If any of you were following my blog just prior to Charlie's arrival, you know that I was REALLY hoping to NOT be induced this time around. Even Thursday night, after we dropped Abram off at Shayne and Emily's house, I was still hanging on to a small hope that I could start during the night or my water would break!
Well, our alarm clock went off at 4 AM, no labor, and we prepared to head to the hospital. The drive to the hospital was full of excitement and anticipation as we looked forward to meeting our new little boy soon! The induction was scheduled for 5 AM, and at this point, I was very okay with being induced....just excited!
By 5:45 AM, we were settled in to Labor and Delivery Room #15, and the pitocin was starting to drip into my I.V. line. It was a huge, beautiful room, equipped with a large jacuzzi tub, a wall full of different massaging shower head options, and a birthing ball....perfect for someone opting for a natural childbirth experience! But, Ryan and I had decided that we were going to have an epidural administered this time. With Abram, we really wanted to go through the experience naturally, and it was a wonderful thing--we both actively worked together to bring Abe into the world! Ryan was truly my partner and coach, and he helped me through every contraction. As much as we enjoyed the experience, we thought it might be really special, in a different sort of way, to go through labor without all the pain. This time, we looked forward to just sitting together, spending time just the two of us, while we talked about the future and our soon-to-be family of four. As I talked with the nurse who was starting my IV, she expressed her own experience as being just that--she just kind of "hung out" until it was time to push! That sounded so wonderful! It was that type of experience that I was mentally prepared for this time.
From 5:45 to 7:15, I had a few small contractions, and my cervix only dilated 1 centimeter during that time. I remained only 3 centimeters dilated, so we prepared for a baby by early evening. We had expressed that we wanted an epidural, and the nurse asked if we would be okay with them breaking my bag of waters before administering that epidural. Because of the snowstormthat morning, the anesthesia team was understaffed and would not be able to come to give the epidural until 8 AM. We said, "Yeah, that's fine!" We reasoned that after they broke my water with Abe, the contractions picked up immediately and he was born 4 hours later. But, my pitocin was already up to 20 mu per minute (the maximum dosage). With my pitocin currently only at 7 mu/minute, we felt like it would be fine to go ahead and break the water and allow labor to hopefully pick up a little...I could handle a few tough contractions before the anesthesiologist came at 8!! At 7:30, the resident on staff came and broke my water. Immediately, I was in a tremendous amount of pain. The anesthesiologist came to do the epidural at 7:45, and after just 15 minutes of intense contractions, I was so ready for the relief! She said it would take about 20 minutes to administer, and I should feel the effects right away. The relief would reach its full effect within 20 minutes. They asked Ryan to step out and began to prep me.
Half an hour later, at 8:15, the anesthesiologist was concerned that I was feeling no relief from contractions. In fact, they just kept getting worse. The nurse checked me, and I was dilated to a 5. She was impressed with my progress (2 cm in an 45 minutes) and told me we would probably have a baby by lunch. At this time, the pain was so intense--I asked if Ryan could come back in the room, and they called him in. He was starting to get worried, because they had kept him out for so long, but the nurse and the anesthesiologist were just preoccupied over the poor effects of the epidural. When Ryan came back in the room, I was clinging on to the side of the bed rail, crying out in pain. He had completely expected to come in to see a happy, relaxed wife, ready to enjoy the rest of the labor, and instead, I was crying, writhing in pain! He rushed to my side and tried to calm me down. At this point, I was nearly out of control. I was contorting my body in all sorts of strange patterns trying to find relief--I cannot imagine what this scene must have looked like to a bystander!! At one point, I remember screaming, "Somebody please help me!" Ryan started crying too, as he was completely unprepard for this and hated seeing his wife in pain. Looking back, I think it was definitely a "mind-over-matter" sort of thing. Because I had been "promised" relief in just 20 minutes, I was now hoping/expecting every contraction to get better, and they were only becoming more intense.
The anesthesiologist returned with another bolus of pain medication; because my body was progressing so quickly, the epidural wasn't able to get a hold over the contractions, so they had to play catch-up. She quickly ran all of the medication into my line. The nurse checked me again, and in just 15 minutes, I had gone from a 5 to an 8, hence the seemingly never-ending, super-strong contractions. They quickly called the doctor who was just pulling into the parking structure. Right as the doctor ran into the room, I felt the full effect of the medication hit me like a truck. I lay on the bed completely motionless, unable to move. The doctor checked me and said, "Okay, let me get my gown on and we'll have a baby!"
With the epidural finally working and the labor behind me, the actual delivery experience was so incredible. Unlike the chaotic whirlwind of my previous pushing experience, this time was very slow. Even with the epidural, I could still feel enough to push effectively; but, because I couldn't feel the contractions any more, the nurse told me when to push. Ryan and I were both able to see what was happening this time, and it was SO emotional! Just a few minutes later, at 8:55 AM, Charles Ryan Funk was born.
Okay, now rewind to the beginning when I said I REALLY wanted to NOT be induced...after the delivery, the doctor said, "Wow, I'm so glad we ended up inducing you, and we were in a controlled setting!" He went on to explain that because my pitocin was only at 7, my body was right on the verge of labor and only needed a little jump start. Had I gone on my own at home, by the time I realized that it was the "real deal" it could have been highly likely that we wouldn't have made it to the hospital on time, as the active portion of my labor was only around 45 minutes. Because Charlie came through the birth canal so quickly, I suffered quite a bit of damage, including two major blood vessels, causing me to lose a significant amount of blood. While the unknown obviously cannot be known for certain, there could have been potential for a very dangerous outcome.
It just caused me to pause a moment and be thankful that God had everything planned out. There is no reason to ever questions His ways, though sometimes (oftentimes) they are different than our own. On top of the medical aspect of it all, it worked out wonderfully with family being able to come up and with Ryan's school schedule. We have been blessed with a beautiful baby boy, and my heart just swells with joy when I think about it all! I feel so unworthy. Who are we, that God is mindful of us? That he would not only just care for our needs, but that He would give us rich blessings on top of it all? It's all just very overwhelming as I consider it all. Thank you Jesus! We praise Your Holy Name!
And now for the pictures:
Me and Abe before we took him to Shayne and Emily's:
5:45 AM--ready to go!
Daddy's arm reaching out to cut the cord:
Meeting my baby boy:
Daddy and his boy:
We made it!
Abe meeting Charlie for the first time:
Our family of 4:
Good morning Charlie!
Ready to go home!!
