Another year end, i have been asking my self lately,what have i did this whole year?some as expected some are not. things has change really alot for the year 2008, financial status, relationship, friendship, life style and so much more. i have been with my own company for half a year, didn't really do very much for the company, but at least help out. you can see this coz i am now typing this thing in my office hour,hahaha. did not get many project back for the company as economy is on the downturn, and even if i am god also i cant help much on the sales.manage to have few project run on next year should be something impressive in this downtrend market.having some big big plan next year, very scary,scary as the commitment will be very high, but if it really goes thru, it will be very very rewarding.
something has changed between friends, mom say that our friend is not so close anymore, even she can see, hahaha, she say last time all can play till late late, 4 or 5 o clock, now 130 all wanna go home edi, maybe is the age,hahaha, but even if aged does comes into count, we at least can stand till 2. hahaha, but anyhow, everyone has really changed. not so happening as before, not so close as before, not so playful as before. we had this costume Christmas eve party at my place, and it dint turn out as my expectation, maybe i should not call for any event anymore, coz some will think that these event is boring and just come and show face...sigh..
overall it should be quite a good year for me as most of my goal is archived,and looking forward for next year which will be more huge changes, hopefully i cant get my FERRARI or my 2nd Car real soon...
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Another Level of Life?
Was sick for the whole week, more then a week i suppose. i felt that my mindset have change a little after this abnormal long dragging sickness, i start to realize materials are not so important, i want to see more things that i haven't see, i wanna go more place that i have never been, life is fragile, my mom's sister diagnose neck and breast cancer, and she is less then 45 years old,sigh..i dint know what to say, may god bless her and her family, they will be having a hard time to over come this, same goes to Justin's mother, also diagnose breast cancer. mummy was a cancer survivor,hence we have went thru this 7 years ago. hard time...
i start to sell all my VALUABLE recently, i am selling my iphone that sis get for me, coz i think i dont need a iphone after all, i selling my recent buy N96, well when i think back, i dont really need a so hi tech phone after all. i wanted to sell my panerai 8 days. coz i think i dont need so many watches after all. i want more cash with me. i want to go vacation, i wanna see the world. darling and i are having many destination from december onward. sometime is rather hard to weight weather wearing a 5 figure watch in hand fell more solid? or use up the money to see something u never see?
Dec-bangkok
Jan-Korea
Feb-China
March-Manila
April-Dubai(business Trip)
May-Melbourne(sis Convo)
June-Krabi
So many place to go and so much money need to spend.i am not buying anymore unneccessary next year.(i suppose)hahaha.
i even think of selling my beloved VW GOLF GTI. coz i recently felt that i dont need such a fast car, i am not a racer afterall, maybe i just need a Myvi. Myvi is good. cheap and good looking, small CC, less fuel comsumption.
i am crave of money, cash...i lost alot on share last month, almost one MYVI, whahaha. started to worried coz i dont have much cash flow, where to find money for wedding, where to find money if i got baby, $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$, money money money!!!!! why everything needs money. maybe this is the another level of life...
i start to sell all my VALUABLE recently, i am selling my iphone that sis get for me, coz i think i dont need a iphone after all, i selling my recent buy N96, well when i think back, i dont really need a so hi tech phone after all. i wanted to sell my panerai 8 days. coz i think i dont need so many watches after all. i want more cash with me. i want to go vacation, i wanna see the world. darling and i are having many destination from december onward. sometime is rather hard to weight weather wearing a 5 figure watch in hand fell more solid? or use up the money to see something u never see?
Dec-bangkok
Jan-Korea
Feb-China
March-Manila
April-Dubai(business Trip)
May-Melbourne(sis Convo)
June-Krabi
So many place to go and so much money need to spend.i am not buying anymore unneccessary next year.(i suppose)hahaha.
i even think of selling my beloved VW GOLF GTI. coz i recently felt that i dont need such a fast car, i am not a racer afterall, maybe i just need a Myvi. Myvi is good. cheap and good looking, small CC, less fuel comsumption.
i am crave of money, cash...i lost alot on share last month, almost one MYVI, whahaha. started to worried coz i dont have much cash flow, where to find money for wedding, where to find money if i got baby, $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$, money money money!!!!! why everything needs money. maybe this is the another level of life...
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
i am left forgoten...
i am left forgoten...haha, i stop blogging since march...hahah, long time back. many things happen in thi half a year...some are good some are bad...well this is how life should be, it cannot be good all the time, i also found out that someone exclude me in the friend list of her blog...hahaha, and she call herself my BF, :P
suddenly got some mood to restart this bloggy thingy. maybe i got no much people to talk to and no much time to hang around. i am extremely busy with my current job at WWW.BENSHEAR.COM haih...a job which i still cant find my passion in it. SHIT i got urgent things to settle again. will describe my job scope later....
suddenly got some mood to restart this bloggy thingy. maybe i got no much people to talk to and no much time to hang around. i am extremely busy with my current job at WWW.BENSHEAR.COM haih...a job which i still cant find my passion in it. SHIT i got urgent things to settle again. will describe my job scope later....
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Time does Fly...is March
time passes so quickly, is march, third month of the year, but my feeling is we just celebrate Christmas a few weeks back.
Sister flew back to melb, might not able to see her for a period of time,1 year i guess, from our conversation in MSN and sms, seems that she is not doing very well over there.hope everything will be fine for her.
made a few major decision recently. plan to quit my current job, well..the Chinese horoscopes says that is a good year for me to change to a different job. thats why i decide to do so.should be tendering coming April. and leave on May. hope i can make it; i like the job alot in fact, it was a very comfortable job. decent pay. flexible time.good colleague, happy working environment, what else can u ask for? but try not to stay in a comfort zone for too long, it makes people lazy..., trying to setup a own copy with my little saving. and also hope that i can survive.haha,bless me..
and Finally i plan to get married. it already 10 years. been together, and i still love her so much, just dunno why,haha,tough she will some time make piss till the max and disappointed me. but i can see that recently she is trying her very best to make things happen, we went thru many things, sweet and sour, gay and tears, up the mountain down the sea, and today we are still together, this shows that the fact, we should be together, and i am too old to choose anymore,haha; she dont read my blog and i dont aspect her to see this. but i sincere would to say thanks darling for what u have did. I LOVE YOU.
Sister flew back to melb, might not able to see her for a period of time,1 year i guess, from our conversation in MSN and sms, seems that she is not doing very well over there.hope everything will be fine for her.
made a few major decision recently. plan to quit my current job, well..the Chinese horoscopes says that is a good year for me to change to a different job. thats why i decide to do so.should be tendering coming April. and leave on May. hope i can make it; i like the job alot in fact, it was a very comfortable job. decent pay. flexible time.good colleague, happy working environment, what else can u ask for? but try not to stay in a comfort zone for too long, it makes people lazy..., trying to setup a own copy with my little saving. and also hope that i can survive.haha,bless me..
and Finally i plan to get married. it already 10 years. been together, and i still love her so much, just dunno why,haha,tough she will some time make piss till the max and disappointed me. but i can see that recently she is trying her very best to make things happen, we went thru many things, sweet and sour, gay and tears, up the mountain down the sea, and today we are still together, this shows that the fact, we should be together, and i am too old to choose anymore,haha; she dont read my blog and i dont aspect her to see this. but i sincere would to say thanks darling for what u have did. I LOVE YOU.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Chinese New Year @ 2008
Is been such a long long time, my last blog was on the 30th November, i have been MIA here for at least 3 month. am i so busy? haha, i dont know, maybe blogging is not the priority for me during my free time, as i dont even have much time to rest.
Time flies, is 2008 and is the first day of Chinese New Year, the feeling of CNY is not as excisting as before, maybe i am getting older,i dont even feel like CNY is already here,maybe my family is not that typical Chinese. got to do something for myself soon, seems that no one else could help me out on my financial, most people think that i am doing really well, haha, maybe is my new car, some might even think i got this all from my parents, but in fact not,i am from a family that is seen to be slightly well off,but i just don't feel that myself coz unlike others i need to work out everything by my self.
It is a boring night on First day of CNY, i been thinking alot.i received an unusual red packet from dad; i have been getting at least four figures for the past years, but it is only 2 blue notes for this year. i dint know why, and i dont feel like asking as well, coz the amount doesn't really matter for me, maybe i did something wrong,hence i dont deserve a big ang pow.haha, but infact i have help him to save more then 20k of legal fees in the recent transaction of property purchase, and also with my advice he is making some money out of the real estate.. i dont earn anything from it tough not even a thanks??a bit fed up with what i have gave but no return...sigh
Many relative is asking about my marriage, but i dont have enough saving to pay for a wedding that i desire, relative say that my dad have plenty, but i dont think they will help out much,coz he dint even mention anything about any wedding or maybe i am wrong,hence i got to have enough saving before i dare to propose to her,anyway i dont even dare to think of my wedding at this moment, coz i am not happy with my relationship; it has been 10years, but is it mean that after 10 years of time together a couple will know each other well? even if they know, will they tolerate? or will they avoid on what the other party dislike? maybe i am on a unique case,again i have been giving too much, i dint get what i expect, hence i am a bit of upset and fed up.do i expect too much? i seriously dont think so.
i am a very calculative person, i dont like to give with no return, unless they are my family or love ones, but for them to taking it as granted i dont dare to promise i will still just give like an idiot.i am tired...
i am tired with my job, not as passionate as before, too much plan ahead,i am tired with the people,not willing to be sohai any more, i want something new this year, i desperately wanna do something big, i wanna get rich, coz since i am young i am educate that when you are rich you can talk louder..hahahaha.
Time flies, is 2008 and is the first day of Chinese New Year, the feeling of CNY is not as excisting as before, maybe i am getting older,i dont even feel like CNY is already here,maybe my family is not that typical Chinese. got to do something for myself soon, seems that no one else could help me out on my financial, most people think that i am doing really well, haha, maybe is my new car, some might even think i got this all from my parents, but in fact not,i am from a family that is seen to be slightly well off,but i just don't feel that myself coz unlike others i need to work out everything by my self.
It is a boring night on First day of CNY, i been thinking alot.i received an unusual red packet from dad; i have been getting at least four figures for the past years, but it is only 2 blue notes for this year. i dint know why, and i dont feel like asking as well, coz the amount doesn't really matter for me, maybe i did something wrong,hence i dont deserve a big ang pow.haha, but infact i have help him to save more then 20k of legal fees in the recent transaction of property purchase, and also with my advice he is making some money out of the real estate.. i dont earn anything from it tough not even a thanks??a bit fed up with what i have gave but no return...sigh
Many relative is asking about my marriage, but i dont have enough saving to pay for a wedding that i desire, relative say that my dad have plenty, but i dont think they will help out much,coz he dint even mention anything about any wedding or maybe i am wrong,hence i got to have enough saving before i dare to propose to her,anyway i dont even dare to think of my wedding at this moment, coz i am not happy with my relationship; it has been 10years, but is it mean that after 10 years of time together a couple will know each other well? even if they know, will they tolerate? or will they avoid on what the other party dislike? maybe i am on a unique case,again i have been giving too much, i dint get what i expect, hence i am a bit of upset and fed up.do i expect too much? i seriously dont think so.
i am a very calculative person, i dont like to give with no return, unless they are my family or love ones, but for them to taking it as granted i dont dare to promise i will still just give like an idiot.i am tired...
i am tired with my job, not as passionate as before, too much plan ahead,i am tired with the people,not willing to be sohai any more, i want something new this year, i desperately wanna do something big, i wanna get rich, coz since i am young i am educate that when you are rich you can talk louder..hahahaha.
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