I love the feeling of a new school year! For me, it means a new beginning—the slate is clean, we set new goals, put ourselves back into a routine after a lazy summer, and I really do feel renewed!
Today was also a day of “Lasts”—it was my last day with Zach before he leaves for college! It has been “bittersweet”. I don’t think I ever fully understood that term until today! The sweetness comes in knowing that he is leaving tomorrow to do something that he has worked hard to achieve. A new chapter full of new friends, experiences, and learning. The bitter is the lump in my throat that I feel when I realize that I won’t be there to see him off to school in the mornings…or hear the details of his day when he comes home. That is the hard part of letting go. There have been tears, lots of tears!
I’ve thought about being a mom a lot lately. I have watched my role change in my kid’s lives and for the most part, transitions have been smooth and natural. But right now I feel like I am in unchartered waters! Sometimes I don’t think I am up for the new challenge. But that is the nature of life. Sometimes we have to stretch farther than we feel capable of stretching and let go of those we love so that they can learn to do their own stretching!
The Big Send-Off, August 26, 2009
PS: Zach arrived at BYU safely and has officially had his first "BYU Experience". He went to the Wilkinson Center to get his student i.d. and was sent right back out and was told he needed to shave before they would issue his card. For those of you that haven't seen Zach lately, his "beard" consists of the 5 hairs on his chin that have taken him about three weeks to grow. Scott, BYU's greatest dress code violator of the mid-80's for his overuse of flip-flops, got a chuckle out of that one!