Hi, long time since i have been here.
Doubt anyone still read blogs, because of other social media like twitter, instagram, snapchat etc ah. and Tumblr (though i use it to stalk blogs hahah) too~
I have been in a down mood, after 3 years, i ask myself, am i still good enough to reach out for the dream i'm trying to chase..
Things been rough, but i told myself to be stronger, because i know achieving the dream isn't easy.
Have been demoralised by a lot of stuffs, i doubt myself whether i can do it, parents want me to go to a normal course, and study normal thing, get a 9-6pm job, and earn money.
Money is something everybody need in this society, dream is a just dream.
Or it depends..
I had thought a lot about it, i still hasn't decided yet.
But i know one thing for sure, i will still continue to try auditioning for YST, and play music, but for now, i want to earn money and get a full time job.
But, knowing my parents and family, they don't want me to waste one year for it, they want me to study other courses, what can i do...
Confused mood, people told me to perserve on what i had worked hard, but money is one thing.
Do i have that ego to survive in the competitive industry, and become a successful musician?
Actually, when they asked me, i feel very confused because, i know i want to be a musician, but i like composing and arranging especially, enjoy arranging for ensembles etc.
I know my skills aren't there yet, but i'm working hard to improve and do more works, for friends and myself to play the work i done.
My POD is in a mess, and for one month, i couldn't get over the failure... which makes everything so messy.
and now, ending my DMAT life, i'm thinking where should i go next.