Bear with it!

I guess I got up from the wrong side of bed today. It has been an eventful day I guess. But, nothing good, nothing productive. In fact, I got more irritable and frustrated. I kinda envy CY, cos right now, I’m holding back every second of my life. However, sometimes I do let go and burst out. Of course, it will result in repercussions which I have to bear with the rest of my life. Let’s see, how many times I had control my temper? 5 times. And I only had one outburst. That’s kinda a new record I guess?

I’m thinking how I turned out like that. I wasn’t like this before. Was it the pressure to succeed in exams? I suppose so. Sometimes I wish I could take a break, a breather and see things from a different perspective. But I don’t even have the time to do things I love most. What more?

Shiyun’s in university now. What the? Haha! And I don’t know why the hell she came back to Singapore to do economics in NTU. She might as well stay in Aussie since she was in Trinity College! I’m jealous. She’s got a place in uni, while I’m still struggling for one.

Anyway, we found a black cat in school. I named him Kris. I’m seriously contemplating calling the Cat Society/ SPCA to give him a better home than school. He’s hungry and homeless. And! He may even get the chance of being adopted into a family which can shower lil’ Kris with love. =)

Jane Doe

It’s deceptive. It may not seem like a harmful object, but it is. Painful. We can’t seem to accept the fact. We need to fight to keep ourselves in the race before it’s too late. It’s going down. We’re going to make sure of that and dam right we are.

Geography Mock tomorrow. I’m screwed. The Rally is taking up my time, but I can’t seem to get my eyes of it. Crap. Like I said, I’m screwed.

When you lose your way, it's just as well

It’s been one hell of a week. It started off badly but as time went on, it got a little better. For one, two teachers took medical leave, leaving us some free time. Not that I’m gloating at their misfortune or anything, but it was a well-loved time where I could rest my little head for a moment or so.

The class had so much fun on Wednesday. We didn’t really feel like going for the GP mock exam in the afternoon, and somehow, about an hour just before it started, we started coming up with tons of excuses that could get us off. Here are some of the stuff that we came up with:

1. ‘As we are walking down the stairs, one of us will fall and trigger off a domino effect. We’ll be injured that we can’t do the paper…’
2.‘Halfway during the paper, we all should start crying, and they will think we’ll all stressed and send us for counseling’
3.Greg should lose his tablet and we shall use 3 hours helping in the search

These are only some of the ones that I can remember vividly. I laughed so much that day that it got me all tired out during the paper. Sam and I even fell asleep during essay! Oh! And Happy Belated Birthday of Lizzie! Hey gurl! I hope you had a smashing day. And yes, I’m waiting. Haha!

Geography Mock got pushed back to Monday so we have more time to study. But I kinda doubt so. Saturday’s been taken up by the talk at NUS and Sunday… Well, just say Sundays are busy day for me. It’s been one of the crappy day in school. I’ve never been so angry for the whole day. That person is lily-liver’d freak! I found it so funny when fang noticed that *’ahem’ was shaking when ‘ahem’ was TRYING to scold us. What irks me what that ‘ahem’ didn’t bother clarifying, causing another blast session. And a letter? Dream on! What a waste of my time, my paper and pen ink, and of course, Cassie’s artwork. Hehehe…

*“ahem” is a precaution in case someone ELSE reads this

Rachel! If you’re reading this, drop me a comment. I need to ask you something. =)

Welcome to existence

It has been one hell of a week! I thought with the national day holidays, it’ll be a time of relaxation and recuperation. Well, I did manage to recuperate. I’m feeling no pain any longer. All thanks to some unorthodox method of coconut and virgin coconut oil. It really surprises me and I thanks God for it.

This week, a couple of things happen. Some, I’m not even sure how true it is. I’m saddened by the turn of events. We were inseparable. But since the day we took different paths, we should have foreseen that this will happen.

It’s Melvyn’s birthday today! Happy birthday Melvyn! =D You’re finally 18 and can get your own alcohol. Haha! What happened to the party you were supposed to organize huh? National Day just passed, and I was recollecting all the fun times that we had last year at the padang. When we were bored, we would just sneak off to the Esplanade for a breather. Great times! Bleah! Thanks for your friendship and the fun memories (even though the 3 of you call me brudder) Take care yeah? And catch up soon!

Geography mock sucked. I couldn’t think of what to write. Bah! What an end to the week!

I don't want to run away

Is the sixth sense an accurate judge of the situation? In the past, it was. But, its status now is clearly unknown. There are the vibes, but one cannot be too sure. Critics will always be the first to point out that sensitivity is making a fool out of everyone. It’s been so long, but nothing remains changed. It may have in fact gotten worse. One should always exercise self restrain, no matter how hard/tough it may be. This is how cruel the world can be.

When it comes to situations like this, it’s best to forget about it. However, this is always easier said than done. It tugs the very little conscience of one’s bare soul and tries to rip it apart. Laughters and fun everywhere. But in one quiet corner of the bare room, there lies someone - someone who wishes for things to be different, to be better.

I can’t think anymore. That’s all I can think of for now. Whenever I try to think, the pain comes back. It’s worrying me. I don’t want to have another attack. It’s been years, and it shouldn’t happen now. It’s probably gonna keep me awake the whole night. I tried to rest earlier on, but I just couldn’t. It has got me back up sitting.

I yearn for it. It’s a question whether I get it.