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Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Episodde 79: The "Longest" Post

Hey! It's me.
Surprised ya? Me too.
Was really lazy to come out with the episode title.
I was listening to Mayday, and when I clicked 'New Post'
The song was singing: '你说呢'.. so yeah, that's why the title is what it is.
Probably the first time I ever really explained what the title was. Could you guess what song it is?
Post it on the chat and see if you get it right, I'll give 5SGD to the first person who got it right.
I'll be surprised if anyone still reads this blog though.
Talking about 5 dollars, recently just lost 5 dollars to Jasmine over a stupid bar trick.
I learnt it from a Facebook video, and did not even test it out before trying it on her.
So yea, this is the trick.. do not try it at home.. or anywhere.. unless you are willing to lose 5 bucks.



Yea, so I was feeling pretty stupid that day.
But that's pretty much over and I am feeling a totally different feeling now. Today.
To tell you how I am feeling now, I need to give some backstory.
I was playing this game called 'Seen' two days ago.
It was an awesome mobile game, the best I've played in awhile.
It was just a messaging simulator with a preset story behind it, but depending on what you choose to reply, the story and character may develop a little bit different.
It was a really good game personally, maybe because I could relate myself to the main character very much.
Playing it, I smiled, laugh and got angry and then sad..
It was the most realistic game I've ever played and ironically it was 2D.
Jas didn't like the game though, so I guess it is not like THE BEST GAME EVER. but AWESOME GAME if you are like me.
If you played the game and you think its good. You'll prolly know how I feel.
Hahas, I don't want to just tell you how I feel, you have to complete the game first.

So.. Considering you played the game.. and you feel the same (You don't deserve to understand if you don't feel the same XD).. this is just some random thoughts I am having now(more accurately yesterday, toned down alot today):

LOS! I stopped blogging the other day, so I kinda not want to talk about that anymore.
I know its frustrating reading my blog, but that's life you don't always get what you want.
In fact, I want to just stop blogging and end it here just because I can.

You know, I don't usually care about what people thinks about me, and I think that is why I was happy all the time. But give you heart to someone and start caring.. well you know how that story ends.

17 Sep 21:
Okays apparently I didn't end it the other time. 
I'm back again. 
How crazy is that to write on the same blog post on 3 separate occasions spaced so far apart. 
But I think I'm gonna end it now, otherwise its really hard to start afresh. (which I want to, got some feels to blog, but gonna do it in the next post)
This moment made me realise how you sometimes have to close a chapter before moving on to the next one. 
If I don't end and post this here. Who knows how many times I'm gonna revisit this post and keep continuing it, without ending it. 
Now that I mentioned this, it sounds familiar and made me remember of someone. Hahas. 
Oh wells, glad I'm over that, and that I'm finally posting this and moving on. 
I think comparing to my other posts this may be a short one, but in fact it is the 'longest' post ever, cause it took years to complete. 
Gonna change this episode name from 'What Say You?' to 'the "longest" post' 
Alright really moving on now! Hopefully we will have many more short posts to come. 

Hmm.... Kinda forgot how I usually end a post..
Seems like it's really a new chapter. 
Maybe I'll end with a motto that I learnt from TWD. And I am really living by this code for awhile now. 
I'll probably share more about it next time. 
Stay tuned (not sure who I'm talking, to since no one prolly reads this, unless I have a super secret admirer, if so please let me know!), gonna share a crazy story in the next post. 

Yet I Smile. - King Ezekiel (The Walking Dead) 

Santa was here @ 7:11 AM

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Episode 78: Away

Woots! West Ham won a league game against Sunderland yesterday.
It always makes my mood really good when they win, and they are winning a lot this season.
Although JAS says that my mood is also affected when they lose.
I think that it's not true, I'm a pretty optimistic person, and I choose what things gets to affect me.
Although somethings are hard to control, but this one I'm pretty sure I'm in control.

Anyway the game that West Ham won, was a home game.
And for those who don't watch any sports, home games just means that you are playing the match in your stadium, and away games means you are playing in the opponent stadium.
So there is usually and technical and morale advantage when you play at home, although something really doesn't change.

As for myself, I'm now away for 2 months, the longest away game I've been at so far.
There have been ups and downs just like any proper game (Otherwise it would be boring yea?) but I'll say it's a pretty good game so far, even though it's just barely half-time.
As a very un-organised person, let me surprise you by listing down the ups and downs;

UPS

* I have a really awesome roommate and his name is Brett Griffith and I think my friendship with him is the closes I would ever get with an white american, and I really do hope I could keep contact with him for the years too come. He's been helping me a lot with in-processing and everything else and I am endlessly grateful and would want to reciprocate that kindness when he comes over to Singapore next semester! YEA, he's coming over for exchange next semester, that's so cool right? So our roles will be swapped and I hope I could help him as much or even more that what did for me here. First thing I'm gonna do is to compile I list of food he should try in Singapore, and then my mission is to make sure he completes that list!


DOWNS

* Very unfortunately, I sprained my ankle the day before my first (parachute) jump training and I can no longer proceed with jump because the 1st training is the most important one and it is the last time they are conducting it this semester. It was devastating for me because doing the jump and getting the wings are one of the main reason why I came over, and not being able to do it makes my trip here feels a bit empty although I tried to be really positive and cover up with other things (mainly excuses, but as long as it works). In football terms, it's like using up all your substitution and then you have your star player seriously injured and can't continue to match. And when I see Alex going for his jump training and doing his jump, it's like having my team score a goal and the opponent team immediately equalize, because I feel happy for him, but at the same time I'm really envious. Oh well, this too shall pass.

You know what, that is pretty much the one downside so far in this away trip, so I think that is pretty darn good! Good job team Gibson! Although there is two thing which I don't know where I should categorize under ups or downs, then again, there are times when the game is pretty flat and neither teams are gaining advantage, I shall therm these as stales (although the word kinda suggest its more down then up los) then;

STALES

Blah Blah Blah... Baa Baa Baa...

As usual coming back to blogging after a super long while, and I totally forgot what I wanted to write. And I don't really bother to read what I wrote so I can continue. So... Moving on! Good thing is I'm still in the United States so I can still blog something relevant. BUT! The even better thing is that there is only 3 more weeks left till I'm done with school. It is not the fact that I do not like it here, but school and Gibson, just doesn't mesh well. You know, they have different modules (only engineers who study about gears would know what I am talking about).

Interesting enough, I am actually in class now learning about gears. Alright technically I'm not learning because I'm not paying attention. But blogging is more important... to the spiritual health. Also I'm not taking the finals over here, so whatever is taught now is not tested thus I'm not listening. What I really want to share about is the movies that I just watch recently.

Haven't watch many movies in the united states, in fact I could count them with one hand. Let's see; Deadpool, Batman VS Superman, Eye in the Sky, My Cousin Vinny, Superman: Man of Steel and two more which I want to talk about today, Apple of my Eye & Our Times. more commonly known as 那些年我们一起追的女孩 & 我的少女時代. Many people like to compare these two movies, because they are very similar, as they both talk about high school romance. But I can tell you outright, the latter one is a lot better then the first one, in terms of the plot, romance, character development and everything else. 

But to me both are good enough to make me feel nostalgia about my times during secondary school. Made me feel kinda sad inside, because I realize how it was easily the coolest and best time of my life, and it's over, and there are a lot more I could do to enjoy it better. However, that is life, it passes and regretting does not make anything better. But, I'm still going to talk about my secondary school days, not to regret, but to reminisce.

Thinking back, how average a guy was I back in my secondary school? Could I be cooler like the characters in the movie? Maybe, but I guess I didn't really care. Although I have to say, if I had to write a story based on my own life, that will be the time period I would choose. Because it is during this time, where I was closest to all my best friends (brothers), doing stupid things together. Where I had a crush on this girl whom I did stupid things for. I guess you could tell, if you have read my blog, how awesome life was. It was really great, but I just can't help and wonder if I were to go back in time now, how much things would have changed.

I realized I was having so much fun in secondary school that I didn't think much about anything, I prolly didn't think at all. I can remember times in Polytechnic where I was always thinking on the bus on the way to/from school. Thinking about life and other serious questions, and prolly thinking about thing I would change if I can go back in time, just like now. I really don't know where I'm going with this, so sorry Senta-Man has to come out now los. I guess being away do drive you crazy to some extend. Just want to make sure, whoever reading this. Always stay positive and enjoy the moment! Don't be disgrunted that the good moments are over, but be happy that those memories are in our mind and be optimistic that there will be even better moments ahead. So instead of fretting about what  not. Why not be Happy? THE END! Hahas! Need to start a new post thus I'm just ending this one abruptly. X'P






Santa was here @ 3:55 AM

Sunday, March 6, 2016

Episode 77: Jasmine

Hey! Hello! Haven't been up and updating the blog for awhile.
My apologies, usually I'll said I'm busy, but this time round.. yea I'm busy.
Busy feeling happy. Why? Here's the story of.. how I met you.

-The Meeting-

I met you at my workplace, and you are wonderful.
Beautiful, lovely, nice, cute, sensitive.. and the list goes on.
Every single thing you do just puts a smile on my face.
Even when you frowns or sulk, which I feel a bit guilty to laugh at sometimes.
I know it sounds cliche, but that's how many love story starts right?
Falling in love with the person you saw for the first time, thinking she would be the one.
However that wasn't my first impression of you, I thought you were just another pretty girl.
Another girl whom I have no time to take notice of.
And indeed, I didn't have much time and you were gone before I could even get to know you.
The most I could get was your name, 'Jasmine'.
Many short stories would have stop here, and it will be labelled 'The one that got away'.
But fortunately, my story progress a bit further.
Just a bit, but this one small step became a giant leap for me.
So as I was saying, you were gone, and it seems like it's the end of it right?
Ironically, the end is the start; the end of you and me, and the start of us.
I always believed in fate, and this seems to be another one of fate's little act.
Turn out to be, fate's little act is the highlight of my life's play.
On that very day you were leaving, I don't know what happened.
Or what brought us together, whether is it the chocolate, bus, or pillow, I have no idea.
But I'm starting to guess it's none of these material things.
It's something more spiritual and special.; it's you and me that has attracted each other.
It's dumb, silly, magical and mysterious at the same.
How we could get close and start liking each other, by the most detached way of communication, SMS.
Just like a school boy who had a crush on a girl, I just tried to make you smile in my.. admittedly lame texts.
However, I feel that you didn't even have to try, whatever you sent, it just puts a silly smile on my face
It's with every text I sent and received, that my feelings grow.
So when the chance came, when we get to meet, I was really excited, nervous and helpless simultaneously.
Knowing myself, I was afraid I'll screw things up.
But nothing went wrong, and it couldn't have went more perfect.
We just clicked like two bubbles in the skies; they just merged into one.
Bubbles are always shaped in perfect circles, and it just felt that way when I'm with you.

-That Day-

Then the time comes, the time to pop the question, because it was now or never, it could have been our last meeting.
Our last meeting as friend and my first time asking the question and I was not convinced at all.
Even on my way to meeting you, I'm still nervous and unsure.
Headsets in my ears, looking for comfort from the radio station.
And surprisingly it came, the station announce that today is the first ever international happiness day, March 20th.
It was incredible, as if a supernatural force is giving me the sign.
The sign that I would end up taking and taking it gladly.
My confidence grew. 'It's a relationship that even the world approves', I told myself.
And so we met, we had dinner at Paya Lebar, Astons, still one of our favorites go to place,
Dinner was great as usual, the bubble still floating in the air, simple and pretty.
I said I was confident but as the end of the day, and we are about the part ways. My confidence was parting me as well.
I still couldn't pop the question, I was afraid I'll end up popping the bubble.
So I waited, dragged and delayed, savoring every moment we get to be together, wishing it won't be the last.
Until the very last moment, when your train came and you had to go.
I muster all my courage, a lot of courage, and held your hand.
"Don't go" I said.
I remember the look on your face, puzzled, maybe a bit of hopefulness, but I might be just imagining.
"Why?" you asked.
I was not prepared, in fact I was so nervous, I couldn't remember what I said, but I managed to stop you from going, and that was enough.
We found a seat on the platform and we talked. About our future, our present now.
It all went pass so quickly, and the only thing that told me that it wasn't quick was the number of trains that passed by.
We just kept talking, and moment that I remember the clearest was you suddenly leaning onto my shoulders and I just kept quiet and you said, you wanted to know how it feels like lean on me.
That was the most romantic thing that ever happened to me, and no matter how hard I try to beat that on our valentines' day, birthdays or anniversary, I could never do it.
But I knew it was more that just sweetness and romance that day, you have your concern and I tried to ensure you that all will work out.
At the very end, it seems nothing was confirmed, but I knew, I knew we would be together.
Before you left, I gave you a peck on the cheek, and that was the first time I kissed a girl.
And that was it, all that happened was now the past, we are together now and that's all that matters, at least to me.

-Us Thus Far-

However lovely a love story may seem, it is never fully true.
Every relationship has its problems and hardship, and we have a fair share of that as well.
In ours, we had to be separated countless time, in OCS, in AFTC and now in USAFA.
There are other problems that we faced in the early stages too, but to me they don't matter anymore.
I'm really guilty that I'm always the one leaving, but I really believe I had to, to ensure us a better future.
As a couple, we discussed and make decision and I'm really thankful for your support.
Without you, I definitely won't be in USAFA today, although you may have regret that hahas.
I'm not gonna lie, there are definitely times when we are unhappy, but that's because we are only human.
But for me, it's the times when we are happy that counts, the feeling that you give me.
Thus, I always try to reciprocate and make you feel that feeling, love.
I really hope you could remember those times too, valentines day, birthday, anniversary, surprises, memories with Cherrie and Mochi, casual day out, gathering with our families, other little things.
If only we have written those in a diary, I'm sure it would be one of the best love story ever.
Today, is your birthday and I want you to feel love too, but it's not easy for me to do it from where I am, so I hope that what I wrote here, could make you feel it.
You always say that I don't say I miss you enough. I do, I just don't want you to know my struggle and make you worry, that's the feeling I want you to feel. Thus, if you recap, I do say I love you a lot, because that's what i want you to feel.
I promised I will make it back to you for missing valentines, your birthday and our anniversary okay?
I always keep my promises right, although I can be lazy and procrastinating.
To be honest, there so much more in our story I could elaborate so much things I could say but somethings are more beautiful if left unsaid, and that how I should let it be.
There's definitely more that 3 sections to what we share, but they shall be kept between us.
But I still have that same 3 words for you though, 'I love you." and "I really do"
However, today I do have another 3 words, and you prolly could guess it, "Happy Birthday Yays!"
Yea... that yays is kinda awkwardly inserted because I realised it's just 2 words.
May all you wishes come true and look forward to seeing you in US and back in SG!
And if you wanna hear it, I'll say it here, "I miss you so much, OMG TT_TT"
Also I dedicated my episode 77 to you, cause 7 its our favorite number and that is the reason why I stopped blogging for so long, so I could use this special episode number to do something special for us. I love you so much Jasmine Ng Hui Ling!

Best Wishes,
Gibson Lin



Santa was here @ 2:35 PM

Sunday, February 28, 2016

Episode 76: Live Love Life

Hey! Did I said I might be making a comeback for blogging!
Hell Yeah I am! *Clap Clap Clap* (Still lame as ever)

Although blogging really takes up a lot of my time, but I really can't see how this time can be put into good use. I prolly spent it on playing some games which I will forget there after.
But blogging is different I pen down all these thoughts and memories, and when I look back (I do sometimes) it put a smile on my face and I am really glad I made that decision to spent time blogging in the past.
So here is a message to my future self; if you happen to read this very blog post and this very sentence, be thankful to your past self, which kinda is yourself, so give yourself a pad on your back! Hahas!

So.. I'm actually multi-tasking now, playing hearthstone with Jian Liang.
Oh yeah, let me introduce 2 new friends that I made during the past years. 2 very good friends which I believe will go the distance for me, and I will do the same for them. Are you ready?
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Jul's Drum-rolls
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Jian Ming and Jian Liang! *Clap Clap Clap*
It is no coincidence that their names are very similar, they are actually biological twins.
I know Jian Ming through my training at Airforce and he is pretty quiet just like my old self.
Yes.. I know.. old self.. is like I've changed a lot.. but I think I did.. I used to consider myself as an introvert, but now I think I'm more of an ambivert now. Hahas, but I am definitely not an extrovert and I will never be one.

Anyway, I was saying.. Jian Ming is a really nice guy, I must admit what he had done for me is a lot more than what I have done for him, and he doesn't mind. I guess he knows that friendship is not a competition. But I swear when the time calls for it I'll be there for my good friends and he's one of them.

However that is not possible now because he's currently having exchange at Sweden. From the bottom of my heart I wish him all the best and hope it will be a wonderful experience for him at the end of it. Because at the moment he told me that he regret going for exchange. But I'm sure it will get better.

I'm pretty nervous of going for exchange next year too. I'll miss everything here. I'll miss J, I'll miss my family, I'll miss Cherrie and Mochi (They are not my other girlfriends, they are my two cute little puppies, I'll talk about them another day, maybe with some lovely pictures), I'll miss COLL, I'll miss TTB, I'll miss 7MDEC (Some of them, Jian Ming included!), but I won't miss ALEX, cause he will be going there with me, I guess that is the only upside. Well, 5 months it's a really long time, I guess sometimes you have to sacrifice to gain, and I hope this journey will make me a better person. At least I get to look forward to going on a short trip with J. at the end of my exchange! Disney Land and roller coaster ride here we come! Hahahahas!

Alright! That's didn't end cause I'm already in america now, and I realised I haven't even posted this post, so I'm gonna do it now and then make a post about life in the US! See you real soon 'guys'. But prolly there isn't much people reading this blog. So Ciao!!

Best Wishes,
Gibson Lin


Santa was here @ 12:46 PM

Monday, September 21, 2015

Chapter 75: New Life, Old Revive.

Hey! Long time no see!
Back to talking to myself again. Hahahas..

I just got inspired, by someone who need inspiration.
Just visited Boompow-man blog, seems like everyone is struggling with life in a different manner.
Me? Can't recall doing anything else in the past few days other than studying.
In fact, the past weeks have been uneventful. University life is really eating me out.
But don't get me wrong, life hasn't always been this bad while I was away.
I think The pass 1 to 2 years, many wonderful things have happened.
I met this girl, her name is Jasmine.
Our story is amazing, How I wish I could tell the full thing. But something's are better left untold.
It's more beautiful that way.
But who knows, maybe someday I'll share it on the blog, but meanwhile you can have this picture.

Preview: It all started with a pillow.


Live life no regrets. Always live by that.
I'm trying, and I hope everyone is too, especially the people I love.
Hmmm...

Okay, maybe I should go study a bit and come back awhile later, or I'll regret when I fail my upcoming test. BRB!

WOW! Time flies and it's almost a year since I said BRB. Funnily enough I just had a test and I did pretty terribly, which is the reason why I'm back here.

Odd huhs? God always seems to have some way to make you finish your unfinished business.

Today has been a bad day. Since the very start... since 12am... I was struggling to finish my tutorial in preparation of my test, football results ain't going my way (I don't bet though). 3am I've finish studying, and tried to print some notes as the test is open-book. Paper Jam occurred, took an hour to fix it, just for it to jam again. I smiled and went to sleep. Story of my life.

Had to wake up even earlier this morning to print my notes in the library, had the notes, but not that useful during the test, made me feel even more stupid to spend that much time printing the notes. Couldn't finish the test (partly because I forgot to wear my watch and I lost track of time). Told myself I could have done it if I had more time, that it doesn't matter it was just 20%. As positive as I am, the feeling of lousiness just doesn't go away. Not this time, maybe it was in combination of the accumulated tiredness over the weeks. and BAAMMM, hit me. Just like that.

Ponder over many things on my way back. Tried calling J. to share with her but to no avail. When I reached home, I told myself alright time to bounce back, I have to use the momentum of the fall to my advantage. However my body was really tired, so I tried to sleep first. Bad idea, as I couldn't fall to sleep, I started thinking about the test again, and how I could have easily gotten more marks. The more I think the more negative I get, yet the more awake I become.

"That's it! I have to put this to a stop" I told myself. I got up, and started to prepare for my test tomorrow (YES, I have another test tomorrow and I am still blogging). Suddenly all my tiredness vanish, but as I progress the hunger creeps in. Body was signalling for a break, so I had to obey it. Couldn't find the cheesy curry maggie noodles J. bought from Japan. Didn't feel like cooking anything else so I went down to tabao instead. As I go down, the song; 'Bad Day' by Daniel Powter suddenly appears in my mind, and I listened to it. Gosh! It made me feel so much better, it made me let go. And I remember it wasn't the first time this happened, and everything I listen to this song, I feel better. Note to self: Listen to 'Bad Day' when feeling lousy.

Putting it here for ease of listening. =')

There is also another song to listen to when quarreling with J. but I shall not mentioned it here hahas! Alright, positive Santa-man is back! What is the point of life if you get sad over something you can't change, be happy and look forward, change things you can, make them better. Just like my test tomorrow, better start studying now to make it better, I don't want to listen to 'Bad Day' again tomorrow. Ciao!

PS: I'm removing BTTOTDHY Section, but don't be disappointed, let you in on a little secret, there is a hidden message behind every BTTOTDHY section, figure it out! May add new segment next time if I'm serious at making a comeback!





Santa was here @ 12:26 AM

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Episode 74: Been there done that



Hey hey! Once I started this post, I already know I won't finish it by today for 2 main reasons.

1. It has been a habit for awhile to not complete a post in a day.
2. It's late now and I only had 4 hours of sleep last night and I have to wake up 0530 tomorrow and basically my life sucks.

Anyway, I'm still determined to write as much as I can, and let me start of by sharing a very important thing I said I was going to share during my previous post.
Okay it's very very important so I'll need..
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JUL's drumroll
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Soldier-Gib's guide to 24 clicks route march.. click click click click..
Believe me, once you finish reading these guide and adhere to the things I've said, the route march will be like a walk in the park. (Although it is literally walk in East Coast Park)
Actually I'm super tired now, so I shall stop now.
Know that this is not giving up, as there is this saying which goes like this:

For he who fights and runs away, may live to fight another day.
But he who is in battle slain, can never rise and fight again.

So yea, I am not even running away, I'm just walking towards my bed aloofly. That is what I call a Ulysses Warrior! Ah Woo! by by & xia #1!


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I'll be back. -Arnold Schwarzenegger

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Okays, I survived another day so I am here to fight, in other words blog.
Action speaks louder than words, so let me walk the talk rather then talk the talk.
Although blogging is more talking then walking, and the only walk I walk is to the bed at the end like I did the other time.Let me continue with my super guide, which I'll split into 4 sections, with the information basing on different type of studies.


Physiology

The first thing you have to do is to manage your body, so that it doesn't fail you during your march. You may think that, this is done by having enough rest and regular working out. Yes and No, Yes they are important, but No, that is not the tip I am going to give you. On the route march day, you'll never know if your body can handle the load for that long hours, because you've never tried before. You cannot change the long hours and you may or may not change your body ability too. BUT! You definitely can change the load you will be bearing. Therefore, the tip here is to make your load as light as possible, don't bring anything additional, you are not going to war... Hmm.. Let me correct myself, in fact, think that YOU ARE going to war. If so, will you bring additional slippers or body spray with you? NO, so throw everything extra away before your march. I meant EVERYTHING, even things that seemingly has no weight. Because it's the little things that adds up to a huge load on your back and in your bag. There is this Chinese saying that goes like this '冰凍三尺非一日之寒'  please go find out what it means.

Alright, at this point you might thing that it is very wasteful to throw everything away, so let me give you a few suggestions of what you can do with your things. Give it to a gay friend and pray he don't fall in love with you, leave it in your locker and give to the next person that will use your bed, hold an auction in hope that your section mates will buy from you, give it to your sergeant and probably get punished for your senseless act, throw them into the water bodies in Tekong and make a wish, trade them for food and eat all the food, trade them for food and feed it to the Tekong cats, give it to your sergeant again to leave a deep impression of your stupidity, google some ways to make things disappear and try it on your 'barang barang'... the possibilities are endless so please just make sure they disappear somehow before your commence your road march. 

TWO MORE TIPS! #1: Before your march is to apply the miracle liquid. NO! It's not SKII, it's vasaline, although one can argue that it's solid. Well, It's actually a semi-solid with properties of both, so we're both correct (Checked Wiki). Apply it all over your body especially on these areas, armpit, shoulders, nipple, thighs, between your legs and your foot. Alternatively, you can apply it on the floor and just ROFL (Not tested and proven). #2: Your head might itch somewhere during your road march, it happened to me, don't scratch your helmet.. I did that and I felt really stupid. Move your helmet around as if you are washing your hair. Works everytime.


Hydrology

If you have followed the first step, you will feel reasonable good during the first few kilometres of your road march. But London weight management is not enough to make your look like a tireless hero during entire march. You have do manage your water properly, when to use it, release it and refill it. They are all very important and will be included here. When to use it? There are many ways of using it, but the most common and commonsensical is to drink it. When to drink it is simple, just drink when you are thirsty & drink when instructed to down half full water bottle, but if you're feeling really full and uncomfortable, don't drink anymore, because you know yourself better than your commanders do. There are other usage of the water too, to clean your hands, wash your face, wash your friend's face or some other funny ideas, things get crazy when you're a soldier just have fun but don't waste water. 

When to release it? By release I actually meant going to the toilet. It may seems easy, but it's actually very tricky, especially if you tend to go to the toilet quite often. There are 2 types of toilet and available to you at different checkpoints. They are, latrine and portable toilet, whenever a latrine break is given, please go, because it is really convenient and has no queue, so your resting time will not be affected. If portable toilet breaks are given use them when you feel a need to. During the last 2 stops before your marching end, try to use the toilet, because that is when your body has accumulated a lot of water from drinking and if it hits you halfway through your march, you will be really shaq, trust me, #beentheredonethat. 

Lastly, when to refill your water? At every checkpoint after your drink up half full water bottle as instructed, the next instruction would be to refill your bottles with the jerry can provided, here's where my tip comes in, so listen up and read down. Refill your green canteen with your waterbag water, you might have to do it discreetly because it isn't really allowed, but once again, you can do anything you want, but just don't get caught. This is to lightened the total load on you will be carrying, so even as you march more and get more shaq, the decrease in load will offset that shaqness. Additionally, it gives your more time to rest. From my experience, you may run out of water during the last 2 checkpoint, so my advice is to refill your water during the first 2 checkpoint when you don't need much rest yet.


Bromatology

Food actually comes as a bonus, I meant you don't really have to eat during the middle of the night, but eating definitely helps distract you from the march, as much of your concentration will be on chewing, tasting and digesting. Here are some of the tips on what kind of food you should bring. Firstly, don't bring heavy (in weight) food, actually I can't thing of any, but if you happened to come across one before your road march, don't get it. This applies to drinks as well; do not bring any additional isotonic drinks, because these are heavy items, the water you have with you is more than enough. You may think it'll help but you'll just end up regretting.. true stories according to my other friends. The design of your ILBV (Integrated Load Bearing Vest) has 5 pouches, 2 small ones and 3 big ones, they are meant for ammunition, but during the march it is pretty much meant for food storage, so use them wisely, you don't want to store your food anywhere else cause it's inconvenient and if you have to store it somewhere else it prolly means you are bringing too much food. 

Okay, so here's how you manage the 5 pouches, or how I manage it which you can learn from. In one of the two small pouches, put a super nice sweet that you won't get sick of. You can use it during the march, but the actual time to eat it, would be during the POP itself, it'll distract you from everything else, and help you get through to the whole parade. You should also include some lozenges in the same pouch, as you just came out from Tekong, you prolly have some sore throat or cough, it's good to have a remedy when your throat is irritating you. For the other small pouch, slot in a energy bar, eat it when you feel really tired, prolly in the last few miles, I ate it during the last rest point and it helped alot! 

In the first big pouch should contain a biscuit that can last for a real long time, I meant really long, and not just 5-10mins. I would recommend you get the Bee-Bee Prawn Curry Biscuit, it can really last long and it taste good too. 2nd big pouch is where you put your fried food, provided you were allowed to get them beforehand, nuggets are one of the best IMO, I had 6 of them. As you walk through ECP, there will be lots of people having BBQ, whenever you smell it, eat a nugget, and imagine you are having the BBQ too. Sounds really stupid, but I'll say it's one of the most important object I brought along with me. As for the last pouch put nothing in it. That pouch is reserve for any food you will be receiving during rest point, you might not feel like eating every time, but don't waste them, they might come in handy, so just keep them in your empty pouch and consume it for later. Most important thing for this chapter is to not bring excess food, not waste food and eat like a ninja (don't let the public see it, SAF image).


Psychology

Alright, IMO the last section is the most important. Something which I strongly believe after completing BMT is that, if you put your mind to doing something, you definitely can do it. It is a special powers that all humans got, just that most of them do not realise this power. Although I've made this great discovery, I can't really put my mind into everything I have to do, so I'm not very successful either. At least for this road march, I did it and as you can see, the results were amazing. I strode through 24km not sweat one bit of sweat (figuratively). So how to boost your mentality? This can be done on 2 phase, before the march, and during the march.. After the march you can just lie on your bed and tell everyone 'I'm dying!" and hang 'do not disturb' sign on your door. 

This is what you can do before the march to tune your mind to the right frequency for the march; listen to some inspiring music, or music that you can sing in your mind during the road march. For me, the songs I tried was all national theme song (BMT does make you patriotic, really). Especially the song 'We Will Get There" by Stephanie Sun, I remember singing that softly during the march, and my friend beside, Wee Liat could hear me and he sang along. We were both motivated afterwards. Other inspiring music I could think of would be 'Hall of fame' by The Script. In fact, I always listen to that song before I go for a run nowadays, because running is a difficult thing for me.. Let me correct myself, running FAST is difficult not running. Fortuately, road march pace isn't that fast, but it is still quite fast at times, especially when you are not conditioned properly. I wasn't at a 100% when I did my march too, I was sick and my phlegm was greenish with tinge of brown. It was quite bad and if not for the mind, I think I could have died somewhere along the way, and they would have thrown me into the sea at east coast, because SAF is all about image and they won't want people to see the headlines saying 'Recruit dies during exhausting road march'. I'm just exaggerating, but I can't stop emphasising how powerful the mind is. 

After being mentally prepared before the march, how do you maintain a strong mental during the march. Here's what to do; stand at the right place, those people that walk side by side with you, got to be people you want to talk to. It's good to stand by people who motivates others. but it's okay otherwise too. Just motivate them instead if that is the case. You are a team, so help each other and be sincere in everything you do or say, that's the most important during the entire course of BMT, not just the road march. TALK COCK SING SONG, that is a crucial thing to do during the march, do it and enjoy it. Tell stories, true stories fake stories. Especially when you tell stories that really matters strongly to your heart, every other part of your body goes numb except your heart, so you march like a zombie and that is what we want because you don't feel the pain. #beentheredonethat.  Last but not least, think that you're doing this for good causes, your parents, your friends, your country, your name, pride, honour and integrity. Just put everything in it, imagine the march is the linchpin that holds all your values and you die die have to finish it. Also don't just think about it, act on it, you can use your phone discreetly, so use it and text those who matters to you. It really helps a lot, and I thank all those whom have replied me during my march. 


I bleed claret and blue, gold and purple.
I hope there are some good advice and tips you can take home from here.
And for those who haven't gone through it I wish you all the best, it isn't as hard as you think and with my guide it is a lot easier.
Anyway, just one short incident to share before I end my time here.

Yesterday I went out with KL, CS and WM (WM came later on).
I went to WM house to get a controller from him, so got to talk to him alone when we were walking there also when he was sending me to the bus stop. (Reminds me of the old times, he always sends me to the bus stop)
Sending me actually means he cares, and maybe that is why I always think of WM is a good brother, even though he have been very irresponsible of his presence.
He told me his difficulties that he has many groups of friends to manage, US, JC friends, Jingie group, army friends and also ELAINE.
And I can truly understand that, because sometimes I feel it too, and socialising will be prioritise as one of the last thing during my university after money, fitness, romance and grades. (ORDER: increasing importance)
He told me that it's more convenient to fly our planes, then to fly ELAINE's plane because she would have made a big fuss, yet on the other hand, we would still stand by him no matter what.
That made me feel guilty of the times where I criticised of his constant absence during our outing, but nonetheless it's a good example of taking things for granted.
He also confessed to me that sometimes he is just really tired and want to rest at home. I guessed that beforehand, but I'm really glad he could tell me the truth.
Because that is part of being a brother; to be able to tell everything to one another.
After talking to him yesterday, although just a short while. I feel he is a brother that I will hold onto strongly, and I believe he will change one day.
I honestly do, because one ought to realise the importance of good friends one day or another, but let's just not that day be too late.

So that's pretty much all I have to say, so by by and xia #2! Gonna go out with CS and YK and hopefully more BROs.



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Being taken granted for is a compliment, it means that you have been a trusted and comfortable element in another person's life. 

I have been on both side, perpetrator and victim.

Santa was here @ 8:28 PM

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Episode 73: I lost a page, a part of my story.



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2 days ago, I woke up from an afternoon nap.
I wasn't sure if I had a dream earlier, but I started thinking about a person.
A person I want to forget.
So I closed my eyes and tried to forget about it. I took a long time and I fell asleep.
I was that tired, because 2 days ago before this 2 days, I had 24km route march and it was no joke.
Actually, it is quite a joke, I feel it was easy for me so may be I'll share my tips in this post or maybe the next.
Nonetheless, my body still feel tired from the sleep deprivation.
But I have to woke up awhile after that because I actually had a lot of things to do;

- Feel up a personal particulars form for my interview the next day
- Prepare myself mentally for the interview
- Keeping in touch with the many people who text me (It's tiring but sincerely thanks for showing that you care)

To simply put, I was tired and busy.
Something I would not want to become when I grow old.
Since when did I start using the term 'grow old', I used to say 'grow up'.. 老了老了..
Anyway, being old doesn't scares me, death doesn't scares me too.
What scares me is to live without a dream, and I now have two. (I mentioned one before)
Anyway, let's not digress from the topic of being tired and busy.
Who am I kidding, I prolly have to be tired and busy when I grow old, Singapore is the busiest country in the world.
And that doesn't meant the trees in the city are extra hard-working and produce more than the average 120kg of oxygen to the atmosphere each year.
It means that Singaporeans are heavily overloaded with work, and unfortunately I'll become one of them.

Okay, for the third paragraph I want to direct back to the first point.
About the FP (forsaken person) who pops up into my head.
I actually manage to forget about FP when I woke up again, but I really tried hard to remember the FP again, so that I can write about it.
I know what you're thinking, I'm stupid or what right? (Yes, I think that too, and I regret)
I actually thought this would be a good way to give my brain a warning; (No, It's not)
Cautioning it to not try funny stuff and make things I want to pop away to pop up in my head. (Won't work, you know why?)
Sidetrack, after mentioning so many pop, I really want to shout it out loud.. POP LO! ='D
Back on track; because I'm the master of my mind, not the other way round.
However, because the master is dumb, that's why the mind is taking advantage of it, and I'll tell you my mind is really something else.
Anyway maybe my admonishing gesture really might to a good job to my brain. Let's hope all goes well, positive thinking is the way to go.
To end this story which doesn't have any morals to it, at least I let it have a song, a song which I think fits well.
It's a song by my favourite Chinese artist, Jay Chou, the song name is '軌跡' which means locus in english which also translate to place.
I did some reading up on the term locus on Wikipedia (one of my favourite sites) and I got onto this psychology term called locus of control.
It's really interesting, you should read it up too, or just consult me if you want to know more.
Stop rambling and here goes the song, Locus.




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Another day worth mentioning was yesterday.
Yesterday, all my troubles seems so far away.
Actually the opposite, yesterday was very troubling, today is much better, I'll tell you why! =')
Yesterday I woke up early..
Actually I woke up early everyday feeling tired..
Then I feel stupid because I woke up early even though I'm tired.
Okay, you only have to know that I woke up.
I prepared myself mentally and spiritually (prayed) for the interview and went to play some games before I left the house.
Okay I have to leave the house now too! Be back! =')

*Left house*

I'm back and I totally don't remember what I wanted to blog.
I know this is irritating and disturbing.. that when you are on track and anticipating something..
Everything just when wrong and you don't know where you are.
Remember this feeling, remember where I just brought you to.
This is where I am, welcome to my life..
Random stuff aside, I seriously don't remember what I was blogging about because it's been around a month since I revisited this post.
But when I jumped right in, the words just keep coming up like I am some professional typist.
I could remember it's around 1 month, because the subheading for the post.. the '2' and '1' are supposed to be like countdowns before I say '0' and 'HAPPY NEW YEAR'.
Well, it seems a little too late right?
...
NOT! The year just started, 1 month may have passed but there's still 11 months.
It's still something worth celebrating about, and I pray (A verb I don't use often huhs?) that this year will be a good boy.
Just like my little nephew who is getting a little bigger. Oxymoron~ =_=,
Wait a second.. Let me read what I typed 1 month ago nonetheless..
Alright, according to 'The past ME' at the end of this section I'm supposed to share this song, 'Yesterday' by 'The beatles'.
Slap yourself if you don't know this band.. I'm serious.. slap yourself and Google it after that.




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Happy New Year! I sincerely hope it would be a great one for your!
As for myself, I hope for the best, but even if it didn't end up as how I planned it, I got a feeling this year is special.
In fact, I got this feeling all the way since the end of the last year.

Ever since I entered army, I could feel myself changing.
I meant, yes people change over time, but we usually don't feel it.
Most of the time we just get on with life, and years later, you stumble upon some old photographs or other monuments and..

...
WHUaahlaaa! It hits you hard. You can't believe how much you've changed.
But for my case, I can feel it.. Okay I know I said that like three times (Including the one I am going to say later on), but it's only because the feeling is quite hard to explain, so I hope I can get my point across by repetitively emphasising it.
...
NO? Very well, just know that I feel my change and my life is changing too.

Remember when I mentioned about the interview in the first section?
I got through that and I signed a professional contract that bonds me to Air Force for 4 years after my studies.

So suddenly there is a career in my life, something I've never considered for the past 19 years.
As big as it sounds, as I carried on with life with this new.. thing (I haven't decided what to call it).. life is still quite empty.
It's not that I'm unhappy. I'm very easily satisfied, let me give you some example.
During BMT, when I was in Tekong, sometimes training is really shaq.

But when I return to coy line and saw a cat attempt to climb a tree, it's really cute and it puts a smile on my face.



I love cats. They make me smile like a fool.


I meant happiness is a really simple thing, but people tends to overcomplicate it. Do you understand? I think not. Let me give you another example.

During OCS CLM, I was navigating in rambutan hill alone at night. I finally found my checkpoint and was ready to head back, but the instructor ask me to find another one. 
Feeling quite sian and disappointed, I reluctantly found the next one, and sitting at the next checkpoint was a instructor that looked like Kobe Bryant. No joke.
And that made me happy and I requested for a next checkpoint because I'm that crazily happy.

Okay, that story didn't really bring forward my point, but I just really want to tell you that I have a instructor that looked like Kobe Bryant.
Random and extra information, but I used yellow and purple colour for the previous sections to symbolise LA Lakers. ='0



True story. Both my story and the quote.


To make up for that poor example.. let me give you another example.

During my attachment which is now, I am happy.. Hmm.. Actually I have no stories about my attachment yet, it haven't even been for a week.
But let me say this, I feel like people get lost when they think of happiness as a destination. We're always thinking that someday we'll be happy. You know, we'll get that car or that job or that person in our lives that will fix everything. But happiness is a mood, and not a condition, it's not a destination. It's like being tired or hungry; it's no permanent, it comes and goes, and that's okay. And I feel like if people thought of it that way, they'd find happiness a lot more often.


Alright! I know this post is not here not there, not three not four. 
But it's okay, you're happy and I'm happy and if we're not, it's okay too.
Because happiness will revisit maybe later on when you think of something happy before you sleep.
Maybe tomorrow when you see a cat attempting to climb a tree and you got reminded of what I said.
Another reason why I have to end this here is so that the new year post stays on the January archive. 
It's 31st January 11.17pm, and maybe let me make a belated new year resolution with just 1 simple thing to ask for.
Forget it.. Who am I kidding, I've stop believing in this kinda of things.
Anyway for those smart alecks who think you know what resolution I have set, I'm pretty sure you're wrong.

By by! 9 9! Xia! =')


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When you really matters to someone, that person will always make time for you. No excuses, no lies and no broken promises. When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anybody who leaves you, and it doesn't mean that they are bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over.

We did it, we torn it, we walked away from each other.

Santa was here @ 7:07 AM

THE PLAYLIST ='3




THE SANTA-MAN ='|

Ho he said, Ho he smiled, Ho he laughed.
Ai vay... This is the Santa-man...
Story of Santa Clause is well-known,
but the full story was never told.

The story that tells his daily live,
People around him who made him happy.
Pasts and presents he left it here,
While he went searching for the one.

Although they share the same mission,
This man is no clause, He is a bro.
Here's the story of the bro, santa-man.
Hope you'll enjoy reading it! Ho Ho Ho...


THE BROTHERS ='D

Benedict
Chee Seng
Kuan Liang

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February 2016
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September 2016
October 2016

THE POINTLESS BOX ='/


THE STATEMENT ='0

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