I have been such a bad blogger lately. I just can't find the time! It takes so long for pictures to load, and I can't blog while doing other things--like say, watch a child, or spend time with my husband. So it's kind of fallen by the way side lately.
Which is unfortunate, as I really really like blogging! I want to do it as regularly as I used to, even a month ago. I don't know how I used to fit it in.
Wanna know where "mommy brain" comes from? Not from losing brain cells or anything like that. It's from too much to keep track of. At any given minute of any day you are always thinking about 3 hours ahead and planning for those next three hours. Then you're using whatever brain power you have left to focus on what you are doing
presently. And that's why I feel like an idiot most of the time. I can't remember anything.
I don't know what's going to happen when we have more kids. Or just when Malcolm gets older! I don't have time to do anything because I'm too busy doing everything!
Stuff I'm doing:
household chores
feeding baby
playing with baby
"enriching" baby
trying to train for a triathalon (TRY being the operative word)
planning what to make for dinner
maybe showering
finding leaking water in the basement
pureeing vegetables into baby food
finding some excuse to leave the house (I'm pretty sure there must be
something I need at Costco...)
Visiting teaching
Young Women's
laundry
reading
cutting tiny fingernails off before they scratch tiny faces
letting the cat out/in
picking up baby, putting baby down, picking up baby, putting baby down
facebooking and taking pictures on my phone
watching my son do 8 million ridiculously adorable things all day long
Really, the list could go on and on.
Some very simple things I wish I could just squeeze a bit more time in for:
playing the piano
praying
time with Ryan when I am not already absolutely exhausted
exercising my brain--learning something new
Calling a friend on the phone
Have you seen the movie Date Night? Steve Carrell's character asked Tina Fey's character if she fantasizes about Mark-E Mark's character and her reply?: That she fantasizes about being alone in a room with no noise.
I have that fantasy.
Though noise is not the problem since Malcolm isn't that noisy.
I fantasize about one day, just one day, where I don't have to do anything. No responsibilities. No callings. No chores. No phone. No internet. No tv.
Probably a pool and some sunshine.
And someone else watching my child when he's cranky and I'll play with him when he's happy and I feel in the mood.
And Ryan, well fed and well slept and in the mood he gets at about 10 am that I usually miss because he's working where he gets sort of giddy and tells all sorts of witty jokes and goofs off. Damn lucky co-workers of his.
That's my fantasy.
What's yours?