DECEMBER

last month of the year, had been a hard November, it was the last day of November yesterday, i tough it will be a happening and party night, but darling was at home,she say she is tired,no choice i got to stay home watching Portege.

today is the first day of the last month in a year, felling is like everyone is in holiday mood, sis is going to gold coast, dad is going china or japan i forget, mom went to turkey,friends is going hong kong and etc, me...? well back to jalan TAR working i guess;craving for vacation, wanted a get away for sometime, money earn has no where to use, though is not a lot, but still feel like rewarding my self with a trip, wanted to put down all the weight in the brain, but still i dont think i am going anywhere, coz darling is busy with her work,and i just dont understand taking an one day leave is so difficult, i plan to give her a suprise by stealing her pass port and take her to the airport,and off we go for vacation, it feels so romantic,hahaha, but i scared i will be suprise by her telling me she really cant go in the airport when everything is paid. hahaha.

december is a month of jingle bell, a month of party and holiday, it is my favourite month in the celender, maybe i am not young anymore,or i have social lesser, i have less party invitation, i have not much feel on the jingle bell song, and foremost i got no HOLIDAY....sigh. hopefully will came out with something, been stress for many month, hopefully that the stressfull work life will had an full stop. ..

Grey Cloud Moving Away

I would say that i am lazy to blog instead of busy to blog, haha, though it is really busy, but i still got time to play PS2 every night before i sleep, coz i have quit those massive drinking event, maybe once or twice amount is really enough as my health condition is not so good either.

Grey cloud seems stop raining on me and tend to be moving away i think, everything is flowing a bit more usual then before,darling's health which is my major concern has been in good condition lately,work load has been slightly lighten,cash flow tend to come in bit by bit,mood is getting better this 2 days,so as my own health,had a bit free time and to move around and meet up, tough it is not perfectly moving but still it is better then the previous, hopefully the grey cloud had made up it's mine to leave me.thanks god for that.

something is not right...

it has been a while,everything seems not right, everything just not going your way, bad things happen is like a swam of bee coming,every issue is a massive one,from health to financial, from courier to social, from personal to couple, i am at the worst time of my life, from the day i can think till today, the present moment is the worst i can think of. not a single word in the dictionary or as i know can define my current situation, i don't know how long i can hold on to this,hope that the grey cloud will leave me soon.

sometime i will think that why is it me? why am i chosen, why all the worst scenario comes without any signal or warning, cant even see any syndrome or hint that all this is going to happen, is it because i did too many bad things? i don't think so, is it because god want me to experience this scenario?i dont know, i really doubt how long this terrible negative scene is going to last,maybe i should pray more as i dont normally do.

i am really tired, from my heart to soul, body to mind, i am afraid i will collapse soon; fallen, coz i got no one to talk to, i got no one i can share my sorrow and worry, i dont know weather i can take it all by my self...hopefully, hopefully everything will back on track, hopefully all the bad scene is going away, hopefully...pray for me..i dont hope that all the bad things turn into good, just hope that it is not worsen.

not good wednesday, Halooween~~

Start feeling not very well since yesterday, not much production today(means not working),in fact seems not doing anything,just had an appoitment lunch and update a case, feel very tired,very heat-ty, headache and many more especially the annoying cough, makes me mad.

Beh,Cass and Kim went to pray pray this noon,coz they are not doing very well lately,Beh is stress with his figure and courier, Kim normal normal also will go if anyone ask her to go, Cass mom admited hospital(hope she get well soon as cass looks worried) and she brokeup with his man recently and moving out to stay on her own,sigh.. pity girl, anyway she is a damn strong girl, Salute to her!!! Maybe i should pray pray also, coz i am not doing that well either, not very SUI coz i think there is always ppl who is SUIer then me, very coincidently mom say will bring me to some GOD's place tommrrow, very accurate on telling you your future, and also very good looking at your past. sound creepy right? well his name is Mr.Kim and i will be seeing him tommrrow.

Busy Monday, Blady Monday, Black Monday

Slept late on the night before, was watching "I Now Pronounce You Chunk and Larry" kind of gay movie, but still has an excellent and new story line,Adam Sandler was good, but i forget that fat guys name, woke up early in the morning, head to office before 9, need to finish some task before my lunch appointment, been working hard on those cases, hopefully there is some return, lost alot of cases this month,gonna eat grass soon, no incentive for next month, sigh... how to survive, car commitment,housing loan,insurance,phone bill, this repayment that repayment.lunch appointment was great, long time dint talk to mel edi, seems nothing serious happen to her,still can joke, still can talk,still can drink, still can smoke, meaning she is not dying soon,good of that, had a quick lunch,not that quick afterall coz is a 1.5 hour lunch, just touching on the introduction of what we wanted to chat of,coz really long time dint catch up,as i have got back to back appointment,hence i got no choice but to leave, went for a appointment in kepong, after a short conversation, found that the CLEVER customer actually feed me wrong info on the case, and we are actually signing the letter offer, i almost fainted;went to another one in klang,my offer is the best among all bank, but still he say he does not like our clauses, sigh..i Lose a 5 figure revenue today, feel like dying, instead of monday blue,i have monday black

IS MINE...

Finally, with all the efford i have done, sacrifising loads of money and my old BHQ 622, Finally i got my new baby,there is only one word to descripe, Marvelous; Marvelous she is, with the sexy 18 inch,candy white, 8k xenon, 240BHP,direct shift gearbox(DSG), 0-100 6.1 second, and the eye cathching WQQ 722, she is my new baby, my new golf GTI, i am glad to own it, is actually a dream come thru for me, honestly happy,but cant show, must be humble, hahahah

i am not dead yet

i got intruder in my blog!! who the hell is that?? the last blog was not posted by me but else one, saying that i am shutting down the blog; i am just too busy to blog due to the recent heavy work load, new work assignment, rubbish cases coming in one by one, and also my new apartment S&P and loan,chasing figure for the month, my new car, new commitment planning,year end financial planning, file-ing documents....etc(this is word that wanna shows others there is still alot, but in fact no more, i like that quote from mel's blog,haha)...holy cow, i cant finish what i should do, how on earth will i find time to blog? anyway thanks mel for logging in, dropping by in my blog, reminding me that i haven't blogging for sometime...the blogs are on the way....

Shut Down

My blog will be closed soon, coz i dont feel like blogging anymore. Main reason is because i dont like to write, i dont know what to write and i have no time to write. If you would like to know of my daily lifes and current updates, just give me a call at 2030625. Chao!

milli's blog

i like the title of milli's blog

Just because I smile doest mean I'm happy

Cruel

sometimes i think i am not cruel enuf, i hate my self for that, as if u are kind to others you are cruel to yourself, dont i know how to bargain, dont i know how to treat others bad? dont i know how to reject?can i dont be so kind....well well well, today is not a good day, so so busy again, but i need to accompany her to doctor, i got no choice coz she got no one else to rely on, i put down all my messy and dirty job and accompany her, i was darn piss-off, piss of not getting my own job done, piss of not getting my personal issue settle.i was piss coz she still show me face, i was piss coz no appriciation shown, i was piss coz time is so insufficient,why is it like that, i hate that god create 24 hour a day, as i need 48 at least, 10 hour sleep, 10 hour work, 10 hour leisure, 10 hour drinking and 8 hour left to settle all the un settle issue.

i want to getaway, i want to empty the task list in my head, i want to drink without thinking, i want to sleep without waking...ops.hahahaha

GA-THE-RING

finally i am damn busy on the pass Sunday, i am so busy until i dint blog,i am so busy until i need to work on the blady sunday,though is good to be busy, you will feel so occupied, you will feel every minute is so precious, i am so busy until this blog is actually wrote in the toilet(i swear with my lung and liver) but at the mean time, i feel that i haven't see all my friend for a long long long long time, maybe they already forgotten me,i dint even received a courtesy call, kinda miss them, is been a long long time since we last have a gathering, should be on mel's birthday, that was last month. in the pass we see each other almost everyday, dinner, mahjong, movie, k-session, but now only special occasion, sigh...fell like having a gathering on this raya, people who read this blog, any suggestion what kind of gathering should we have? pot luck?bbq?steamboat?

Dreams

dream is a very important element in life, a person without dream is a person without future planning, a person without dream is a person that has no passion on their life, when a person has no passion on their life they will just live as a normal people, how do we define normal person? a person that chooses to live with lowest risk, they don't want to get rich, they don't want to drive Ferrari, they don't want to live in a 12 million bungalow. sometimes is good to live as a normal person,because these people don't think so much, these people will be more happier compare to those that thinks too much.

i am a person that don't want to be normal, therefore i think alot, i want to be rich, i want to drive Ferrari and lambo, i want to live in a 12 million bungalow,i want to tour around the world, i want to go shopping in Milan and japan,i wanna have my afternoon tea in Paris champ Elysee,i wanna go watch whale in north pole,i wanna go ski in Switzerland,i wanna go clubbing in Brazil, i wanna watch football in England, i wanna go Amsterdam i wanna go Prague i wanna go Hungary i wanna go Barcelona i wanna go where ever i wanna go, i wanna go when ever i wanna go.......

therefore i need to work hard work hard work hard.....when i work hard there will be alot of things in my mind, when there is many things in my mind, i will think alot, sometimes is really difficult for me to not to think so much,because i am born like that, when you think too much, you will naturally unhappy.... i need to stop coz if i continue i will think some more...hahahaha

Is It so Busy??

Am i That Busy? what am i busying on? i really dont know, but i really have insufficient time, were drinking during office hour on monday,that is the only day i wasted my working hour, 1st day of the month ma, relax abit lo...hahaha

other then that, been working so hard in office for the past 2 days, until sleeping also dream of work,can u imagine how pressure? a lot of shit in office now days(work place jargon,means cases that is having problem after due is closed) this is due to un proper management since the first beginning. regret that.need to work hard for this whole month coz there is raya break, and new commitment is on the way...

were having some text with mel yesterday morning, and found that we have only seen each other twice for the past 20 days, compare to those days we see each other twice a day, big contrast, long time never have a long and private conversation with her, but she seems to be doing well, at least from the out look, hahaha, where is the dome day? and where is the la bodega days?and where is the delicious day?

Rubbish

We call all creature that live in this planet an organism, and human is the most clever life form on the earth, but lately i found that there is some dead but living creature that we call them rubbish(sounds like X-file)hahaha, they are rubbish in the sense of they got no human feeling;they are called rubbish because they are not qualified to be human, these rubbish they liked to pretend to be human,and they even disguised like human,the most common characteristic of this rubbish is their 'face skin' is god damn thick.

26.09.2007

report for spotting rubbish:

Quantity: 2

Sex : one male one female

Species : Rich pretending type

Age : late 40

height :male approx 175cm; female approx 160cm

Venue : oriental pavilion restaurant at jaya33

time :spotted time 8:00pm, get away time 11:00pm

2 rubbish were found in my mom's pre birthday party(the party is only 2 tables and all invited are close friend),first of all they were not invited, they are invited by one of our guest, which is my mom's brother,i am afraid that he(mom's brother) is soon gonna be one of them real soon because the rubbish virus will infects easily.

come back to the 2 rubbish,they were rare species, coz they even pretend to be rich, they call them self a developer, the male one handed me a name card, calling him self a director of few companies; and the female one has marvelous fashion sense,the hair style were so in because got many type of brown and gold colour, she wore a shinning blue colour bottom which is tight fitted and a pasar malam type spaghetti stripes with some laced in front, you will know is damn cheap when u look at it,in addition she uses a perfume which smells one kind, i am not saying that i know perfume alot, but that taste is really rare,i dont know why but it leads me to those chow kit smells(sorry for the bias), and for people with common sense also will think that she is working in a night club.after some investigation, the female rubbish is proven to be the male rubbish's un-official mistress,they look so perfect as a couple.


they were so enjoy in the party they sing and dance and act like so close to others, i really to compliment them on their friendliness. the story has not come to an end yet, before they leave, the female creature ordered a take away, to be specific, she order 4 portion of shark fin soup(where on earth got human will take away shark fin soup and is around 11pm at night), and a portion of friend hokkien noodle for 2 person. and because i am signing the bill that night,hence i get to pay for them as well, one portion of shark fin soup cost 30 bucks, 4 x 30 = rm120, one portion off hokkien friend noodle =rm20, together sumed at 140, plus 15% of tax, it comes to almost rm160, tough is not a big amount, but the feeling is like being coned, both of them come to the party with nothing, and not invited some more, additionally they take away,but we cant blame the male rubbish coz he might know the female rubbish order a take away,until i found out when the waitress bring in the take away and the male rubbish quickly admit and keep it down at the chair so no one will realize, this has proven that both of them are partner in this shark-fin conning crime!!! i saw the whole scenario, and it was so rubbish until i nearly vomited, thank god i dint.

Beware people.they might be some of this rubbish near by you.you cant prevent them because your skin face is not as thick as them, you cannot avoid them because you will never know where they come out from.



--This report has no copy right, please forward to friends, family and beloved one to prevent the harm from these rubbish---

Birthday Present

Sometime it doesn't mean that you know a person well then you will know what to buy for his or her birthday, It was one of my best friend birthday lately and i almost scratch my head till bleed and i still cant think of what to get for her, maybe there is too many pros and cons i need to figure before i choose the present, i need to consider weather the present suits her?is it practical? will she like it, will the present "overshine"OTHERS(quoted from BAOBAO), can i afford(coz i promise her a white colour mini cooper s and a 2000sqf desinger suite which i cant fulfill at this moment)hahahaha,wow so many things to think, or maybe i just give her some cash. hahaha,as quoted from all the others girl friends of her, she had everything, hence this is getting even harder.

Finally after a few days of R&D ( research and development) and inspired by her SUDOKU madness a few month back, i decide to get her a game boy micro( i hope this is not a very lame decision) tough it dint related a lot, but it is a gaming device that i think that it will have SUDOKU on it, i think is just more 'cangih' to hold a high tech device then playing game with the phone or playing SUDOKU on a book.hahahah, the present was well pack with some box that i steal it back from the company, but on that night she was rather drunk, and might not notice what she doing,she is like raping the present and the whole think was tear till torn,hope she enjoy the style of opening present,after the present opening session, i just see her vomit till the bin is full(very rare scene),sad things is the next morning she ask me did i come for the party...sigh, she and her memory lost again.(why every time we drink hard liquor in raid boux also there is some physical disorder, are they selling fake liquor???hmm....)

Olivia - Fall in love

i dint remeber when was the last time i bought a orginal records, if i am not wrong, it was a YU HENG, and i were force to do so coz it was a friend's cousin, hahaha. i came cross a singapore singer lately, is was introduce my mike, but i dint know that fellow will buy original record, that makes me curious on the CD, at first i downloaded it from the web and find out that it was so good, espeically her unpluged version of 'Sometime when we touch'. hence i pay RM55.95 for it in borders.

Olivia- singaporean girl, not super model looking but have a very decent voice.

System Upgrade-Funny

Dear IT Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slow down in the overall performance, particularly in the flower, gifts and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 un-installed many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, but installed undesirable programs such as Formula One 5.0, NBA 3.0 and World Cup 2.0.

And now Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and House Cleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.
What can I do?

Signed,
Desperate Housewife

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Dear Desperate Housewife,

First keep in mind: Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system.

Try entering the command C:\ I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME and download Tears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0.If all works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

But remember, overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Late Night Teh Tarik 6.1.

Late Night 6.1 is a very bad program that will create SnoringLoudly.wav files.
Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-Law 1.0 or reinstall anotherBoyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crashHusband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have a limitedmemory and cannot learn new applications quickly.

You might consider additional software to improve memory and performance. I personally recommend Hot Tasty Food 3.0 and Tongkat Ali 6.9.

Good Luck,
IT Support

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Discounted Sushi

Had a late and heavy lunch, not hungry but still need to eat, sunday has become worst, in the past when sister is around we used to have sunday family dinner,never miss,but recently this event has become lesser, this might be due to dad having competition dinner, or mum having charity dinner, same goes tonight, but a very rare and very heart warming event had occur, mum bought me sushi...but it was a discounted sushi from cold storage,tough it is discounted but it is still heart warming,hahaha hope i wont have diarrhea tomorrow morning.

4.99 to 1.99?hmm...

Will it be mine?

i have a scenario here, people sometimes will fall in love in something very easily, for example a new model hand phone, when it first launch, you might have a love in first sight, you tell yourself you must owned it, coz u never owned it before,you never the felt before the feeling of owning it;you will be very happy when you own it, you will take extra care on the phone, you scared that the phone will be scratched, but after time passes the phone is old, the phone might not as attractive as before,you will now eyeing on new models, when then what will you do with the phone?

this theory works the same with human i guess;when you see a person that you think she is so brilliant, so suitable for yourslelf,you will then go after her....and the story continue just like the above. tough, there is still exceptional case, some ppl still keep thier old hand phone with them, but still they will eye on the new model outside...hahaha

by the way,i have decided on my options,THE GOLF GTI, i have a love on first sight on this beast.so co-incidentally i found a used one which is SO NEW,have paid deposit on the car but dint wanna tell many people about it because is not so firm yet, i also afraid of my feeling toward the car will disappear very fast, but at this moment i am full of passion toward the car.just like first time holding a girls hand....hahaha

Three Ham Sap Lou browsing on my future girl friend

Rawang Ah Ching Steam Fish Wonton Noodle

I used to save all the blog and refurbished it on the blady sunday night before i post it, coz sunday is so boring, and i got so many free time on sunday, as i were saying since last sunday, i must do something this sunday! and i have made it, i went to RAWANG which is 45 minute away from my place for a Fishsy Lunch. the place was damn hard to find, but off course in return i got a damn good meal.

in the ulu place suddenly pop out a weird restaurant

Only One, No Other Outlet

live life as a journey...

maybe i am too lonely, i have got too much things in mind, family, jobs,social,friends,financial and last but not least relationship. when you are lonely and have too much thing on your mind,you are dead,you will become mood less, anti social, and mod less and anti social makes you hide from the crowd, dun feel like talking, then when u hide from the crowd and dont fell like talking, you will gradually have mental problem and might feel inferior, and this will lead to anorexia, which you dont fell like eating,and sooner or later if you dont eat you will then die of hungriness...

why do we live if life is without excitement; dont live life as a destination, live life as a journey(quote me please)

Let's enjoy our journey....

varierty? or option?

Why there is so many options in life, why there is so rare that u can find something that is so customize to suit you, why must there a choice, you might need to choose to eat noodle or rice in a day, you might need to choose which way to take while you are driving,you might need to choose what to wear everyday, why is there so many things to decide? why?



some decisions are easy to made and some are critical;some people make decisions fast and some are slow, some people make decision without thinking the out come and some will think of many outcome before they made a decision. i am a person who think of many outcome and a slow decision maker and as well as i got lots of critical one to made.....so i am not a happy person as think i am



i want to change my car i got 2 to choose from, but i might choose a third one after analyzing everything, choosing a car is like choosing a partner, so many things to think;for a car; price, maintenance, colour, specs.....for a partner;price you need to pay if you are together with her, is she high maintenance? what skin colour do you like? what kind of spec in her you need? hahaha

OPTIONS

OR

i like the spec of the GOLF GTI, but the price is slightly higher then the Mini, the Mini has the unique charisma and style that i like but the car is under power. Is there a third choice for me that has the power of the GTI with the outlook of the Mini?

sunday = blogday

If a person would have 75 years old of life he or she will enjoy 75x52 = 3900 sundaysss, and for a person at approx 26 years old has already wasted about 26x75=1352sundaysss, almost one third of sundaysss in their life.

sunday is a lame day, why do god create sunday?is it for people to get drunk on saturday so they can rest the next day? or is it for the purpose of making monday a bad day for all those who need to wake up in reluctant?

my sunday is rubbish, rotten durian, expired mayonnaise, my sunday has no meaning, coz i always got nothing to do on sunday, on sunday my phone wont rang, coz very rare that friends will call on sunday, on sunday i got to wake up like usual coz i need to have breakfast once a week together with my beloved family.


therefore i usually blog on sunday, unlike some individual, they like to blog on office hour, as they are so free during that time( you know who you are)

i swear i want to do something new on the next sunday....outing?picnic?hiking?or maybe rock climbing, what ever, i just dont wanna stay home and waste another of my sunday.

rob like commercial

i like to watch tv commercial, there are thosands on you tube. while i am browsing today found one that would like to share, a good one..



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nojWJ6-XmeQ&mode=related&search=

rob read articles

Personally i think blog is use for expression of tough other then that blog can also let an individual to bring up something that they wish to share,just like forwarding email, i like reading articles, meaningful ones especially, but it is difficult for me to remember such a long website address when sometime i would like to recall,hence i think blog is also a good place to store up this link and at the mean time you could share them, there is a good one on live a meaningful life at below:

http://ezinearticles.com/?Live-A-Meaningful-Life&id=535766

it is a good one especially it is FREE one....

rob's sunday

Sunday 090907

lazy and tired Sunday, drunk yesterday night vomited when homed, forgot when was the last time i am really drunk like that, it was a birthday party and the way home were longer then it usually took, this is what we call the drunk effect,unlike others in the gang i think i am the earliest to wake up this morning, 8:00am so reluctant but it was for my japan trip i planed for next year, i am having breakfast with one of dad's business partner which might provide me accommodation if i go to Tokyo, i say IF. well, sometime i think that one will only scarifies only when there is a benefit for him or her, i think this is a very ugly thing to do. Scarifies here means that doing something that is reluctant.but most of the people are doing that, anyone is happy to wake up 7 and get to work before 9? i don't think so?but they are sacrificing for the $$$;who wants to go to gym for a 3 our workout instead of enjoying a good meal? at least i choose the meal, but these people are sacrificing for their fitness,i even heard a weird one from Michael, he scarifies to go to gym then massage because he want to build up his body so he could fight,haha.

after all our life is about sacrificing, our parents scarifies for us, we scarifies for our loved one...but sometimes when sacrificing with no return what will that result to?


THIS IS WHAT WE CALL RELUCTANT

rob on blog

Friday,september 07, 1:26am

Cant Sleep, Feel boring with life,Life seems to be a routine,everyday wakeup in the morning, go to work, have lunch, continue work, finish work, go home,or hang out, have dinner, online, sleep....

Been eyeing on some camera now days, as mel says camera create good memories, how about bad memories?hm...will anyone capture bad memories on the camera?yet to find out;is camera a need or a want?for ppl like me is just a want i think, coz i got good memories,most things happens will be nail in my head in detail, good and bad, happy or sad,just when i need to recall,it is not an difficulty, but sometimes i choose to forget.

first time to blog,felt wierd of myself, why am i doing such thing?Robin Koh Chao Yoong is blogging,wierd huh?for what i think is i know the world and the world dont know me, what others see is not the me which i suppose to be....sigh laptop low batt....

to be continue.....