thanks

Last few weeks it was grey. Time does heal. I knew it, it will be over. I can't see the rainbow yet, but I can see the brightness. I am grateful for what people bring to me. No matter it's from my friends or from people I don't know. I always know that this world is beautiful and I am lucky to have what I have.

I am always positive. Some say I am strong. But sometimes I am just so fragile, or I prefer to be fragile while people can handle "me" with care! Well, but now I better get back to my strong and positive side. I have a feeling that there are many beautiful things waiting for me.

Always happy when I can have a piece of yummi cake!

Let it rain

I don't like rainy day. It just makes everything more sad. It is a sign of sorrow.

Today is Good Friday, the start of Easter holiday. I don't have any feeling for it. Instead, I am going to work. Others may think it is a pity but for myself, I can't wait to fly away. This so called public holiday is not for me, it just makes me suffocated. I would rather have my "holiday" elsewhere far away from those familiar scenes and memories.

Though, I recalled a recent picture I took. It gives me a smile and some comfort. I always look for rainbow especially when I am down. I am always amazed by seeing a rainbow. And as a matter of fact, if there is no rain, there is no rainbow.

I believe, I will find a rainbow again soon, very soon.

Home

Finally back to home, and finally feel like at home. A lot of housework was waiting for me and I also want to make it like home again after away for more than 2 months.

I am happy to come home. But I also feel different, and sometimes lonely. Something has really changed. It hits my mind. But when I think deeply, I know I just need time to get used to it. Afterall, this is what I chose.

Being away made me realize a lot of things, especially when I was weak. I always know that it is never granted when someone is treating me well, but unfortunately what I need is more deep from heart, like care and concern. It was so overwhelming when I got the support I needed. And perhaps, it woke me up from beautiful dreams. Beautiful dreams were of course beautiful, but they will never come true.

Done my first flight, smooth and nice. But the emotional me still had some feelings arising while going to work. I could be spoiled, but I gave it up. Contradicting feeling.... anyhow, I keep telling myself, it should be a good start again, new work, new life!