I was the only one left in the tomb then.
I sort of liked it, in a way. It was so nice and peaceful.
Then, all of a sudden, you'd never guess what I saw on the wall.
Another "Fuck you".
It was written with a red crayon or something,
Right under the glass part of the wall, under the stones.

That's the whole trouble.
You can't ever find a place that's nice and peaceful, because there isn't any.
You may think there is, but once you get there, when you're not looking,
Somebody'll sneak up and write "Fuck you" right under your nose.
Try it sometime.
I think, even, if I die, and they stick me in a cemetery, and I have a tombstone and all,
It'll say "Holden Caulfield" on it, and then what year I was born and what year I died,
And then right under that it'll say "Fuck you".
I'm positive, in fact.

- "The Catcher In the Rye"

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*I* think its hilarious. :p

Its more about the people you meet than the way you're wired up.

Having to wait at *least* another 2 months before Die Another Day opens here is seriously getting to me. >.<

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"There's no point in living if you can't feel alive." - Elektra King
The World Is Not Enough

*sigh*
Disastrous psych paper back today.
I passed... like wow, huh.
Contemplating whether or not to drop it... there's really not much point left in continuing, if you think about it.
2.3 points left for the rest of the course?
You've got to be kidding.
But I love Maureen... >.<
("You're a tart!" :p)

Hope media turns out alrite.
(Actually, I take that back... its *got* to be alrite.)

Watched So Close with PCB and MM yest... not bad a show, really.
Karen Mok rocks!
Such a husky, sexxxy voice... *purrr* ;>

Established something today:
Tart. Tramp. Tease... Tits. ;>

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Like a moth to a flame
Burnt by the fire;
My love is blind
Can't you see my desire?

"That's The Way Love Goes" - Janet Jackson

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

Slow? *scratch*

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'Cause sooner or later its over
I just don't want
To miss you tonight.

"Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls

Having a bad headache now, probably from crying too much today.
I didn't mean to, and neither did I want to... but I guess I should have anticipated it.
Suddenly realise how mean I was over this whole week that mom's been here,
In all my insensitive little actions and spoken words...
And now, its too late to take them all back because she's gone.

Wish I had told her how much I love her.

I miss you, yanno.

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I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now.

"Wonderwall" - Oasis

Watched the other half of the show,
And boy, did it leave me in a rather reflective mood.
Still can't believe she was driven to suicide, for what she believed in -
Even though it was sadly a lost cause...
Admittedly a little extreme, but it got me thinking about... things, in general.

I mean... to what extent really, are our mentalities and mindsets shaped by what society deems to be "normal"?
And just how much is it that we live in fear of not conforming to these so-called blinkered "ideals" (whatever they are), that we stifle our very nature and inclination?

Enough to let go of all you've ever known, ever felt, and ever loved in your entire life;
In order to be accepted as one of the faceless crowd?

The very same people who won't even blink an eyelid if you're ill; couldn't care less if you'd been having an absolutely crappy day... or even have an *inkling* about who you really are beneath the tough exterior that you put up as a defensive shield...

That deep down inside, you're really just someone yearning to love, and be loved in return.
That regardless of gender, race, or sexual orientation... you're still human.
And still very much capable of love.

Love is.
It just is.

How many people actually get that?

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You'll say did they love you or what
I'll say they love what I do,
The only one who really loves me is you.

"You Had Time" - Ani Defranco
Lost and Delirious Soundtrack

Just watched the first half of "Lost and Delirious".
Acutely thought-provoking, and yet heart-wrenchingly sad...
One word - *swoon!*
Thanks for the recommendation, Piggy.
Think I'm gonna die waiting for the other half to finish downloading!
Which is probably going to take at least another day by the looks of it. >.<

Love the song they keep playing in the background... just like its namesake. :>

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Such pretty hair
May I kiss you
May I kiss you there?
So beautiful you are
So beautiful
Beautiful.

Please,
Don't move
You feel
So good to me
Tell me in my ear

Beautiful
So beautiful...
So very beautiful.

"Beautiful" - Meshell Ndegeocello,
Lost and Delirious Soundtrack

Feeling quite annoyed.
I know its partially my fault.
Just feeling absolutely indignant about the whole thing.

Why can't people be more direct about how they feel?
If you're happy, say so.
If you're unhappy with something, say so.
If something I said hurt you, for god's sake SAY SO!
There's nothing that pisses me off more than keeping quiet and then later acting all sad and stuff and expecting me to ask "Oh, are you okay? What's wrong?".

No way.
I'm just not the type.
The more I know you want me to shower you with attention, all the more I'll refuse to.
It just doesn't work that way with me, sorry.
And it doesn't matter who you are.

What's wrong with being honest?
Honest with yourself, with others, and the ones you love.
Especially the ones you love.
No really, I don't get it.

WTF is wrong with being just who you are?
Why does one need to keep secrets?
Why can't you just say it out loud if you're upset?
Why do you have to pretend?
Why do you have to wait for me to ask?
Why do you have to look away?

Why do you have to make me cry?

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It's a thin line between love and hate.

"Thin Line Between Love And Hate" - Annie Lennox