sometimes i wonder why did things turn out this way? does God really want this thing to turn out like that? sometimes i think that life is going in circles. we came back to the start again... life is so unpredictable at times... wea ll know the fact that some things done cannot be undone. haha. i sounded so emo today.

omg! i finally get to blog. now at xinyi's house! whee! had a fun time with wanli with xinyi and jiawei, her cute cute brother. we went to watch this cartoon "open season". xinyi was like laughing so hard. haha. went to watch 9.56 with kaiyuan. he is lousier than me. i never see guys so scared of horror movies before. he is lousy! haha. lazy to blog...

you know what? haha. think wanli is falling for my nephew Ian! :)

ooh. there is this piggy cup infront of me now. and it totally reminded me of wanli! ahaha.. i keep on making fun of her! she just couldnt stop eating BUT her body is still so good. jealous. haha. she is at my house watching Goong now. and she just finished the whole big packet of Polar Biscuit i have bought. haha. i just like suaning her. haha. so funny! i am so bored that i had been surfing around friendster for the last two hours poking into other's business. haha.

haha. i am so bored and nothing to do at home. wanli coming over at around 1230 to watch Goong. now, i have nothing to do but watch "Devil Beside Me". great show. haha. so funny. i wonder if such thing actually exist in school. on saturday, went to watch "Material Girls" with xinyi, wanli and kaiyuan. had so much fun. yesterday went to church. during the sermon, me serene and qimin were competing to see who blew the biggest bubble from the bubble gum we were eating. and yes... serene won in the end. haha. you cant believe how big the bubble is! haha. bored bored bored. argh. i wish i wish i wish...

9th November 2006

Haha... totally had a great day today! Except for the fact that HITLER threaten to kill me after oral presentation, everything is great! Had oral presentation and I was so scared that I started trembling... well... I tend to have stage fright... dun ask why... cos I dun even know it myself! Went to meet Mrs. Kok today with Shermin... well... she was quite nice... Haha.. then after that, I went to meet up with Jadey! Today is my dear Jadey's birthday! Happy 17th Birthday! We had fun, catching a movie and crapping about each other's life in school too! And we had a hard time deciding where to eat. That woman! Haha... and end up we decided to have our dinner at Ajisen Ramen! Haha... fun fun fun... we walked around for like an hour plus... still continuing in our craps... and she bought some tea cake from mark and spencer. We took pictures outside Paragon with our phones and went home... I was so scared she is going to lose her way... you have no idea how blur she can get at times... on the way to the MRT we met this er... sick guy... wanting to trim our eyebrows... NO THANK YOU. He is scary. He is that striptease that appeared in Singapore idol before and he is scary... sorry Jadey, didnt get you any present. Will get you one the next time we meet... I know soaps soaps and more soaps for you. I wont forget! We must do this again. And this time with Xuanya and Sam. Haha... programmes tmr? Working with shermin and wanli... haha...

haven been updating for days... that is because my COM is down. stupid. hate this com of mine.. argh...

things can never be the same again. i know it and i think you can sense it too. no matter how hard we try to mend this friendship things can never be the same. i hate to say this, but it is true. the scars that we had inflicted on each other, the hurting words you've said, the betrayal, the trust, how you had once thought so lowly of me and the disappointment... all these have been the cause to the scar... you once said that it is my fault and you are giving up on me, I was angry... but more of disappointed... not only in you but myself too... i came to realize that how vulnerable our friendship is and how trustworthy i am too you... maybe it is my actions that has disappoint you... how can a friendship last if there is no trust in it? everytime i try to forgive and forget i just cant bring myself to think of what you have said to me that night. it might be words of anger, but... to me, it is still hurting... your words of anger have been flashing through my mind every now and then... i know... things will never be the same... i rather turned back in time and hope that none if these will happen rather than trying to mend it... you cant change certain things... you just cant...