A Pink Bridal Shower, Forest Family And Bowling Shoes.

Yep, I´m on vacation in Saarijärvi, doing stuff and being with people as you can see.

I should have something to say, I know I should

I read a lot of different kind of blogs: my friends, fashion, photographing (they simply have great pictures: eyecandy for someone who enjoys visual things), life styles and also blogs that have something to say about something: politics, religion, God, mission etc.

Then I think of this blog and I would love to have something to say, I would. I would love to have strong opinions to write down, or deep thoughts. But I don´t. Or I do, but they never end up in here. I end up writing of how I´m doing, what´s up with me and stuff, and that´s fine. People whom I don´t meet daily can read it from here.. Maybe I don´t have that much to explain next time then, when we meet.

But I have noticed that this " not having opinions"-thing applies to other areas in my life as well.. I notice how easily I just agree with people, or don´t state my own black and white opinions. The thing is: I don´t have that black and white opinions, so many times I just somehow understand what people are saying, about their own choices or whatever, thoug I wouldn´t agree with that. Of course I´ll say if I don´t agree, but too many times I´m silent, I´ve noticed. Hmm.

In person I might be loud, outgoing etc. but I am not brave. What a confession.

Of course it depends on person as well.. and the situation and the issue. When it comes to what socks I´ll wear or what to do with my life, it´s different, of course.

And there are times when I say what I think. Maybe even more I could think of. Maybe I´m demanding too much from myself. Or maybe God wants me to think of this.

Hah, think about this, it all started with all the other blogs I´m following and ended up with me questioning my courage. Oh well, that´s life.

She caught a flu, what to do?

Yes, I caught the flue, thanks to the kindergarten and all the agressive bacterials, ignoring my effective hand hygiene. Mphmh..


(This not so healthy picture is taken in Sweden, coming back from Poland last Spring. Oh man, it´s already a year ago.)

So I don´t participate on the practical placement evaluation seminar, neither could I finish my report on time, which sucks. On the other hand, that´s life, it happens.
Anyway, I had a good time during the weekend, I was helping at my friends fathers 50th birthday celebration and the evening ended with a room full of shouting Finns watching Finland-Sweden hockey game, (which, by the way Finland won 4-0)
That was rather an intensive experience, hahahaa.

Now I´m just wondering around, though not too much or my head starts to hurt. I read, hang in here and try to realize how am I feeling. Am I well enough to start finishing my report or I am just not well enough so I can watch movies and read books? Hmm...

Anyway, enjoy your healthy Monday, guys!!

Det gör ingenting och allt

It means nothing and all.

Well, we had our oral exam on professional swedish today and I sucked and talked too much as it was a group task.. so I didn´t feel too happy with it. I´ll pass the course and get my grades on "professional swedish", but it just did not create a good feeling for me as I didn´t realize to shut up and let others talk. Time passed so fast and all.. I didn´t think I talked so much, as my speaking was so slow anyway, but apparently I did and ignored it, which made me feel pretty damn stupid. Oh well, what is done is done and past.

In order to graduate from here we need to have official grades that prove that we have gained a certain level of professional swedish, meaning swedish skills in order to provide services with that language. We are a bi-lingual country after all, I just don´t remember that too often as I have grown in an area where it really does not show or mean anything.

Nowadays I like the language and would like to be more fluent with it. And if someone would have told this to 14 year old Saila, who struggled with compulsory swedish, it would have made her cry & laugh at the same time. But yes, I do like it nowadays.

However, I am traumatized now for good.

Mad rush

I have been thinking of all sorts of thoughts lately, mainly in the evening time, when I´m supposed to sleep. Ha. I did not sleep enough during the weekend and did not sleep enough this week, but that is totally my own fault. Anyhow, today I went to look over the younger kids of our day care (where I´m doing my practise placement) while they were having their nap time. Well well, look who was sleeping there. I literally fell asleep twice at least, hilarious. The kids were so silent and each one of them were really sleeping, so that I needn´t do anything really, so I took the advantage. What a nice way to spend my practise placement: sleeping.

Anyway, I have been thinking of:

-how much persons country/origin/nationality/language molds the personality

-how in nowadays society we need to exist in a way that can be calculated, put in to statistics and controlled, in a way

This sounds so incredibly intelligent, doesn´t it... not. I have no great conclusions whatsoever :) Just thinking. Hmm...

This week I also had to talk to kids about how to handle rubbish, junk etc. "When you eat sweets, where do you put the wrap paper o?" "What about when there´s no bin near?" And other important questions. It is an environment-theme week this week, we talk about nature, recycling and stuff like that. I like it a lot! And the kids, they just know so much already, impressing. (Well, they have had an environment-theme the whole year.)

More random thoughts?? Yes, I did the paper work (or the lady did it for me) for my own car, so now I´m officially a car owner!! Congratulate, please ;)

ps. last days of school, exams, reports etc. are ahead... I´m just so in summer mode already.

Isn´t it ironic?

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic ... don't you think


It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought ... it figures


Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought 'Well isn't this nice...'
And isn't it ironic ... don't you think


Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face


It's a traffic jam when you're already late
It's a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife


And isn't it ironic... don't you think.
A little too ironic... and yeah I really do think.





(Ironic by Alanis Morissette)

Being like a gardener

Yesterday I became a gardener for a while and opened the summer garden season for my own balcony. Summer, you´re welcome.

Dusting dustless books

Today I worked. For 13 hours, at least. It meant that I woke up in the morning at 5 and came home after 8, though there was some visits in between. Out of this 13 hours of work, I was cleaning books in a library for 9 hours, and it was insane. It seemed like they would never ever end.. and it felt like that too. Just imagine shelfs of books and you need take them out, wipe them, put them back, every single one of them.

At first, I was excited: I like alphabets, (I love dictionaries, one of my weird desires, I know.), libraries and especially books. So, let´s say for the first 30 minutes I was simply taken away by the valuable task I had, but then... it started to feel meaningless and just a task. We were all together 8 ladies cleaning there and it took many many hours.

Well, this is just a part of my life: cleaning job. This task was just so extraordinary that I wanted to share it with you guys.

Otherwise, life is quite fine here, THE SUMMER is arriving, trees are a lot more green, evenings are bright and warm, the barbeque and cottage season 2008 was officially opened this last Wednesday, I can bike everywhere and I will bike everywhere :) So, things are not bad at all. And oh yeah, I will get a car!!! (It might mean that I´m not biking anywhere, at least while working, as the distances are rather long.) It will be my bery first own car. It will be seen here later, as soon as I just get it :)