30th dec 2008

1 more days...

1 more days to end this year...

the end for all the suffering that i had in this year...

the end for all the sorrow that i have in this year..

finally i graduate... but still suffer for the assignment...

it have to be complete and hand in by next month Jan 2009...

what i wanted in this year is, all the suffering and sorrow...

i wish to be forget in this year...

people who care for me, i'm surely will keep contact...

people who i hated, next year i'm sure i will erase all of you...

for sure i will not contact ...

wish me luck!

Year end~~

every year surely will come to an end...

not end of the world, but end of the year...

In the past, people do believed the world will end in year 1999...

but until today, we still stood on the ground like ever before...

is it true the world will come to an end?

well this is not the topic is going to discuss in this message...

the message is year end... 

i believed there are a lot people will definitely set a goal for the coming year...

before you set the target, do we recall what we have archive in this year?

the goal we set in last year, do we really accomplished every single 1?

if no i guess it have to reconsider will the target set too high to archive, or?

we do set our new goal in a brand new year, but we do self-examination for our failure...

Just to said that:

ALL THE BEST FOR THE COMING YEAR!!!

Graduate

It seems a lot people misunderstanding the word of "graduate"...

Graduate not = never see again...

as long as you still alive...

i am sure someday we will meet again...

Why i bring up this topic?

cause a lot friend of mine, seem afraid of graduate...

i guess everyone does...

but, most of the people afraid after graduate don't know what to do...

some wish not to graduate, so they can still student, and enjoy students privilage...

and some wish not to work (like me)...

all the reason above i can understand and accept..

but, if somebody tells me, i don't want graduate, i'm afraid i will miss him/her so much...

Bull SHIT! please don't not be so stupid...

this is not the things you should worry,

when you work, you will meet somebody, and they will be part in your life..

so child... don't worry ok ? 

for me, i can't wait to get graduate...

Graduate come faster!!

Dreams to fullfil

well... it is 8 dec 2008, 

almost finish my course...

still wondering what is my next step to move on...

don't worry be happy,

i guess i just don't have to worry,

cause what i'm going to do is,

set a target for myself,

and move on..

just this easy,

as i said before...

don't worry, just do it!! 

lost

is more then a month i'm not posting any new msg here... ...

is like i lost in this world......

well, i'm getting busy these days, cause there are so many things i need to be rush off...

things like assignment, work and so on...

but actually, take 5 min to post so new msg here isn't that hard... is just i kind of lazy...

and i start getting dont know what to write...

i always wish this blog is a clean 1... cause i dont want any bad thoughts or attitude will be found in this blog...

i always hope that if there is somebody out there saw my blog, he/she will be smiling reading my msg... or even thought he/she is not happy, but after seeing my msg, i'll give them the will of hope..

but the more i write... the more i figure, will i be the man i want?

will the people out there really have this kind of feeling in them?

i don't know...

when i realize, my hand already on the keyboard...

writing the msg that i want to said it out loud from the deep inside my heart...

giving up?!

giving up is a very terrible and scary thoughts...
before the war, or before a fight start..
the thought of giving up is very scary...
cause once we give up... just like we also giving up our life...
because we do believe in one thing... we believe we can do it...
and when the time we give up...
is like we have denied all the things we work on..
and also denied all our believe...
so...
don't ever have the though until the last breath...
fight no matter what will cost you...
never stop believing....

Fogotten...

forgotten, what we have forgotten...

ya, is true...

when we live to a certain of time, not very long let said 50 years...

if you do staying with grandmother or grandfather, if the get forget things very easily,

do we tell them once more in patient? or we just yell at them?

the true is, not only them. people live more then 20 years, people also easily forgot alot of things that happened around them. what is their reaction?

Don't bother is the best way... I've seen a lot caese happened around me...

not only freind... sad thing is...

i'm 1 of them...

I easily forget things... well i hope it doesn't become a problem...

well, what i trying to said in here is... 

we can forget many things as long as we want..

but don't forget what had done good to you...

although it is 70% bad, and 30% good....

sometime we should look at the good side, not only the bad side...

we shouldn't take things like granded......

we will only take what is good for us...

we think we deserve it...

but, will we taking consider about the balancing as well?

I do hope every people when they are taking what they want,

at the same time... don't forget the balancing....

nothing come in handy, and remember 1 thing...

there are no FREE in this world... 

please do consider, take it and replace with the cost of same value...

Peace!

Fresh air...

ya, like the title said.... i need some fresh air...
don't push me too hard... i don't like it...
i'm not that kind of people that can live under pressure...
i need more space... i need more free time...
although i got a lot free time...
and yet, i still felt that all my time have been filled with work...
need to do this, need to do that....
like no time for me to take a deep breath of fresh air...
but true, more things to do...
think lesser...
somehow it seem not working on me...
well, there are a lot things i can't be control,
and it is really out of my hand...
i guess i don't want to said much...
just stay cool...
ciaoz!

The Anger Within

..... not sure what happened......
when i find out......
i will let u guys know.....
GOD BLESS!
FIRE FIRE FIRE......
water no use.......
cause my FIRE is FREEZING!!
Believe it!
FIRE not = hot......
it can be COLD......
DO U UNDERSTAND?!

working overseas...

this is what i always dream of...
working overseas!!
i heart a lot friend of mine said they are planing to go overseas for work..
i am sure some how i will join them in the future...
cause this is what i always dream of.. running away from country...
seriously, i don't know what kind of attitude i should show to my country..
cause this country is being very unstable, and crime rate is increasing..
80% not safe alone walking on the street in the night..
and the case of police corruption is getting serious in here...
the government don't even think for the people...
and they don't care what happened to the people ....
although i'm still a student, and not out for work yet..
i already have this thought in mind...
don't blame me selfish... cause i only want what is the best for myself...
n i do believe i deserve the best...

HELLO!!!

HELLO!!

is there any mr. / mrs. nice guys out there?

please let me know if you are out there...

hahahaha...

just joking...

cause i don't believe there is nice guy out there..

the word guys i mean male and female...

don't take me wrong...

well anyway...

nothing to say...

if you not a real mr. / mrs. nice guys...

please don't pretend to be...

cause you are spoiling the "nice" image...

rich people......

seriously,

rich people though really hard to understand...

i really don't understand what they had in their mind..

and what there want from us...

i mean..

when a people help another...

i'm sure there is a purpose...

of course some might not have this though...

some really help people without any purpose...

but..

is everyone doing this?

i'm not 100% sure...

but...

i do hope they really want to help..

and really want to sort things out...

anyway...

thx for the help, which is given..

thank you...

Mr. / Mrs. RICH PEOPLE...

don't do donation when only the press is around...

CHEERS!

welcome!

welcome to the second day of october..

can you believe that?

can you imagine? 

i don't...

and i can't believe it...

the time really flew very fast...

i do remember the 1st day in year 2008..

i was holding the calender, and plan what i suppose to do in the coming day...

but until today...

fu~~~~

the time passed by me so fast...

and yet i nothing have done...

how?

now plan again...

well i guess it doesn't work that well..

just let it be...

don't worry...

be happy...

this is the song i like the most...

when the time has come...

no matter what had happened...

don't worry, be happy, and things will be done in it own's way...

so cheer...

DON'T WORRY, BE HAPPY!

No wining without losing...

it is a true fact...
no wining without a losing...
every time of lose... it bring you closer to success...
so... just have to keep doing it.. and keep trying without give up..
1 day...
some day...
you WILL SUCCESS...
what you waiting for?
believe...

most of the success businessman they always tell people the way of success..
but no one believe it is so easy and yet it is so hard...
most of the successful man they, success because of they believe what they see..
they very sure, and believe what will be waiting for them ahead..
so they is no way of losing faith...
this is the true..
believe it or not?
it is all depend on you...
believe in yourself...
you can do it...
believe the path you have seen in the future...
go towards it...
when the time will come..
you will be the one who SUCCESS!

God blessed...

feel like GOD do care for me..
reason?
because i'm still alive..
thank you lord, thank you GOD!
believe this....

"You do your best, GOD will do the rest"

promise

i'm here to sorry for all the people whom i have given my promise to him/her...
very sorry that i didn't do things that i have promise...
i'm sorry.. i really am..

Busy!

it's been awhile after the last msg i had post in here..
life is getting busy, especially the college life..
it's begin to getting more and more busy..
a lot people might think... busy is good..
ya.. for the others yes..
but for me...... no......
i hate my life being so busy.. like i don't have my privacy ...
i should have stay low.. so people might not notice me..
but, i keep do something to let people notice me...
isn't this is the most stupid things i ever did?
ya.. i shouldn't do it.. and yet still i have done it...
too much of crap i'm talking.. after doing all the "things" that i shouldn't..
will i still doing it? should i be more aggressive? or.. continue keep low...
i think it is time to choose...

no matter what my answer will be..
still i hope the answer is the best answer for me..
for those who have seen this msg..
think for yourself..
don't think you are all alone..
try to look around you... there sure someone beside you...
you will never be alone... if you feel so...
take out your hand phone.. look at the name list in it...
among all the name you have gone through...
i'm sure some one willing to care for u..
don't say no.. i believe the answer is yes...
ciaoz!!

wining

Wining is always thinking 1 step ahead..

no bad feeling...

today nothing happened...
just an ordinary day.. doing my everyday routine..
but...
feel that i hard to believe in the others...
cause.. if some one try to be nice to me..
i can't get rid of the though that will she or he did harm to me ?
not matter harmless or harmful, still i worry...
now i understand why last time i don't simply get close to the others...
cause i don't want to get hurt...
i think today message is too much of personal...

ciaoz...
it shouldn't be ...
internet not a save place either...
take care who see this...
hahahahaha...

truth...

truth...
i'm not sure how many people standing out side is true to yourself...
and i'm not sure how many people stood outside everyday never tell a lies..
i'm the one who always tell lies...
actually tell lies isn't easy... cause,
one you think of a lies... u need to think another 1 to cover the lies...
and yet you keep doing the same thing to cover all the lies you have created...
when end of the day has come... you will realize how terrible you life will be...
just 1 of your lies got expose... all the lies you have created will soon fall apart like a pyramid without the strong base...
so it is good if we tell the truth... and yet.. truth also have to think before said it out...
it is a art of speaking the truth... is not easy... it take's time and experience to do it...

so to all my friend,
less lies, more truth...
i know is hard... but still we must try to do it!

Things no longer the same...

last time i always had a though.. which is, when people ask me what is the most success in my life so far.. i proud to said that "i never change..."...
but.... i never change ... for now i think... this is not a word or a sentence that i should be proud of...
it is a shame... never change for my entire life?... what kind of situation i having?
no improve? still act like a kid? i mean, how can a person never improve?
already age 24, but still thinking and behave just like a 18 years old boy...
is this the right attitude should have ?

Ciaoz....

found it

i think i just found my stupid idea...
these days my brain not function well...
don't know what can i do about it...
eat more animal brain?
chinese always said"yi ying bou ying"
which mean if u think your leg no good, then eat more chicken feet..
if you eye no good... eat more fish or maybe fish eye...
but do this really work?
i really got no idea...
but for sure i won't eat any animal organ...
that's me...
try to figure out different way to get back my fabulous idea...
hahahaha.. am i nuts?!
no!
i'm super nuts!

Basic Routine..

although i do have a blog..
but unlike others...
i don't update my blog everyday... i always see friends around kept updating their blog..
but i really got no idea what they have in mind..
can keep on writing and writing...
so... i think i might set a routine...
which is a very basic 1... an update once a week.. (at least)
so that i can refer back how i live for the pass few days weeks or month...
Ciaoz!

Madness!

i don't know why for the past few days i being so mad..
don't know why...
and now think back...
i shouldn't be so stupid..
mad at something...
just be myself...
and do things i can do..
don't compare to the others..
cause everyone have their own style..
and i will create my path, only me will see through it...
stop being stupid again...
if angry... or sad..
please come back here to see this notes...

helpless....

I'm So so so Sorry, my friends!

i wonder...
i've been wonder...
how?
what?
how and what to do to make my friends around me feel happy...
these days, i've seen some friends around me having trouble...
although the problem it is not happened to me ...
but still i feel that i'm so useless...
cause i knew my friends having trouble and i don't know what to do to help them..
the only thing i can do is.. just stand there and watch...
i do hope i can help a little bit.. but mostly the problem happened were family problem...
as for me, an outsider... really can't do anything..

nothing i can do..
but wish them all the best ...
good luck!
this is the best i can do...
cheer my friends!

08-08-08

today is a very special day... 888- triple eight...
don't know what to say..
PEACE!
hope the world without war... everyone don't be so greedy...
help each others.. since internet have brought us so close.. we should help each other, not killing others.. 1 world 1 village... we are living in the same planet, not different planet.. all of us should help to make this world better... PEACE!

1 smile a day keep sickness away...
1 smile a day bring you and your friend close...
1 smile a day keep the bad mood away..
1 smile a day make your body more healthy...
1 smile a day makes people around you feel happy
1 smile a day bring people around you joy..
1 smile a day stress say goodbye to you..
1 smile a day make you become a better person...


So...
don't be so stingy, smile...
smile to everyone...
smile like a flower, like a roses...
bring JOY, PEACE to the world...
Share your Love to everyone... spread it out!
Enjoy!!

P/S: i'm not English education.. hope you get what i mean...

i hate myself...

i think most of the people hate them self when the did something wrong... i'm not sure what happened to the others people... but for myself.. i hate myself for being not true to my own..
if judgment day has come to me.. i think GOD will no second though but put me to hell..
in my life time i did many bad things... among all the bad things ... the most i hate is "love"..
cause i don't know how to love a person.. or even fulfilling GOD words "love your enemy instead of hate him/her "... if i can really do this.. i think it is a big change in my life...


So, whoever reading this message, try to love your enemy instead of hate them..
it is quite tiering for hating somebody in your life time... and hatred bring no good but bad..
Think about it....

(P/S: i'm working on my temper at the moment- peace"hu la la hu")

Nothing Is Perfect..

nothings is perfect, no matter how hard u work on a thing, or a piece of art work.. as long as the "things" is made by human.. there are no "perfect piece"such thing in it. don't ask for perfect, do your best and u will gain what u want someday...

recommended book: the book of secret. is a nice book, if u sick of reading book, find the video..

whatever u ask for there is always an answer... god has his plan..
we are just human, do whatever we can...

a normal day...

i can't said 100% people life living in a boring way... but some of u might agree what i said.. isn't that very boring? everyday kept doing the same thing.. morning wake up brush teeth, breakfast, drive to work or study, start work, wait for lunch, then back to office, wait for hight tea, and wait for finish work, drive home, traffic jam, reach home late, nothing much can do, most probably like dinner, shower, then watch TV programs, and off to bed... i wonder how many people in this city is doing the same thing like i mention not 100% but 60%-80%... including me too.. students better.. at least after class might go for theater, karaoke, or maybe some sports... but is everyday also repeat doing the same thing, isn't that waste money and boring? although it is not as boring as working life... except those working manic... otherwise deep inside the soul will shout out, my life is sick, so sick!

well any of u recommend some idea not having a boring life? if u do find out, please let me know..

p/s: after written all this, i got no idea what am i writing, u may ignore what i written, or agree.

Feeling Blue...

Today was my worst day ever...
i have never been so sad and so down before..(since i told myself must live happy everyday)
i really having a hard time... normally i take a nap at the noon time i will back to normal. but not today, no matter how hard i try to back to normal, still nothing can cheer me up.
no matter how long i've been chatting with my friend... but still, i can't get rid of my hard feeling..
i denied myself, am i complicated or naif?
as for me, there are only 2 type of people in this world, 1 is genius and the others is dummy..
unfortunately i placed myself at the side of dummy... this is terrible...
no worry, blue feeling some how will gone.. there are no worry!

this is the second time i created a blog.. this time, i wish not to post only bad things but good things.. cheers!!

"just do it!" by nike...

Am i Changed?

i started feeling wired these days... i not sure what had happened to me.. But for sure things around me changed me a lot... No matter friendship, studies, or anything... i kept getting the feeling that i don't know how to handle problems... Lot's of assignment need to hand up, and the exam is just around the corner.. i'm not sure i can handle everything or not.. i don't want to say i want to try.. this time at least allow me said once "i can do it, and i'm not a coward!". Although i'm not that strong, but still after 24 years of living, let me said it once "i can do it!"...

"i can do better then anyone!"

Back To Sea!

I'm coming home...