its summer alright.
its just before bedtime and i thought i'd check in here for a leetle while..:)
wahh its sweltering hot lah.. summer's here alright. time to hit the beach!!! =)
hahaha. i've allowed myself to daydream quite a bit today. (not that i dont regularly. today there's just even more than usual hehe.)
so there we have it.
my top five fantasies.
1. an air ticket to europe for tomorrow landing at my feet this instant. (top it up with an all expenses-paid shopping/sightseeing trip package!)
2. air ticket to taiwan arrives in the mail. plus passes to visit the set where filming of any show that stars chang shao han, xu shao yang and huo jian hua all together in it takes place.
3. xu shao yang(or a man who looks like him)comes up to me with an offer to star in a television series.
4. an sms/phonecall, to tell me i'm up for a 04A12/huangcheng/403 chalet this weekend. an IM to tell me i'm supposed to be at a 7788 bbq now.
5. an sms from xuefen telling me tomorrow's econs lesson is cancelled.
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sadly, the last one appeared to be the only one that was possible. or had
any possibility of occuring at all. sigh.
lol. at my boliao-ness.
better go sleep early..:)
tomorrow's another day!
haha. love ya peeps.
do drop a tag if u can.:)
erase-
gosh monday is here again in a FLASH.. hahaha..
anyway.. pardon the sentimentality in the previous entry.. hehe..
yep.. been quite a weekend. been trying to live my life the way i want as much as possible these days...before i enter THE phase. haha.. so i cheered probably like i was never gonna cheer again in my life for the bball finals on friday... found my palms red and sore from all the clappin when i woke up next morning. haha. great fun. dear chong let us off early!! :):) super cool of her. hope her mood's lifted with the news..yay our first sports gold. :)
stayed back with jing at the spectators' stand to wait for wl who's clearing up and havin her council debrief.. sat and watched the stadium empty out..and resume its cool and quiet interior.. saw new banners being unfolded for a new match, new guest of honour, new everything. hahaha was being philosophical and telling jing..ahh.. see, these matches of life are being replayed on the courts every other day.. teams come and go..exalted moments of spirit and passion.. emerge and subside in a smooth flow.. in an instant.. the court is just a court again...
haha. kk. erps myself.
yep.so it came to dinner. and it was very precious one for me. to get to catch up with wl together with jing. missed talking to her terribly. hahaha it was an exciting one cos of our efforts to gather intelligence reports too..=X
shall elaborate in due course if possible.
at the foodcourt.. bumped into funnyman jh lol..
whom i performed the silly trick on,
thus his only line of dialogue to me became
"鸡蛋,被骗了."
hahaha rocks. *schmilez*
yay watched rgcd performance with wl and lotsa juniors and fai jessie huiru jinx vinz.. :) haha pretty cute lah..we were thoroughly tickled by sk's perf.. though must say the night ended on quite a sad note. was filled with nostalgia plus a sense of loss and regret.. the state of school drama has been on a decline (from the way i see it) ever since dont know when... i was shocked and perturbed by the way attitudes and values have evolved in the juniors and people i once worked with...and the way i myself have been altered internally.
a shock and sadness which i hope can be reduced with an acquired sense of maturity and optimism towards the things that must change in life.
sigh. i miss those good ol' carefree days.
sat i didnt do much. cept rot at home with my thurs/fri dolphin bay episodes and ah wang adventures... haha.. at night went out hunting for a new iron for the house with my dad.
sun. went shopping for clothes to wear to my cousin's wedding. and new sports shoes.
been a long time since i last attended a wedding dinner. haha.. phew. actually cant stand having to be so formal and all made up with heels and stuff.. just for a family event, with the added challenge of dealing with lotsa aunts and uncles. i guess its inevitable(hate the word sometimes). gah. sometimes wish i was born a son. maybe can just throw on a long-sleeved shirt and long pants..slap on some hair gel and be off. and at least be in the comfort of walking properly on two feet.hehs bleh.
exciting. gotta go travel down a time tunnel now. to relive the 20th century.
cya folks. :)
going back.
a song that now lingers in my head.
Dedication
we have shared our morning days
and gone through all rainy nights
even in the darkest of night
stars still light up our way
tomorrow is a beautiful dream
a dream that will be fufilled
cross the bridge of rainbow
in search of the gold
for here we stand (for here we stand)
our dearest friend (our dearest friend)
sincerely from our hearts we wish (from our hearts we wish)
may streams of sunlight
shine like rays of gold
hand in hand
we work and strive
for the best things in life
(for the best things in life)
a song dearly missed.
went back to rgs to watch the rg cd performance today.
after everything..we were still waiting around for people..
somehow me and wl found our way to the hall..amazed to see at that hour..it was brightly lit and open.
the moment i stepped in and felt that familiar cool rush of the aircon...beneath my feet..the brown lacquered floor..lifted my head and saw the huge grey framed front with the big school crest at the top.. the two rustic brown panels at the side..with the gold lettering...the listing of years..and names..of principals..head prefects..(running from the 1900s til 2005)..the grand piano..the gallery high up.. the clock with the big white face and black numbering above the entrance which consisted of the tall brown doors..
the same old smell of the hall was still there. i took a deep breath and cried.
sisters in learning and sisters at heart. RGS Class of 2003.
who's got the groooove?
haha went to watch body language yest..mainly to support hanz..:)
was really impressed by what i saw... on the whole the participating groups were pretty cool man..but their styles were quite different.. wonder how the judges judged.. esp liked the cucumbers (xy! xy! xy!) for their funk and energy..:) yihan's group was the chiobu sexayy group man.. then huiyan totally rocked the stage with her hot hot moves.... woohoo.. i got a bit high after the whole thing.. was also filled with immense regrets and jealousy. haha. i cant groove to save my life.
lol.
the audi was pretty filled leh.. which i didnt expect.. lotsa pple supporting the event! :)
oh yes. spotted familiar faces at the m.a.d. item too.. the j1s one.. haha.. a mini huangcheng gathering of sorts..haha..was quite astounded when i spotted them..hehs.
yay cucumbers won. :) huiyan's great groovy moves earned her group second. while sexayy yihan and her sistas charmed their way to third place. -grins-
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today.. i've been in prolonged -thinking- mode.
about things perceived recently becoming more apparent and frequent somewhat.. hais. which i am probably not really in the capacity to talk about. jing says i read too much into things.. really hope to persuade myself it really is so. then maybe i can fight off this weariness that plagues me everytime i wake up and start to face the world.
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actually ran to body lang with fourdollars from the overseas ed talk... after US reps were talking.. haha.. i dont know why i've somehow been really caught up with finding out more about all the different uni courses and overseas opportunities.. browsing thr prospectus after prospectus.. websites after websites.. not sure what sparked it off..
there's this nagging desire to escape. which ought to be a bad reason for wanting to go overseas for studies..right?..
today i got this pink wristband for free from the british council reps.. that says:
Live Life.
pretty cool huh. kinda part of the whole thoughts about singapore that sprung up in my head esp after reading catherinelim's article last sunday..
and probably also.. after
reading too much into the behaviour of people i noticed around me lately..
(old habits sure die hard.) :P
just quite disturbed by the kind of apathy we have been somewhat conditioned to display...
its so hard for people to choose to engage in something out of mere passion...
just so difficult to try and be passionate about something...
so hard to love and accept the people around u without condition...
maybe because its increasingly difficult to live on passion alone anymore.
and passion itself can fade away.
the guarantee of survival provided by practicalities, or our supposed disillusionment with the non-practical, have flushed out our capacities to live and love life with cynicism. have they?
is it just me being idealistic, and foolish again.
maybe i'm just upset with myself. fed up with being so quick to judge others, before myself.
new template!!
yay new template!
ahh.. its pink. hmm. haha.
tagboard is still dere..on the right! do hope you'll scroll around and hunt for it :)
hai tun wan craze is on.... :)
cant wait till wednesday... yet afraid of its ending soon.
shucks. hate being so torn everytime.. bout rather silly things..
so exciting. have to go do my lit essay now...:(
cant believe my weekend flew by just like that... cant stand it argh.
happy mother's day mama. and grandmama. :)
hohoho. love this song. :) haha.. its from hai tun wan! just found out a while ago tt corinne may wrote and sang it... ahh..:) so talented! yep and i think chang shao han does a fantabulous job on it too....:) -gushes again bout the show-
Journey
its a long long journey
til i know where i'm supposed to be
its a long long journey
and i dont know if i can believe
when shadows fall and block my eyes
i'd be lost and know that i must hide
its a long long journey
til i find my way home to you
many days i've spent
drifting on through empty shores
wondering what's my purpose
wondering how to make me strong
i know i will falter
i know i will cry
i know you will be standing
by my side
its a long long journey
and i need to be close to you
sometimes i feel no one understands
i dont even know why i do the things i do
when pride builds me up til i cant see my soul
will you break down these walls
and pull me throughcos its a long long journey
til i find my way home to you.
:)ahh.
kaekae. back to homework. wah.
happiness. and goodbye.
DEAR JUNIORS..
to me..
you all have created another miracle..am super duper proud of ya all.
*bounces about and screams*
its been really hard work for all of ya all this while...
ahhh...xin ku le..
love ya all!! :)
hope ya all can always remember to stay open-minded..willing to learn..and keep striving to improve k? most importantly..must keep that spirit going!!! :)
i'm chao excited. dont know where all the extra energy is to go to cept to scream.
all the weeks that passed by with these fears..doubts..insecurities..uncertainties..finding their way into our hearts and minds...
sometimes its just hard to even dream...?
now that its one dream come true. hope it'll be a boost for ya all.. to love what u do even more :)
jiayou k, 05/06-ers. :)
we rawk.
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this year's sports day was made really memorable..cos of wonderful classmates..:)
its great to be able to cheer ur hearts out without any qualms at all alongside them. we were saying no one would believe we were j2... screaming away and being so high the whole time..:) think we impressed the councillors.. lol.. yay! thanks for a great sports day people. :) ares rox. haha. and i lurrve a12. -beams-
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear daddy. :)
had a really sumptuous dinner today at a thai-chinese restaurant...
dad burfday cum mothers' day dinner -beams-
sis bought shui2 hu3 zhuan4 vcd for my dad which we all shared and i'm chao amused that we did.... hahaha..remember how he used to love watching that series tat was aired every sunday afternoon.. how that macho-"Big River Flows Majestically to the the East/Heroes and Good men Look Up to the Northern Star"-theme song would ring thru the house every week when it ended. hope he likes it..:) yay. once we get that vcd player in his room up and running, it becomes his licence to be a couch potato. :)
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next week's vesak day.
we get a long weekend again:)
i'm typing erratically already. eyelids having trouble staying uP where they ought to be. *yawn*
rest well people :)
yet another week has gone by. so soon.
to be brave.
想不开
发了呆
思绪被回忆催眠
心事在徘徊
醒过来
想让自己能自由自在
可是心情很坏
感觉还在
别放纵你的爱
让我以为你还想重来
谁能不被爱伤害
终究还是明白真情不在
只好回头装冷漠
按捺摇摆的心
强迫自己要看开
谁能不被爱伤害
只想试着面对
试着开怀
小心你的爱.
[
越想逃避越是知道自己无法忘记]
and the second/
pray i dont get the tuesday blues...
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mood: +wanderer+
stomach filled with: barbecued food=)
head filled with: what life will be like after today.
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hmm.
=P
first of may.
wow.. May is here in a flash!! :)
thats super fast..
haha.. just came back from class outing at Sentosa!! =) all burnt and sticky and sandy and salty.
lotsa beachvolleyball...frisbee...:) wheeeee... great fun.
haha even tho..it turned out to be a pure senior class outing in the end..
sentosa was suPerRR crowded today lah... the bus queue at harbourfront interchange was just MAAAAd...queued from the bus queue all the way to the walkway from the mrt... haha.. people people..
was still a memorable time spent lah..:)
tanning. talking.. soaking up the sea breeze...
yay..its been great fun!
fengyi, kaiyun, jinmei.. ni men you xin le. :)
will never forget the way we held up the entire canvas sheet over our heads and walked to the toilet in the rain as one mobile "Shelter" unit.. lol... =D being aa (rather unintentionally)again...
hope they're enjoying their marina steamboat dinner...hehehes :)
was also very fortunate to have been in the company of another bunch of really funky people yesterday... -beams-
huangcheng peeps went to support the xiaopin yesterday.
woohoo.. pretty interesting all the other performances..
after one whole month of prep.. finally came to the prelims for ze dear juniors.
woohoo..
we got in the finals!!! =D
wanna say... JIAYOU, JIAYOU, JIAYOU somemore! =)
haha yup.. after that some of us j2s trooped down to PS for dinner.. haha.. super crowded as any other place in singapore would be on weekends.. we restaurant-hopped so much i lost count.. til we finally ended up at swensen's. phew.
yay then the eleven of us decided to squeeze into one neoprint machine for the usual round of not-so-cheap thrill of *neoprint taking* haha..:) yayy it turned out really nice..despite the squeeze... lol.. =)
huangcheng spirit kae.. nothing is impossible.
*schmilez*
+aj.fai.yuexin.jiayin.ginhean.zhaoyang.wanyi.soonkiat.jias.alvin.xinyu.30042005+
MayDay MayDay!
have a great holiday dears. =)
meanwhile i'll hafta go slap on some aloe v and start peeling all the loose skin.
