The third

My Little third child.  I am feeling like a terrible mother today for 2 reasons, one I yelled at Rosie this morning:( and two I haven't documented Juliet's life hardly at ALL!!  With each kids I have gotten significantly WORSE at keeping track of all their adorable milestones and activities. It's sad.  So I will go ahead and try to soothe my troubled heart with a little Juliet reminiscing.  The other night...after 11pm (be-witching hour, when everything is too much to handle!) I was throwing a little mini temper tantrum before going to sleep because I was mad at myself for not doing something about the door malfunction on the mini van (sad but true) we recently bought.  I was kicking my legs and getting sucked into a nice little tizzy and Dave sensed I was in need of a serious distraction started telling me Ju Boo stories.  And that's all it took.  Just picturing her sweet cheeks and caramel wisps of hair pulled me right our of my impending gloom.

We often end the evening talking about the funny cute things our kids do and say.  Juliet has been the main topic lately because she is just blossoming and learning and growing so much so fast!! She is saying so many fun new words every day I can't keep up... I want to try.. she says No, Don't, pees (please), she goes to the fridge and asks for chisss (cheese). She says "bite," which only happened recently, if she wanted a bite of food before she would make her famous chomping (kkooowp) sound.  Now she only uses that if she wants to nurse and she'll pull at my shirt while making this awesome sound.  Pretty cute. When she wakes up and I go pull her sweet, bed headed, wide eyed body out of bed I ask her if she wants to see "sisters?" Her eyes light up and she says sissses!?! The moment she is awake she is pawing to get out of her room to get back to the action of whatever her spunky sisters have going on. She just follows them around like she is one of the big girls.  She has started saying mommy sometimes instead of just mama.  She stand with her arms reaching up and follow me around the kitchen saying "mommmmy!" I can't resist scooping her up and sucking/kissing/chewing her sweet cheeks.  Juliet gives THE best most adorable kisses that we all plead for.  All of us just beg her for her kisses.  Sometimes she obliges us and puckers up her perfect little lips and plants one on us.  She kisses her stuffed animals and dolls and any pictures she can get her hands on.  She was kissing herself on my phone this morning:) Yesterday she said "han-han" becuse she wanted to hold my hand and take me somewhere.  She does it to Scarlet and Rosie too.  She buddies up with them and they become her little pal and if they try to leave or play with something else she throws her little fit and they sit right back down and play.  I watched them out the window yesterday all three of my girls sitting on the last step of the patio stairs eating Popsicle's and sharing licks. Juliet would stand up on her knobby legs and waddle up to Scarlet to give her a "bite" then shimmy her little buns back in between her sisters onto the stair. It just filled my heard to that near bursting sensation I get sometimes watching these little people live their little lives.  It's that time warp feeling where I am grasping onto this moment and really watching it so it can be implanted in my brain for the future when my girls don't fit so snuggly on my lap anymore or whatever nonsense is supposedly going to happen someday. Juliet is just the most perfect addition to our family it is a joy to watch her grow.

Now that I have started I can't stop...So anyone reading can check out now if they need to but I just need to write a few more about my other little gems just for the record.  Its not like I document their lives anymore either.  Scarlet is a FIRST GRADER and is loving it. Maybe not for the same reasons other first graders love it DEAR ME!!  She is too funny.  Eating lunch and recess were a few of the things she liked about first grade but the main thing she wants to talk about is BOYS.  One in particular right now.  REALLY!? First grade??  Apparently right off a little boy took a liking to her and started pulling out her chair in class and putting his arm around her at recess...oh dear.  Anyway she comes home everyday and the first thing she tells me is the ever changing status of her and Taylor. Its really sweet and innocent and they mainly chase each other on the playground...wow, I don't really know what to think.  Anyway in other news she is doing great in class and from what I hear gets pink purple and blue stars...which means she being a good student. We have gone and eaten lunch with her at school a few times and it's so fun to see her in her element.  She is so cute as she proudly punches in her lunch number she memorized, she shows Rosie how to get her milk and food tray etc... All her cute little friends gather around us at the cafeteria table and its just a delight to watch her and know she is happy.  After she finishes eating I make her come over and snuggle with me so I can hug her and ease my sore heart from missing her sweet face ALL day.  She doesn't hesitate to give me big hugs and kisses in front of all her little friends.  It may not always be like that but I will take it as long as I can get it!! Scarlet is playing soccer this season and is having so much fun and it is pure joy to watch her run around out there.  We teased her after the game because she kept grabbing the other girls shirts to get better access to the ball.  haha... love this big sister. 

Rosie Sue is four and started preschool a last week.  OHHH Rosie my cute little animal.  Rosie is the fieriest little thing.  She is so much fun but can be a little scoundrel.  I don't think we have gone a single day of her post 3 year old...ok really her entire life without a good old fashion Rosie melt down tantrum.  she just has so much emotion and enthusiasm!! She is at her best when she is lost entertained with a friend, or playing in her imaginary world...but if there is a dull moment it can get ugly.  She loves preschool and has recently been doing ballet and is so adorable to watch.  "Plie'... releve'." She loves Scarlet so much and in her own way wants to be like her.  She and Juliet are creating new a new bond now that Scarlet is in school and get along alot better now that its just the two of them.  Its like Rosie doesn't have to compete anymore for Jules attention, which usually ended up with her overwhelming and hurting Juliet. She is as cute as a button and will charm your pants off.  She is more brave in someways than Scarlet, for instance if I ask Scarlet to go borrow and egg from a neighbor Scarlet is terrified but Rosie will do it.  She'd say "c'mon Scarlet I will knock and ask and you don't have to say anything!!"  So funny their little duo. 

Ok well that's that and I need to go pick up Rosie from preschool.  We are all well and happy and greatful for our blessings.

It's a MIRACLE

The miracle is two fold...we are all still alive and well (what, isn't life a miracle when you really think about it...mmhm) and I am BLOGGING!! I didn't know if I ever would again.  Not that I don't like to blog...right now in fact I am thinking oh I missed that wri ting voice in my head...I haven't hear her for awhile and she is kinda fun. Its that all the fast easy social networks have taken over my blogging needs...kinda.  Intagram is so INSTA and it feels like I am keeping track of things kinda...I'm not so great at documenting our life.  Its mostly pics of my girls playing on the kindle or of me holding Juliet while she nurses or naps, because well...it's pretty much our life.  And I usually enjoy it.  At least I'm honest. Juliet is at a really cute and really exhausting stage right now...aren't they always!?  She is 10 months and the sweetest faced little hairy morsel of cuteness. We adore her.  She is on the move and as squirmy as the come!!!  She is crawling, standing and trying to choke on everything and shock herself and get her hands in the to9ilet.  She is a little stinker and its a dang good thing she is CUTE.  She gives the most adorable slobbery kisses and bonks and I swear she says "baby" and "mama" and "dada" but its still debate-able. Scarlet is grown up girl but still my baby girl and will let me steal her form her imaginary grown up life for some snuggle time.  She loves school and it thrills me to see all that she is learning and to hear her read and figure things out is awesome.  Rosie is a fireball that keeps us grinning.  She can be the sweetest little thing and the next minute a little stinker.  She is clever and full of ideas and questions and you never know what to expect from her 3 and a half year old brain. I cut my hair and dyed it platinum and love it.  I might go shorter for fun...why not.  I tore my mcl a few months back but its doing much better so I am back to soccer HALLELUJAH!! Dave is still doing his thang but has decided we need to relocate to Hawaii. I am on board.  Oh and we have a new house. so there it is.  Summing up the past 9 months nothing to it! some pics for dessert...I think yes.

Picture party

Juliet's blessing day.  We were able to sneak a quick photo shoot with Dave's sister Shelly before we left for church.

We love this kindergartener.  Scarlet is loving school and is learning so much. She writes all her letters and getting really good at reading!!  Its so fun to see how much she is learning.  We went to her parent teacher conference and she is doing great, she is way ahead on her writing and right on with everything else. The only thing her teacher said needs work is for her to stop chatting to her neighbors.:) I feel ya Scarlet. I'm pretty sure that was my biggest challenge in school...until MATH came along! Our three girls are just as fun as ever. Juliet is 3 1/2 months old and doing really great.  She is full of smiles, drool, and jabber.  She is 13lbs and we are just Crrrrazzy about her.  She is so alert and has to look around with her big wide open eyes trying to get it all figured out.  We are all enamored by her and can't believe there was ever a time we didn't have her here in our home!

catch up time...

 New baby, 3rd b day...and life in between. It has been a wild month.  Juliet Pearl St.Julien joined the crew on my birthday, June 15th. It was the most memorable b day yet, to be sure!!  The birth was amazing.  In short I woke up feeling contractions around 3:30 in the morning.  We weren't convinced it was labor because the contractions were super close together...we decided it had to be the real deal and headed to the hospital around 5.  By the time we got to the hospital I was in serious pain!!  They took me into the admitting room and I was dilated to a five.  Which was NOT what I was wanting to hear.   I was sure all that pain was doing ALOT more than one centimeter of progress.  Thoughts of ACTUALLY going natural were quickly dissipating. I started panicking and yelling all sorts of crazy things.  I was desperately trying to convince everyone I couldn't do this, I was begging Dave to forget everything we had decided and get me that DANG epidural NOW!!!  He was trying his best to decide if he should listen to the pre laboring wife or the screaming wild animal in front of him.  Then my water broke and some how we made it to the delivery room and I was all kinds of CRAZY.  I was still only dilated to a 6 but I was feeling the urge to push sooo strong. So I did and my midwife luckily made it there in time to give me the go ahead to push.  I was STILL begging for drugs and the nurses finally said "If you get an epidural it will be at least 10 contractions before you feel it, and chances are that baby will be here before you feel any relief."  NOT what I wanted to hear, but at that point I realized I was gonna do this thing whether I wanted to or not.  And I didn't want to anymore!!!  

I had all these visions of how my labor would proceed.  In my minds eye I was walking around calmly with Dave trying the different positions we researched to reduce pain .  I pictured getting in the tub, or sitting on the birthing ball.  In my mind the pain would be there but it would be manageable.  BOY was I WRONG!!  All I was able to do was grip that side bar on the hospital bed and scream like the dickens!!  I didn't have to push for long...it felt like longer than it was. And there were a few times I really honestly thought "this is too much,  I will NOT do this anymore!! I am going to reach down, push that babies head back up and GO HOME!!!!"  But instead I pushed harder. Somehow, I did it. That dark head finally came out and I have never been more relieved of ANYTHING in my life. I don't know that I felt that feeling some people talk about, of like a euphoria.  Mine was exhaustion and RELIEF!!! 

Juliet was born at 6:30am, three of the longest most memorable hours of my life. It was fast and furious, but thankfully she was a healthy 7 lb wonder.  We were in love immediately.  We are still baffled by this mop of dark hair.  She didn't have a name for the first day, we were trying Juliet on for size.  The next day we figured it was as good a name as any and she would grow into it.  We decide on Pearl for her middle name because it's the June birthstone.  Our girls are smitten with her and we are excited to get to know her as she grows.  Looking back at the birth experience, the further away I get the more fond I feel about it all.  I am glad everything went the way it did.  Dave and I laugh at how loud I was yelling and how I literally screamed so hard that after things had calmed down my guts hurt.  That's what screaming your guts out feels like. I don't know that I will try going unmedicated again, Dave will tell you NO WAY.  But I am undecided.  I am glad I know what it feels like.  And I am glad Juliet is here and healthy. Welcome little lady...

   

Rosie turned three!! We are crazy about our three year old.  She is just the best.  We get such a kick out of this girl.  She is still just so funny and unpredictable.  She is so intense one minute then sweet and loving the next.  I don't know that there is a cuter face in this world!!  I just stare at her face and those green eyes and dimples and I am enamored!  She is no angel but we love every single bit of her and are so glad she is part of our family.  She just adores Scarlet and lately they will just play and play together in their little make believe world.  It's the BEST.  There are so many things Rosie says and does. I wish I could capture them all and remember everything.  But I don't think I will be able to at the moment. We love you Rose bud!!

 Thanks to everyone who came!  Special Thanks to Katie and Dustin for bringing the whopper hopper!! And for the great photos of the party and of Juliet.  (all the fancy pretty pics are from Katie, the dark boring ones are all me.)