orange. peeel.
sometimes its really not a very wise idea for me to switch on the radio..
i never really wanna peel myself off from wherever i'm on, whatever position i'm taking, after i'm done with the legitimate stuff.
yes now i'm done.
and they had to play f.i.r.
....
now's a nice faye wong song.
help.
kk nowww!!!! reach for the power button!
-silence-
-deafening.
ooh whoo..
was with jinmei at raffles place hallmark(was it? oh dear.) after our cip today....
hehehehehehe....
we're hatching a plan......... ;)
ah jiu. deng zhe wo men ba!!!
how exciting.
hahaha mua is zonked out. shall talk more bout today's mao-derful experiences another day.....:)
xiaoyin has ignored my sms at the expense of my ability to stay rational and composed. haii.. but.. i really dunno.. so what if i find out? i feel chao toot. but i just cant contain my curiosity... there's a tinge of sadness as well.. that i seem to have no inkling of the answer at all.
though i wouldnt be surprised if it ends up nowhere, as always, anyway.
...sigh.
pick me up.
hey hey
i had a fantabulous birthday!!!! :) :)
thankew thankew thankew, everyone.
for everything.
u make my world extra special!
hahaha..
ayy i feel old. and my birthday had to be the eve of my last official day as a j1...
boohoo..
had lotsa emotions at today's dvd screening.. 30th anniversary de... i think hwa chong's always been full of people with great, big hearts.
:)
yup.. though i get really upset when people close by were whispering lotsa cynical stuff....:( haai. stoopid me lah. hahah.. sigh. i always get affected by these stuff.. always so frustrated(?) that i just cant make them see things the way i do..feel for something the way i do... in this case, for hwa chong.
maybe i'm just more fortunate to have found reasons to love where i am now.
haha... thanks for making it beautiful.
budden.. i lost the earrings jinjing got for me.....:( the first time i held it was also the last time.
never saw it again..
(sHH..pls dun tell her ok?)
i lost many things at hc this year, too many. i wonder if its a jarring poke to jerk me up from my not-here-not-there attitude to so many things around me...in life..
the past ten months...have really been a massive roller coaster ride....full of ups and downs.. majorrrrr ones.. hahaha....really, i've never experienced so many all in just one year i believe...
i dunno if i should be looking back at this point.. not sure what i'll find now..
there were the uplifting moments.. and times when everything collapsed..
haha..
yeah
its been a ride.
i keep feeling the urge to pinch myself so much these days..but to no avail. these days things tend to feel somewhat tentative..blurry... or rather its just the state of the interior and not the exterior?
hahaha i dunno. dont really think i need answers now.. i'll just let things carry on a while i guess. hahaha.
will just try my best to embrace...:)
do try too alright?
You will find as you look back upon your life, that the moments when you have truly lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love. -henry drummond
love, jias
something's missing/
bing bong.
ding dong.
sing song.
ahahahaha...:P
ehh cai chun jia's cd is really quite nice...:) haha actually i find the zhu da(kan ri chu) just quite okay.. but the other songs in the album are really nice!
haha..really. u can never get enuff of her voice.
liang jing ru's too. :)
her live vocals are wonderful! that day went with jinjing, mavis and siewws to go watch her.. wahh..can really melt in her voice. its much better than in her cds!! hahaha.. the nice nice dou3 ying1 in her voice...oooh...-gush gush-
i'm like how sleepy.
(should stop talking lala-talk.)
hehe..
i'm forever complaining about feeling sleepy..feeling tired..feeling highly immobile.. wonder why no one ever complains bout me being one plain lazy toot.
hahaha. eyebags!!! arghhh. i've been an old grouch..like one big..
luuump stomping about the place..
bridge has been a highly popular pastime among my classmates. or rather its been the only pastime. -___-" lol. i'm forever losing! so lousy. never really had any sense.. never cared bout strategy.. anyhow throw cards down de.. hahaha. poor partner..:(
haiis.
oooohhh..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIN JING! :) :)
happy belated birthday to sk too! :):)
woohoo.
okay lah.
been faithfully catching ren wo ao you every night.. its pretty okay lah.. though i'd have to admit its more of a guilty pleasure.. haha..watching handsome and pretty people swimming and romancing so happy and carefree..lol.. sighhs.
did i ever tell you i swim with the speed of an elephant?
primary school compulsory lessons in p3 were ever disastrous and traumatising. had a burly, stout, really orh orh skin colour lifeguard as coach.. who barked at me the whole time during my whole three months or so there.
"blow bubbble blow bubbble!!!!"( tried to teach me the breathing technique with my head underwater)
i never had it with those rectangular floats too...
there was once he made the whole bunch of us swim across, a breadth mind you. i took ages with the float. i remember he had to push me. literally. when the whole bunch of schoolmates already sitting at the edge were long drying in the breeze already..
hahaha.
i was so paisehed. must have been the pot belly. almost sent to taf club in p1. pe tchr harassed me to join bball in p2.. haha.. swimming loser at p3.. and despite pot belly and lotsa flab..was made aces demonstrator that same year..
all these primary school memories..
my affinity with sport. lol.
hai enuff nonsense...
good night dears. :)
dealing (2)
And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right
how to deal.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
barely half an hour after i set my mind on learning to deal. come to terms with myself.
more **** happens.
muu..st be strong..
must be strong.
sigh.
i really hope i can keep to my promise of shoving out the whinings after this week...
arghh.............
.....
bear with me/
be with me/
ageing,
oh no..
dui bu qi de.
dui bu qi-
再这么下去,
我会变老.
i miss home. wonder if i'll ever find my way back again. my home's been terribly shaken these past years.. hate to say it.. but it could well be slipping into dysfunction.
barely talk to my sisters anymore. meaningful conversation with parents appears to have ceased a long time ago. and i've just. stopped communicating. and basically spend my days thinking of ways to love myself wherever, whenever.
imagine gazing into the towering heavens.. looking at the cool, moist earth at your feet.. or at the face of someone u once thought u loved...
...and seeing yourself.
what a mess i've become.
i'm sorry.. i havent been caring.
sleepyhead-
heyhey..
tmr's taiwan trip briefing!! hahah the day i've been looking forward to.. somehow the excitement's all gone now.. guess there's just a lot on my mind..
haha.. thanks for having been a wonderful listener of my whines and mumbles and grumbles all this while.
i promise i'll keep them to a minimum k? maybe after this week it'll be better.. heh..:P
grins.
haii.
really got not much to talk about in my life.. just the loong loong break times spent nuuah-ing in the lep room? haha.. rushing the (heh a beet cheapo) souvenirs for open house outside hui suo? meeting, meeting and meeting after meeting?
hahah. thats quite a list really.
nuff of crap.
:)
hahaha. a smile is all i have to offer...
for all that i dunno how to put down in words here..
remember putting this same quote in one of mi ol blogs.. haha..=)
dream as if u'll live forever
live as if u'll die today
..dance like no one's watching
you'll do that wont you? ;)
sleepyhead signing off.....:)
sunny days and mondays.
sunny days and mondays always get me down.
whyee whyee whyee.
dun think i dun understand. dun think i dun understand.
dun look at me with those accusing eyes.
dun..
pls let me in.
gahh..moving on.
hey..
so sorry dears..
was rather down when i posted that.. really sorry..
haha...yeah there were problems at home..and others.. to do with things i had passion for.. yi shi xiang bu kai..
yupp......
I GOT OVER IT! MOVING ON! :)
haha thanks for all ur concern. sorry to have made u worry.
kk.. niwae.. after a wholeee two weeks of sleep deprivation.. from promos to prep for song..to daoyan ke week..and fretting bout some other stuff at night.. haha.. i finally got my 10 hours worth of good sleep last night! feels so good.
alanis morrisette's Ironic is jamming on the radio now.. the cd's (Jagged Little Pill) been chucked away in my sister's cd tower rack for quite some time now. recently ms tan brought the song to us at pc... and i remembered again. the lyrics really struck me.
An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic ... don't you think
Chorus
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought ... it figures
Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down
he thought 'Well isn't this nice...'
And isn't it ironic ... don't you think
Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face
It's a traffic jam when you're already late
It's a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic... don't you think
A little too ironic... and yeah I really do think...
Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out
was a lesson on irony. haha. and ms tan was telling us how everything sung in the song isnt
ironic at all. lol. anyway, alanis is cool. =)
sometimes i think the chinesesoc pple spend the longest total number of hours in school in their entire two years...more than anyone else.. haha maybe even longer than councillors!.. :P
the school's a lot more different at night.. all those hours we spent.. etched deeply in the mind.
pretty much full of anticipation noww! :) a bit of apprehension too.. now that everything's coming into place for 2005. :) Wo Men De
you-know-what's coming. :) a big big highlight of this journey that we embarked upon together almost a year ago.. the road ahead is fraught with challenges, uncertainties.. really quite afraid...so many problems cropped up prior to the real preparation itself..
gotta keep the spirit going! gotta treasure every moment, every step of the way, taken together with you people. -hugs- :)
黄城,加油.
haha. you're the love of my life! grins.
hey... there's a big bunch of u i'm not really sure exactly whoo.. haha if u happen to be reading this.. THANK YOU so so much for the mama mia! ticket.. (: i'm really really sorry.. must have burnt quite a hole in ur pockets.. oh noo.. was only exaggerating my 'sadness' when i told her i didnt have moneyy to go.. really! me and my lousy whining....:P
ahhh... thank you thank you thank you. (: u people rock my world.
my mum's been busy preparing for her exams now too. every single day these past weeks she never fails to mention the line "wo yao du shu" to everyone in the house.. she started way earlyy... like before i started for my promos prep. her exams are like. near the end of oct. hahaha.. Qualities of her i never took after ought to be staring u in the face now.
gaahh.
i felt warmed at yesterday's dinner with bianshens...
i found that eating with lotsa (special) people can be therapeutical. :)
days have beenr really long for everyone..
u've been great. :)
to all my old friends and foes. we must meet up and catch up with the ol times soon k?? missing u all so badly! ahahas.
kk..enjoy ur weekend everybody!
falls apart.
i would die and you still wont know me.
morbid thoughts are running loose..
time to let go:
..i was never punctual.
time to wake up:
..i never woke from this dream-ridden slumber.
there's always (a) time.
i could die and still not know.
SCHMILEZ.
haha woohoo!!! i'm baaa-ckkk! =)
alive and in one piece, thank you very much. hehehs..yeah waddya noe. feels like i've just been thru one whole month of exams or something.. *phew*
i've got a bulge on my middle finger! haha..call it a scar i got from the war with the papers..
getting cranky. as you can see.
WOOHOO. :)
how's everybody eh?..
heh actually i got nothin' much to talk about today.. cept to ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble..
You get the point.
hmm i'm wondering if i should
up my font size a bit. its a bit hard on the eyes isnt it?
taiwan trip briefing's on oct 20th at nyjc. ahh cant wait for taiwan trip! :) :)
i always feel this sense of... not knowing where i am..not knowing what to do after exams.. had all those burning desires.. for tv..for radio..for gai-gai-ing..reading comics.. bursting with them in the midst of everything. and everytime after the gruelling period. they all just...
dissssipate.haha. sighs.. what in the world's wrong with me. maybe its like.. the more access you can have to something.. the more freedom.. the more everything's laid just within reach..the less you wanna lean forward and touch them.
maybe i should stop thinking and start doing something...go go go. (:
everybody have fun and get a good rest too k? yay! -grinz-
for my dearest friends who are still at war.. may the force be with you.
he's got the moves..
haha. guess who's got the moves..
Jackie!! yeah..i just came home from the movie.. New Police Story.. kinda enjoyed it..=) hey! its
thegenre..crime fighting!..:) *bish bish*
ahaha. yeah i really agree with the critics that its one of his best action movies in years... the last nicest one was hmm..maybe "who am i?"..or rush hour! haha..=)
sigh. what can i say. yah i think xie ting feng ish super shuai can.. i very cham lah.. put a handsome guy on a magazine cover i'd just look and say..okay. put a handsome guy in a suave, cool heroic role.. who's witty and funny at the same time and i go gaga.. i never really like nic tse.. mainly because of all the bad press he's been having..never really bother bout him.. i think he's super cool in newpolicestory lah.. hmm.. suddenly i remember i actually went crazy for a while before.. when i saw him in gen-x cops. sheesh.. get a hang of yourself dudette. all the way man.. he rocks.. hahah.. at least in the way i see him in the movies.. hope it stays that way..
hais. i came out of the cinema gushing and cursing as well.. should i be cynical and critical here. haha. kk. wait before i launch into that. let me sincerely, happily, wish everybody....HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY! woohoo..=)
well at least before i went into the cinema i thought children's day was pretty cute and fun.
i just hate watching movies in cinemas lined with......
kids. (oh my goodness. my chair fell apart all of sudden. i'm freaked out. hahahah is it a sign i should stop?..) sheesh. kk i shall just say my piece now k.. hahaha i feel like a big meanie but if i dun say it i'll blow up. let it be between me. and my blog. haha. and whoever cares to read this. i get really, really,
really peeved at children or people who rattle on and on.. full of gibberish..ramblings.. when they're watching a movie or performance of the sort.. i almost screamed my head off today.. grrr. i think lack of sleep the night before contributed greatly to the great sense of irritation as well.. did i mention why i didnt sleep well.. KIDS. in my block..who celebrated the joy of not having school on 1 oct by: drumminggggg and banging and shrieking with pans and chopsticks and you-name-it-things well into night of 31 oct and morning of 1 oct..
anyway. yeah. there were just a few kids who were talking in the cinema. and it was enough to torture me. hello??? "aiyOO!!!! what happened to him? he die aaRH??"...."HAHAHAHA.. the uncle come back again!!"...."whine whine whine..hOw many hours more ahh?.... whine whine.." i dun need commentary!!! pls tell me that's not included the 8.50 package. why bring your kids to watch a jackie chan movie when all they gonna do is whine and whine and sneeze and spit into the people around them..(like my mum)... openly voice out innane mutterings... sheesh. hahah i'm really sorry pls pardon my outburst.. i'm a big meanie lah. not that i'm against kids. but really i cant tolerate this kind of behaviour.. its worse when i go watch cartoons lah.. haha but at least for cartoons i'm expecting.. and ready to accept the kids' excited chattering.. but puh-lease even at a jackie chan movie?? moulin rouge??
ayys.. i try to recall what it was like when i was a kid.. just cant remember.. maybe it could be my just desserts for the horrible ways i've annoyed others and have been a serious nuisance on countless occasions.. maybe its a phase. maybe..
haha yeah. anyway prac crit today was exhuasting. felt my head aching so badly by the time i got to the 2nd essay.. ahahah. i'm just so tired. i should quit whining and get my butt off here.
excuse my temper.. thanks for letting me let off steam.. ayys.
..yeah the movie's good. :) shoo. go watch it.
