Explode!!

Something... inside... my heart... something not right... the "thing" doesn't belong to me... it is inside me... i wanna let it out... but no way i can take it out... i don't have the key... i'm going to explode... please help me T_T........... HELP!

Work station

this is the very 1st time i believe the work station does make a very important for a work progress. previously i'm only use a box as a table for my laptop, but now because my sister need to fully "occupies" the entire room, so i place my laptop at the dinning table.

but it feels really not bad i would said. cause i can sit at a proper position for typing and viewing. so it won't cause my back feel pain or tired. but there is 1 thing no good, which is privacy. those "web" i search, those "video" i'm going to search, is cannot be done in a open environment. LOL

everyday working, although is not a very tough job, but still, feeling boring sometimes, now i understand why lots of my friend who worked 9-5, 6 days per week, sit inside the office, is really really really boring. but i have to stand and run here and there the whole day. it is funny cause i like to exercise and thinking something silly, but now end up in a bookstore for the whole day. if really ask me to do things slowly, i really cannot do it. cause i think i'm a over active kind of person.

too bad i'm short of bullet ($$), otherwise i might travel a lot. i really want to enjoy life. work in overseas, feel the difference culture among the others side of the world. is really what i'm looking forward. well, i think the time will come. just make sure i still have the faith and believe it.

thinking back, my "mom" really not bad. "the" my "mom", cause she really not bad, i'm glad that a lot people ask her for script writing. cause her idea and creativity is really good. sure she going to archive what she wants in her life. you can do it mom!

Mr. Edwin, ya... still cannot call you without the MR. cause too used to it. i'm glad u coming back soon, in December. sure u going to have a big plan and adventure waiting right in front of u. i can't wait to ask u to show me ur latest art work, if there is any =.=... hope to see u real soon.

for those who i haven't contact in a while, hope to see u guys in dec. i'm not sure what i can't offer, cause not much of talent that i have, but still thanks for accepting who i am.

LOL....

LOVE n PEACE...

O_O"

am i STILL standing?

i stand in the middle of the city...

buildings surrounded me...

i see lots of people passing by...

but non of them notice me...

i shout with all my straight...

no 1 hear could have hear me...

i want to find an exit...

building like a "maze" for me...

i run and run for it...

but can't find a place to be...

i saw a bird in the sky...

but can't fly like it...

Am i still standing?

yes, i am still standing .....

alone ...

waiting to be free...

Seeing things

Things we see...

Things we don't see...

Although we feel it...

But cannot touch it...

When we have it...

Soon we will lose it...

We try to hold on to it...

Suffer come with it...

I hate it...

I love it...

Nothing will last eternity...

That's why we precious it...

Love n Peace...

Conversation with a bird

"let me free please..." the bird beg me.

"i never lock the cage" i said to the bird.

"but why can't i fly away from here?" the bird beg at me so badly to let him free.

"i don't know, maybe is not the time yet" i told the bird.

"what time?" the bird asked me.

"you will be free when you wanted to, and when the time has come, nothing will stop you for leaving" i told the bird.

I am whatever...

i am a writer...

so i write...

i am a painter...

so i paint...

i am a dancer...

so i dance...

i am a musician...

so i play...

i am a philosopher...

so i think...

i am a farmer...

so i plant...

i am a photographer...

so i shoot...

i am ......

so i am what i am....

i'm on a ....

i like walking...

cause i can enjoy every nice little things happen around me...

i hate driving..

cause i only saw the road right in front of me...

i like squatting...

cause my eyes see things when i was a kid...

i hate buildings...

cause it block my view to blue skies...

i like jungle tracking...

cause every breath i take makes me believed i'm alive...

i hate gym training...

cause smell boring and death...

i like or i hate...

i hate or i like...

i only choose.... "what i like"...