New Years’ Eve

 Last day of the year

Make it right

Make it great

Make it a

Worthwhile pursuit

Pleasing

To the creator

Of Heaven

And earth

Miracle

 What happens 

When you 

Wait for

The miracle 

To realize

You are the miracle 

The lightbulb 

The epiphany 

Occurred 

When I 

Wasn’t searching 

Heavenly

 You paint

A portrait

Of a hope

That is

An everlasting love

Between 

You and your children

In the heavenly realms

Imperfection

 God, 

Here I am. I haven’t written you lately. I’ve forgotten where my help comes from. I can’t win all the battles or fight them all. I need a dose of You desperately. You are the source that never runs dry. I compare myself to everyone else, and don’t measure up. I won’t measure up because comparison will never give me the answers I seek. You are having to redirect my thoughts. Recalibrate my equilibrium. Put gratitude at the center. 

Imperfection

Is where I am

Until I can accept

That gratitude 

Is being thankful 

In all circumstances

Smile

 What is making you smile?

What is on your heart?

Your best Christmas gift?

Foggy

 Foggy

Wet

And 

Cold

On this day

After Christmas 

Arise my heart, the babe has arrived

 Your day

Your birthday

No matter

What externalities arise

My heart

Will shine

Knowing

The babe

Born in 

The manger 

Has arrived

To save my soul

Make it whole

Forevermore

Onto eternity

Merry Christmas

 Merry Christmas lovelies. 

May the season 

And the reason 

Bring joy

To every heart in every way 

Nothing

 Basking in

The allure

Of silence

Where

All I hear

Is the sweet sound

Of surrendering

To the pleasure

Of doing 

Absolutely nothing

Silent

 What you learn

When you mind

Is closed

Or so 

You think

Learning I’m 

More stubborn

Than a mule

Out grazing

Waiting for 

His next treat

What he really wants

Or so he believes

When he comes

Back bloated and angry

Because wise counsel

Was not on the wish list

Staying silent

Is best 

Even if 

I desire

To have a 

Last word in

And pull punches

Seeking payback

Even if it’s 

Not worth

The trouble

Or repercussions

Love yourself and one another

Thought

 Peace

Like the softest 

Snow

Pure

In truth

The fluffiest clouds

That span the sky

And remind me

That others

Do not determine 

My joy

I’ve lost sight

Of what matters

I don’t have 

To have a response

For all that upsets me

Therapy

The great teacher

Not to take it personally

Let it roll

And just let 

It go

Before it

Pains my soul

Will

 I’ve been asked what I want for Christmas

Lip balm

Books

Nail polish

Snail mail

Gift cards

Most of all Lord

I want your Presence 

Your peace

Your love 

Your hope

And your will

Sinner

 Christmas

What would I like

God you know

What it is

I want

And only You 

Can deliver

I want material things

But those

Don’t bring

Lasting fulfillment

Only You

Only You

Can make

My heart

Find pleasure

In living

And making

The world

Around me

An inviting place

For sinner

And saint

Fit

 Confession

Every new procedure brings new promise. A promise of hope. I’ve been living on a diet of promised hope for months. As I was told yesterday, and praised for being a model patient, it doesn’t get easier if your mindset doesn’t. I had liquid gold put in my adductors yesterday, and I just have to believe it will work. I didn’t literally have liquid gold injected, don’t worry. I’m just keeping some things private. I must say what could work for me, may not work for you. Today, I’m tired, yet grateful. I’m realizing I’m different. That is okay with me. It will take a week to reach its efficacy in my body. Right now, I’m waiting. 

God 

Help me wait

In whatever way

You see fit

Piece

 I’m looking forward to my doctor’s appointment today. I may get relief. To relieve physical pain may release mental anguish. This weekend I achieved a goal, I thought impossible. To think so many people come to read my words every day shocks me. Leaves me speechless. Honestly, I still doubt why He uses me. I’m just me.  No fame. No fortune. No reason logically. To think that God chooses to still find me of value is something I can’t believe. He is using a disabled woman who doubts almost anything every day, yet finds me a perfect vessel for His purpose. Feeling hope today. 

What you do

With me

Each day 

Makes no sense

To this human

But in

Your world

I’m the

Missing puzzle

Piece

Humility

 God will humble you

Drop you in the valley

To show you

Where you start

Then in a minute

Let you rise

To the tops

To experience

True grace

And an adoration

As His child

When submission

To His will

Is achieved

Love

 God

Use me

For your glory

And make your joy

Mine

Bring

 Some days

You just realize

That life

Is the gift

That gets brighter

With each year

Because experience

Becomes the wisdom

You’ve waited

So long

To learn

May this Christmas

Be the one

I see myself

As the child

Of God 

Who says

To the challenge

Bring it

Spring

 Spring into serenity 

Solitude shine 

Glittering into

A brand new day 

Ready for surprises 

And serendipitous endeavors 

Bone

 Dreaming of

A sandy stroll

Feet in ecstasy 

At the texture

Massaging the soles

As nature reminds me

Simplicity reigns

Supreme

In my very bones

Smile

 Smile

Make it

Believe it

Don’t deny it

You will survive

Because

Strength

Never surrenders

When under adversity

Needs

 Getting some answers. They’re not what I was expecting. It’s an easy fix, but one that will take time. God is teaching me patience whether I want it or not. Time. My body needs it to recover. My mind seeks it. My soul requires it. You are showing me that teaching happens even when I’m not amenable to suggestion. You will shackle me to be still. You give tough love better than anyone I’ve ever known. 

Shackled into stillness

Whatever works

Is the motto 

Now being used

For this stubborn mule

Pleasing others

Has worn 

You down

To rubble

And now

Your Father

Is taking measures

Into His hands

Pray that I give into

What the whole me

Really needs

Whether it is

What I want 

Or not

It all

 The sun

Has shown

His face

My soul rejoices

In that maybe

It can share

Some of its

Joy with me

As I attune

My view

To yours

May I find

Abundance

In the love

That masks

The sin

I’ve tried

To hide

Hide from you

Pure folly

Knowing full well

You find

It all

Waiting for me

To surrender

The pain

Each and every day

Pride

 Today’s lesson

No matter 

How much

We don’t 

Want to

Ask for 

Help

Help

Is what

You get

When you

Get tired

Of battling

Your pride

Are

 Shine on me

Smile at me

Send me

A sign

That wherever 

I am

So are you

Questions

 What are you loving?

What are you eating?

What are you buying?

What is making you smile?

What is on your heart?

You and me

 Peace 

Come 

And make

Yourself present 

In my heart 

Set me free

From the bondage 

Of my pain 

And discomfort 

Joy

 Dancing

To my own beat

Reveling 

In my

Own joy

Because

It feels good

To do

Just that

Today

Salt water

 Salt water

Burn 

Clarify 

Refresh

Leave me

Grateful for 

Temporary discomfort

Where the end product

Is a cleansed rejuvenation

Worship

 In 

Out

In 

Out

Finding clarity

In silence

Where

Mind is emptied

And worship

Is enacted

🎄

 Sipping

On sweet tea

And sunshine 

In my mind 

The December doldrums 

Drowned out

By a soulful song

And a colorful 

Christmas tree

dark

 This week has been tough. I won’t lie. I’ve had to purposely list my gratitude even if it just is expelling of breath. God is telling me that my job isn’t to understand, but to trust. Trust that my time is coming for the dreams of my heart to become a reality. Preparation is rough. He has to know what He’s doing, because I’m in the dark. 

Pray my soul and will are in alignment. 

Thank you. 

Love yourself and one another

Heart

 What is on your heart today?

Prayers or praises?