking to be honest.. I was expecting.. Expecting his call to show me some care and concerns, to ask if I'm ok , to ask if i am injured, to ask if I need any help, .. Perhaps to ask where i am and if he could offer any help.. Or just show up.. After he finish running his errands or finish his stuff..
But none.. Nothing happened. He called. He asked if I'm ok.. I replied "Yes I am.. I'm not injured.." But he din realize that at that point.. I just needed some 1 to be beside me. I really wish that he realize it..
I felt helpless when my car was in the workshop. Sky came later and he was beside me. He was very helpful.. Helped me make sure that workshop mechanics will fix the dent properly.. Paint the parts properly.
It was hard to accept that Silong actually din .. Or din ask much. I presumed it was because I told him I'm ok. N the pics actually shown tat the car wasn't too badly dented.
Sigh , what can I do to make him realize ?
Hope tomorrow is better day.
Today is an unlucky day.
I was involved in an accident. My car got hit by the van behind me. I was horrified. Till now I still can feel tat instance of the van knocked onto my car. It all took place in few seconds.
I must admit. This is not the first time I got involved in accident. I remembered I knocked onto an Ang Moh car before.. He forgave me.. Followed me to my workshop and I helped him repaired the car. Private settlement..
Today, when this incident took place, I was shocked, didn't know what to react. Din get any injury.. But was traumatized. We eventually settled at his workshop. They said will help me fix back my car, paint back and touch up. So I din pursue further. I agreed to this private settlement and let the matter rest.
The first person I shared the incident to was Silong. Sadly, the message din reach him. He probably busy w his works in school or gyming.. Somehow.. It just upset me that he din call immediately to see if I'm alright..
Well.. Francine called.. Kelley called.. But he din..
Sky came to look for me. We have appointment in Eunos anyway.
When he finally see my message, he din call me either.. I tried calling.. But it seems like bad time to talk. When he called back later, I have decided to continue w my appointment in Eunos and wasn't able to talk as I was about to meet my tenant.
It was heartbreaking to be honest.. I was expecting.. Expecting his call to show me some care and concerns, to ask if I'm ok , to ask if i am injured, to ask if I need any help, .. Perhaps to ask where i am and if he could offer any help.. Or just show up.. After he finish running his errands or finish his stuff..
But none.. Nothing happened. He called. He asked if I'm ok.. I replied "Yes I am.. I'm not injured.." But he din realize that at that point.. I just needed some 1 to be beside me. I really wish that he realize it..
I felt helpless when my car was in the workshop. Sky came later and he was beside me. He was very helpful.. Helped me make sure that workshop mechanics will fix the dent properly.. Paint the parts properly.
It was hard to accept that Silong actually din .. Or din ask much. I presumed it was because I told him I'm ok. N the pics actually shown tat the car wasn't too badly dented.
Sigh , what can I do to make him realize ?
Hope tomorrow is better day.
