taking time off-->
i remember when the two of them first stood upfront..the 200-strong gang of us..
sharing their experiences and how they feel about the production so far..
this j1 (still wide-eyed and small) was watching and listening to the two of them....
when they finished, there and then, did she turn to a daoju mate and thoroughly amused by their banter and energy and wit, she had said with a chuckle:
"他们很像DJ leh!"
she really did.
a little less than a year later, this funky, dynamic duo did clinch the top two prizes of the 933/958/972 nationwide deejay search... and send the lot of us bouncing in ecstasy and pride..:)
go kun and wen. :)
f o r j u s t b e i n g
chaojiwuditothepowerofntimes - cool. :)
warmest wishes for the time of their lives and great careers ahead! woohoo.
haha kk..anti-climax a bit..here's a little test i got from my sister's blog..have funn (=
| You Are a Visionary Soul |
 You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.
You have great vision and can be very insightful.In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul |
What Kind of Soul Are You?
thanks for all your lovely messages k...:) i dunno what i'd do without you people... -hugs-
grouch muses.
waah the week finally passed.. after all that happened on thurs and fri.. i almost thought it was never going to...haais..
something wrong with me in the later half of the week.. been somewhat irritable and irrational...extremely clumsy in talkin to people.. offended the whole world apparent..shall see my name recorded in some list of world-hates. :(
must curb the use of expletives... haha.. really sorry to my friends who've had to bear with my outbursts when they just came.. arghhH.
i dunno why so many things are going wrong in school..... k..maybe not wrong things..just unhappy, unsettling ones...
was i being overly altruistic over the x- country episode?.. going on with all my talk about how its just a "for the class" thing...thats just a "go and have fun" thing..that it doesnt take much sweat (err only in the literal sense) to put ur name down and just go for it... pained me quite a bit when all i got were "Whatever" looks.. and "why dont YOU go and join?" looks..
so the same episode repeats itself as with last year. its the rise of the Just Send Whoever Bothers, Cause-I-certainly-Dont Principle! (bring on the pearls and cip hours! napfa As! *waves shining graduation certs*)
yah i'm being a b... here..
again..i'm just venting. i know i myself have my misdeeds..and probably a part to blame.... know everyone else was unhappy and angry in some way as well..
haii....maybe i was wrong in my thinking maybe i dont really know whats going on at all..
at least its kinda all blown over now...
though i dont really know if we may be shoving
more fundamental problems under the carpet again..its gonna be catastrophic housekeeping when things, erupt. one day.
sigh.
the dynamics of our class... have my ideals been too warped? or..... am
I warped to be so idealistic in the first place?
i
really have to sort out my thinking and grow up
soon.
yah..so the week just kept going downhill from there.. with me finding fault and losing my temper at everything.. badmouthing people..(insert anything)..bossing others..demanding not negotiating with others like for venues (sorry, sorry, sorry.)... yah..became a wreck and became the newest addition to the world-hate list haha...or simply reaffirmed my original place there. hohoho..
sighs.
haha kk theres a lot of rubbish rattling. shall stop uttering nonsense bout the week past...
just hope everything will be better. for the days, for the weeks, and months ahead. everything.
hey..if u've had a horrendous week too..hope u'll believe that it wont get any worse from there..
tomorrow will be better!.. haha.. hang in there k :)
yes.. have a happy pre-cny week. (:
next stop: emptiness/
four years of worksheets, handouts, drawings, little sketches and scribbles, practicals, graphs, figures, textbooks, workbooks, supplements, reports, notes, flyers, notices, letters, forms..
four years of memories..etched out in pens, pencils...of sweat, tears, sometimes blood..and there were the joys..
sold off for four bucks.
i found space again underneath my bed and in the shelves.. felt a slight tinge of emptiness as i saw the stacks and stacks of old stuff bundled up neatly in raffia, carefully balanced on top of one another on the karung guni man's trusty rusty trolley. with a firm grip of its handle, he plods slowly away..dragging off behind him another four years of another someone..
haha i have no idea why i'm so "gan3 xing4" bout this..maybe its been the dearth of notable experiences these days..
argh its sunday! another full week of school! arhh.
must say i really had a rather good rest this weekend :) watching quite a lot more tv..sleeping enough..eating to my heart's content..wandering bout the house..then today about a mall me and parents suddenly just felt like heading for..its nice to have spare time to go places and do what you feel like doing for a moment. no routine whatsoever.. so random,
so pleasant :)
kk..nuff reminiscing! haha.. do enjoy ur weekend while it lasts k? =)
finding space.
i ran here to catch a breather..to escape from the dust pile that is my room at the moment.
there's remnants of life dating back to seven years and before..........all. crammed into a space of about
3 X 4 m... where two adults (maid and me) happen to also sleep every night..
for the record, there is 1 mini hi-fi, 2 portable cd players, 5 handphones (working or non-working), >15 different bags for all occasions, >50 CDs, 10-odd posters, 20-odd photo albums, 100 pieces of ornaments (ranging from those that say "keep in touch!" to "thank you teacher"), >100 pieces of soft toys (seriously got a zoo.), stacks and stacks of storybooks. and. truckloads of sec school stuff....that i havent touched since o levels and cant bear to throw away..hai..
come visit one day wont you? i'll find a piece of floor for ya to put both feet in. haha. while i unload everything into the open.. i reckon i'll be doing martial arts..jumping and flying ala spiderman style from the entrance of my room to my bed every night.
hahaha ooh.. sHhhHh. these are my bedroom secrets...... hur hur.
my nose is gonna explode from dust infiltration. ARGH. call in the plumber.
i've got nothing better to do except sit here and survey the very messy and (at times) sticky(cos i find year-old sweets and chocs from last yr's huangcheng and elsewhere) situation from afar in my sister's room, in front of the computer. soothing dust filled brain and nasal passages.
gaaaaaahhhh.
haha meanwhile, do have a great weekend everyone. :)
i'll send u a postcard from the Junk Heap.....hohoho.
state of semi-consciousness
have been feeling the drawbacks of idealism and over-enthusiasm progressively each day..with numerous events, happenings, developments (or lack of them), occurences..news..(blah..)
maybe i've been living in my own bubble wrap for too long..rose-tinted glasses need a re-adjustment..
but i'm not depressed lah i think... was kinda prepared for a gradual "awakening" of some sort....or non-awakening... i dont know.. these inexplicable times...
gets tiring somewhat so u decide to shut urself to everything and just look at what u feel like looking at..
hmm..maybe i'm supposed to sweep it all away by saying....:
this is life?
i still remain somewhat optimistic.. strange-ly..i mean in some corner of my heart and brain..
still have urges to be crazy and bouncy and smiley and laughterrr-y at the wrongest times possible.. dont know why.
hope its more a good thing than a bad.... :P
but in the end.....do i
really think i know what i'm experiencing..just.. Life?..i mean.. do i really understand what it is to brush it all aside like that...
truth is i think i dont..
am probably just seeking the convenient way out.
...
niwae..huangcheng work officially began two days ago...
the beginning is always rough..
may even be..a little tougher this time than ever before..
its been hard on everyone.. must keep going strong k? =)
[hang on.]
packing up..
hey..
really grateful for all your words of encouragement. thank you, thank you.
so sorry if i made u all worry or upset in any way...really didnt mean to... yup. i've ranted and raveed, gonna spend time now to pick myself up. yep..
thanks for everything, really.
for believing in this big fat toot head..and listening to her lousy grouses.
:P
hehs.
kk..
have been many releases of really nice songs by really nice singers lately..:) very happy. whee. shuang qi dong wu by tanya..dao dai by jay..guei by david tao..jie shou by fish..xin zhong de ming yue by leehom and they're starting to play stefanie's tong lei on radio...whee...yay.. its really wonderful to have great tracks back after a whole long period of pure bubblegum pop (cheeeeeee-syyy...... *squeak*)....heh :)
great songs to move and touch..
okay bah i gtg now..
-stares longingly at nice warm pillow-
bahhh. tutorials.
:continued from the first:
got a lot of things on my mind these days..
i realise i'm enjoying school much more than around the same time last year somehow..weird right? haha..:) i think its because everyone's gotten closer after one year and having undergone a lot of things together... its a whole lotta fun..and warmth in the familiarity. :)
i feel a lot more drive and motivation to push thru with my academics this year.. so much more than last year..(sincerely wish its gonna be a permanent thing heh)..though i havent really improved much in terms of staying attentive and awake in class..meeting assignment deadlines and revision......
having the desire makes a good start anyway, right? :)
will try my best to make this a better year.. to lead a life that is more meaningful.. become a better person! haha..
dear friend ya must persevere too k?
yup.. so far huangcheng auditions have been the major highlight of my first week of 2005.
the experience was a lot more different than the auditions back at rgcd.. haha.. i mean my whole psyche and emotional state changed so much... see the very same rgcd juniors coming in.. i feel really old.. this auditions.. i learned a lot about how to curb bias-ness, to not be swayed by emotions and be professional and objective! felt really guilty about being so excited bout my juniors.. really wanna apologise for being so immature..
anyway it was a really good experience.. seeing people of all colours, shapes, sizes, personalities, talents... haha..:)
though i must say.. i really detest the squabbling.. though its really inevitable.. the inevitable clash of different mindsets..perceptions..personalities..working styles..choice. PLUS the lack of sleep and tons of homework weighing on my mind..have on many instances been majorly irritated..am terribly sorry if my attitude towards everyone has been atrocious. :( bear with me. i'm learning to curb my temper..
otherwise..its been hard work for everyone! not just the daodus, apms but also xingzhengs, chouweis in the waiting room and working hard to pull people..chuichangs for feeding us.. a big thank you! its our first major mini huangcheng work segment. jiayou for the days ahead!!!
..........
i really gotta learn to consolidate my thoughts faster... stop blogging and get off to my work and stuff blehh..
dunno if i should be saying this here..
sometimes i really dont know where i ought to step in at huangcheng.. my place in the scheme of things gets really blurry..there are times when i quietly put the blame on him. for the apparent redundancy of my presence as felt by the others... dunno if people are feeling that just one. was all along enough to run things. that day, Weilaoshi spoke to me..roughly bout the same thing lotsa people particularly seniors have been telling me. that i'm not speaking up enough, not coordinating things enough.. i know i shouldnt be thinking all this cos it could really be my own fault. as much as i tried to make myself believe when i voiced my desire to take up the responsibility- i guess i really dun have the charisma...am disorganised, inefficient, indecisive.. am probably more of a smiling girl standing up there, ready to chup in at any sort of thing as long as my idleness and kaypohness allows it. also the one who disappears home the earliest. sorry i wasnt there.
i really dont know who reads this... just need to vent thats all. its okay.. maybe the situation is not as bad and a combination of factors leads me to put things the way i have put here..dont have to make too much of it. now all i really gotta do is to quit wailing and do something bout it. help me wont you?
-to try harder.
2005's first. :)
HAPPY 2005 :)
okay i know i'm like how slow.. haha =) YAY i hereby kickstart the first entry of 2005...
with a big smile! -beams-
anyway.. be prepared for a really long entry k...though i'm no sure if i have the stamina to last thru blogging this long at this point in time... but i'll try.
last week of 2004:
spent the last week out of house mostly... hahah like what's new. huangcheng meetings, '04 jiantaos...chinese soc bbq...a12 chalet!!! which was just way too short.. hahaha.. no lah musnt be too greedy..actually it was a nice enough duration in that we didnt feel too bored of the chalet nor of each other! lol.
was a changi seafront chalet with open verandah...quite cool to have the sea at your doorstep..with the wind in your face ever so often..
bbq, mahjong, Dou4 Yu3, AND BRIDGE, changi village escapades, pasir ris park trip! hehe..was a great deal of fun :)
spent the last days of 2004 playing and worrying about homework..
which i never finished as of time of typing. :P
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new year's day came and went in a flash. had to tone down very greatly in light of recent terrible disasters... everytime the news reports flash i do my best to steer clear of the tv...very depressing..
oh dear i dun think i can go on this entry today anymore.. lest i want my mum to come wake me up from my sista's comp with my drool all over the keyboard.. hehehe..
huangcheng has been the main event in my j2 life so far..auditions are not just about the fun man.. haha.. its a time to buckup and also for science..
okie lah..
better go now.. i just typed "call me lah" under the previous line....
write more next time :)
good night dears!
