I know.
At this age. Yeap, 19 years old-to-be
Having a imaginary friend?
puh-lease lah ppl.
Owh. ForTheLoveOfGod Lyana! Come on-la!
haha.
chill.
naah.
U see. How do u actually define a friend? <~~ Had a conversation on this with roomie once upon a tyme ago. still remember roomie? hee.... :P
I mean, how actually u get friends or being friends with or bla3...
I my way, u get 'one' cause u share something in common rite?
example: u get 'one' because
~ u go to the same school/college.
~ u live nearby or staying within the same residential area.
~ u share something in common perhaps ur interest, hobby, politics, cars, computers, bla3...
~ u are in the same course.
~ u go to same summer camp/boot camp, what so whats not
u get my point?
don't tell me u make friends as u walk by the bus stop and started being nice to all by greeting em "Hello! How are u? My name is Jenab. Can we be friends?"
Ppl might think that " She must have been completely insane!"
coz u aint sharing something in common (except that ur a human and they are ay human as well.)
Sometimes u make friends cause u need conformity, protection, attention
exp when it comes to being a newbie in a new place where ppl are looking at u as if u came from the ice age.
And u might go to the extend of making friends with the seniors just so that seniors or ur friends will not be able to bully u.
*giggles*
Seriously. And with friends, u feel more comfy rite?
To mix and mingle around.
To share ur happiness.
To share ur sorrows.
With this soo called 'share in common' thingy, u start to label these friends of urs as ur:
~best friend,
~best friend forever,
~friend u study with,
~friend u hang out with,
~bla3...
U even share secrets with ur 'labeled' friends.
In this state, most probably, u gave ur full trust to em.
where u hope that they will kept it save.
Besides, having such friends, u expect loyalty from em
where u firmly believe that they wont back stab u, mouth bashing bout u behind ur back and appear to be completely angelic in front of you.
~superficial typo ppl~ pfftt...
U expect em to be the all tyme typo besties where u can laugh and cry together.
In reality.
They are not.
Not to say that nobody can be trusted.
U r so called lucky if u posses one. I envy u :P *chuckles*
Sometimes, the person u trust the most, did such things (those back stabbing, mouth bashing thingy).
U never know coz u ain't stick together with em 24/7.
They might be angelic to you and perhaps one day, u mess up with em, they go find another friend and start doing things as i stated above. And yet, act as if nothing happened in front of u.
No need verbal conversation.
The body language, the walking pace, the eye contact, the voice tone, the sentence structure, the facial expression.
It tells.
haha.
Its an advantage if u posses the ability of telepathy.
No need of those analysis.
U know what they are saying inside their heart and all sort of words and curse stuck in their head.
Even though they are far2 away from u.
U still have the 'feelings'
But it depends.
Sometimes u have completely no idea on what is going on.
exp when it comes to the usage of fancy2 words which doesn't trigger ur brain at all but they thought that u perfectly understands it.
*chuckles*
well.
nobody is perfect.
no matter how hard u try.
to make ppl happy.
to make things done the way it should be.
to make this world a better place,
there's always a hole here and there.
That's what life is all about.
Full of colours.
Its just the beginning of ur life.
Take it in a positive way.
Make it as u r experience, as a stepping stone for ur future.
The more u mingle, the more typo ppl u know, the more communication skills u'll have, easy for u to make friends with.
cut the crap.
I've been too far.
back to the main point.
Why on earth am i having ay imaginary friend?
Im no kiddo.
Im not being told that i need to dismiss my imaginary friend before it becomes a boogeyman.
gahh.
pity 'those' kids being fooled by their parents.
imaginary friends = boogeyman in the future.
wahaha!
what am i trying to say is,
if it is so hard to put trust on someone, coz u might once being back stabbed until ur freaking out to have a best friend or best friends,
why not go for imaginary friend?
Its no harm, except for ppl might think ur crazy for talking to urself. *try to avoid that* haaha.
Well at least u'll feel relief.
U have 'someone' to talk to.
Ur imaginary friend might be ur alter ego.
Who knows?
haha.
try to figure it out.
It kinda make sense.
Not to forget.
Whenever u feel lost, down, and all sorts of emotionally break down,
remember.
There always 'someone' for you to tell your stories, problems, feelings.
He will always be there for you.
No matter what.
He will always listen to what u wanna say, what u asked for,
He's the most gracious and the most merciful.
The one who can gives u help.
The one you seek for forgiveness.
The only one who can help you through your hardship.
So, don't u ever left Him behind.
Always seek for His blessings.
That is ur eternal happiness.
I rest my case.