Pick Jam

blackberry

strawberry

Orange marmalade 

Fun part three

Last person you text?
Last person you hugged?
First thing you do when you get up?
Most worn thing in your closet?
Favorite keepsake?

My best friend
My dog
Depends
Jeans
Stuffed animal

Thank you for your love and support yesterday.

Pray.

Brutal honesty here. I'm struggling with fear, pride, and maladies of the mind. Ever feel for every step forward, you take two steps. Maybe one day, my pride will fall. The wall I've built is so high.

Fun part two

Last thing you drank?
First person on your speed dial?
If I turned on your tv, what channel would it be on?
Your pet's name
Your major in college?

Water
Mom
News or Tennis Channel
Tebow, Bruiser and Petey
Political Science

Fun

Name
City, State or Country where you live
Last food you ate
Favorite place you visited this summer
Zodiac

Would you rather?

Eat scallions or shrimp 

Drink IPA or Aperol

Ski or row

Buy or donate

Visit Slovenia or live in New Hampshire. 

Pick

Cowboys
Longhorns
Barbecue
Praying for Texas.

Would you rather?

Eat lobster or cake
Drink Malbec or Prosecco
Buy earrings or shoes
Fly or drive
Visit Thailand or live in Vermont

Praying.

Praying for Texas and Charleston.

Reminders

God is showing me what having faith really is. This morning was not my morning. I was very internally grumpy. I wrote my previous post to make myself believe it even if I didn't feel it.  I then get one comment on Instagram that would change my tune. God knew I needed it. I am blessed, and when I don't feel it, I am quickly reminded.

Blessings.

Having to count my blessings, and put a smile on my face.

Pick

Watermelon

Cherries 

Orange

Would you rather

Eat spanakopita or tart
Drink Perrier or Muscle Milk
Spinning or Pilates
Thrifting or high end
Visit Croatia or live in Barbados

Praying

Sending love and praying for those who need it. 

Twitter

Joined Twitter.   Who do I follow?  Handle?

Eclipse

Are you watching the eclipse today?

Pick

Green
Purple
Red

Fun

First words that come to mind with the letter J?

Would you rather

Eat peppers or snails
Drink milk or juice
Garden or swim
Buy a condo or rent a cottage
Visit China or live in Bali.

Love.

Love conquers all.

Pick

Sriracha
Tandoori
Allspice

Pride in broken ways

Today I took the time to read a book. I took time to revel in the silence. To be one with oneself. I contemplated my life. I've come to peace with Cerebral Palsy. I've come to peace with my faults. I've come to peace knowing that the life I had come to despise, is one God knew I needed. I don't want answers. Answers don't breed peace, they breed heartache. Christ is the only Truth I want. I've come to realize I desire to want to want Him more than wanting Him for neediness. When I can show my hockey pucked abdomen and be proud, He's working in my prideful heart.  Will I ever be healed or whole, I can't answer. I work best as a broken vessel.

Fun

First four words that come to mind with the letter C?

Love.

Feeling blessed, grateful and very humbled. Thank you.

Would you rather?

Eat pickles or jam
Drink spring water or Crystal Light
Play soccer or watch baseball
Buy a bag or get a massage
Visit Quebec or live in Curaçao

Grateful

Grateful for the love of Christ.

Pick

Ketchup
Mustard
Mayonnaise

Worship

Favorite worship song?

Thank you.

Thank you for your love and support. I am overwhelmed with gratitude. Thank you.

Can I be honest?

I am exhausted. My body is telling me to rest. I can't fight Cerebral Palsy. My posts are brief. Honestly, I know. Right now, brief will have to do.
God Bless.

Would you rather

Eat salmon or eat beef
Drink water or tea
Skydive or do karate
Wear a watch or kerchief.
Visit Rome or live in Japan

Remember

Sometimes I have to remind self.
It's ok to make mistakes.
It's ok to post something no one likes as long as I do.
It's ok to breathe.

Strength

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Philippians 4:13

Surrender. Word for the day.

Some days I need Christ's strength to surrender.

Let go

Some days it takes all I have to choose joy. Breathe in, then let go.

Pick

Take the stairs
Take the elevator
Neither

Grateful

What are you grateful for?

Would you rather

Eat an oatmeal raisin cookie or an avocado
Drink Pellegrino or Sangria
Shop or Ski
Kiss a dolphin or kiss a trophy
Visit Spain or live in Sicily

Joy

In 34 years, I never thought I'd have to eat this much humble pie, but I'm consuming it daily.   Good advice will come to haunt you with its accuracy. Waiting pays off it's just not fashionable. I could cry tears of joy. Focusing on the good.

Faith

I would have never believed, but God He is leaving me speechless. He does the impossible. Have faith.

Pick

Mykonos
Monaco
St. Tropez

Would you rather?

Eat fruits or vegetables
Drink Champagne or Perrier
Sail or handglide
Invest in a bag or shoe
Visit Ireland or live in Portugal

Life

I was thinking yesterday. Disability forces you to wait. And for the most part, I've not been joyful about it. AT ALL. These days, I'm doing an about face. I can't change a whole lot, so I'm changing the one thing I can. My attitude. I can't be bitter. Bitterness doesn't make my dreams come faster, it just makes the journey sad. Life isn't roses, but it's worth it's worth the attempt. God Bless.

Pick

Happiness
Willingness
Waiting

Love.

Lesson:  I underestimate God every day. I was so worried that nobody would wish me a happy birthday. I didn't matter. I want as popular as my sisters. I have been overwhelmed by the love, but the others words added to it were more than I could dream of. To be told you matter,  it's one of the best presents I could have received. Thank you all. Your love for me is something that leaves me speechless. Thank you for speaking life into my weary soul. Money can't buy what you've given me today. All my life, I've been told one thing and shown another. Words matter. Thank you.

Birthday

When you come to another birthday, You reflect. You thank God. You find that life's hardships and unfairness have made you who you are. I celebrate this day knowing I'm alive, "fearfully and wonderfully made" and blessed to know that with God I do not suffer vainly. My sufferings, joy and triumphs are all part of His Divine Will. John 15:4 "Remain in me and I will in you". Thank you Lord for making life worthwhile.