last few mins of 2005

well.. here i am in HK, spending the last few mins of 2005 with my family~ lots have happened, happy and sad... didn't do much today, watch tv, eat dinner together... but i'm glad... nearly 8-9 yrs, my family hadn't been together permanently.. frm my dad working overseas... to me studying overseas as well.. so actualli nothing special done today is considered special as we spent the time together....

i wanna write here,
-I WANNA IMPROVE in 2006. new yr, new hopes.
n i wanna work towards there....

apologise to everybody that i've offended, purposely or unintentionally... though not everybody will noe, but i sincerely offer my apology. I will try to change.. but mayb somethings are in-built =P

shall post my 2006 resolution here later.. after countdown...

i send out my best to everyone.. realli realli hope that everyone will have a HAPPY NEW YR!!

Best Med: Laughter, Side Effects: Wrinkles~

even the best med hav side effects~ but i guess tis is 1 side effect everyone wldn't mind havin... mayb not so for pple who are anti-aging~ but i wld b pretty much satified with lines on my face that will naturally fold into a smile that brighten everyone's day (incl myself) then to have them fold into a frown~

anyway.. that's not the main point i wanna blog abt.. jus strike my mind ahhaha

main thing is~ I"M HAPPY TODAY. had a very super mini pri sch mates outing.. which consisted of 5 person (incl myself)~ got me, tsz shan(my best fren in pri sch), weiqing(also my best fren in pri sch), jeremy lim(the first ever dude to propose to me~ muahahah), n weili (who's like part of our gang who alwaes play catchin after sch).

initially it was jus a small dinner between me and jeremy since he's buggin to see me since i was in aus.. then i decided mayb i shld try ask tsz shan to come along. and i asked her to try for weiqing too.. but my hopes are not high as it was realli last min and i sms her at like 1am in the morning.. n jeremy is suppose to contact whoever he's got...other than shan, i haven met like the other 3 for 5-6 years already.. can u imagine how i excited i was..

so the plan was to meet at 6... but mr jeremy FORGOT he got napfa. so he postpone to 7... but since shan originally was meeting her frens to watch movie.. so i jus went ta meet her and weiqing at 6..

1800 hr: i received a call frm shan saying that she buying ticket and ask me to meet up with weiqing first.. so i went to the stn, looking ard.. no one leh.. the weiqing i rem was kinda short and chubbY~ realli cute... look ard somemore.. this gal that jus passed by seems to b scanning ard as well.. our eyes met. but thot it's not the person we'll each looking for n she walked on and i stayed put and continue to look.. but hey. wait a min.. that gal seems kinda familiar. OMG. it's realli weiqing.. she's changed so much.. her hair is longer, she lost wt, no longer chubby~we both were so surprised.. as both cldn't regconise each other..

then headed up to tm gv to look for tsz shan...n we went to sit down in food court to chit chat till the guys arrive...chit chated, niaoed tsz shan, gossiped.. the usual stuff pple do... realise so many things i forgot frm pri sch...quite sad hor.. then at 7.20~ weili arrived.. waHHH.. another one that've changed so much.. i use to see him with boh tak hairstyle.. today got hair liaO.. somemore SO TALL. by then we had to walk ard to look for food as tsz shan and friends watching movie at 8...

look look look.. finally at 7.50.. jeremy came... BIGGEST SURPRISE OF ALL: aHHH why he become so fat liaO... hahah no longer the tall thin jeremy.. but jus taller than me by 7cm and fatter jeremy~

we settled down in fish and co. then tsz shan had to go la.. so sad..

but i cld realli see the change in jeremy.. he use to b super perverted.. now quite gentlemanly.. when sit down.. we onli hav 4 person.. but he took the bigger table at the side.. i ask him y.. then he say so u gals can get the cushioned seats.. omg. wld never hav expected that to come out of his mouth.. weili seems pretty quiet..but realli quite forgtful and innocent (at the same time gullible.. hahah weiqing and tsz shan say they in NIE he also believe) n weiqing is as usual frank~

we jus ate and chat.. food wasn't great.. but the company made up for that... there were the awkward moments when everyone jus go quiets.. and pple jus grab water n drink.. but i guess after so long never meet.. we're doing pretty well. sat there till like 9.40.. n jeremy suggested to go to playgrd.. to relive the old days...

at the moment of stepping into sunplaza park playgrd.. all 4 of us returned to the yr when we're jus 12.. so fun.. jus play.. no worries no nothing...laffed. try doing dangerous stunts that didn't seem so dangerous.. jeremy as usual ka chow me.. this time by catchin a spider and threatening to put it on me...

onli during times when we realise we're (in terms of body size) too big to sit on the see-saw, climb thru the gaps when they hav these huge nets set up (like the on in ecp lehh)... then we're reminded that all of us are turning 20 next yr..

time always flies during happy times (happy mah..so fly loh.. u noe the saying abt happy till feel like flying? guess works the same for "time".. haha laming).. it was nearly 11pm.. n weiqing hav to go home.. so we headed home la.. ending our nite of childhood.. plannin to meet again.. and i'm so looking forward to that... =D

大长今

I've been watching da chang jin for like 2 days none stop.. hahah stil not sick of it.. if i brought it back to aus bet i will watch it for 24hrs till i finish the whole series..

while watching.. chang jin's virtues realli hits the spot in me.. where it makes me wanna b as motivated as her... as hardworkin as her.. sigh.. unfortunately i jus noe i dun hav the willpower to go that far..

this few days abit more free.. chat on msn with a few of my pharmacy mates (will b shortened to call them "pharmies").. n most of them have successfully move on to 3rd yr... w/o a single failure ( i think tt can even incl my irritating hsemate).. also most of them found PAID jobs...how irritated can i get? VERY. i mus admit here that i'm competitive inside, but i never ever bother or too lazy to work hard enuff to compete with others.. thus resulting in current state.. it's gonna b tough next yr for me.. as i'm requesting in overloading so i can finish the course at initial predicted time of 4 yrs or i will b turned down and see my irritating hsemate graduate b4 me. ARGH. i'll probably go crazy... i wanna graduate~ i wanna graduate~ i wanna graduate..

sigh.. my previous plan of studying biochem haven even start yet... i see already then i sad liao.. WAH.. pls pls.. grant me the permission to overload.. probably i can't get all these done b4 christmas since now the lecturer's are in hols mood already...

sian ah.

2.5 yr anniversarY~

hahah today is me and derek's 2.5 yr anniversary~~ oh well.. didn't seem that long leh.. say real i stil feel that i don't realli noe him..

aniwae... today lunch went to eat jap with my mom. totally the place is very nice.. super nice atmosphere.. not alot of pple, got private tv.. haah later i upload the photo for u all to see~

then headed towards sentosa~ as this is his last day(in a way) afterall.. took mrt to harbourfront.. then followed the signs to get cable car~ since i think nicer mah the view.. shld let him see see since he's like first time here (last time he here, he was 10 yrs old)... at the bottom where we buy ticket.. they got sell those supposingly tour packages~ so we saw one rather simple one and took it lah.. includes scenic ride, dolphin lagoon, cinemania, underwater world.. oh and since i thot he mite not be comin here anytime soon, i upgraded our cable car to glass cabin loH...

totalli they got LOW maintenance on the cabins.. since supposingly one of the "scary" things abt glass cabin is that the bottom is also glass. so scary mah.. in the end, turn out the glass floor is so scratched that it's nearly the same as normal floor.. onli gd thing is normall onli half the cabin is exposed while the glass cabins hav full glass windows and um.. "walls" ahhah cannot tink of the word...

so at first went on the ride to mt faber.. got off to see see scenary.. he bought a sg shot glass as souvenir.. then we went back on and headed off to sentosa~ when we got off, there was this guided tour of sentosa(which our "tour package" included..) totalli cheapo tour.. got abit more info lah.. but nothing realli fancy.. went to underwater world first.. so long never go.. quite fun.. but the turn off was that both me and derek's camera is dying.. so hav to save save here and there so the camera can last till at nite.. got this touching area in the underwater world.. where can touch fish, starfish, mini-shark, pufferfish, and mini-stingray.. i tried the starfish, which felt rubbery, the shark which was realli smooth, the stingray which felt like paper.. hahaha..

then went to cinemania.. totalli jus fun.. not scary AT ALL.. haha.. somemore i ride a few times before liao, so learnt my lesson and sat in a "correct" position so when the chairs jerk ard.. i don't hit the barriers and come out with realli painful bruises..

then went back to try this new attraction called the sentosa luge.. quite fun.. abit like go-cart like that.. hahah i damn scared that i will speed and lose control of the cart..since basically there's no acceleration button/pedal as all the acceleration is contributed by the fact that the whole track is going downhill~ quite fun... after u reach the foot of the hill, got chairlifts to bring u back up to the top to play again or wad not.. me and derek went for 3 rides.... wanted to rush for the dolphin show,... but was too busy playing the karts.. so missed the show.. also got this trapeze lessons going on ard the underwater world area..but close at 6pm.. so missed the playing of trapeze as well.. so sad... oh well.. i shall be back..

at first he wanted to walk along siloso beach to look at bikini babes.. but dun seem to hav.. so sadly he and i went off to delifrance to eat~ damn hungrY~ after that rushed to the musical fountain as they say got a lot of pple, once full dun let pple in.. so sat there for 1 whole hr... waiting for the 7.40pm show to start.. played stupid word games like trying to find as much words as possible frm "sentosa" hahaha...finally the show started

impressive sia.. hahaha.. so much changes frm i last saw it.. then rushed off to take cable car as return trip was included.. in the end so many pple on bus.. unload and load.. took like 15mins to reach the cable car station... luckily got glass cabin ticket.. then got priority queue.. lala.. if not u all shld hav seen lah.. DAMN long man the queue... ahah by the time got back to harbour front.. missed the train.. 7mins, then change to NS line, missed train by 7mins again.. OMG. by the time made it to orchard.. 9.30 liao.. oh no.. sure gonna chop by fang and kuan...

luckily got derek the "mian si license~".. totalli stunned the 2 of them at orchard~ hahaha.. yeaH~ plan successful!...went to eat mos again and went to see christmas lightings.. totalli thruout the whole nite.. fang is being extraordinarily demour, and the kuan is TOTALLY being a super attitude person~ hahaha...they say they wanna hav revenge next wk.. so pple jus warn me don't go out with theM k~ hahaha~..

aniwae.. while walking.. saw this car stranded in the middle of the road.. so i asked derek to go help.. in the end, he realli did.. and succeded in pushin the car to the side~ hahah... helpful is a gd thing.. and to kuan and fang.. no he's not obedient.. he's juz being encouraged by me.. he also wanted to help anyway~ hahahha

ok.. i damn tired d.. basically we went home after the pushing(of the car) and the lighting at the centrepoint.. ok.. if i miss out anithing i will b back.. meanwhile i jus noe i wanna slp.

tour day 4

waH.. reaching nearly his last day's of the tour in sg.. he's leaving on thurs...

today planned to go bah ku teh.. which we didn't manage to go since he had some sch matters to settle in the morn.. so afternoon went to tamp central to eat and then ate Gelare~~ muahaha.. yeah!! yum yum~

then just hanged out ard tamp and then went back home to rest for awhile as he was tired.. *dun ask me why.. [roll eyes]* anyway.. took 158 to dunman..and let him see see after his short nap... too bad the sch gate close d since quite late.. u muz be thinking wad the hell am i doing there till after 6.30pm.. hahaha.. suppose to eat with my mom and my godmom and family at the newly opened indoor stadium restaurants.. so i thot of how u can walk across the bridge that suspends over kallang river... realise a lot of changes everywhere... abit scary.. cos i lot of constructions going ard.. so not sure am i going the right way... ahhaha.. so jus walk onli~ in the end.. made it there safely hahaha.. n the first one there somemore...

went to the restaurant to eat crab~ since derek specifically requested it as he jus love crabs. haahha.. had a great meal there.. as the crabs and other dishes were pretty well done.. ( i can't realli say they are VERY well done as i haven ate enuff to comment how terrific they are, but i guess they're quite gd d...) then went back to tp after meal.. went to cinemas to see whether got movie as he wanted to watch king kong.. which premiers tml (as in today.. ahhah 14th).. then got woh.. so watch the 10.30pm show...

the show was freaking 3 hrs long.. but i wld say it's gd~~ hahah recommended to watch~ actualli i tink this is even better than potpot..mayb it's 3 hrs long.. so dun feel as rushed... jus depends whether u can tahan thru the nite to watch the whole thing.. by the time movie ended.. it is 1.30am liao.. no more bus.. so walk back home loh.. not too faraway also... ahhaha.. so there we are.. tour day 4.. tml more programmes to come~

derek's tour day 3

today.. suppose to go to bah ku teh at farrer park.. then turn out that dun open today.. luckily didn't go.. then suppose to go sentosa too in the afternoon.. then turn out my mom think it's more suitable to go on wed~everything that's suppose to b planned din work out.. oh well. it's life.. things dun alwaes go as planned.. anyway.. so while contacting my aunt abt the bah ku teh and finding more places to bring derek, my aunt decided to drive us out to eat the da sia mee in katong... supposed to b famous.. at first thinking of going to cycling with sc and xy.. but omg. sOOO hot.. never die before ah.. or more like melt lah.. anyway... after lunch, my aunt dropped us at sim lim sq n she went off to run her own errands...walked ard sim lim and bugis jxn after that.. nothing much to do la.. later at night met with my mom, my 5th aunt, and mom's fren.. and hav dinner together...

after dinner wanted to ma fan one of them to drive us out to get durians, but in the ened didn't since now not the season for durian.. so quality quite bad.. so instead, one of the aunt's since on her way out to fetch her daughter frm night sch, drove us out to geylang again to show derek some special places.. and also little india~

omg so tired everyday.. ahhaha.. oh ya.. damn.. jus realise.. think i lost the cards i took with kuan.. oh no... dropped out of my wallet i think.. so sorry ah kuan!!... zzz

Sat 10th Dec

hahah.. derek arrived on sat.. wanted to surprise kuan since she was at the airport.. supposingly.. but as usual she's late.. so she missed the chance of seeing him then.. didn't tell kuan and fang abt derek's arrival here.. wanted to surprise them..

anyway.. brought him home first.. and he met my mom.. don't know wad my mom's first impression is.. anyway.. after settling down his luggage n stuff. .headed out to hav lunch at tm.. then jus shopped ard.. till ard 5 set off to cw's place for sj sqd outing... in the end... they called me midway on the bus tat they heading to orchard instead.. like wad the.. ahhaha.. derek came along as well.. attendance is super bad.. but yea.. i'm used to it.. no surprise.. onli me, xy, sc, mitch, cw, dj, daniel, alan.. so we had our outing at k box cineleisure.. sang frm think 7 to 11.. omg.. by 9 something so sian liao.. but the beginning was fun.. when pple are kinda high and crazy.. on the way home stopped and ate at bedok food court since sang frm 7 to 11.. no dinner..

sunday, woke up at noon and went to eat dinner with my mom and her fren who jus ended their wkly trip to the church~ after which the fren were heading to chinatown, so followed them out and they dropped us at suntec, mtg one of my singapore fren, matthew, that we met in aus.. went to arcade and challenged derek to bishi bashi~ muahaha i win~ oh well.. guess my cousin is the only one who can outwin me in the game (amongst the pple i noe la)... after matt arrived, we went to watch the movie Saw II.. wah lau. gross. ahhaha.. then.. ate dinner, went to see the fountain of wealth, durian shells(esplanade), merlion, fullerton hotel(actually went in~~ hahah), then lau pa sat to eat satay.. so hot everytime we get out of aircon place.. ahhah i finally hav someone that wld agree to me when i complain of hot.. realli fun day..

plannin to go to sentosa tml..need to wake up abit earlier... hahaha...

--written on monday earli mornin~~~

past few days

erh wad did i do? can't realli rem.. hahaha

wed, went to yoga with mom.. first time going to yoga.. quite fun.. quite weird...quite scared that my joints will all dislocate... then now is quite pain.. cos too long never exercise.. now whole body muscle ache...

fri, got off work late cos went on TPN (total parental nutrition -- customised nutritional bags for patients who are able to eat) rounds with pharmacist, only ended at 6.30.. mom went to her ADND so nobody pei me to eat... decided to call up someone to eat with me.. targets incl kuan, xinyu and xunkai.. in the end decided on kuan so sms her loh... hahaha apparently my timing damn gd cos her xxx msg her 5 min ago invitin her to dinner.. the xxx invited me along when kuan told him abt me but stil.. felt that the situation abit the awkward and i need to get home earli due to tiredness n i need to clean up my place... so end up onli the 2 of us go TM and eat loH.. hahah went to mos again~ cos aus no mos.. so i need to eat as much as possible.. MUAHAHAH... chit chat/gossip/whine as usual~ hahaha.. kuan laff till she stomach pain.. oh well.. totalli we were like crazy gals... but who cares.. no many pple noe me here now.. too bad for kuan who mite noe more pple!! HAHAH jk lah... ended up i reach home at 12mn.. omg. wadeva happened to going home earli.

sat, kuan's fren flyin off to hk (the fren is xchange student) then realise the xxx wldn't appear.. so didn't meet her at airport hhaha n more details updated when my eyes can be opened more..

work day 2

OMG. yesterday was stand too much.. today is sit too much.. doing admin work the whole morning.. so damn slpy~>.< then again.. i rather sit then stand.... afternoon, my supervisor ask me go for this event abt "needlestick injury" (which means being pricked by a used needle.. {roughly laH})... they had a small presentation abt it.. then got this singing competition which is i guess opened to participation of any department/ward in the hospital.. it was fun.. sittin there.. watching the adults, working, sensible actually having some fun and laffing (it is funny.. though some really made a fool out of themselves at times =P )...

n u noe wad.. 2 other results came out.. 1 of them is extraordinarily gd... well for me at least.. least expect it to score that high (to me that score is high..).. juz last nite till this morning. i was stil crackin my brain on how to work things out when i go back to aus... this result is certainly beneficial in my arguement.. no matter how much i wanna shake it off... these thots haunt me. until i get it settled... i won't ever hav peace... i wanna study at least 3/4 of the subj i'm suppose to take in 3rd yr.. hopefully can..

back to WORK~

YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!.. i succeeded in not killing anyone on my first day.. not packing anything wrong.. well nearly though... while packing one of the pharmacist told me it's a diff dosage form... hahaha.. stil i succeeded.. i'm so proud of myself..

going back is tiring.. but again it tells me how much more practice i need... i struggled in recalling wad this med is for and wad that med is for.. this time i realise.. i'm startin to understand wad the pharmacist are tokin abt.. so i'm quite glad abt that.. also.. standing for prolong period of time is tiring and the amt of concentration needed rid my brain of it's energy... today i didn't followed anyone down for rounds as i decided.. first few days.. settle in abit first lah...

tokin abt settling in.. sighz... alot more attachment students frm poly this time.. so they like in their own clinque loh.. then when go for lunch they just went off.. me went 30mins later.. cos working n didn't realise all of them are GONE... hahaha.. oh well.. last time only 2 attachment student left.. so the 2 of them very nice and invited me to eat lunch with them.. this time.. guess it's up to me whether to "chap" in or not.. i dun really feel comfortable chaping in like that.. as i wld b taking leave soon.. and by the time i'm back.. probably they are gone too.. so abit the lazy.. oh well.. we'll see how it goes...

now.. my plan for this wk is.. go work.. then when after that.. come back watch awhile vcd or do wadsoeva.. but probably start myself on studying 30mins to 1 hr on biochem..see whether i can do it today.. prob in startin is i need to set up my lappie.. which is stil sittin in my laptop's backpack.. also need to help mom out to clean up the place.. very messy and dusty.. esp my rm.. hav to do something abt it.. though it's like a short while that i'm back.. but i dun wanna keep sneezing...

oh ya.. today.. one more result is out.. 4 out of 7 out lah.. 3 more to go.. stil only 1 failure.. i pray hard for the rest.. pharmacol, physio and pharm prac.. all 3 quite scared.. but scared no use... all i can do is wait... if fail then think wad i can do.. anyway... i shld start on my vcds.. so many my mom left me with.. need to relac first

running away = losing the battle/fight (wadeva it is)

today.. spent the whole day watching dvd/vcd... one line i picked up is the subject.. dunno.. thinkin abt my studies again... time after time during the semester.. i escaped. i ran away frm studying... i lost... as usual with me.. announcing how i will work hard wadsoeva(though i did work harder).. i dunno wad lays ahead.. but i will try to not run away.. i will try to study thru this holz... i will try and fight for a chance to b able to take more subj next semester... while back here.. even only for a few days.. i can see my mom is barely hanging on.. i cannot waste anymore time/money... i need to graduate and work... sighz... i understand my situation might be better than some that cannot even pay for a local uni.. but i cannot turn back anymore.. i'm already swimming midway to the destination... i stop, i wld soon tire out and drown.. i turn back.. it's a waste of time and energy.. so all i can do is move on forward... this last sem.. i noe that i can change wad i cldn't change.. like my habit of writing super neat notes.. so.. yup. i can change.. as long as i hav the will to.. this is abit far.. since next semester is next mar.. but need to start changing my mindset.. esp. for biochem... or else i won't ever pass...

anyway.. startin to work again tml.. aiming to b careful.. not make mistakes.. and learn more or reinforce wad i learnt this yr too.. hahah.. need to work hard!!

Day 4

waH.. yesterday decided to b a gd gal and pei my mom go shopping~ so first when to the new central library to get some bk that she wanted.. WAHHHH new woh.. i haven charge my camera.. cannot take pic.. buT.. impressive.. hahah..

then went PS to jalan.. finally.. got to use the skills i practice in Yamaha the day before and show my mom again.. ahahha.. i'm crazy...

at night went my mom's fren place to steamboat.. damn hot.. esp. for me.. feel like meltin d.. not a gd day for steamboat.. but got alot of gd food frm HK~ since they juz came back frm there.. so.. hahah muz endure~

fuLL already then when i said jokingly wanna go eat durian. they really brought me to geylang.. they dropped me mom at home first though as she's tired... YUMMM.. the long-awaited durian.. while at the first shop, we met lydia sum.. the HK actress lei... never take pic though.. we were chosing durian frm the first store lah.. hahaha. then like we find the durian that's going for $20 for 3 too ex when she chose the XO D24 durian.. $13 per kg.. crazy.. but ya lah.. she can afford it no prob.. so we went off to another store, and found some BIG durians.. i try and upload them when i finally connect my lappie onto the net...

finally, my curiosity got me to actually ask them abt which st is those "pple" aggregated (dun ask me wad pple lah. it's geylang man.. who can i b askin abt)~ so they drove me to the correct lorong to see lah (which happens to b the even no. ones).. somemore got categorise one.. some is for chinese, some for indian.. now i noe sg alittle bit more...

Day 3 back home

yest.. woke up and went back to dunman to meet sc up for lunch~ so dead tired after the nite before watching potpot... they were having trng session for the upcoming trng camp~ so saw like huawei, yuanwang, junyang, bingliang, qiaoping, huiru, weiquan... seniors and juniors in general... as usual feeling left out since they were settling sj stuff.. but then again mayb if i giv deeper thots.. i wldn't b able to commit so much..

then went katong shopping mall for the gd chicken rice.. yummm~ abit ex though.. since 4 bucks.. i'm like a bit numb on this kinda things.. dun go yelling at me abt being rich and wad not.. spare me since i spent most of my time livin in a place where normal price for a plate of chicken rice costs 10bucks. anyway.. had my can of zapple which aus doesn't hav and walked to katong with sc so our food can get digested.. then took 196 n thot can reach lavendar mrt since i need to collect my new passport(old one expired).. in the end it changed back to its old route again~ (it once does pass by the station when they closed down nicoll highway).. so got down near sj hq and walked to the station instead.. n i parted with her frm the station.. she's heading to thailand for a few days of holz... i hope she can put down her sj stuff and enjoy the well-deserved holidays...

then get passport, which is fast... then head to orchard where i looking for work from one of the few cpding pharmacist in sg (they make med frm it's raw material, customised to ur needs), mostly lab work.. totally for the compulsive me. i was kinda lost on how to get there, so have to try my luck laH~ walked abit frm orchard stn along orchard boulevard since it's like on one end of it.. then realise it's too freaking far away, so took 2 stations to reach there.. just to realise that the head pharmacist is not there and i have to call back.. oh well.. at least now i noe how to get there.. went to nearby busstop(which realli isn't near at all) n found a bus that goes to plaza sing. directly...

went there and queue up for tickets first as mtg up with fang and kuan later on in the evenin~ watching chicken little... bought tickets liao then walk ard the place lah.. went to arcade and stupidly think that i can easily win the new PS portable home with a few bucks. gonna cheated... reality hits me with "they not gonna let all pple win so easily" and i walked away~ to Yamaha this time and fooled ard with their pianos..

juz before i went down to the pianos... (i totally muz blog this as this is realli a worthy memory of why i niao kuan so much that day~) i got a call frm my *sacarcism ON* DEAREST kuan *sacarcism OFF* just to tell me she bought the tickets liaO~.. my gdness.. imagine my shock as she was the one who told me to buy the tickets in the mornin and i told her i not sure wad time i can reach here since i've got a few errands to run before reaching, so i decided to tell her to call me if she bought it d.. that gal aHH.. didn't bring charger home frm her hostel, pgp, then hp die loh.. told me gonna use phonecard in the end no phone card even.. so didn't call.. imagine how panicky we were.. so i sent her off to find frens to get rid of the xtra tickets (her fault wad.. and who else can i call?) then called fang also.. she gonna shock too.. haha.. kuan realil win liaO~. one thing i can praise is tt she tried really hard.. shall cont this part of story later...

so i went to the pianos as i've been itching since i was practising in aus with winnie's keyboard and when i did at xy's place, her piano keys are very hard.. and my piano all outta tune lah... n the song sounded so gddd on those pianos.. play play play.. till i heard noise frm outside.. guess wad...

THE LIVE LOONEY TUNES SHOW IS ON!!!. omg.. so i rushed down, and got myself a nice place and stood there to watch the show, TAZ is so so so cUttte... met fang halfway thru the show and kuan after the show finished and hurried upstairs to try and get rid of the xtra movie ticks.. luckily got this family willing to accept...

show was cute.. i liked.. the porcupine the most.. hahaha.. cute... then movie finsih then 3 of us tok crap in food court.. as usual.. gossip~~ can never stop that habit.. continued at MOS when the food court closing d.. and then 3 of us head 3 diff ways backs home, 1 north, 1 west, 1 east...

noticed some changes in physical appearance in kuan lah.. bian hiao liaO~.. hahah.. she's so gonna nag at me for this.. ok lah.. no hiao k.. juz girly. .i not really use to it.. character wise like not much change in either.. hahah. .sorry lah fang.. i dun really observe pple's physical appearance a lot.. been a fun and accomplished day.. felt like i did alot and met my 2 friends.. fUNN~!!!

hahah now slpy lah.. wanted to write abt day 4.. but eyes barely open.. so forget it.. tml k... gnite pple~

hOme?

well well back in sg...

anyway muz announce that i passed my drivin exam on 29th Nov... with 3 times that i thot i will fail, once i did a kerbside stop and cldn't restart the car, 2nd when the lights turned yellow and i stopped but seems to hav crossed the stop line, 3rd wanted to do 3 point turn and then waited for another car to pass for a bit the too long~ but anyway i still passed..

singapore is hot. well more like humid~ i cannot tahan.. =P

juz checked my exam results. DAMN BIOCHEM. fail again.. it's a subj that i can never understand, never b able to pass, like eng lit. sheez... i'm so in trouble.

sianz no mood to tok liao.

counting down to going back home~

packing packing and packing. hrm. damn it. cannot stop packing stuff.. stuff juz constantly pops up. oMG. save me... tml is my drivin exam.. but it's been pouring for a few days in a row already.. hope it doesn't rain tml~ then i can juz drive as normal.. hahah raining so diff to drive...

today i juz realise i've been reading quite a lot of bks (textbks not counted~ hahaha) this yr...
-Harry PotPot (all 6 bks available)
-Pride and Prejudice
-1 detective bk written by agatha christy
and i'm going to start on the first bk of chronicles of narnia... hahah

it was fun to read pride and prejudice, i watched the movie, then read the bk.. cld understand it better since i cld visualise the scenes frm the movie... alot of things had a deeper meaning into it.. prolly do a more thorough read when i feel like it.. but now~ juz wanna move on to the chronicles since most pple say nice~~

ok slack finish.. back to packing.

holz~

been havin holz for awhile.. but stil my abnormal slpin pattern remains.. horrible.. taking my drivin exam next wk.. muz b super alert.. hahah.. very bad if i drive ard in dazed mode.. hopefully can pass... if not really knock my head against the wall lah..

this holidays seems pretty busy to me.. but then again... have tons of stuff on "to-do list" but not enuff motivation to do it also no point. sighz. i can't stop thinkin abt my results. not yet announce~ or else i wld either b whinining away/jumping ard here depending whether i pass or fail. when i say pass or fail i refer to all the subj.. 1 fail is in some way equivalent to overall fail to me. sux. dunno when will it b out. damnit. the suspense kills..

nothing much to do this few days, playing tons of mini-games online and going for my drivin lessons... suppose to pack for home too.. but that kinda sux.. cos i always hav trouble deciding wad to pack and wad not to pack.

was really glad to read on fang's blog abt being happy to see me~ hahah.. i dunno.. as i mentioned in a previous blog entry, i'm a freaking paranoid... dunno if that wld change.. but haha.. no matter how gd a fren u are to me, some way along the line, i had doubts. whether i'm really ur gd fren or not. i do understand abt the points being u might b high up in my list yet i mite juz b an avg dude on ur list. blah. anyway b4 i venture any deeper... ya i'm juz glad to noe that i'm kinda somewhere on other's list as well... if u're lost by now abt wad i'm tokin abt hahaa.. it's ok, i'm stopping anyway.. got driving lesson tml.. gtg slp~~ fix back my slpin time...

up to todaY~

been lagging abit since running ard or else rest and slp like mad..

thus the late bloggin of wad happened past few days... friday celebrated poh lin's bdae by going to the park and underestimated travelling time.. hahah took forever to reach the place~ but the place is nice.. so i hope that she like it.. next time upload some photos here... then went to the italian forum to makan.. and ate her mango cake.. hahaha she loves mango... then at night went to pick serene up from her hotel to go supper at the rocks.. pancakes.. long queue.. but the food is gd as usual.. after which also brought her to nearer the harbour to take pic of opera hse and the bridge.. so many birds flying ard the architecture.. dunno why.. abit the disgustin too.. next time she upload the pic i gonna steal it frm her and post it here cos her camera more keng... can capture.. hahahah

sat... slpt in, woke up for dental appointment, come back slp somemore.. at night went out for dinner with my fren, hazalea who's heading back to m'sia on sunday...her bags got stolen while she was moving her hse, she left her bag in the car then pple smash the windows and took it.. luckily she found it.. really lucky.. never expect the bags to b found...

sunday is rest rest rest.. tired... then wake up and watch tons of series.. grey's anatomy, full metal panic, smallville...

monday~ todaYY! went to yum cha with teri, winnie, shindi.. then they went ta watch movie.. me going to dental appointment later then head to aus idol final at opera hse~~

tons of things not settled.. i'm not happy of myself at the rate i'm doing my stuff.. erks. efficient come on. gotta run.. dental appointment in 15 mins.. and yet i haven brush my teeth again after lunch..wahahaha..

8th Exam: Oral exam

freaked out. why? cos i'm juz a crazy gal who just cannot wake up. scheduled for the exam in uni for 11.45-12.00pm.. what happened? i woke up at 12pm. WAH!?!?! yes.. i woke up at 12pm.. that's when my exam suppose to end.. damn it damn it damn it.. rushed to sch and reached at 12.15pm.. luckily their schedule was pushed back.. i was so nervous.. sighz.. and i gonna the barrier that i didn't expect to come out.. sighz forget it.. i am so tired out by this exams.

now it's jus abt waitin for the results..

after that went home to celebrate a belated Mel's bdae... then shop shop ard with her for gifts to bring back home... then i stopped at Kino with winnie to search for a place to jalan on friday for poh lin's bdae.. finally chose the south side of botany bay national park where captain cook, the first english to land on aus landed.. went home with a super hungry stomach and really empty brain(felt so drained)

later after late dinner went to visit serene at her hotel.. superb big hotel rm with super big bed.. saw the pamphlets of the nokia N series.. all look so cooL feeling a bit tempted... chat awhile and went back le....

7th Paper: Physiology

this paper is such a blur... by the time i reach this paper i'm so gone in terms of mood and my brain had already given up studying~ anyway.. i was so slpy during the exam that I fell aslp so freakin many times that the examiner also buay tahan i guess.. alwaes come check on me.. hahaha.. oh well.. dunno what was she thinking mayb like "what's wrong with this gal".. finally near the end of paper she even pick up my student card to see see wadz my name.. hahahaha.. my gdness...

the protesting pple.. omg. spare me. 

forgot to put this up earlier on.. i hereby presents.. the Graffiti of the Year award to this graffiti, found on approx 35-40 floor of this stil building meriton tower~~ hahah 

6th paper: Metabolism and Genes (aka Biochemistry)

shall response to the records no. of comments for my post yesterdaY~
kuan: I didn't condemn u k.. look properly wad i wrote... haiYo.. i saying pple who dun eat juz to b skinny/stay skinny, not ur kind that's naturally skinny.. READ PROPERLY.. =P
fang: hahah sorry la~ me mayb a bit too harsh onli~ haha kinda cranky yesterday as i was trying to study biochem and i'm juz totalli stressed then went blog surfing and saw ur entry... woops.. sorry sorry~~ dun sad k... u can always learn baking.. it's not that hard.. start with those ready-to-make cookie mixture la, just add some egg and butter then mix mix mix then scoop out properly and lay them out and bake. super nice!!.. i make before le~ not at my place though hahaa the oven is not touched for nearly 2 whole years.. scared with explode =P and i think when u meet someone u like then u won't really think too much abt the dream guy/gal u had in mind for dunno how many years... hahah so u might b able to overcome that sweetness barrier (woops thinking too much of my coming oral exam.. overcoming barriers. oMG)

well today today.. i dunno wad to say, i dunno wad to expect to see on my results slip.. i was so tired.. i tried to mug.. frm yesterday nite till this noon... and rushed off for exam.. didn't realli have too much stuff in my mind even after so much studying, biochem is just like physics to me, doesn't make too much sense... and when it doesn't make sense, i dun rem them at all.. anyway i went to the exam, super tired.. nothing helped, i drank a bottle of chicken essence before going for the exam, but still too tired so slpt during the paper 5-10mins.. then tried to do as many questions as possible dunno laHH~ it's over. juz hope i dun need to do it again.. i stared at the questions, thinking no matter how long i wld've spent on the topic, i wldn't have improved too much..

yesterday nite while studying~ winnie offered to help me... really really appreciate it.. i went from ZERO idea of wad the heck is all those dna rna rrna mrna trna to a very basic knowledge which really helped while trying to cram in the more advanced stuff.. she's done with her exam yesterday and she cld hav juz laid back and rest and slp earli or wadeva.. anything but read more on sch stuff.. but stil she took my lecture notes and read.. i'm really touched.

just before going for exam, winnie found a baby fish in her fish tank... like so amazing... juz a very very tiny black dot.. but by the time i came back frm exam, the baby die liao.. so fragile.. we can't even see the body.. it's like it's melted like that...

oh oh.. and OMG. this morning.. was trying soo soo hard to concentrate on my biochem.. when these pple decided to hav a protest.. SHOUUUT onli.. damn it. wanted to chuck things down on them liao.. yea i mean i understand i can't b so selfish to say i hav exams and my worries are the biggest, the workers downstairs are probably disadvantaged in some ways thus the protesting.. sighz.

5th Paper: Medicinal Chemistry

hrm.. i dunno wad to say except that pple are down right LAZY. no i'm not saying myself, though it's a fact that i'm lazy.. but today's paper.. all they did was combine the 2003,2004 paper.. and here u go.. 2005 paper. how cool is that. hrm i shldn't realli complain actually as long as they stay lazy, all i need to do is run through past papers, learn the ans for the MCQs and memorise the ans for short questions. i was too tired yesterday night after concert and didn't really go through the past papers thoroughly.. and i thought that what came out last year, wldn't come out this year. wrong strategy~

tml's biochem exam is pretty impt for me.. well all exam is impt (to pass), but tml. 60% and above PLLSSSS there's no point and passing every other subj and not get 60% and above for tml.. then i will hav soOOO much ma fan stuff to do, waste more time in uni, waste more money, blah...

this is for fang, (since i cannot tag on her blog and i see no place to leave comments), i don't know does she ever drop by but who cares.. i'm just gonna write it and hope someday she will read it.
stop being so unconfident of urself... how many times must i tell you that.. how can i convince u that u will not hav a lack of partner due to how u look. you hav a fab personality n it just takes time for pple to know u~ appreciate u...guys that juz go for looks doesn't worth a cent.. no matter how pretty some pple are now, we'll age, and wrinkles will appear, and eventually we juz look on average pretty bad, then that kinda guys will leave.. wad for? a flaw in character is so much more HORRIBLE then imperfect-ness on the outside.. whoever is perfect? those extremely skinny pple who tried to keep themself skinny by not eating? why collapse to the moronic social ideals? juz b yourself. even that hsemate of mine found someone (as much as we thot they gonna break within a month, they are stil together now.. birds of the same feather flock together.. OMG).. it's juz abt meeting the person and the timing of it.. there's stil time...

mayb i shld juz change back the title to something related to memory~ i forgot something again.

forgot to post abt how i had this HORRIBLE nightmare.

here goes,
i was sitting infront of my comp, lookin at the screen, it's at the student admin screen where our exams result is displayed.. i anxiously checked my score. OMG OMG OMG I"M SO DEAD SO DEAD> one of the subj had a HUMONGOUS (no there's nothing wrong with font size.. juz that it stands out) 36 written on the final results, and the grade "FAIL" next to it. OMG. damn it. really "oops i did it again" i wanted to see wad subj was that.. and only saw the unit started with a "P" the rest is a blur.. just when i wanted to start elimination by checking other subj then see which subj i dun hav the score then i noe wad is that subj, i woke. OMG. I HATE THIS KINDA DREAM. i have so many units starting with P. doh.

last semester it was the dream abt me going into my med chem exam w/o noeing a thing thus resulting in me frantically studying med chem..this semester is a straight fail. OMG. -.-

ooh ooh i forgot

some observations for the night.. realise ang mo concert and asian concert v. diff.. asian ones in my impression is they sing long long.. like 2hrs? i dunno can't rem.. with fancy costumes, funky dance steps... with a whole grp of dancers behind here.. first hr they get some grp to sing as a support grp for like first hr.. then after that later 1-1.5 hrs then the main singer come out and sing sing with the band...i learnt something new again~~

Concert!!

i will not be surprised if i get pple leaving comments like "u are crazy" hahah after i post.. since i went to a concert... in the middle of exam period... but it's free u see.. and i quite like her songs. 1st ever winner for the idol competition (i'm avoiding popular search keywords... =P) anyway.. she's realli gd live! real gd show.. worth the time i took off studying (well anything wld b worth as long as it's not studying~ MUAHAHA) this thus explain why i hav so many pictures posted as i was storing alot of pic on my camera but just didn't felt like loading them into the comp.. now~ perfect! so by scanning thru the pics.. u get a simple idea of wad i hav been doing for this few months.. did i mention i might be going to the 2005 aus idol final at opera hse... wahahahha *avoids the tomatoes and eggs being thrown*

anyway.. time to get back to studyIN~~ hahha i'm soooo dead. lalala.. who's fault? my fault~

wahahah.. i noe la.. abit the far.. but if i stayed downstairs.. wldn't b able to see anithing at all... pple too excited jump la.. stand la.. haha upstairs can see also~ 

OMG.. who's that??? *screams* 

looks familiar? nono.. that's not the album cover.. that's juz the big screen at the concert~ muahahah 

look who i found during one of my st john duties... Animania 2005 (anime festival) =P 

my first ever live rugby game...usyd VS i forgot-wad-team woops =P well and of cos usyd won~~ muahaha 

just fields and fields of flower outstretched in front of u~ 

went down to Canberra during the Sept holidays for Floriade (flower festival.. but actually nearly 99% of flowers there is tulips..) 

she and her bf 

the bdae cake that creative pair, me and winnie, made for my "ddddearest" rmmate (sorry for the stammering.. can't even make myself say that...) 

since it's summer.. at ard 5am.. the sun starts to rise and.. amazin colours juz get mixed in the sky 

been doing some "earli" studying 

4th Paper: Physical Pharmaceutics

sighz.. cannot finish the paper ahhh... oh well.. dunno how will this go la.. last semester i spent so much time on this subj.. in the end also never score very well.. now this sem spend less time.. hrm.. hopefully it's not in direct proportion....

3rd Paper: Pharmacology

woH~ nearly failed this one last semester... dunno how i will do this semester~ lalal.. at least it's over! 4 more papers.. hahah

read both kuan and fang's blog.. they were both writing abt this guy fren that they hav... quiet, but hav amazin character... it struck me thinking.. there are these meaningful people ard(sadly i dun notice any ard me)... do i hav any? mayb.. mayb not.. i don't know.. i'm a paranoid and i'm skeptical about trusting pple.. hahaha i'm serious.. not that i'm announcing i dun trust all my friends.. but ya.. there are times when i doubt do they really mean wad they say... or is there hidden meaning.. anyway.. shan't go into that... i hungry liaO.. go cooK~

yesterday while studying.. there were so many insects at my corner.. tat i ended up killing tons of baby flies and catchin another 10 or so of them... also caught a moth and probably a termite queen (super big and can fly.. but look like ant..).. my hse like got magnet to attract the bugs.. omG. yuCks.

anyway.. found an article for kuaN~
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/177772/1/.html

2nd paper: Pharmaceutical Microbiology

hRm. wad can i say.. i spent so much time on wad i thot is the shortest topic of all.. hahah. .oh well. me and my time management issues... any way.. have to go work hard for my next 2 subj.. didn't realli touch.. hahahah.. DIEEE... hope i can pass.. mUAHAHA

oh and it's so damn hot at the exam hall today.. left earli.. cos dunno how to do liao and so damn hot cldn't think anymore.. might as well go home~~ lalala

look who they caught~

oMG.. look who they caught.. feel pretty lucky being in aust sometimes.. dun realli hav any disease.. and the terrorists were caught too~...

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_asiapacific/view/177519/1/.html

Sex-po!!

woohoo~ sexpo is coming to singapore... OMG.. this is like such a big step forward.. i went to sexpo with my friends here think last year... don't think it's the same style as here though since it's realli open and stuff like that.. they had like peep shows, top-less model taking pics with u (for a price of cos), porn star dancing blah.. i shall disgust(or excite) anyone further~ wahahahha

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/177390/1/.html

things may not always seems wad it really is...

有一對情侶，男的非常懦弱，做什麼事情之前都讓女友先試。女友對此十分不滿。
一次，兩人出海，返航時，颶風將小艇摧毀，幸虧女友抓住了一塊木板才保住了兩人的性命。女友問男友："你怕嗎？"男友從懷中掏出一把水果刀，說：怕，但有鯊魚來，我就用這個對付它。"女友只是搖頭苦笑。
不久，一艘貨輪發現了他們，正當他們欣喜若狂時，一群鯊魚出現了，女友大叫：’我們一起用力游，會沒事的！"男友卻突然用力將女友推進海里，獨立扒著木板 朝貨輪游去,並喊道："這次我先試！"女友驚呆了，望著男友的背影，感到非常絕望。鯊魚正在靠近，可對女友不感興趣而徑直向男友游去，男友被鯊魚凶猛地撕 咬著，他發瘋似地衝女友喊道："我愛你！"
女友獲救了，甲板上的人都在默哀，船長坐到女友身邊說："小姐,他是我見過最勇敢的人。我們為他祈禱！""不，他是個膽小鬼。"女友冷冷地說。"您怎麼這 樣說呢？剛才我一直用望遠鏡觀察你們，我清楚地看到他把你推開後用刀子割破了自己的手腕。鯊魚對血腥味很敏感，如果他不這樣做來爭取時間，恐怕你永遠不會 出現在這艘船上....."

1st paper: Pharm Prac is OVVVEERRR

YEAH... survived my first paper.. think i did alrite.. shld b able to pass.. now hav to work on for the next few subjs...

i proudly announce that i'm very guai this semester (at least during the exams)!! why? cos i was able to stop myself from compulsively writing my obscenely neat notes... i feel like i did more.. kinda.. though stil feel quite insecure from not reading everything down... wahahah.. ok gotta get outta here before i write too much again

PS i can't wait for harry potpot movie~~ they had their premiere in england yesterdaY~~ waHH i wanna watch~

my future?

hrm.. as my mom mentioned.. they are really opening something BIG ard 2008...
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporebusinessnews/view/176967/1/.html

will i end up there? will i be even near graduation by then? sigh.

3 days (incl. today) to 1st paper

see.. i told u all that i hang out here only when exams come.. times when i'm not suppose to come.. OMG.. it's 3 days to exam.. and i've replayed the whole scenario of last yr over again.. i juz roughly done with 1 unit (aka module in sg) and i've like wad.. 6 more to gO~.. OMG OMG OMG OMG. juz came here to whine. as usual.

oh oh.. and i was toking to fang and kuan yesterday.. ahahah fun.. and i had voice conversation with kuan since she's the one with the mic.. miss tokin with sg frenz.. need to tune back to singlish channel.. kinda miss u guys~ always read sg frenz blog and feel i'm missing out.. i dun understand all those new terms that u guys use.. oh well.. that's the price i hav to pay.. not that i'm not enjoying in aust.. making new frenz and stuff.. but.. stil.. i won't "only want the new and throw away the old" (chinese saying but u noe how bad my han yu pin yin is laH~) aniwaez.. time to get back to work.. i dun wanna say that "it's my fault and i'm so regretting that i didn't study enuff."

jia you to all havin exams!!

nice passage

A well-known speaker started off his seminar
>   by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200,
he asked,
>
>   "Who would like this $20 bill?"
>
>   Hands started going up.
>
>   He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of
you
>
>   but first, let me do this.
>
>   He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
>
>   He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
>
>   Still the hands were up in the air.
>
>   Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"
>
>   And he dropped it on the ground
>
>   and started to grind it into the floor with his
shoe.
>
>   He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
>
>   "Now, who still wants it?"
>
>   Still the hands went into the air.
>
>   My friends, we have all learned a very valuable
lesson.
>
>   No matter what I did to the money, you still
wanted it
>
>   because it did not decrease in value
>
>   It was still worth $20.
>
>   Many times in our lives,
>
>   we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt
>
>   by the decisions we make and
>
>   the circumstances that come our way.
>
>   We feel as though we are worthless.
>
>   But no matter what has happened or
>
>   what will happen, you will never lose your value.
>
>   Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased,
>
>   you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you
>
>   The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or
who we
>
>   know,
>
>   but by WHO WE ARE.
>
>   You are special- Don't EVER forget it."
>
>   If you do not pass this on, you may never know the
>
>   lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to,
>
>   or the hope that it can bring.
>
>   Count your blessings, not your problems.

article~

saw this article in channelnewasia..
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_world_business/view/176913/1/.html

how far off can microsoft get man.. soon pple can juz stay at home and become humongous couch potatoes...

i've fallen.. before the evil disease called... COLD.

raRRGhh.. i've fallen sick. again. weather had been pretty crappy over here in aus, hot and rainy, hot and rainy, plus the extra stress i've got for this exam... urGhz...

one thing bad abt knowing more abt diseases.. u noe wad u can or cannot do..

i've learnt that all those cold medicine on the market is nothing but does only symptomic relieve. i never knew that... as the lecture notes say "a cold last for 7 days, take medicine for cold, it will still last for 7 days".. juz that the medicine will relieve symptoms like block nose and stuff for u.. so u won't feel that horrible...

it all started when i got this "urky" feeling of mucus or something stuck at the back of ur nose and not yet down to ur throat... then overnight this built up.. it's juz continuously irritating me and caused me to have a itchy throat this morning.. then the mucus builds up but not enough for me to blow it out.. so it's juz a stuffed up nose with urky stuff irritating me and a itchy throat... wad else.. omG... how am i going to study with this irritating cold.. distracting

i wanna study.. or shld i say, i NEED to study. i'm on extra stress condition this period of time... for the whole wkend i have been feeling that the exam is coming like tml.. but it's more like next wk.. but i juz feel outta time.. i dun wanna hav wad happen to me last semester to repeat again.. i wanna go on to Yr 3 without having a big headache over wad subj i can't take and how long my course is getting delayed and how much more money am i costing my parents to pay...

contradictory to all comments abt how rich i am.. i am not... my parents can barely support me to let me study here...i'm like one of the poorest singaporean i can find here among my other sg-mates.. all the others live in hsese and condos.. and me.. juz in a HDB flat... thus i need to graduate.. fast.

winnie and derek is being extremely supportive of me.. but i feel so weak (more of mentally) i can't push my self to study.. i'm so gonna regret it again. i'm juz a crapper as usual eh.. juz tok and no work. I HATE HATE HATE this. no. i'm not gonna let so many pple down, nor let myself down.

*breathe in**breathe out* ok.. i'm gonna go slp now and wake up tml and do QUALITY AND EFFICIENT STUDYING... hope i can do it... oh no.. it's I CAN DO IT. *psychoing myself... *

my exam timetable is HORRIBLE.

7th: Pharm Prac (Theory)
9th: Pharm Microbiology
10th: Pharmacology
11th: Physical Pharmaceutics
14th: Medicinal Chem
15th: Biochem (need to score 60 and above or i'm in big trouble)
16th: Physiology
17th: Pharm Prac (Oral)

basically all need to pass.. special attention to biochem needed... anyway.. jia you to all other pple who are going to hav exams..

Desensitised.

random post out of no where.. when who cares anyway.. bet i was missing for so long no body even come in to check anymore.. anyway...

i am sort of desnsitised...
this was the idea brought up by one of my wing chun instructors.. he tells me that after all the exposure to sparring(like fight each other) during trainings, i will not be as stunned if suddenly some dude on the st juz decides to throw me a punch... and he demostrated as he juz decide to throw me a punch after that sentence.. and i didn't even like move back or wadeva.. i juz stood there... doesn't realli prove his point cos i noe that the instructors can't really whack us.. since we're so much weaker compared to them... dah.. they can kill me very easily at the level that they're at...

anyway.. realise i'm desensitised in another way.. other then pple beating up each other, yesterday night i was studying.. suddenly i heard screaming.. but i ignored it.. like totally filtered it... since i live in the city and there are juz tons of drunkens and party animals at nite that like to scream and shout and sing whereever they go.. annoying at first and now use to it and just filter it out.. not until like the screaming continued for like 5mins then i realise this may indicate something wrong.. looking out of my window, i can see a well-lit alley... there's this 2 gals there on the floor.. screaming away.. don't know what's happening.. soon pple frm the opp apartment started to come out of their aptment and look down.. pple on the st went to check out wadz happening.. i still dunno wad happened.. robbery? rape? no idea... anyway their frenz reached after a while and 1 of the gals juz kept on crying and crying...

sadly to say.. i'm desensitised to danger of other pple in the city... if something like a rape was happening.. it wld hav helped if i check it out right away and called the police since there's a police station like 2-3blks away... not too faraway.. might hav caught the rapist or something.. living in the city realli seems to be a bad idea eh... hrm i dunno.. anyway.. suddenly thot of this and juz wanted to blog it

now back to studying.. 1.5wks more. URGHZ

you noe there's something wrong with you when you type your uni log in all the username fields that you reach... even for bloggin...

WAHHH.. bOO pple.. realise something.. i'm back and bloggin only when it's near exams or when i'm going mad frm nearly due assessments... blah. been missing for awhile Sept was a busy month for me.. i even missed a possible chance of meeting chee wee at the sydnye airport when he was here for his airforce trng....

2 wks frm my 7 papers + 1 oral exam, i shld b stressed.. but i'm oppressing my stress... i'm trying to make myself not stress.. but i need some stress as well.. not too much, not too little.. juz enuff to push me to study and score in my exams.. guess that won't ever happen... it's me afterall...

been thinking alot.. been reading tons of blog.. having tons of comments.. but never able to express myself properly and ending with just not saying out stuff.. cos it's a mess... my brain seems to be breaking down, my short-term and long-term memory seems to deterioate at a exponential rate...

was chattin with my hsemate, winnie here when we were saying that we have NO LIFE, NO LIFE here in uni in aus.. pple always says how much fun it is, but we never exp that.. nothing like that.. probably because both of us don't really drink nor club.. we read our fren's blogs frm our home country and they seem to be having quite a bit of fun.. like for me.. i see all you guys having OGs... orientation camps... things i won't ever experience.. but i do see that we share the pains of uni.. hahah tutes... exams.. not that i'm happy that u are suffering too, but happy that i'm not alone....

rargh.. hungry.. ok.. just wanted to drop by since it's been awhile that i come by... i look forward to the end of term here and to return to sg, and meet up with tons of pple.. i've been able to find back some of my pri sch friends.. so yea.. i'm gonna meet them.. after at least 5-6 years not meeting them...

ok ok.. go eat lunch.. then have to head to uni already.. sobz.. last wk of uni..

PS one of my course mate sound like Andy Lau when he sings.. OMG.. when he sings "Wu Jian Dao" i nearly fainted.. cos it sounded so alike.. wahahhaha....

I fell down.. but i'm gonna brush off my knees and walk on...

my line for the day..."if one don't pick up themselves after they fall down, they would juz get trampled all over by pple that were walking after them"

talked to my mom last night, she told me that pharmacy/pharmaceuticals line in around 2008.. that's when i'm graduating.. i shall try my best.. work harder then i ever had.... as much as i hate uni, my rmmate.... i'm still marching towards my goal.. shall now let some pple like my rmmate step all over me... wahahahhaha...

wk 5 is starting.. OMG... i'm so behind schedule.. and wk 6 is beginning of assessment..OMG OMG OMG.. ok.. i shld get outta here.. and start studying..(more like start behaving like a geek... wahahah)

PS why geek? cos it seems like in uni.. u can't really depend on ur brains.. hardwork takes up like 80% of how well u do... at least in my uni it works that way...

stressed? depressed? going mad? i dun noe...

hRm. wk 4 of semester 2 for me has started.. damn it.. i hate studying.. after a whack on my head frm the failure of my stupiiid biochem.. i hav no choice but work harder.. but it's seriously squeezin me dry... i put strict restrictions to myself during the wk.. NO MORE GAMES.. and i keep to it.. stil i'm not gettin anywhere.. since all the game playing time now goes to procrastinating and not actually doing much...sighz... furthermore.. i hav one more big obs to cross.. my compulsive behaviour in writin neat notes(and i practically copy out every single word outta the lecture notes + my notes in lecture + extracts frm textbk).. many pple are advising me to drop it.. as much as i noe that this may be taking too much time and not efficient at all.. i juz can't get over it.. it's... i dun feel right at all if i don't do it neat enough and informative enough.. thus resulting in a 4 hr notes writing for a 1 hr lecture.. I NOE I NOE... it's BADDDDD... i will try my best to suppress that behaviour.. can't change it, but i shall try to reduce the magnitude of it...

anyway.. on a hrm.. better(not sure is bad or good?) note...i've officially rejoin SJ as in that i've got my uniform and my own personal FA kit.. juz went for a duty like the big sg walk(or something... i can't rem the name) on sunday... feels gd to wake up early in the morning and going for duty again.. (kinda.. juz the fresh air and the idea of doing the duty, not the waking up at 4.45am part.)

i wanna go touring in Aus.. i'm planning to go to blue mountains (the mt is not blue.. and i hav no idea why they're called blue).. aniwae..seems like i'm organizing the trip... well i hav no idea when will that take place... also also.. i wanna go to the floride in Canberra... it's nearing spring time and flowers bloom... and at canberra u hav like FIELDS of tulips outstretch in front of u... fantastic view.. this is my first time going.. hope i do make it to canberra(cos i said i wanna go last yr.. in the end it didn't happen)... lastly me and mel(melinda frm sg) are plannin to go down to the countryside named Tamworth... since both our NS friends(chee wee is in aus...) are like trng there for 4 wks... i wanted to head down when DJ was here.. but then a bit the weird lah.. me go down alone.. at least this time got mel..trip is not confirmed again.. but we'll see...

aniwae.. time back to studying.. most of u guys are in uni now thus i wish u all luck.. i seriously hate uni.. sobz.

missin for one month.. but i won't bother to fill in the gaps

as usual.. i never ever did achieve wadeva i wanted to do durin the holz and sch has already restarted.. is in a mess currently.. got issues to settle... or plainly saying.. i failed one subj and I DON'T KNOW WAD IS GOIN TO HAPPEN.. so don't ask me.. might update if i manage to find out more..

failin this subj is really my own fault.. but it does make me think.. u noe the results frm other subj.. like some subj i did really finish(or kinda) study them.. but the score doesn't come out right at all... wadz wrong here.. is it a problem of intelligence?(can't help that can i?) or studyin method... or really my memory problem... i dunno.. i'm kinda lost here.. don't know who can i approach for this kinda prob.... though i cld already foresee some replies comin frm pple:"u noe.. if u're juz not the clever kind, study harder... like the chinese saying, use hard work to make up for the bit u don't hav"... i personally believe it's the memory problem.. when i say i have memory prob.. i seriously hav one... any way.. i shld stop whining.. and get things done.

LAZINESS hAve taken mE this Far. nOw It's tImE to StarT pUshinG....time to sacrifice some joy and entertainment as a punishment to my poor performance. GO GO GO!

Dazed.

Ok.. today was my third and forth paper.. and they are crappy... i'm in a daze now.. stupid lah.. think i too tired alreadi... one of my eye is like blurred... then cannot see properly.... my first paper i can't even shade the boxes correctly, have to cover the blurred eye and use the normally functioning eye.. luckily not both lah.. i'm quite dead... gotta go and slp now... wake up tonight then pia the last 3 subj... i hope i can pass... siGhz.

wAh~ sEcONd paPer

uM.. nothing exciting abt the second paper... physical pharmaceutics, which studies stuff that we make/use in pharmacy.. like creams and stuff... as usual no comments on the paper, juz hope to pass... but why i 'wAh~' in my title leh.. cos interesting thing happened lah.... i shall start frm this morning....

this morning.. bLOODY heLL.. my building going through fire facilities maintenance or something like that lah.. then pple hav to come inside my aptment to see see here see see there.. then rite.. these pple say 10am wanna come.. 11am then come in.. wah lau.. my exam at 12pm u noe.. need to go earli lah.. in case the bus late.. or i sprain my ankle on the way gonna hop to school (*touch wood =P ) .. finally got out at 11.20... reach school at 11.40...

was waiting outside the examination rm when this guy was boasting away "aIyah.. if i had known that i onli needed 25% more to pass.. i wldn't hav study at all.... shld hav study something else.. blah blah blah..." after less than a min.. cannot tahan liao then walk away.... at 12pm went in to examination rm... *fast forward approximately 30mins later* that guy that was boasting outside of the room raise up his hand and hand in his paper.. it's siao sia... so fast... crazy... then think like the examiner say cannot go yet.. or mayb got some other reason lah.. then that dude threw a punch at the examiner's face... so sorry for the examiner who is quite old liao loh... aiyoh... violent man... till the end i also dunno why the dude beat up my examiner.. but when exiting the room, got security outside alreadi loh... tsk tsk tsk.. violence cannot solve problem leh....

sighz... so 2 paper gone and 5 paper more to come, coming monday got 2 papers.. need to jia you~~~

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abit of intro to wad i was toking abt in my last post (since kuan say she didn't noe wadz that...)

Wing Chun = 詠春
It's a type of chinese martial arts as like taichi. The name (according to my dad) derived frm the lady that the kung fu was designed for in old time china...as i juz said, it was a set of kung fu designed for females, thus, strength is not the main emphasis. this style of martial art was brought down to hong kong by the grandmaster during war times from china. and his student aka the founder of the sch that i'm learning frm brought it over to australia. This style is rather famous as Bruce Lee himself learnt it before he begin to develop his own style of kung fu....

Me fIrsT PapER

cannot realli finish studying lah.. but at least manage to go thru all the lectures to get an idea of wadz happening.. dun ask me the paper how.. cos i hav no idea.. i juz hope to pass... microbiology.. i like the things we're studying.. but so much to remember.. wahaha.. my brain.. need to empty'em out and get geared up for the rest of my papers.. 6 more..

i was so nervous this morning, and suddenly sydney weather became damn cold.. then my hands are like ice like that.. sheesh.. but luckily calmed myself down to do the paper properly.. damn tired after that... then went home and took a nap till my wing chun lesson at 6.30...

i simply love wing chun.. the lessons alwaes find a way to get me away frm all my work and make me happier.. today i learnt 3 new techniques again... and i had 1-to-1 lesson with instructor since the grp was odd no. today.. so sorry to him loh.. cos today's technique all very the painful to the person that gonna it.. then like i keep on hearing his bones cracking.. then like when we learn some defensive move, i was suppose to push him away mah, then i dun dare loh. since like not very nice.. then he was like "u need to start to learn to hit pple" wahhahaha.. and i thot back to my pri sch days.. everyday smack the guys on their backs with full might onli. whaha.. but then he also lah.. damn muscular.. me hit him also feel weird weird one.. but aniwae.. i juz love love love the lessons.. wing chun has realli changed my life for this semester... mayb after exam me go take pic of the place and post it here~

aniwae back to work work work... left 6 subj, i've done like 1.5/6... hrm hrm.. pretty bad case.. wahahha.. better go...

cUtting tHIngs sHORt

well well well... what the heck am i doing here... when within 24 hrs i have to go for my first paper and i haven even finish studying half of that subj... wahahha.. i hav no idea.. anyway as the title says cutting things short... i wanted to you noe dedicate one whole post of thoughts abt turning 19.. but as usual, being the lazy gal i am and not being able to alwaes motivate myself to do wad i wanna do.. i end up bloggin at the wrong time.. (like now. dah.)

aniwae.. my bdae... my frenz came over and cut the cake with me on the 3rd lah... it was alrite.. few of the closer one... i dun even hav pics for that nite.. scattered everywhere with the group.. one day i will dig it back.. had a green tea cake that was.. hrm.. unique. hahah seldom see...

then on bdae had lunch with derek and his parents(his family came to visit)... nervous onli~.... but according to derek his mom's impression was ok not that bad~ (phew...)

then nitetime went to this jap restaurant for beef steamboat buffet... had too full a lunch and didn't realli ate ALOT.. but enuff alreadi.. the beef is sUPEr gd... wahah.. i dunno how many plates the big eaters(i.e. DaoJie, WeiQin, Alan) can clear.. me and derek onli manage 1.5 plate alreadi wanna die... didn't bring camera.. so cannot show u all ani photos.. got chance me go outside the shop and take pic lah.. haahhahah

sighz.. then it was sch sch sch.. till now.. i'm like into my exam wk.. 7 subj.. like wad the hell.. so much stuff to load into my brain... crap... and i've onli like wad.. officially finish 1 subj outta the 7... i dun wanna fail!! muz jia yoU~.... my exam timetable is maDDDD....
1st wk: Wed - Microbiology, Fri - Physical Pharmaceutics
2nd wk: Mon - Physiology, Pharmacy Practice, Wed - Biochemistry, Medicinal Chemistry, Thurs - Pharmacology
I hope I will stil b alive after this horrendous crap exam timetable...

i wanna end the exams sooN.. then i can u noe.. take alook at how much money i hav.. then plan plan where i can go to relac abit... i wanna take a lot of nice nice photos.. and if onli i can claim back all the salary that aus government taxed me... wahaha.. then i can mayb go even more places...

hrm.. weird though.. recently i've been dreamin alot abt my pass sch life... meeting my pri sch friends.. back in sec sch..~

aniwae.. back to studying.. try to steal time to come here to post after each exam.. wahah.

wEird

i'm turning 19 sOOn~ anD i sHall preSent a earlY thx tO kUan and fAng tO onCe again sEnd me bDae present.. but then it haven arrive thouGh...

suddenly feel like posting here... cause i'm feeling wEird... feeling weIrd abt waD? suddenly i feel like hiding frm evEryone.. spend my birthday in sOlitude. i noe i gonna regret it if i realli did it.. haha.. but dunno why i juz have this feeling now...

every time near my bdae.. when i realise wad pple are planning for my bdae... like celebrations and stuff.. i wanna run away... somehow i juz dun like it... dunno.. i'm such a weirdo eh....

aiyah dunno.. .. and finally i wld like to say.. "I HATE MY RMMATE.. SOMEHOW JUST A MERE LOOK AND A SINGLE SOUND FROM HER WLD PISS ME OFF"... i'm such a hateful person.. sighzz... each yr.. i kinda feel i'm gettin worse.. stepping into the darker hateful hole.... URGGGHH BUT SHE IS JUZ TOO IRRITATING. ARGH

sIghz.. i juz will NEVER learn my lessons

sIghz.. long absence.. busy with freaking uni... realli hate uni.. URGhz. today got back my medicinal chemistry test.. crap.. failed. pretty badly 9/23.. like wad the... my chemistry going down the drain.. sighz.. what did i do again this semester... slp during lectures.. slack back home.. i muz say i did work abit more.. but obviously that.. ABIT is not helping much.. depressing.. ard 1 month to exam.. i realli must push myself to do whatever i can... i cannot afford to fail. there's no room for mistakes. I need to pass.. i don't wanna go thru this again...

when will i ever learn my lesson that last minute studying won't ever get me anywhere... =_(

PS. checked test result with my uni mates (aka Jun, Poh Lin (don't think u all seen their pics yet) and my rmmate...) hate hate hate how the whole list of results came out.. and she stil dare come ask me which one is your mark.. press salt on wound man~ BLOODY HELL.. HATE YOU. ask once not enough.. i say fail liaO loH~ shit. then she say which one is yours?? WAH LAU.. BRAINLESS SENSELESS... i don't wad else can i scold u liaO.. URGGGGGGHHHH!!

the famous Jacarda tree in the main quadrangle when it blooms in summer looks really nice.. but then i missed the chance to take a pic of it then.. i can alwaes do it next yr... =P 

made of sandstones... erh.. and oh.. u can alwaes chose to take weddin photos here.. my uni doesn't want to miss any chance to make money.. yup.. and that will be 200 bucks per hr if u wanna take weddin photos here... 

suddenly feel like puttin up some pics of my uni.. this is like the ONLY presentable part.. most of the rest of the campus looks as if they're falling apart... 

mY cup of mOchA... they can even do coffee art.. seh seh sia. make their logo on the coffee... and the coffee is nice too.. of cos abit more ex then normal coffee that u get ard~ but worth it!! 

the cafe is realli small.. quite euro i feel.. small and cosy....strong aroma of coffee...  

Campos Coffee~ 1 of the top 5 cafes in Sydney~ situated near my school.. so sneaked there to drink a cup of coffee with my friends today during our 2 hr lunch break... 

Requested Photos~

photos posted are requested by Xinyu~ hahahah... but actualli shld let u all see see how is my small tiny pathetic place.... my exam timetable is out... sad case...

juz right behind my table.. my filled bookshelf... and more boxes.. and a small set of drawers for other rubbish.. bottom lvl of shelves got past year notes, up one lvl is reference bks, up one lvl are dictionaries, notebks, up one lvl are current semester notes, up one is current textbooks, up one more is juz cds and some empty files... so much rubbish.. i need a new bookshelf soon lah.. aiyoh.. where got space man... 

view of my space frm the main door.. i took up half the space of the living room... how i wish i can move out and get my own room soon...alot of friends like my jap looking "partitioning" thingy, hahah.. but more interested in like those old movies.. to wet their finger and poke a hole in the partition.. since made of rice paper.. crazy pple... 

my "working" area.. and playgrd.. basically i do everything here.. including sleep(falling aslp on my table lah...).. hahahah, nothing much.. table level hav a super bright flurosent lamp since i like super bright environment. but stil i have a table lamp when i juz watching movies or playing game...2nd lvl got my hi-fi,printer...3rd lvl are the horrible amount of boxes with alot of my crap inside.. hahaha... 

she even have Michelin tires... cooL rite... 

My new babY~~~ cost me a bomb... ate up half of the income i had last yr.. argh... but it's worth it... 

picture of the.. um.. space outside my lecture theatre... just feel like taking the pic of there cos like there's some fallen leaves all over the grass, and the sunshine seeping through the leaves... just feel.. nice..