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First Day of Singapore.

Was the worst.
I haven't been this sick for a very long time.
At 4.30am, my temperature was 37.8 degree celcius.
By 7am, it rose to 38.1. And 8am, 38.2.
4 panadols had no effect on me. Nuts.

This is my first time travelling alone. It was pretty scary.
Nobody to look after your stuff when you want to go to the restroom. So, yeah. I had to rush my pee.
When the bus dropped us a the immigration centre, i was just super clueless.
Planned to follow the crowd but they all disappear so quickly.
I got stuck for awhile, wondering around.

My brother was supposed to pick me up at The Plaza.
But he thought i was using aeroline instead of first coach.
So i had to sit on the floor near the entrance to wait for him.
Spent rm6.20 only to reach his voicemail.

Walked around one of the most popular malls in singapore looking like a mess.
Kor said this is my first time sitting a train.
I asked him what was the station in front of carrefour. But tht one got stones woh.
Haha. Blonde moment.

Kor was gonna meet his friends for this christmas and gift exchanging dinner.
Said tht his friends were all excited to meet me. But i was just feeling dreadful. Just walking around made me dizzy.
Not forgetting it was raining since the evening.
So i just spent the whole evening and night sleeping.

Kor had one of his friends to buy dinner for me.
He came in the room to find me sleeping on kor's bed. And he tapped my shoulder.
Had the shock of my life. Looked at my phone, 9.10pm. So much for dinner.
Music was blasting from everywhere. Thank goodness they were good songs.
Total panadaols taken: 5.
Off to bed.

Happy Birthday, Mom.

This is the lady who gets up at 5.45 in the morning just to send me to work every 5 days a week.

Not From A Book 20.

Nicole Hurley: You’re crazy.
Milo Boyd: Maybe I am.

-The Bounty Hunter.

After Durian.

I know, i need to improve.

Penang.

Headed down to penang this weekend, monday being a public holiday.

Momma had some high school reunion to attend, plus her sister are back in mainland. So she didn't join us this time.

I guess daddy was missing her a little. Bugging me frequently to text or call her. I said no.

Remembered su ann mentioning this place i should check out, straits quay. Somehow, i always thought it was straight kees. Haha.

The place was wow. I mean, penang itself is such a beautiful place.

Note to self: Remember to bring boyfriend here for a vacation someday.

There was this mini bazaar thing around the area. And boy, you know i like browsing through stuff. Which led me into getting this scarf. Funny story behind it.

Decided to have our dinner at blue reef. Sat outdoor, hoping to catch a little of the lunar eclipse (grandma said it starts at 7.30pm?), and also there were some bands playing.

Our server, he reminded me of someone. Skinny, bored looking, flat hair, good english.

Place we ate.

The next door cafe.

What was supposed to be the eclipse at 7.30pm. HAHA.

Full moon. (Oh, Hi Jacob.)

The next day, my family decided to check out which cubicles they want to keep their urns in.

So, to the cemetery. Which turned out to be a pretty nice place.

Oh yeah, my uncle drove into some rock, which i hope wasn't anybody's tomb. And his tyre went pffft.

We got out from the car, and my grandma went straight to sitting on some other rock nearby.

Zachary, my cousin went like: "Hey! Don't sit on someone else's grave!" She didn't move.

I got stung by a couple of mosquitoes. Thank goodness i wore jeans.

Caught 50/50 at gsc gurney plaza.

The show starred Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Which was pretty much the only reason i watched it in the first place.

I didn't particularly enjoy the movie as i thought i would have. But i would say it was okay.

Gsc had a little technical difficulties going on in there. So i missed about 5 minutes of the movie?

Got home this morning and weighed myself. Hmm. I lost weight. Not bad.

Till then, it's back to work tmrw.

when you're at that point in life it just has to be tonight.

Red, Green, White.

Cannons.

By Phil Wickham.

Behind the Song:
"This song was written outside under the stars one night. I remember looking up and thinking how the stars themselves were acting as worship leaders. How every time I take the time to look up and imagine the size of the hand that placed them there it blows me away. So right then I thought of the metaphor of how the universe is exploding with the evidence of God's existence and the fingerprints of His glory like a bunch of gigantic Cannons shooting off in the sky. This song was one that was specifically written for the corporate worship setting. It's my hope that people will sing this song along with me." - Phil Wickham

Let's take a moment of silence to pray for the 16 people who 'disliked' this song

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Avoid.

The Five Stages Of Grief.

Elisabeth Kübler-Ross & David Kessler

Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance

The stages have evolved since their introduction and they have been very misunderstood over the past three decades. They were never meant to help tuck messy emotions into neat packages. They are responses to loss that many people have, but there is not a typical response to loss as there is no typical loss. Our grief is as individual as our lives.

The five stages, denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance are a part of the framework that makes up our learning to live with the one we lost. They are tools to help us frame and identify what we may be feeling. But they are not stops on some linear timeline in grief. Not everyone goes through all of them or in a prescribed order. Our hope is that with these stages comes the knowledge of grief ’s terrain, making us better equipped to cope with life and loss.

Denial

This first stage of grieving helps us to survive the loss. In this stage, the world becomes meaningless and overwhelming. Life makes no sense. We are in a state of shock and denial. We go numb. We wonder how we can go on, if we can go on, why we should go on. We try to find a way to simply get through each day. Denial and shock help us to cope and make survival possible. Denial helps us to pace our feelings of grief. There is a grace in denial. It is nature’s way of letting in only as much as we can handle.

As you accept the reality of the loss and start to ask yourself questions, you are unknowingly beginning the healing process. You are becoming stronger, and the denial is beginning to fade. But as you proceed, all the feelings you were denying begin to surface.

Anger

Anger is a necessary stage of the healing process. Be willing to feel your anger, even though it may seem endless. The more you truly feel it, the more it will begin to dissipate and the more you will heal. There are many other emotions under the anger and you will get to them in time, but anger is the emotion we are most used to managing. The truth is that anger has no limits. It can extend not only to your friends, the doctors, your family, yourself and your loved one who died, but also to God. You may ask, “Where is God in this?

Underneath anger is pain, your pain. It is natural to feel deserted and abandoned, but we live in a society that fears anger. Anger is strength and it can be an anchor, giving temporary structure to the nothingness of loss. At first grief feels like being lost at sea: no connection to anything. Then you get angry at someone, maybe a person who didn’t attend the funeral, maybe a person who isn’t around, maybe a person who is different now that your loved one has died. Suddenly you have a structure – - your anger toward them. The anger becomes a bridge over the open sea, a connection from you to them. It is something to hold onto; and a connection made from the strength of anger feels better than nothing.We usually know more about suppressing anger than feeling it. The anger is just another indication of the intensity of your love.

Bargaining

Before a loss, it seems like you will do anything if only your loved one would be spared. “Please God, ” you bargain, “I will never be angry at my wife again if you’ll just let her live.” After a loss, bargaining may take the form of a temporary truce. “What if I devote the rest of my life to helping others. Then can I wake up and realize this has all been a bad dream?”

We become lost in a maze of “If only…” or “What if…” statements. We want life returned to what is was; we want our loved one restored. We want to go back in time: find the tumor sooner, recognize the illness more quickly, stop the accident from happening…if only, if only, if only. Guilt is often bargaining’s companion. The “if onlys” cause us to find fault in ourselves and what we “think” we could have done differently. We may even bargain with the pain. We will do anything not to feel the pain of this loss. We remain in the past, trying to negotiate our way out of the hurt. People often think of the stages as lasting weeks or months. They forget that the stages are responses to feelings that can last for minutes or hours as we flip in and out of one and then another. We do not enter and leave each individual stage in a linear fashion. We may feel one, then another and back again to the first one.

Depression

After bargaining, our attention moves squarely into the present. Empty feelings present themselves, and grief enters our lives on a deeper level, deeper than we ever imagined. This depressive stage feels as though it will last forever. It’s important to understand that this depression is not a sign of mental illness. It is the appropriate response to a great loss. We withdraw from life, left in a fog of intense sadness, wondering, perhaps, if there is any point in going on alone? Why go on at all? Depression after a loss is too often seen as unnatural: a state to be fixed, something to snap out of. The first question to ask yourself is whether or not the situation you’re in is actually depressing. The loss of a loved one is a very depressing situation, and depression is a normal and appropriate response. To not experience depression after a loved one dies would be unusual. When a loss fully settles in your soul, the realization that your loved one didn’t get better this time and is not coming back is understandably depressing. If grief is a process of healing, then depression is one of the many necessary steps along the way.

Acceptance

Acceptance is often confused with the notion of being “all right” or “OK” with what has happened. This is not the case. Most people don’t ever feel OK or all right about the loss of a loved one. This stage is about accepting the reality that our loved one is physically gone and recognizing that this new reality is the permanent reality. We will never like this reality or make it OK, but eventually we accept it. We learn to live with it. It is the new norm with which we must learn to live. We must try to live now in a world where our loved one is missing. In resisting this new norm, at first many people want to maintain life as it was before a loved one died. In time, through bits and pieces of acceptance, however, we see that we cannot maintain the past intact. It has been forever changed and we must readjust. We must learn to reorganize roles, re-assign them to others or take them on ourselves.

Finding acceptance may be just having more good days than bad ones. As we begin to live again and enjoy our life, we often feel that in doing so, we are betraying our loved one. We can never replace what has been lost, but we can make new connections, new meaningful relationships, new inter-dependencies. Instead of denying our feelings, we listen to our needs; we move, we change, we grow, we evolve. We may start to reach out to others and become involved in their lives. We invest in our friendships and in our relationship with ourselves. We begin to live again, but we cannot do so until we have given grief its time.

Porn.

"Some of you men know what it's like to go to sleep next to an empty shell of a woman that used to be your wife because your infatuation with photoshopped women has extinguished the intimacy. You’re no longer lovers, you’re roommates with children."

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031211.

Yes, i realise i have been updating like i don't have a life.

Well, that part is mostly true.

Anyway. I wanted to start off this post with a somewhat more erm, poetic? approach.

Which i failed completely. I admit, i suck at writing T-T

I just really admire people who write well.

I read all these amazing blogs which leave you with different thoughts and emotions.

And then here's me, who sounds cina at times.

I hate this feeling. I guess i'll stick to being whoever i am being.

Back to this date. I attended a wedding with mommy today.

Okay, technically i wasn't invited (AHAHAHA).

But dad had some "stuff" to manage. So he sent me to be his replacement. Which i was more than happy to.

I love weddings.

The special occasion didn't start off too well.

(I hope they would never, ever stumble upon this post)

We arrived at the wrong venue.

The invitation card says poolside, saujana golf and country club.

And when we got there, there were people swimming in it. LOL.

Bumped into another lost church member, who called another church member to reconfirm.

We then headed to saujana hotel instead. Walked up the slope and made a roundabout only to find out tht the pool was down the stairs. AHAHAHA.

We rushed a little cause it was already 9.45am when the ceremony starts at ten.

And when we got there, i was shocked to find only the worship team and nobody else D:

Other guests started arriving at ten. Maybe they got stuck at the club too.

Things were messy alright.

The fans attached to the tent weren't working. So they pulled out these gigantic fans which ruined everyone's hair. LOL.

The emcee, i found was a little impolite.

And we, the church people, had the worst seats!

We were so far away from the aisle and the groom had his back facing us!

So much for wanting to watch his expressions :(

Okay. I know i'm beginning to sound like this whiny little ungrateful brat. Bear with me a little longer?

There were lots more of other bits.

But,

When the music started playing.

When the bride started to make her way down tht aisle.

When her momma gave her away to her groom.

When the maid of honour started giving her speech.

When the couple started exchanging their vows and rings.

When pastor officiate them.
When the newlyweds shared a sweet peck.

When they cut the yummy looking cake together.

Everything else didn't seem to matter.

It was beautiful. The moment was so beautiful.

The only contact i had with the couple was shaking their hands and welcoming them into church.

And there i was, soon to be all teary.

God knows what will happen if i were to witness one of my closests get married.

I would say tht the place was amazing. I really liked the decorations and the theme (red and white). Beats country club anyway.

I didn't get to take many pictures. So paiseh lah. Stole some pictures from li ean's fb. Hee.

Started asking mom questions on my brother's wedding, though i was really actually referring to mine. AHAHAHA.

What did my mom say? She just ask me not to think too much. So potong!

I'm tired. Enough talking. Here are some pictures.

The wedding photos were the most adorable!

I heard tht they flew the photographer to england cause that's where they first met. Aww!

I don't know man. They were really creative shots.

There was one where the camera was facing the sunset and they were shadows in kungfu style. LOL Get it not? Don't know how to explain lah!

See the love letters box?

They had these cards for us to fill in.

Something tht goes:

"Dear -- & --,

On this special day, i/ we wish for you

Enough _______________ to last a lifetime;

A lifetime of passion that could ____________

A love like the song _____________

Excitement like the movie ______________

Enough money to __________________

Good health so you can still __________ when you're 100!

With love,

___________"

I personally thought tht tht was a brilliant idea! Guess who filled it up? Hehehe.

They had some other wicked things too.

For example:

The peanut butter wedding cake. It was yum, yum and yum!

An old fashioned, white bicycle with cans hanging on them and a sign written, just married.
Tiny, pretty bottles hanging on the tree with what looked like messages in them.

And this photo booth where they had these collection of random stuff you can camwhore with.

Oh wait, i just realised there weren't any bouquet toss. NUTS.

Till then, peeps.

Career Test.

Your Personality type is ESFJ

ESFJ - Seller

The ESFJ is the most sociable of all types. Outstanding hosts or hostesses, they excel in service occupations involving personal contact. 13% of the total population. The social status of successful people can be quite alluring to ESFJ's and many marry prosperous mates and encourage them to accumulate the material signs of prosperity. Other ESFJ's seem to fit in with the poor and the needy. In either case their dependability, dedication, and commitment to providing for the needs of others is, at times, overlooked. This can lead to the ESFJ feeling unappreciated and neglected. They can harbor uncomfortable feelings, which they then feel guilty and shameful about, and then they find themselves suffering from emotional denial. If stress continues, the ESFJ will begin to feel dejected and despondent. A sense of gloom seems to be attached to their memories and the ESFJ fosters feelings of self-blame and guilt about certain past experiences. Always conscious of a sense of indebtedness, the ESFJ feels generally remorseful and may regret imagined woes. If stress becomes overwhelming, ESFJ's will complain of their burdens, suspect dreadful things about their health, become critical of others who have "betrayed" them, and become generally melancholic. The ESFJ feels forsaken after all they have put up with and done for others. Their complaints immobilize so they are unable to nurture others or fulfill their demanding obligations. Careers nurse social worker caterer flight attendant bookkeeper medical/dental assistant exercise physiologist elementary school teacher minister/priest/rabbi < (LOL) retail owner officer manager telemarketer counselor special education teacher merchandise planner credit counselor athletic coach insurance agent sales representative massage therapist medical secretary child care provider bilingual education teacher professional volunteer http://www.careertest.net

Would You Lie With Me And Just Forget The World?

One Day.

I'll be tht boring parent, watching my kids pretending to be sharks in the pool while i insist tht i'm allergic to chlorine.

Anna.

"Friends are like bras. They give loads of support and are close to heart."

True That.

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This is me.

Pumpkin Party.

28/10/11

Okay. I would call it Halloween Party.

But somehow Su Ann named the album as that.

Credits goes to her for taking the pictures.

Erin invited a couple of us over the friday before halloween. I was excited.

Come on. You guys know i like dress codes/ themes. Hee.

Guess what i dressed up as? :DDD

Hint:

Jawapan:

I'm not sure if you guys can tell, but i went as candy girl! Hee.

From the right, erin as the geek, su ann as the elf and miss janice as the erm, lecturer. LOL.

And i have got to give it to erin man.

It's crazy how she prepares all these yummies and decorations all by herself.

Should have offered some help :/

After stuffing ourselves, erin had a game for us.

She prepared a pail of water and dropped some apples in it.

So here's what we had to do, we are to take those apples out from the bucket with our mouth in a minute.

I know. Like oh mai gosh right?

Sounds easy? Think again. They keep bobbling up and down and up and down.

Not only tht, they never changed the water.

Uh huh. It is what you think it is.

EVERYONE had to dip their face into the same bucket of water, biting the same apples T-T

Well, i had 4 apples out. Which wasn't too bad.

All in all, i enjoyed myself.

Dressing up with other people is fun :P

Till then.

Dating.

"Falling in love is only the onset of romance; it may not lead to lasting true love. It only gives us a taste of what it should be, permanently. Romantic love ought to be limited to dating, while passionate love should be reserved for marriage. Matrimony deserves its holiness."

"Experts find that sexual intimacy and religious strengths are the best mix, resulting in couples playing and praying together. If you put God at the centre of your marriage, it will remain alive and well."

Exit To Exit.

By Ryan Cabrera.

All Your Life.

Take these broken wings and learn to fly.

Breaking Dawn.

Caught breaking dawn today.

I am reminded again of how much i enjoyed the book.

I don't remember much, but you know, it helped me through the spm holiday.

Well, they didn't include the pillow biting scene, in which i named my tumblr after.

Let's just say i am looking forward to part 2 :)

"Imprinting on someone is like.. like when you see her, everything changes. All of a sudden, its not gravity holding you to the planet, its her. Nothing else matters. You would do anything, be anything, for her." -Jacob.

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Michael Learns To Rock.

Edmond Mok

You took my heart away, when the whole world was grey.

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    Toh Jia Ying i'm sorry. you are twenty five minutes too late.

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    Edmond Mok I was taking care of a sleeping child.

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    Mimiko Rene Paint my love then :)

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    JiSoon Ho u gave me everything. and a little bit more.

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    Edmond Mok This is so Out of the blue. ;)

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