It has taken me forever to write about the birth of my babies. Some of that being I’ve been busy taking care of them, & the other part is I wasn’t sure if I wanted to share it. But I decided I wanted to if nothing else for myself. I know some of you read a little on my sister in laws blog along with some pictures she took but here is my story. So bare with me this is going to be long.
February 4th 2014 38 weeks and 1 day but who’s counting :). I was supposed to be induced at 3:00 a.m. but was instructed to call the hospital at 2:00am to make sure there was room. So I tried to get some sleep but lets be honest I didn’t get much. Kimball called the hospital for me and my worst fear came true, there was no room. I couldn’t control my emotions. I was so ready to become a mom and to be done being uncomfortable. Baby B had flipped head down around 34 weeks, in doing so he was pinching my sciatic nerve. So I was pretty uncomfortable. I kept calling the hospital and finally around 9:30 they told me I could come in. I hurried and got in the car and we were off! We checked in and got all hooked up. When we first got there I was at about a 3 1/2. As soon as they finished hooking me all up, in walked my support group. My mom and dad flew in to be with us, as well as my mother in law, my brother took off work and they got a baby sitter so they could hang out all day. My sister in law (kimball’s twin) who was taking pictures for us. By the time I got all settled in it was about 12:30 p.m. We chatted and hung out for a about an hour. When in walked my Dr. he checked me I was at a 4 -4 1/2 and with out telling me he broke the water of baby A (Hudson) Him breaking my water didn’t hurt at all, It was a weird feeling but it didn’t hurt. After a little while of hanging out again my sister in law could see that the contractions were getting stronger and closer together. I was trying to breath through them and wanted to go as long as i could. Crazy I know but I wanted to see what contractions felt like to see if what I had been feeling for the last two weeks were really contractions. I guess I wasn’t hiding the pain enough because my nurse told me I could get the epidural at anytime so I decided it was time. I got the epidural around 2:30p.m. SIDE NOTE I wasn’t really worried about the epidural hurting i know i’m weird I was more worried about the iv in my hand cause I could see it. I guess if I can’t see it, it can’t hurt lol. ANYWAY the epidural didn’t hurt at all. After getting it my sister in law wanted to take pictures with just kimball and I in the room. I was super grateful for this not only because she captured some amazing pictures but it was the first time Kimball and I were alone since checking in and we needed that moment together. After some photo’s the crew came back in and I was feeling AMAZING! No one told me that the epidural would make me feel like I was high! (most people still tell me that they didn’t get that side effect with it) I don’t know if it was because it was the first time in a month or so that I felt comfortable and relaxed or it that is just how my body reacts to epidurals either way I was LOVING IT! It was about 4-4:30 by this time. We were taking bets on my time of delivery and weights of the babies, I guessed I would deliver around 8:00pm. My nurse came in right after we all finished guessing to check me. She gave me a huge smile and said “well that was fast your a 9.” I looked at her and said “I’m sorry what?” She laughed and said your going to have babies soon! I was so shocked, I wasn’t ready. I was prepared for a way longer labor. She came back about 45 min later (which I swear felt like only 5 min) and said your a 10 lets start getting ready to push! I was so scared! My dad, brother and mother in law left to the waiting room and in came everyone that was going to be involved. Now when I say everyone let me tell you who that is... My mom, sister in law Kristi, My sister (on face time. She wanted so badly to be apart of this and I wish she was there too. BUT I choose to have her come out after the boys were born to help me so this was a way for her to be apart of it) Sister in law Angie (taking pictures), Kimball of course, My RN, my CNA, the CNA who was with me during the day wanted to stay and watch ( she was a student and had never seen a twin birth before.) 4 nurses for the boys, my Dr and his nurse! YES I had 13 people in my delivery room. Talk about chaotic. My nurse was dying when she asked me if I had taken my birthing classes and I told her no, She replied with “well then you have seen a vaginal birth then right?” I kind of laughed and said “well on you tube” She was dying of laughter and shock! She looked at me and said “You mean to tell me that we are about to deliver twins off of you tube video’s? Me laughing I replied “Yep you got that right!” After pushing for about 5 min in walked my Dr ready to deliver babies! He had me push a couple more times and when Baby A (Hudson) was crowning he had me stop so he could do one last ultrasound to make sure they were both still head down and doing good. Sure enough they were! I pushed a few more times and Hudson was here! It was so surreal, no one can ever tell you what that feeling is like when you first lay eyes on your baby! He gave out a good cry, I was in love! (My Dr even made him wave at me, he was having fun!) They laid him on my chest I was staring at every inch of him just taking it all in. As I was doing so I also knew I still had another baby to deliver. My Dr was talking to my RN and I heard the words Breach. Harper flipped! They think that one of two things happened. Either Harper finally had room and decided to swim around, OR their feet were touching and when Hudson came out it flipped Harper either way he was breached. I still had Hudson on my chest but I could feel the Dr moving my stomach around. I literally could see my stomach crawling and it was not my baby! They finally took Hudson so I could focus on delivering Harper. I remember seeing my Dr face get serious and being mad at the nurse because she was trying to put bracelets on Kimball and I. I now know she was trying to distract us from what was going on. My Dr was elbow deep (sorry for being graphic) trying to grab Harper and while doing this Harpers sack ruptured! It was go time my baby wasn’t getting oxygen. PS they did not tell me this at the time! All I knew was my Dr was getting serious. He just grabbed onto whatever he could and pulled hard! Out came Harper by one foot! Kimball describes it as one foot, his butt, shoulders, head and other foot at the same time! I was so excited to see my Harper baby but what happened next I wasn’t prepared for. The Image I have yet to get out of my head. Harper flopping over my Dr.’s arm not crying. The room was silent and the nurses took him right away. I didn’t even see his face! I had no idea what was going on! My Dr tried to distract me by asking if I wanted to hold Hudson again, I felt like I was in a daze. I remember telling everyone my biggest fear was not hearing that cry when they were born! I was not hearing Harper cry! I told the Dr “NO I just want to hear B cry, I just want to hear him cry!” Right then Harper looked back at me and let out the tiniest cry. I can not begin to describe what that sounded like besides a slice of heaven! I had never loved a babies cry so much in my life! My Dr looked up and said “ There you go are you ok now?” I nodded and looked around to see where Hudson was. He was in my mom’s arms falling asleep but too asleep. The next thing I see is a nurse rushing him out of my mom’s arms. He was not breathing like he should! I was so overwhelmed at this point. No one was talking to me, I had no idea what was going on with my babies, me, or really anyone. The best way I can describe the next hour or so is it felt like a movie scene where there is something super chaotic going on and the person who is watching it sees everything in slow motion. I honestly don’t remember anything after this point. I have no recollection of holding my babies together wrapped up in blankets, Kissing them or even staring at them! The next thing I remember is everyone leaving the room. Kimball going with the boys to the nursery and everyone following to see them through the nursery window. I was so grateful as I turned to see my mom had stayed behind to be with me. She looked at me and I must have given her a confused look cause she asked “are you ok sissy?” I started crying! I kept saying “what just happened? I’m so overwhelmed.” She hugged me and told me everything was ok! The nurse came in and explained to me that they took the boys to the nursery just to be checked out for their breathing. She assured me that they were fine they just wanted to monitor it for an hour or so. While they were in the nursery Harper was having a harder time breathing and the nurse decided to break the rules and put them in the same bed to see if that would help. Sure enough as soon as Harper got next to his brother his breathing picked up and evened out! The miracles of twins and the bond that they have right off the back I will never get over! The boys did amazing and we were all released to go home together as a family! I can not put into words how much I love these babies of mine! After struggling to get pregnant and wanting these babies for so long it was worth everything. If someone were to ask me if I would do everything over again. All the tears, heartaches, shots, drugs, pain etc I would not even have to think twice. I would go through it 1,000 more times if it meant I got these miracle babies out of it!
This was the first time i saw harper.
This is his first cry!
