Late night thoughts. Trying to get the words off my mind.
Not sure why my post is touching on the same topic as my previous post... But recently I picked up the habit of browsing through instagram and starting to play instastory again.
Facebook and other social media aside, instagram is the main social media platform that I have been getting latest updates from from friends / acquaintances. Truth to be told, although sadly, this is how I connect with people nowadays. It can be as random as commenting on their instastory or texting them on instagram messaging, which is a less awkward way than punching a "hi" on whatsapp. It kind of gives me a topic to talk about without even thinking or forcing one out. It became so natural that I find it amusing. I enjoy this kind of impromptu conversations and it made it a breeze to speak to friends whom you have lost touch with.
However, this convenience, is at the same time, horrifying.
True enough, having posted on instagram naturally means that you are posting for the world to see, or if private, for your followers to view. This is where people get to know whom you got together with, where you are in the world, and if you have broken up with someone. People start to speculate. Your life no longer exist in your own world but in people's eyes as well. Guesses after guesses, rumors following one after another. The same post that you have might not have held the same intention from when you first post it. Everything is up to individual's perspectives and thoughts. News in this context travels faster than word of mouth - it's just there for people to judge.
You may feel more connected than friends you haven't seen for years. You start to have your own thoughts about who they have become before even talking or meeting them.
You think you know the current them.
But when you really take the effort to meet up with them, you start to understand what they are really going through. They can be all happy on instagram and sad in reality. Then you realised that you didn't really know them well enough to speak. Virtual vs Reality. Would you prefer to just know they are well and alive in virtual or take the time to understand them deep down?
Am considering taking down my blog links and restarting my instagram. With only the few that I care. I used to be shy in reality and attention seeking virtually; and I used to get really conscious about the number of 'Like' I will get out of posting. But now I understand that it is just a tool for me to pass time and acknowledge people's existence. And probably to get ideas on where to travel and what to eat. It becomes so sad that I feel I shouldn't be there. But that is the attraction of social media, based around curiosity.
I didn't think that it would be a good idea to post photos with regards to relationship because people will start to judge what type of guy you are dating and what kind of love life you are having. I did once envy people who post freely about their partner and their solo shots, especially those who are pretty / have great figure. Maybe I still do, and maybe one day I will be able to do so. Maybe, just maybe. Somehow, it does spur me on to live a healthier and happier life - which is a good thing. At times you'll just need to know how to manage expectations and be more confident, before you steer towards the wrong way and get all depressed and dejected.
Finally done with ranting and off-loading. Thank you to whoever who is reading my post if there is any. It might not make sense or might not even ring a bell. But I'm pretty sure I got clearer picture of my thoughts as I pen these words down.
