well. i am moving! i mean, not really shifting my house. but i guess it's time to change a new blog. haven tot of any name. any suggestion? Willy, dun give any crazy ideas. -.-"

you are right. i am childish, stupid, idiotic, retarded at times. and of cos self centred and selfish. stubborn, irritating, bad temper, unreasonable, violent. i am not a good gf. i nv tot i was.and i nv said that i was a good gf. i was nv perfect. no one is perfect. but. you shouldn't be the one lecturing me. cos you ain't fit to be in the position to lecture me. anyone but not you. my EX bf, you think you can still lecture me? asking me to continue with my childish path while you ain't any better from me? i can show my childishness whenever and wherever i want. you are in no position to control. you can continue with your sarcasm and criticism on your blog about me. u can despise me, critisize me, badmouth me, scold me and say whatever you want about me. afterall, it's your mouth, your voice, your opinion which hardly matters to me anymore. hypocrite? as i say... mr. leong. ANYONE can call me a hypocrite BUT you. who are you to say that i am a hypocrite?! please la. as for that "you think you know everything" part. well. i think i know everything about myself at least. i know what i want. i know who i am scolding. i know who i should befriend. i know who treats me well. i know whose advice i should listen to. i know who is fit to lecture me. etc. i mean i am suppose to feel disgusted and upset and angry by whatever you said in the conversation just now. but surprisingly, i wasn't. maybe i dun really care anymore. whatever you said about me, tells me something. you don't know me at all. life is gg to be better for you i guess. afterall, i have disappoint you so much. i'm sorry. maybe that perfect girlfriend for a perfect boyfriend like you is somewhere out ther waiting. good luck then. you don't like that previous entry? i have deleted it. no worries. the last gift from me. :)

btw. ur sms. it just shows how MATURE you are. returning me a favour? please. you called me yourself. i didn't send myself to your doorstep to scold you. -.-" SUPER DOTS la.

school today was great! 3 hours break. went swensen's with the girls! haha. spent quite alot there but it's worth it! ate the yummy yummy EARTHQUAKE! so shiok! then started gossiping and the usual girls' talk. haha. went back for engineering drawing. one of the 1st to finish. so proud of myself. haha! then went with kaly to eat dessert at canteen 1. thanks laopo for the treat! haha. dun bother about some people, they are just plain jealous about what you hv now. you deserve the happiness! :)

dear friends, good luck for As paper tmr! :)

NIGHT SAFARI! :)
went with Wan wan, my protector! :)
not for the faint hearted. trust me! it's true. :)

before entering the dracula house! :) DRACULA!
the scary scarecrow. wanli said he stinks! :)
the evil clown. he had sweets in his pockets!!! :)
went with this girl. yip wanli! :)
i love B&J! :)

did u see the head coming out from the bun tray? :)
SCREAM!!! :)
she is kinda pretty! and wanli said that to her! :)
this stupid vampire chased me around on the suspension bridge! :)
ooh. witch. :)

haha. went to dear leah today. finally! i missed her so much. had lunch and talked and gossip. seriously, we just had so much to say. i can't wait to meet her again. then went back to yishun to meet wanli. that girl made me wait for 1 and a half hour. thanks arh. -.-" then went to eat the frog porridge and went straight to the NIGHT SAFARI! we save 11 bucks cos there is this woman who gave us one free ticket! thanks! it was so fun with the halloween events coming on. not suitable for the faint hearted. those people will just jump out of nowhere to scare you. believe me. i screamed like shit. i hate this kind of adventure! -.-" and wanli noticed that when i am anxious or scared, i will keep really quiet. that is becos i was so scared i dared not utter a word. there is this stupid vampire who chases me around the suspension bridge. asshole. and the dracula. haha. just becos i said that tomato juice tasted better than blood, he just ran after me and said he wanna have some of my blood. -.-" DOTS. but well. all in all, it was a great adventure with wanli. haha. she keeps trying to calm me down. ahaha. my protector! :) and yes... shermin tan pang seh again. but thank God she didnt come. cos, our ear drums will burst if you hear her scream! haha. and ky, lucky he nv came too! cos he will scare us like shit. he just love doing that! -.-"

willy, dun let that matter affect ur mood. everything will turn out fine. i am so sure! hurry finish ur As and go to work. then you can treat me to Tony Romas! i am waiting! :)

everytime you smile at me :)

seriously, you guys have no idea how much effort i put in to get this guy, my younger brother to take a picture with me. he keeps saying that he isn't photogenic. ok. i look... DOTS. -.-" kaly, did your nose bled? :)

cousin's wedding at oriental. rushed there after school. took cab with Yani. haha. that woman decided to skip an hour of lesson. reached the hotel room. ate the food sent up by the hotel cos i was so hungry. skipped breakfast and lunch. the grilled potatoe salad at the atrium next to the sandwich store sucks. tasted kinda awful. so much food. sandwich, fruit tarts, fries, char siew, pastries, etc. delicious. bathe and went straight for the make up and hairdo. DOTS DOTS DOTS. i looked SO WHITE. seriously. so ugly. eww. i guess the make up artiste put too much of the concealer and foundation. i am as WHITE as a sheet of paper? eww. doesn't match my skin colour at all! after the hairdo, i looked into the mirror and just scream. cos seriously, i almost couldn't recognize myself. i was like thinking, what the hell happen to me? i looked so weird. but well. who cares. not my wedding. haha. was busy with taking photos of the guests with the polaroid camera. so cool! i shall get one for myself too. then smile and smile and smile. cos i promised my cousin to entertain the guests for her. so yup. gosh. it was tiring. and the shoes that i am wearing. kill my feet. it hurts! food was great. though the pork rib in honey sauce was kinda disappointing cos the meat is so tough. but well. all in all. the food is so yummy! love the dessert! chocolate mousse and the 5 treasure braised soup with salmon cavier. heavenly! :) drank the champagne on stage. seriously. it sucks. not nice at all. whoever is the one that told me champagne is sweet?! it is not! so dry and bitter. the spinach with abalone and sea cucumber. yummy. one of my favourite dish! the sauce is so nice. after dinner, went on to send the guest off. it's so fun seeing my parents and God parents keep saying thank you. so i went and join in the fun! haha. hope my cousin and her hubby will be fine. their friends had some plans to create havoc in their room tonight. can only say good luck. so tired. wanna sleep. tmr shall do my homework. can't wait for monday. gg with 1m01 to swensen's during the 3 hour break. good food and ice cream, here we come! kaly seemed so excited about it too! tmr going night safari with Wanli! whee. halloween party in nite safari. sounds so cool! and i am finally gg to meet leah carlose! yesh! i miss that woman so much! one more thing to add on. i really think that my cousin is so beautiful today!!! :)

willy, don't let anything affect your mood now. concentrate on As and i am sure you will do well! :)

have you ever felt how far a heart can fall :)

whee! in the end, i went to do nail art cos my godma sponsored me. i was fidgeting so much that the person had to keep asking me to stop moving. well. sorry. haha. cousin's wedding dinner to be held today! at the Oriental. so excited. the food is really good. yummy! and guess what, barron just insulted me! haha. everyone please asked him. it's so insulting man! sorry papa, but it's the truth. hee. missed the shopping with barron cos his leave was cancelled just to play rugby in camp. aww so sad. he called me and keep complaning over the phone. haha. well. sad. but nvm. next time! which is like super soon! whee! :)

willy, i won't let you see! you will say it's bimbotic! i am so SURE! :P

Don't know what to say
Never meant to feel this way :)

sometimes, i really wonder. why would ppl rather have fun now than to do sth that MIGHT or might not change their lives for the better? i mean better play safe right? ok. nvm. not my business anymore. -.-"

netball early in the morning. and yani was late. so in the end kaly waited a while for us. sorry kaly. hee. training was kinda tiring. we ran like 2 rounds around the track at the outer most lane. God. i haven been running for the longest time. the coach said i can run at my own pace cos of my knee injury. there is still advantages for being injured. haha. and this fellow classmate was supposed to be throw the ball to me and i was supposed to jump and catch it. in the end... she threw right at my stomach. yes... her aiming was good. it hit right on target, right on my stomach. ouch. well, but we still had fun. then went for CATS. i love CATS. cos the teacher is super interesting. met my new group mates. haha! got two cute guys in my group. kwee kwee got IS chiobu, i got IS yandaos! :) hee. then went for manicure in town. cousin's wedding. so she gave me voxy voucher. and guess what? i met patricia mok at voxy. she was sitting beside me. but well.who cares. i think she keeps trying to let me know that she is patricia mok. i wanna laugh so much. but i stayed COOL. haha. then went threading. DOUBLE OUCH! fast, but painful. gosh. so tired. woke up at 4 am previous morning and 6 this morning. tmr sch starts at 12, so i am gg to sleep in! whee!

willy, my nails were so NICE, before i accidentally smudged it. -.-" manicure don't suit me at all. haha. i will still destroy it. and i think i chose a damn sissy colour. eww. if u see them, you will say that it's bimbotic again. so i am not gg to show u! :P

but ur faith it gives me strength, strength to believe :)

my elder brother with me! :)
here comes the bride. :)

ok. i managed to save 2 pictures. the rest, i guess it just got sacrificed when i dropped the camera. saddening! but well, at least there is still the camera man! :)

wedding wedding wedding! it's my cousin's tea ceremony today! so damn fun. had fun with the groom and his brothers. and received a really big ANG BAO. woke up at 4 am in the morning. so tired. took a couple of pictures, but i dropped the camera accidentally, and... the camera sort of cannot operate. ok fine. it's like, you can't even on the damn thing. anyway, the buffet was good. all the nice food. :) shall upload the pictures hopefully very soon. :)

and willy, in case you were still suaning me about my dress sense, i looked GREAT. wahaha.

i wasn't meant to feel like this. not without you. :)

GOSH! saw this bear at Kalm in Taka! so cute. and expensive -.-"

it's so fun going out with willy today. he was supposed to pick me from school. well but tutorial ended early. so met him directly in town instead. walked around for a while before he went with me for my appointment. i showed him the bungee video and he totally laughed his ass off. it's so funny that i kept laughing too. then we went to sakae for dinner. his treat! he kept asking me to eat more cos he thinks that i am too skinny. well. i seriously need to gain weight! i ate like so much and it cost us less than 10 bucks cos of the sakae voucher. nvm. next time. we shall eat more! bought him something! a good luck charm for exams. DO NOT LOSE IT. you MUST MUST MUST do well ok? he made me a card too. so sweet of him. wahahaha. then walked around town for a while. and he went to kino with me. hee. my favourite place. seriously, the books he read all have a sad ending. -.-" come on. read something that has a better ending can? life will seem so much better! haha. i m not trying to say that you are a sadist! but well... can't wait to meet up again. then i shall have my feast! tony romas! you promise! :) thank you for that hug. u nv fail to know when i needed it. :)

my conversation with Barron Soh...

barron: i free on thur and fri. how?

me: haha. are you hinting? can go shopping if you want on thur.

this is how he asked ppl out? he is so INDIRECT. dearest papa, next time just tell me u wanna go out and i will gladly go out with you. since you drive! haha. and next time if you wanna ask other girls out, let me do the job. :)

Make it last forever Never take it back :)

it's raining now! my love, it's raining! promised willy i wun go out into the rain since we are meeting each other tmr and i promised to take good care of myself. :) just wondering, why does it rain out of a sudden? ok. i dun think i did anything wrong today, did i? except making fun of willy. :)

i am going to sleep early tonite. maybe 12? hee. so sleepy the whole day during lesson. cos i slept at 4 in the morning the previous night. serve me right. -.-" i need my beauty sleep! :)

close to you :)

autocad is so boring. kinda miss tan teo kim lan. argh. thank God siong peng was there to help me out! 3 hours of break! whee. went pizza hut with kaly yani and siti! ahaha. such a feast! so filling and yummy. had curry bake rice. went back for engineering drawing. God. as boring as ever. -.-"

meeting willy tmr. can't wait. bringing me for dinner! i wonder where. better be a nice place with yummy food! wahaha. i am greedy. what else can i say? :) willy, i will brave the storms with you. just do what you think is the best! :)

i cried a tear
you wiped it dry
i was confused
you cleared my mind :)

yummy dessert! :)

rot at home for the 1st part of the morning. then went to meet my cousin. got her a gift from swavorski. a pair of earrings. then went to walk around town and went to marina square for dinner. had japanese cuisine. Gosh. the dessert is so yummy. had been wanting to try them for ages. they looked so yummy on the display shelf. food was great. had yakiniku beef bento. so filling. cousin's fiance keep complaining about the dumpling being too small. haha. food critic. still haven gotten over the excitement from the bungee yesterday! seriously. once in a lifetime experience. hee. sch tmr. whee. 3 hours break.

tmr is monday. which means i will be meeting willy very very soon. on tue. can't wait. :) willy, be brave. i will be there for you, always! :)

some things are totally none of my business. why do i even care so much? from now on, i shall stop asking, stop saying anything, stop poking my nose into other people's business. do what you think is right.

I'm saying words I never said :)

cousin, leizel :) she paid for the expenses tonite! :)
my dear dear cousin. :) looked like Ah beng, but not an Ah beng.
with my aunt. :)

outside the fire station museum! we are promoting the museum :)
whee! the slurpee we shared! barron paid. he is so lazy that i have to put that cup near his mouth so that he can drink WITHOUT holding the cup. lazy bum. :)
our attempt to take a seductive picture has failed -.-"
the food we shared. yummy! :)
new york new york! my love! :)

seriously. 2 of us screamed the loudest! :)
those we took the reverse bungee. and we survived! :)
3 of us took the trip into the sky together! and SCREAM!!! :)
i was so scared. starting to chicken out. :)
yeah! i survived! :)

SEXIST SURVIVED REVERSE BUNGEE!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIJUN!!!

reverse bungee with the sexist today! it was so damn exciting and expensive -.-" 30 bucks just to send you into the sky and have that free fall sensation. damn scary yet fun. scream my lungs out and started scolding vulgarities. cos i was so scared. didnt know what was going through my mind at that moment. seriously. the free fall was so scary that you tot you could have heart attack any time. tisa and i screamed the loudest. had the video. wait till i upload it to my blog and everyone shall see how fun it is. another exciting and fun way to vent out your frustration. whee! took it with christine and huijun. we just couldn't stop screaming. so cool! and that was the first time i heard huijun using vulgarities. haha. and barron is so... no matter how we persuade him, we couldn't get him on the bungee even when i offered to treat him. he was scared. -.-"

chris ash came over to my house early in the morning while i was still sleeping. hee. took alot of stupid videos with ash's handphone! especially when we tried imitating the india overseas call advertisement. so funny! :)

went to meet my cousins for dinner at vivo after that. cousins' nite out! it was fun. i love going out with my cousins. they were all jokers! we just keep making fun of each other. went cafe del mar with them. gosh. cute guys everywhere. hee. drank cocktail. it's either my alcohol intake has improved or the bartender put very little alcohol only. cos i was totally sober. calamari at cafe del mar is so nice, YET expensive. hee. haven been having this kind of gathering with my cousins for the longest time. and it was just so fun. :) shall upload the rest of the pictures and videos of the process of the reverse bungee tomorrow. :)

suddenly our destiny has started to unfold :)

my signature dessert! JELLY! :)

sorry airen! i forgot to save the picture we took together in the kitchen. anyway, went to Love's hse for dinner. she cooked spaghetti for us! and corn soup. so yummy! love it. i made jelly for them. and we even had cakes from coffee bean. so filling and so fun. i was eating and drinking, singing, jumping around and playing airen's head all the way! haha. let's do it some day again. whee! reverse bungee tmr! can't wait. i wanna scream and let out all my frustration. seriously, it works. tried before. :)

just came back from Dad's office. 2.30 in the morning. yes. my parents are still in the office now. overtime. -.-" my dad had to rush out his work while my mum went to accompany him. so sweet. my cousin and i decided to go and be their light bulb for a while. so bought snacks and drinks to go look for them. i guess my dad will be working late into the night, trying to fix that complicating machine. it looks totally like a turning machine, only that everything is computerized. but at the same time, it looks like a spaceship too. ok whatever. wait till i graduated with an engineer diploma from NP! i can help them fix the machine too. hahaha.

willy! you and ur sweet talk. doesn't work for me. hee. i know you can't wait to get your hands on those cookies! see u on tuesday for dinner! can't wait! :)

i don't know but i believe
that some things are meant to be :)

Thumbs up! yummy! :)
omg. we are so proud of our home made cookies! :)
Eating time! :)
ooh! my hardwork. willy, appreciate. :)

again that pose, shermin tan. -.-"
Shermin didnt know what to do :)
baking in process! :)candid shot! :)
our hardwork! it's delicious! :)

i love her! :)
according to her, it's her 7th cookie! :)

yes. i am kinda high! :)
it's SUPERMAN! :)
blissful wanli. happy yvonne. spastic shermin. :)

had so much fun baking with wanwan and shermin! haha. the cookies turned out really yummy! willy, you are in luck for yummy cookies! hee. :)

once in a lifetime

means there's no second chance

so i believe that you and me

should grab it while we can :)

hey willy, i am gg to bake cookies for you! so be nice and finished the cookies i have baked ok? though i am really not sure if it is going to taste nice. but you promised to finish them. and ur apple caramel. i will remember. no worries! hee. and thanks for the past month. everything had been gg on well so far cos of your encouragement. that's all i need. :)

gg for reverse bungee on sat with sexist. God save me. i am scared. seriously. but joanne said she will be down there getting ready to call the ambulance. i know CPR! but none of them willing to let me do on them. shucks. haha. love and airen! our date tmr. rmb. you promised to cook me spaghetti! home made spaghetti. that's the only dish i knew how to prepare. haha. hope it rains tmr! then three of us can play in the rain again! whee.

mr. smiley had lost it's magical power to make people smile. haha. i realized i forgot to blog about it. but well. it works for me. :)

it's in the way that you moved me :)

ok.seriously. i m not trying to be bad or what. but she really really really doesnt look like RUIEN at all! issac must be blind or sth. OCS guy.please. get your eyes check. and ur ears too. u rather believe her than believe mel. you are blind and deaf.


sometimes, trying your best is not enough. doing it well is what it counts. :)

whee! lesson ended early today. haha. both practicals had been cut short. thank God. was so so so so so tired. and sleepy. watched 40 year old virgin with my mum till 1 am last nite. haha. went BP to have lunch. long john was great. then we girls went to the ARCADE while the boys went to play pool nearby school. omg. kaly is so good at daytona. she won everyone. played shooting game and some fighting game. i had no idea how to go about creating special powers with only 4 buttons. BUT i still won. haha. i am talented. what can i say? wahaha. i knew willy missed me! hahaha. i can't wait to meet willy. and have to buy willy apple caramel. seriously i had no idea what is that. i think should be able to get it from cold storage in KAP. gotta go revise my work now. ciao. :) and jeremy tay gui qiao lost my pencil holder. -.-"


Never wanting your eyes to see
This desperate heart that knows
How perfect we could be

wahaha. miracles do happen. it's a miracle that my dearest cousin wanted to have ice cream out of the blue. she dislikes cold stuff. but today... wanted to have swensen's ice cream. but decided to save money and gotten Mac's ice cream. strawberry sundae! yummy! i think she is too excited about her wedding next week that she just pulled me to go shop in Northpoint. out of all places, the place with little things to shop. -.-"

false front? usually. false smile? never. :)

It was raining just now. Went to walk under the rain to cool myself down. Well. Seriously it worked. Did sth stupid and made myself seemed so stupid. Stupid barron and his stupid theory. I tried and obviously it didn’t work. He said the easiest way to forget one person is to learn to accept him again. I did. But. Well. I guess it was the first time in my entire life someone actually said that I am fake. -.-“ ouch. It hurts.

Cheers Yvonne. Smile though ur heart is aching. :)

after skyride at siloso beach!
with young jonathan. he has a glib tongue seriously.


hee. went to look for ashley in vivo with mel when she said she was all alone. went to take the skyride again. thanks luge ppl and yes, rayner, for the free skyride. mel asked why i like to take the skyride so much. i had no idea. the feeling is just so great! waited and chatted with rayner for a bit while waiting for the time to see the fireworks from SOS. his timing is so accurate. we managed to watch the fireworks on at the highest point of the skyride. i was so excited that i started shouting about while mel sang songs. met young jonathan on the way back to sentosa. he had a gf. can you believe it?! haha. then went to sentosa office to look at the ppt mel made for issac. it was such a touching ppt that ash nearly cried. but me being me, i actually said sth anti climax. haha. reached home at 1130. late. yes. but well. gotta enjoy my last day of holiday! :)


i saw him again :)

-.-" this is what BARRON SOH did to my moo moo and mr. smiley! sicko!
peeling process! i m in pain too cos he keeps grabbing me when he is in pain!

picture i took when we were in the car. Ash and the driver! :)
in the lift! :)
before facial :)
during facial. he can't laugh at all cos it's too tight!

haha. during peeling! trust me. he screamed real LOUD. :)

threesome trip to punggol park! :)
he claims to love me forever! my daddy! :) i will whack him if he doesn't!
happy birthday Xie Ai!!! credits: barron, the photographer :)
in barron's car! :)
yummy! barron stole Merci from his house for us! :)

catwalk along the pond? :)
he deserves a scolding for littering :)
we are reflecting upon the pond :)
happily posing!
barron's version of bollywood movies. -.-" gosh. it's an insult.

swing! oooh! my favourite place at the playground. :)
looked at how far i can swing! :)
christine! my love! :)
having a private and romantic meeting by the river :)
private investigator: barron soh :)

haha. had so much fun on saturday. accompany christine to the temple. then went to punggol park. then went shopping. then went to barron's house for dinner. then drove to my house to play! haha! :)