excess baggage.
managing your excess baggage is a tricky business.tidying up the past was something i never really bothered doing properly.
worries about the past, superimposed upon worries of the ever fluid present (every moment passed in the present becomes the past).... u derive a potent bag of anxieties enough to occupy the whole of africa (throw in antarctica too).
sleeping becomes a chore, a certain duration of sleep can no longer deliver the amount of rest once promised, and you wake up with headaches, wellwell, you know its time to clear up your excess baggage.
the to-do list is never-ending but there's no drive to do whats impt and get through with it. like the calories, (from incessant snacking to avoid thinking about the implications of not touching the to-do list), they pile up continuously.
its very defeatist to say that you're burnt out...
i'm still finding ways to let myself really take a break from the problems AND thinking abt the problems. but somehow the usual stuff cant rejuvenate me enuff to sustain long and well as before..
watching tv, vcds, listening to songs, piano-fiddling, not even meals/outings with frens! (the horrors) or dreaming about the prospect of events to come post-exam..
wondering whether what i need is just a long trip abroad?
anyway i better deal with this somehow.. hopefully in time for focusing on the big Es.
Wishing everyone inner peace and contentment amidst all the madness thats been going on these days.
posted by jias tham @ 9:21 AM
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