Month of Reunion

This month is the month of reunion. My frens are streaming back from all over the world and enjoying their holidays. Perhaps it is the fetsive month as well, I do have back to back activities for the whole month and I am quite stretched- with fun. Plus with drama practices being scheduled all back to back. For the next following Sundays, I will have to have practices for everyweek. My day starts from 8am - 5pm. No difference from a working day. I do not know how long can I last as I feel that I am running on an empty tank already.

I just applied for a mid-week off. Although I have 14 days of leave left, I take no hesitation to apply and rest. It is refreshing to be doing all that and I suspect that I am getting used to all that. *smile*

Trip to KL was full of surprise. We got upgraded to our Bus Ride to be double decker with own personal screen and hotel rooms upgraded to Deluxe and Premium! Freebie Slut welcomes this more and more. Joke of the trip. Petaling does not equate to Petaling Jaya

Do Friends Break Up?

Do Friends break up? You known this friend for say 3-5 years. Went through thick and thin, have a great time together. Suddenly they shunned you, hardly meet you and then disappear from your life.

Recently, a friend of mine shared with me her encounter and I cannot help but think. Aging does not equate to maturity. We grew older but dont we have the courage to speak to a close friend what went wrong? I mean it could be due to them being more materialistic, less focused, getting more of a wastrel. But do we have the courage to speak up? Do we allow the many years of relationship slide? Do we need to fight for the revival of friendship?

Personally, I think the answer is no. Why do we have to pursue if someone has decide to move away from your life? They do not have the courage to even speak to you and do not show any inkling of wanting to. As such, what is the point of pursuing. I rather keep my great bunch of friends who accepts me of who I am and give a damn if I am going haywire.

Re-Org

Last weekend at I was at the Furama (City Center) Hotel for the Women’s Encounter weekend. It was a whole two days of prayer, ministries and reading the word. I learnt a lot and amused by some of the speakers but really, very drained after all the crying and weeping. I did not know that I have harboured so many pent up anger, sorrows, and things which are not glorifying to speak about. I need another break. I felt that I am running on the gradual stagnation of growth at work and I dread going to work the next day. Challenges and anal people stuck their faces to me day in and out. Shit happens, always, and it keeps happening. I lost the zeal to fight, the “yeah I am going to clear up this”. I wander why and do not know how I can help myself. Why am I fighting everyday to put out a fire or fire that could be potentially brewing.

Last week, my director told the team that there will be a re-org. I will be concentrating on functions- concerts, special events, business meetings, etc. One colleague will be concentrating on Banquets and the other Convention Centre. A fresh graduate who was working closely with me will be transferred to be doing exhibition sales. All of us then will be under a “to be hired Sales Manager”. I wandered how is this going to work. The last what happened with Assistant Manager, she kept coming to me to ask me things because my then-manager was too busy. My director assured me that there she will personally train her up but then we were already informed that she will be out of town for two weeks for holiday, then follow by a small operation. It will then be followed by many other business trips. All this change will effect on 1 Jan 06. I wandered realistically, how that will happen, unless she can find someone in the next month. The direction is now blurred again and as everyone heard before, I want to change job. With this new re-organisation, it is a negative motivation for me to leave this job. This new directon will require me to put up another workplan for 2006, to be marketing the new halls and the new figures seemed ever daunting!! This time it seemed right and I would like to seek affirmation on it. Personally, I have achieved approximately 3Mil where the budget for the team is $3.2Mil and Target is $3.9Mil. We have definately cross the target as we are going to 4Mil already. Hence, there seemed to be alot of personally achievement but credit does not all come to me.

I seemed to have raise my mum's alarm by sharing with her the plans. Rest assured that I will not do anythingrash as my mum is also planning her retirement plans for the year end. Keeping my fingers cross to feel the affirmation and an indication of a door to be opened

Drama in the Office

This whole week has been quite a drama. Or rather, I think Mediacorp Channel 8 could use some real good material from my local SME. The stories here cover all aspect of good drama. Well to start with, there are old folks who switch off their computer 5 minutes before official going home time and shake their heads vigorously and looked as if their computer is going blow up if you asked them to do something really urgent. There is romance in the company. Oh no, correction, there is scandal- Big Boss was seen with one of the Director’s house. Fallen empire when the old boss was gone replaced by rising 3 blue-eye female middle managers. How can I not shed some limelight to the two old fogeys who never seemed to be tired practicing Tai-Chi day in and out. If there is already not enough drama going on, there is always a bog hoo-haa if there is someone who submitted resignation letters or rethink about it. People gathered here not because we love bonding. We gathered for lunch to celebrate either a) someone’s birthday or b) someone’s departure. Over the inching near two years, I sit in countless lunches.

Recently the drama has not ceased. There is a new operations manager who takes the whole team by storm, follow by a foreign import who measures up to 2.2m and uses yellow pages to adjust his table height, a marketing manager whose name is akin to a character in Disneyland. Things never get boring here I suppose. =)

Abandon and nearly abolished

I nearly fogot that I had a blog until one old fren asked me what happened to it. It has been a good 5 months that I give my own mental space the cold shoulders. No, I have not become a mental retard but rather too many things happened and before I know it, they are are over and swept under the carpet.

The year is slowly coming to an end and it will be a time to do a stocktake of my life. I guess many has already grown old with me saying "I wanna quit!!" yet I am still where I am. Reason being that in this past year, I was given many opportunities to grow and exposure. From last year which I achieve nothing much to my name, this year my clientle list grew from MNCs to Entertainment event, to proposing new pricing structures, to solving teething problems to new halls, etc... Still the nagging thought of wanting to get out there and see the world is so so so tempting. I cannot be a frog in the well, could i?