Your average anime/manga junkie, I'm one sadistic and cynical bastard who will make your life hell(behind you anyway)if you get on the wrong side of me. grumpy and emo at times, i can be a real bitch but a pretty good friend(i suppose) and brother. meow.
I was just browsing through blogs when i came across Carmen Chow's entry on elc. Made me sorta tear abit since it made me think back on the good times i had in elc. The only thing i regret was probably not entering elc soon enough...but the three years i had there were amazing to say the least.
I remember when i first entered i was this real emo,miserable, grumpy fellow who avoided almost everyone. I was okay with people like rachel, ryan, thira, gavin and alex, and later on in the year with sarah, steph and jooken. Almost everyone was kinda afraid to talk to me since i was rather unreceptive to conversations, and when there were conversations it always went towards me being all pessimistic and beating down myself. It was kinda the down phase of my time in elc i think, i sorta had troubles fitting in.
Then i remember year 9 was when all the people i was mildly annoyed with left. Catherine, who frequently called me Sumo left. Kathrina left for Australia( man she was an annoying lil shit). John Tan left for Singapore i think( i was kinda intimidated by him).
Anyway. Most of the teachers commented that i needed to smile more in school. Yea, i was really that bad. I remember Ms Sheela said once:" Yow Keat, you walk around with like a thundercloud over your head you know?" My results were pretty good btw, i got third overall in my form.
Year 10 was sorta when i started opening up. I spoke more to people like May, Caryn, Aarti, David and i kinda found out that Bernard wasn't that scary a person either. I guess the big change was that i made an effort to smile more and to try and control my temper, which kinda annoyed alot of people. Bernard used to say..." Why are you so tensed up? CHILL" and i'll think..." Yea, why AM i so tensed up about trivial matters like that?" And though Year 10 and 11 were my O level years, i found that i enjoyed them the most, especially year 11. I enjoyed the closeness we had as a year in school, i enjoyed the sports and most of all i enjoyed the activities in school, which i eagerly took part in.
Its hard to believe, but thats basically my whole year. Kinda explains why we were so close. Another reason why i loved those years was that there was no drama like the kind i have now i uni. Believe it or not, i actually hate it, once i sit down and think about it. There were no people who spoke behind backs, no morons who came out with lame excuses for stuff and all that. You could loosely say we were a big family unit back then, and even now.
One of the things i miss most is the times we just sat down on the concourse area during breaks or after school and we just chatted and laughed about everything there was. It seemed so carefree then. I remember almost groaning everytime i see my mum's car pull over in front of me, simply becaue i DIDN'T wanna leave.
Another thing i miss alot were the school proms. I remember the first prom i had in year 9- i was so afraid of dancing i just stood around and watched everyone dance. I remember vaguely being dragged in to dance by sarah and steph, and i also remember trying to run away =P Makes it kinda hard to believe huh? I also had my first slow dance in that prom. I was so awkward since i was so unsure of how to dance, it kinda reminded me of how the Gen Syn and Vero danced when i was slow dancing with them..so rigid and tensed. And so much space between us. I remember the first song i danced to was Drops of Jupiter, and i remember loving that feeling. I sadly haven't slow danced since Graduation prom.
It is also quite sad that eventhough i loved being in elc so much, i hardly left an impact. i wasn't a prefect or house captain- only a monitor. So i'm quite proud to say i represented my house in the best house presentations during sports day so far- our Haka presentation is still revered as the best elc has seen
and guess what? i have a video!
{/4:55 pm}
Signed by Yours Truly.
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Monday, September 25, 2006
Since the *cough* "Situation" occurred, i'll say its been around two weeks of stalemate already and so far i'm pretty much lovin' it. Although there are some things that kinda still piss me off or is just niggling at the back of my head for some time now, so i thought i'll stir things up abit again-
This was the first thing since that "Situation" that made me laugh and got me annoyed at the same time. It demonstrates how stupid people can sink to just to pull a non-existant insult at someone else, and also how stupid the insults can be. My sources told me that our friend Sandman said this after someone said to him that i'm not really that bad a person - " What can i say about a person who calls himself Bitch on his own blog". Seriously. if we look at what i've written on my blog(top corner, to your left) It says, "i can be a real bitch", which would imply "Bitching", since everyone who knows me knows how much i bitch about people, be it casually, jokingly or cynically. Thus you would expect someone who does the same thing frequently, and also has studied in the USA to have good enough sense and grasp of the language we call English to interpret it the right way, as everyone who knows me has. But there you have it. And Sandman, if you happen to still read my blog, don't deny it. Vince and his anime porn? Tanvina? And i recall we had a fun time bitching about Captain America, no? Yes.
This next thing is about his so called work ethics. You may have a nerve disorder that makes you slow in the lab, but slow is still something i can tolerate. It is the excuse of not doing lab work because of the nerve disorder that really pisses me off. So what if you hand shakes when you hold equipment? So does mine, as anyone whose seen me load DNA into the agarose gels or when i load samples into cuvettes.Does that prevent me from doing lab work? NO. I have a pretty bad skin problem. Do i shirk away and say "OH my GOD we're working with ACIDS today i'm so afraid it might spill on me delicate hands and burn away whats left of my skin"? No i don't. It is not weak nerves that is your excuse. It is a weak mind thats your excuse. A mind with little resolve. I won't say NO resolve cuz you probably have some of them day to day, like " DAMN i MUST get the results from So and So today since i didn't do the labwork!" And the trend shows, since you are avoiding Janu and Nima because of me. Sounds familiar doesn't it?( Avoiding labwork because of nerve disorder?) Total Bullshit.
Which brings me to my next point. Why i say its total bullshit for avoiding Janu and Nima. Why? Because it simply is. Any other bystander to this "Situation" can tell you that Janu and Nima are not involved in whats between you and me. Yet you do so simply because they apparently did not support you all the way against me and they still talk to me. Is that enough Justification to avoid your apparent "best friends"? Won't seem like you're they're best friend if you're avoiding them just because of that. And whats with this taking sides and supporting thing? Where do you think we're living, Wisteria lane?Specifically, what IS there to support and not support? All i did was point out my anger and frustration at your already obvious flaws in the lab and out, with some insulting i will admit, and thats it! perhaps i have been a little harsh on the insults but that aside, THERE IS NOTHING TO SUPPORT AGAINST CUZ THEY ALL AGREE WITH ME.
Janu and Nima deserve better.NOt talking to them just cuz they talk to me, is that it? or that they don't support your views? man when i heard that i said " Geez that such a typical CHEERLEARDER attitude!"
Oh and you know what? i have absolutely no objection whatsoever to you spending time with the biotech group during outings. So there is no need to SULK away when you are invited. I don't believe other people have to be affected by what is caused by me. And finally, if you are looking for an apology from me, keep looking. I stand by what i have said(minus the insults i guess) cuz they are all facts, and i see no reason whatsoever to apologize for something i stand for.
{/7:09 am}
Signed by Yours Truly.
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Monday, September 11, 2006
So now an official comparison of how I used to look last sem to how I look like now:
Pretty good, eh? Eh? But that apart I'm not VAIN, seriously. I just remember someone said something to me about comparing my past photos to the ones I have now. Come to think of it, I don't really have a decent photo of me this semester in university.
But that aside-
I've put some thought about what Eric said about his 'other side' and Maxine's comments too, and I can really see where they're coming from. I vaguely remember someone saying 'adapting to the situations' and I guess I can say I have a few sides to me too, though some more dominant then others. So here's a list of 'Me' s that I think I have... Why don't you guys comment on whether you agree or not-
The funny me This fellow usually comes out when he's with a bunch of good friends and happily chatting away. He's basically gotta feel really at ease with his surroundings before he comes out you know?
The angst rocker me I don't think anyone has seen this side of me- he usually like to appear behind locked doors when the music is playing and i have a succession of heavy rock music going on in my itunes.
The anime-fanboy me Ah. Who would not know this side of me. Janu rolls her eyes everytime this fellow appears, and lately Philip and Nima's been at the recieving end of this fellow's dream to spread anime to all four corners of the globe. Usually appears when Max, Eric or Philip are around.
The bookworm me The part of me most people don't see, simply because when he reads, he needs to be totally undisturbed. he will immerse himself into whatever book he's currently reading and unless there's a fire or murder( or mother with a whip or cane) he will not budge or listen to whatever you say.
The Don't-mess-with-me,grumpy me Used to be a rather frequent visitor, but has toned down as of late, say within this three years or so. Comes together with immense sarcasm.Still has his fits of dominance, however, and is particularly able at appearing when faced with incompetent people or useless drivers.( alot more other factors, but no point listing them- don't wanna agrevate him you know)
The perverted me This fellow is always there- i'll admit, i can't ever completely get rid of him, though usually he stays supressed. Comes out at the weirdest times, and funnily its usually when Philip is around.
The poser me Overall, me knowing me's not so much of a looker, the poser me is rather shy to appear since everytime he does so simply merits a whole bunch of laughter from everyone. He HAS peeked his head out once in a while, only to shrink back again after getting another dose of "OUCH" level laughter from his snorting friends.
And finally, the smiley me i WOULD say this fellow as of the present moment is the guy who is the most dominant of all- he appears to be around all the time unless the situation requires another one of 'me' to appear- and i really do hope you all agree with me on this point. Although the grumpy me does come out at times, i really do try to keep Mr Smiley me at present at all times.=)
{/10:33 pm}
Signed by Yours Truly.
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Saturday, September 09, 2006
Driving in Malaysia can be a pretty stressful matter- ask any one of my friends that don't drive like the typical malaysian driver. Doing this everyday can be rather frustrating, and it can seriously shave off a few years off our already miserably short lives.
So imagine when i found the perfect remedy to these problems.well okay FINE not perfect remedy, but something that actually helps take some of the stress out of driving. So sort of satisfaction in driving you know? So i've decided to share this little enjoyment of mine with you people, and if you feel like it...give it a try!
You know how my classes this semester are all my classes are in the morning at 8am( well more or less)? Well on the way to Uni i have to through this small residential lane which alot of secondary school kids walk to school. So when i mention this, you would kinda imagine this situation right?
The green dots are obviously denoting the students, all obediently walking to school like all goods students should in a world where all grass is green and where Bush is a janitor. But that obviously isn't how it is, and so this is how it really is like : instead of walking single file like all pedestrians should, these idiot kids walk like they own the road, strutting around like they take the word Bumiputera literally( for those who don't know, it literally means...Prince of the Land) And yea these kids are all those junkie malay kids you see walking around in 1u dressed like goth dumbshits and those who would only beat up a person if they were in a gang of 20. So obviously as you see the poor residents and people driving through would have to drive into the opposite lane just to make way for for these idiot kids. So it got me thinking...Why the HECK are WE the ones giving way? Hell, we drive CARS waaaay bigger than these nutjobs, so what are we afraid of? if anyone should be afraid, its them! So instead of slowing down and avoiding these kids like everyone does, every morning when i get past that stretch of road i purposely do this: I tell you, its so liberating cuz i grin to myself everytime these strutting self confessed Puteras of the Bumi suddenly have the word "Shock" registered on their face and they all jump away from the road, afraid of losing their puny lives. So -
Try it.
{/11:25 am}
Signed by Yours Truly.
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Monday, September 04, 2006
This news I got on the internet shocked me-
Steve Irwin is Dead!( you know, the Crocodile hunter fellow?) He was killed by a puncture wound on the heart by a stingray barb
Its gonna be on the newspapers tomorrow morning=/
didn't really like his shows, but he was an environmentalist and all for saving wildlife. so hats off to him.
