some-bah-dey stop maey~
hey..
just thinking what a great time i've chosen to restart blogging.. sighs..
i hate being a live-for-the-moment freak sometimes.. i'm not studying. i'm just not studying. whyeeeee. purge myself of all indecent obsessions please.. -wahhhahas-
these days i've been living my life by the days of the week. it seems the only days when i really wanna live for are wednesday.. sat.. sun. why? cos wednesday's the day i get i-weekly and 8 days..get to read up on great stuff.. sat sun there's yi tian tu long ji... hahahas. i'm such a sorry loser aint it? otherwise there's nothing. nothing that can shed a ray of light on this horribly silent, still.. dying existence.
why did i ever choose to start blogging again. just yesterday i spent two and a half hours trying to fix the template. and i didnt accomplish anything in the end.. the image remains huuuuge. sighs. what am i to do what am i to do. i have no clue bout what to do with my life. what to do about my studying. kay. thing is i know i have to study, but i think its the mental and emotional states in conflict. haha. mentally. its okay.. Go, go! study! *does furious jogging action* ..emotionally i'm just......... plain
nuaa-aah. precious hours of life spent studying?!?... but what in the world do i find wrong with that? i dunno! i'm just illogical, erratic. a plain messed up toot head. too stuck-in-a-moment or something.
indecisive. (annoyingly) self-indulgent. impractical. irrational. immature. senseless.
woohoo. affirm me affirm me! i've lost all sense of shame.
been a long time.
hey
the desire to blog has been rekindled once again. hahahs. and know what..its been exactly six months since i last bade farewell..woohoo. i'm amazed at the precision in my timing.
what a whirl of a half-year its been! haha.. i guess i suddenly felt like experiencing the whole funny (comforting?) feel of sharing thoughts and experiences so publicly again.. its a nice feeling of engagement frankly.. or maybe its just the exhibitionist streak in me thats bursting through again. hehe.
anyway. i'm back. :)
finally got down to restarting all over again today..after what happened to me on the way home just bout an hour or so ago. i've just got to share this.. haha.. kay i know it might not be a big thing and everyone's gonna think i've got a pretty sad life but hey.. at least it was really quite an experience to me.. :)
yup. so iwas on the way home from lit make up lesson on bus number 74..listening to yin yue ri ji on 933 and watching the rain sprinkling lightly at an angle on the road.. haha waaait. btw i forgot to mention this morning i was the only a12 ian at the bench.. surrounded by the whole bunch of seniors..haha.. felt like the kid that the jies and kors fussed about.. giving me their inquiring looks and questions like "what you doing heree?!".. "how? you the only one leh.." blahblah.. haha.. i was soo paisehh i wanted to dig a hole somewhere. gasp. then assembly came and i was desparately cooking up ways to "zao" somewhere. haha.. seriously felt like running out of the school and coming back later...
i ended up at the end of the seniors' line..lol :) was so funny lah.. at first was really paiseh..but eventually found it kinda exciting to be standing there....:P hahah really cheap thrill hor? i got quite a good view of certain ahem. personalities. (*winks at zhiqi*) hahaha.. then their ct.. ms gracia something.. came and took attendance.. reached shuzhen who was just in front of me.. shuzhen pointed at me and told her "new classmate!" and she just huh-ed?! and stared. lol. was so weird yet fun haha.. i felt so warm and fuzzy to have seniors welcome me :)
err. yah. where was i. haha ooh yes. after a gruelling 2 and a half hours of Absurdist(read: crazy) Theatre.. was home sweet home. bus 74. music. rain. nice and quiet and calming.
bus reached amk busstop (before big mac's) and suddenly everything stopped. gosh. like still and silent. hahah i dunno what in the world lah. my yin yue ri ji was interrupted..was a beet lost.. i decided to make my way down from the upper deck rather cautiously.. thought i must have been the last one already by the time i kept my mp3 player in.. making my first step down the steps when i caught a glimpse of someone slouched rather comfortably at the very back of the upper deck. hahah. it was like. Whoa-Kay! Next step!
gah.. then in an instant i had flashbacks. of past incidents where i played alarm (clock) to people on buses. hahah right. another alarm job. why i cant i just do it. so i went plop plop plop down the whole aisle to sleeping mister, clears throat and goes. "excuse me."
[asleep.]
"exCUSE me?"
[still asleep.]
i stared hard at the the humongous headphones (the kind you'd imagine only deejays wearing)..wondered if i could tap him lightly but hesitated cos saw his dark complexion and thought he was malay so maybe not supposed to.. (no not along the lines of alvin's philosophy.. was just unsure if it would be disrespectful for them..) haha finally heard the sounds of JAY!! blasting thru the humongous headphones.. and was happily skipping to it(internally) for an instant. until erps.
[*taptap*] "Excuse me?!!"
[*taptaa..WAKES.] "yes?"
[i utter something along the lines of bus spoilt...] "huh-ed?!"
[he pulls the massive listening aids off] hahaha. finally got me.
mission accomplished.
hahah think he was saying thank you quite a few times.. but somehow i was too stoned and didnt respond. :X must have appeared like a horribly unfriendly old jc fart.
later we got on the same bus again. watched him as he slapped on his gargantuan ear plugs and climbed into the upper deck. then snugged in comfortably at the far ends of the lower deck of trusty ol' 88... well out of sight. haha.
haha i think i must really move too slowly.. always end up being the staggering few of the group.. whether its after class.. even in visits to the err toilet.. man.. remember not too long ago i had to wake two HUUGEE men up at hougang interchange.. i remember i had to wake alvin up once or twice too on the way home haha..and the other time there was..
ahhh.. haha nvm..
its quite amusing really:). albeit
alarming.
have a great day everybody :)
