They say it's a river, circles the earth
A beam of light shining to the edge of the universe
It conquers all
It changes everything

They say it's a blessing
They say it's a gift
They say it's a miracle and I believe that it is
It conquers all
But it's a mystery

Love breaks your heart
Love takes no less than everything
Love makes it hard
And it fades away so easily

In this world we've created
In this place that we lived
In a blink of an eye the darkness slips in
Love lights the world, unites the love that's for eternity

Love breaks the chain
Love aches for everyone of us
Love takes the tears and pain
And turns it into the beauty that remains

Look at this place
It was paradise but now it's dying
I'll brave the love
I'll take my chances that it's not too late

Love breaks your heart
Love takes no less than everything
Love makes it hard
And it fades away so easily

Love breaks the chain
Love aches for everyone of us
Love takes the tears and the pain
And turns it into the beauty that remains

"Love Is" - Vanessa Williams & Brian McKnight

Why is it I feel so totally blah everytime after talking to T?

Utterly sick and tired of being taken for granted.

And for some perverted, inexplicable reason, I just keep going back for more.

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And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry

Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall

And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch;
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay...

"Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough" - Don Henley & Patti Smyth

(Taken off at request. Oh well... t'was good while it lasted. :p)

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Gimme some love
Gimme some skin
If we ain't got that then we ain't got much
And we ain't got nothing, nothing...

"Nothing" - A

Woke up feeling miserable.
Feeling kinda dispensible, somehow.
Like it doesn't matter.
Like nothing I ever do matters.

Just... dispensible.

***

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronise
Don't patronise me

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't...
'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't.

I'll close my eyes, and then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right
Just give me til then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight...

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power
But no you won't, no you won't...
'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't.

If you don't.

"I Can't Make You Love Me" - Bonnie Raitt

I know lives, I could miss
Without a Misery -
Others - whose instant's wanting -
Would be Eternity -

The last - a scanty Number
T'would scarcely fill a Two -
The first - a Gnat's Horizon
Could easily outgrow.

"372" - Emily Dickinson

***

Simple, yet how profoundly true.

You never cried because you were too terrified of everything to let yourself feel.
You'd have to learn crying from a manual! Chop onions!
I never cried because I was too tough - but I felt everything.
Every slight, every pressure, every vague competition - but I fought.
And I won!
There hasn't been a battle since I was five that I haven't won.
And the people I fought were happy that I won!
Happy!
After a while.

Do you have any idea how many people in this town worship me?
Maybe that's the attraction - you don't worship me.
Maybe I'd quit loving you if you did worship me.
Maybe I'd lose all respect for you if you did all the things I want you to do.
You've got to change!
Listen... I'm not saying I'm better or stronger than you are.
Its just that we - you and I - have different temperaments.
And my temperament is better and stronger than yours!
You're a wall!
You don't fight.
You hardly ever listen!

Dear God, will somebody please explain to me why I think you're so beautiful?

-- "Little Murders"

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A really cool monologue for drama today. Just thought it hit home, somehow.

And yep, gotta do it as a soliloque.

...

Somebody stop the cameras.