Tuesday, February 06, 2007
It seems that come holidays I just simply forget about updating my blog. It just magically evades my mind everytime I try to think about it. Doesn't make sense? Didn't think so.
Time really flies. Its already the second month of the year. 5 more months to my departure to Melbourne. I got my tickets by the way. I'll be flying on the 30th of June, 9pm. Seriously, 5 months pass just like that *snaps fingers*. Anyway I'll worry about leaving when the time comes.
How many of you have best friends? Best friends are people you can rely on through thick and thin, people you call and talk for hours and never run out of things to talk about, people you can totally confide in. After talking to Alex, it suddenly whacked me on the head. I don't exactly have a best friend, per say. I guess its not that important in college and university life to actually HAVE a best friend, since most of the time off lectures you're on your own. Call me old fashioned or childish, but after being whacked by the revelation that I didn't have a best friend, i was kinda left with a black hole in me, trying to suck in a best friend for myself. I miss those hours on the phone and on msn. I miss the heartfelt conversations i could have. I miss all the secret sharing.
The worst thing is, thinking back to elc, I really didn't have a best friend either. It was more of a one way thing. sure I called a lot, and if memory serves me well, they called me too, but ultimately I wasn't really the one. Take A for example. We could talk for hours into the night, but I don't think I was really considered a best friend. He was " blood brothers" with J, something which made me ooze in jealousy, and he had G when it came to bullshitting and playing PS2 games. I considered J my best friend, but I don't think he considered me as one. It was more of A, with the whole 'Blood Brothers" thing. I considered T as one of my best friends too, on top of having a major crush on her. She was one who had such an infectious laugh, one who I could talk to too, for hours and all, but seriously, she was closer to R. And I'm not resenting it or anything, just simply stating the facts.
Heh. Yea Jeff, I AM emo-ing. But people are entitled to do so kays so let me be. Not even Happy the dwarf can be happy all the time, damn it.
{/10:35 am}
Signed by Yours Truly.
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