The Incredibles are realli incredible~

hRmm. where shld i start frm.. ok went ta watch movie on sunday noon.. The Incredibles.. damn funnY~ realli a gd one... love Pixar movies.. realli creative... then tok crap with sc all the way.. cooL~

then went dinner with yun kuan and yanfang yesterday nite.. at kenny rogers.. and miraculously(is this how u spell it?) yun kuan was the earliest to arrive...(she's like forever the latest one.. =P ) aniwaez.. another crapping session.. this time got no ulcer so i can tok for all i like.. feel damn gd also~

oH~.. and i actuali told my mom abt derek.. cos she was damn hyper on that particular nite.. so i decided if not now.. it's never.. so i told her lo.. instead of feeling relieved.. i kinda still feel scared cos her reaction that nite.. is too abnormal.. in the end tonite totalli understand why i feel like that.. cos she starting to nag abt having this relationship...when she mood not hyper i die liaO lo~... oh no.. but better than hiding frm her i guess.. aiyah dunno laH~..

my internet is seriousli pissing me off.. i playing the online game 'World of Warcraft' maH~ then alwaes dc.. cannot even play a continous game properly.. sIghz.. mayb it's my laptop problem? but i never encounter this kinda prob back in aust... making frenz in the game too~ though the better ones are in US, just 2 of them currently... it juz strikes me how easily you can make frenz online when u got topics in common.. and how easily u can mislead pple into thinking that u're this fantastic person...think there's pros and cons to this.. like pple won't judge you by your looks.. and juz by how you tok and if you actualli mean wad you say.. it's gd.. cos it's ya personality that they're accepting.. but on the other hand.. u juz fake ya way thru... then basically it's all a fantasy world and pple juz get cheated..

haha.. sorry all my paragraphs are quite random.. not realli related.. aniwaez.. gtg slp.. hav a long day ahead of me =D gd nite pple!

Constant & Accelerated(due to heat) Rotting...

after much rotting at home and trying to get the freaking internet to give me a stable enough connection to World of Warcraft(a new online game.. =D ) i was out tonight.. went back to social nite in sec sch sj unit... exciting to meet all my seniors and juniors again.. though didn't tok much... see quite a few changes in some pple.. and some are juz.. the same.. and even felt something that mayb i shldn't feel(WAHHH I'M GOING CRAZI.. if onli i can tok to winnie now.. hahah.. cannot write here wad i felt.. not for all eyes.. =P sorri!)

aniwaez... yes.. back to the nite.. reached when they at the end of the supper and followed serene, aiping, sc back to their bunk and juz crap as they took turns to bathe.. sch is.. the same.. cept they added new fans to klassrm and changed the sec 4 klass tables.. makes me feel that the klassrm abit more gloomy.. dark blue is darker than grey mayb.. that's why i felt that way..

aniwae.. they were trying to decide on some impt allocation thingy.. and apparentli this is the 4th day so all very tired alreadi.. then most are slping after the dinner while sc worked on.. after she finish then went to see social nite.. performance-wise.. ummmm.. quite the sad case laH~.. esp when see one grp onli got 4 pple go and perform.. brings back bad memories frm my camp times...

after all the performance.. it's mass dance.. wanted to join actualli but abit the out of place laH~.. and most cannot remember liaO~ so decided to back out.. but see them hav so much fun.. oh well.. somehow i miss going to camps.. no such thing animore after we grow up... I HATE GROWING UP.. immature thots.. my brain have rotted so much that.. my thinkings are all disorganised and random.. forgive me..

wanted to hang ard more.. and it was gettin late.. so serene shooed me home.. haha.. managed to catch a bus juz in time (YEAH save $$).. call my mom on the way.. and she's not back yet too stil ard the area so we met up at the train station and went home together..

tml.. tml.. going out at nite again.. ahha. hope the stupid renovation can stop.. alwaes wake me up frm my slp.. and the irritatin singer that cannot sing well stop singin at the park opp my place at 3am.. lolz.. i'm going crazi ;)

2nd Use of Handphones: Portable Torchlight...

juz went ta watch blade trinity today with clement (some dude i knew frm aust, who flunked his studies since he was too lazy, and is back here doin NS...P.S. not to forget to mention one of his hobbies seems to b insulting me... but aniwae stil fren mah.. his insults i use to it alreadi lah~)...aniwae.. the movie was.. um.. ok laH~.. seems to lack the something that wld make me say that it's a GOOD/GREAT movie.. =P

aniwae.. wad'z that abt my title? juz wad i observe lo~ and since i got no special title for this entry.. hahah.. today i was in the theatre.. then pple come in late no more light for them find seat mah.. then a few of them use their handphone light lo~ which seems to be quite commonli seen by me laH~.. haha(actualli derek is the onli other person i see doing that.. oh well *roll eyes*)ha.. handphones.. realli 'multipurpose' ain't they??

1.5 Yr aNniversaRy

hRm.. well i'm back in sg... nothing much but mostli rotting at home... and i had this stupid ulcer on my tongue that bothered me for a few days... cannot eat properli.. cannot tok properli.. so crap... also went out for outing with sqd... which was not bad a turnout for gals.. but the guys.. um.. quite the sad case.. esp. with pple like wenyuan and guanfoo ard.. i'm not scared abt offending this 2 person.. cos i seriousli have something against them and i'm gonna b quite open abt it =P aniwae.. it's gd to meet frenz again...

then on last sunday.. went BBQ with yanfang and yunkuan... on a rainy day in east coast.. fang was the chef.. me the person in charge of making the fire to come back to life when it dies.. and kuan incharge of eating.. hahah.. was quite against the idea actualli cos i thot none of us can build fire... confirm die of hunger there one.. somemore (abit the selfish lah this part) later plus my ulcer and sore throat.. realli dun feel like going lo.. but i told myself cannot like that one lah.. come back once in a while... so went... and actualli we manage to get some fire.. hahah.. and even cook something... hhaha not bad not bad.. then we juz sit there and crap lo... as usual... once in a while quite nice laH~.. but when they suggested we shld do it on a yrly basis.. i wanna die liaO~ sorry aH~ quite the mean.. but.. erh.. realli BBQ quite the ex and too much effort.. =P (basically i'm juz plain lazi..)

then~ reach the main pt.. haha the subject of my post.. yesterday was the 1.5 yr anniversary for me and derek.. nothing much special obviousli.. cos we're not in the same place.. i juz called him lo.. and he totalli forgot abt that.. as expected.. seems like guys juz are not that.. um.. wad do you call that.. mindful abt this kinda things.. but i'm quite glad that we actualli lasted to this stage.. the beginning was just horrible.. i practically wanted to dump him.. he and his temper and moodiness i really cannot tahan maN~.. aniwaez~ we endured that thru and we're stil together~ not bad not bad =)

OH OH.. and muz mention here.. mayb i mention his cousins b4 but i'm too lazi to explain even if i never mention them b4.. but well i juz got the info.. his cousin, pascal juz proposed to his gf(2gether for like 4yrs alreadi!!).. so coOl eh.. they both like 23 or 22 liao i think.. but i think it's realli cool cos this is like the first time my frens is actualli gettin married.. WOW... just plain amazing...

hrm gotta go slp now.. or my mom gotta pop up and scold pple liaO~ gd nite!

I don't know... I think I hate myself...

WeLL... after the depressing blog last time.. i just have more bad news for myself that i've been so... inefficient in lookin for the counsellor.. till now i haven seen anione yet.. though i know i seriousli need help...

dunno why.. i have a feeling that some person(i dunno who...just a feeling k.) reading this wld feel that i trying to draw attention... gain pity... and seriousli i just wanna clarify that i'm not. think my blog is a place where i vent my frustration... whines... and blah blah.. and if this hRm.. weighs you down and makes you feel more depress, stop reading ok.

my psychological health is deteriorating... and i realise with the stress of the uni life.. i can no longer cope with my past, and even myself.. i dunno where am i heading to, wad am i becoming.. i seem to hav lost my identity. but i will sort it out soon, i hope...

in addition, i'm currentli looking ard for a new place for next yr, just gettin an idea and not realli moving to aniwhere with my very very first rmmate in australia, winnie... she's someone who i confides to here, even more then i tok to derek... my current best fren i can say... i hope that next yr, living with her... i would.. feel more at home, when i'm at home.. if u get wad i trying to say.. hahaha.. kinda confusing eh? it's just that this yr, i realli hav trouble living in the current apartment with my rmmate.. juz keeps on generating negative feelings... but with winnie.. it's different, i dunno... now we're like.. discussing how we wanna keep the place clean and blah blah next time.. looking forward to it.. new life next yr.. hopefully.. and wan to sort out my irritating problems by next yr too.. hahaha

blog next time.. tired.. gotta slp.. gd nite dudes... thankz for being there for me when i need you dudes ;)

Er.

ok... to pple who keep on checking back for updates... this is a BIG SORRY FROM ME... SORRY SORRY!!...

guess u've been waiting.. but i must say... i have so much to say but i'm too tired... i have... finalli collapsed... metally,emotionally collapsed...after a 3 yrs since 'that' incident(to those who are not involved. forget it. dun ask me abt it. it SUCKED. to those who are involved,that's the thing that's affecting me)

this is affecting me so much, today i realli had the thot of jumping down the train rails, walking out onto the road and stand there. serious. not scaring u all.. i'm seeking help soon, from the sch counsellor. i wanna go psychologist.. do those.. hypnosis that make u forget stuff.. i dun wanna remember that incident animore... sorry dudes, i can't say animore.. i juz feel the tears coming back.. though my eyes are all dry now.. cried for 30mins today..URGHZ...

one last thing..: TO LAU YEE CHENG, i dun think u wld eva read these, but if someone decides to pass this to u.. U FREAKIN COWARD. U RUIN MY LIFE I WANNA STRANGLE U, KILL U. U DUN EVEN DARE SAY SORRY TO ME DIRECTLI.. U BLOODY IDIOT, DUN THINK RUNNIN BACK TO MSIA WILL SAVE U, SOMEDAY U WILL PAY, till mayb if i actualli attain the level of forgivesness(which the church gav an interesting definition: forgiveness means i will not hurt u for hurting me. sorry i have not reach that level yet.. till then, if u see me, RUN FOR YOU LIFE.)

i'm tired. i'm in a mess...

Monthly Review

wahahaha.. the lazi bum is here to update again.. cos it's 3.30am at night and i don't feel like sleeping...at all.. maybe i should stay up till tml so i can fix back my body clock... i'm so screwed up now...

i'm having holz.. but i feel that it's passing too quickly.. mayb cos the fact that i've been sleeping 36 hours for the past 3 days.. recuperating i call it.. haha imagine the wk b4 this holz i was realli going crazi with work and had been fallin aslp on my study table for like 4 out of the 5 days of school, the only one day i didn't was that i didn't sleep.. i can't help but scold..."BLOODY HELL.. WHAT KINDA FREAKING UNI IS THIS??" they juz simply LOVEEE to squeeze everything on the wk b4 holz.. terrible terrible.. aust uni is juz terrible

though the title of this update is call.. monthly review.. i don't tok abt what happened this month.. cos.. i dun realli remember wad happened.. life is just passing me by without me remembering much

well... i remember that this semester, had 2 closer friends in uni, one called jun(which previously i thot was called june till i can't help but ask her one day why your nick in msn is jun then i realise.. so dumb rite) the other one called poh lin (which me and my friends frequently refer to wedges (as in those potato wedges leh.. fried ones... hahaha.. why? cos my dear rmmate shindi was tokin to her during lunchtime on one fine day...
*shindi and poh lin were plannin to go get something to eat for lunch, and kinda think it's potato wedges*
shindi: (lookin at poh lin) "lets go... wedges"
*poh lin got up*
me: (wanting to be lame and tryin to bully shindi wahahah.. though this intentions are not realli clear durin that time) "aiyoh... shindi why you so bad one.. call people wedges... and why poh lin also got response one.."

wahahha that's how she got the nick.. poh lin is older then both me and shindi, turnin 2o this yr.. but have not a single sign of 20.. she seems like the same age as me.. and at sometimes i actualli thing she is very similar to siew chin.. wahahha...

well.. the past wk was hectic also cos... i thought that i'm goin to get fired from work, the scooping ice cream one... cos i missed work the 2nd time.. 1st time i bravely admit that it's my fault that i conveniently assumed i was workin the same time and didn't check the roster, but i've learnt my lesson and that i checked everytime.. but sadly, this time it's either someone decide to be so very nice to me to add in the time on my slot or i misread(which seems like an excuse, but frankly speaking.. i really have no idea i was working...i checked the roster definitely since i notice i change in my ususl scheduled time) for the whole wk, i happily thought that i was to work on saturday only and when my de other work for notetaking called to say i have work on thurs i gladly accepted... then on that day i had a super early day off (just 2 hours of school starting from 9) and then i went off to hazalea's place to check out how's my outfit for the annual dance and dinner for the malaysian's society(i'm attending since derek is and have to as he ran for a position in the committee in the society and needs to attend the dinner to know the results, in the end of cos he got the position since it was a walkover but still, appearing is very important for PR...he is the internal secretary now...), melinda came along too.. i was suppose to go home when haz felt like skipping her tute and lecture and we decided to catch a movie b4 i head off to work..we watched princess diaries 2.. which was sweet and funny~ but just at the best part, scoop ice cream work there decides to call...(after 3 miss calls i decided to pick up the phone)
work: hello, are you coming for work?
me: um.. nope, i wasn't scheduled for today, and if this is about me taking over andrea(my colleage at work who ask me to take over her shift for the evenin as she have a report due the next day and haven started it yet) i already told her i couldn't make it as i have another job today...
work: andrea already called in sick but she didn't mention anithing about you.. are you coming or not?
me: i told you i've got another job today and i cannot come...(i'm gettin messed up and pissed...)
work: so you're not coming?
me: no.. i'm not, i cannot make it... and i wasn't scheduled for today, i checked...
work: no... there it says on your timeslot...
me:what? i don't know anything.. i cannot come today...
work: so you not coming.. fine.. *puts down*
i was left at the cinema, feeling lost, missin the best part of the movie and frantic
this manager would fire me cos i alwaes felt that she have something against me.. cutting down my hours.. hinting that i don't work well.. picking on me(kinda)... well i was prepared.. the next day she called again to ask what happened and i explained to her, honestly, i see no point in lying or wadsoeva.. i had another application form to a nearby bubble tea shop ready and actually noticed that the warner bros studio shop is recruiting and was already planning to print out the resume for them.. when on the day of meeting the manager, she cancelled the meeting...and after checking.. i'm stil rostered for comin wks ... now i'm really confused.. but i won't be seeing her.. till i don't know when.. so i will be in this state till i meet her again.. i'm absolutely excited about the idea of workin in warner bros.. you know me.. with all those tazs lying everywhere.. staff discount(i hope~ so i can get all those taz products.. and mayb even staff trips to gold coast where the headquarters, warner bros studio is~w wahahahhahah) i don't know.. till things settle down

now back to the holz, so free.. yet so busy.. don't feel like doin the pile of work waitin for me at home, i don't like my place at all, alwaes like to hide out in other pple places, out and not facing my place, since it is where all my work, my study table resides, but i feel so guilty too, not doin anithing.. i hate myself.. idiotic lazi bum.. urGhz.. i hate studies.. i needta work.. i feel that i'm burdening my family so much by studyin here.. and my course is so time consuming.. lookin at those commerce pple who alwaes have at least one day off the 5 days of sch.. i feel so envious...oh well.. different requirements i guess..

and this 2 days, i saw derek's cousin and his gf, frantically writin their thesis, since one of them is doing honours and one is in his final term.. oh my gosh.. i can't do a thing about this wadeva thesis.. the sound of it suck.. don't even ask me to write it.. think i mite juz faint and die.. over the passing year, i realise i don't like wad i'm doing at all.. all the time, i feel like quitting school.. i don't know.. even though i knew from the start that i needed to chose some course that i like, and i thought that i like this subject about pharmacy.. i realise i've chosen the wrong course, this was not wad i was thinking off.. the people are just so good and clever, i'm back to where i was.. near the last few amount the pool of people, back to where i was in dhs.. where i was struggling to keep up even when i was among the not-so-good klass... sighz furthermore i cannot fail, i cannot fail at anithing.. i have to complete this course in 4 years or else, i will end up in no where since i really doubt whether my mom can support me if i take more then 4 years to complete the course, every year, this freakin aus uni is goin to increase their price by like 10-20%... they think what, i have a gold mine beneath my house or something...

to the someone that actulli bothered to read till this part.. i congratulate u since i'm sick and tired of reading wad i'm typing.. i'm doing random whining...

yes, i whine.. so wad.. everybody says i whine.. and that's wad i am, it's natural.. u not happy u go.. everybody does it some time or another.. just that i do it more often...i use to have things the good way, where i need not whine.. at all.. my family was financially above average, happily together(not that it's not happy now.. but just not together), i score well academically and in sports, and music, i have my parents to rely on... but now wad? i struggle to keep up, i have to worry about money i see pple who are rich and just spend their money or rich and keep on saying they're poor(which pisses me off cos it seems fake...) n i have to take care of other pple.. who are older then me.. one gd eg. is the pple in my house now.. they're older then me.. but wad kinda rubbish they present me... super dirty kitchen that if i clean it today(which i realli just did) and mess it up again tml with matchsticks on the counter EVERYWHERE(as if a rubbish bin didn't exist within 30cm(which actualli does)) a ricecooker that belonged to me and anyone with common sense shld noe that rice that is cooked should be scoop out to a container and put into the fridge and wash that freaking ricecooker that doesn't belong to you and is a communal object to be used by everyone and shld not be filled with the same old cooked rice that's cooked 3days ago.. D*** it.. i miss the empty rice cooker..

there i go again.. i gotta stop.. this is pissing myself off... wad the heck..uRGhz

LaZi BuM~

i'm juz suCh a lazi buM.. this hav turn frm daily to monthli postings.. quite sad.. last sunday was malaysian fest...arrive there quite late.. since i have drivin lessons... oh yaH~ juz a update on how's my drivin goin.. i finish learning auto in 13 hrs.. now learning manual...n back to malaysian fest.. not that bad laH~ quite late.. had roti with dull(not hot curry)~ NICE!!! ok lah.. to a person that nearli one yr never had roti.. hahaha.. damn happY~ about to end that time even had hailstorM~ like WAHHH.. raining ice... sO cOOl~ 1st time i see got take photo with my fren's camera.. next time i take back to sg show u all.. not exactli very clear.. but stil better than nothing.. after the hail stopped.. there was rainbow.. haha.. so many weather in less than 2 hours...i stayed till the very end.. since derek was a volunteer and had to help to pack up the place.. i was standing around when they asked to build a human train to carry out the left over sponsored drinks.. there was so much k.. so after movin we get to take some home.. hahaa.. it was 100 PLUS.. like a drink that u can't realli get hold of in aust easily.. so me n derek carried 24 bottles and 48 cans back home.. can die man.. today both my arms are like gone case lo...

sIGhz.. abit the sad n depressed.. so much work.. towards mid term alreadi.. exam timetable out.. straight 5 days exam. think i gonna die.. then juz now was thinkin how much money would i have by the end of the year.. then i realise.. my account doesn't seem to have enough money to pay rent till next feb.. like since not goin to b here for jan n feb.. so need to pay the rent 1st lo.. bad planning.. aHH.. the more i think.. the more stuff i need to pay.. financial crisis.. sHeesH.. need to call mom to ask her how.. i feel so bad.. mayb hav to take money out of my workin account.. or even borrow money frm derek.. OMG.. this sUck.. aHHHHH...

Nearli Die..

so lazi long time never post.. why leh.. erm.. i juz said it the 1st sentence.. crazi me.. but muz post now cos i nearli died... cos by who? my dear rmmates.. i was bathing, when i came back out to the living room, it was full of gas smell... so i went near the stove, it was not yet fully close... my gdness.. terrible pple.. they cook n they didn't close it properli, so i went in to ask my rmmate lo.. then she say.. oH.. Yanri(de other gal in the apartment) say she close alreadi... then i was like.. 'like that also can..., sIghz'.. she come out n then she say 'no gas smell wad, sorri laH..' sheesh.. ignorance.. dunno wad shld i say also.. die onli lo>. ish.. sO pissed.

sO laZi~~

see.. the whole holz i didn't post at all... hahah.. have been so lazi.. started learning driving.. not that bad.. instructor say i learn fast.. =)

surprise hit me.. i'm being hit on.. sheesh... i'm so stupid.. i was like waitin for train.. then this guy came over.. ask whether the train goes to city.. then i juz ignore him.. then he chat somemore.. then ok lo.. i juz yin chou u lah..  tok to him then when i abt to get off the train... he asked for my hp no. n can u freakin believe it? i realli gav it to him cos i hav no idea how to reject him.. sheesh.. derek scold me for being so stupid.. n his cousin say i'm becoming like his gf.. when the guy not even cute.. giv the no. onli.. dumb.. n that guy realli called.. dunno wad to say.. so the next time he called.. i throw the phone to derek.. haha.. n he settled it.. wahahaha.. dun think u all wanna noe the details though..

receive my pay frm work alreadi.. seeing money in my account.. quite happI~ ahhahaha n gettin quite fat.. since i keep on kupping ice cream frm the shop... hahahaha.. having a craving for oyster mornay at the top floor of my workplace.. sheesh.. but so ex...

that kinda summarise my holz.. been slpin, watching tv serial.. working.. slacking... got hooked on coupling.. a british comedy.. a medial between friends n sex in the city.. quite funny... gettin quite polluted frm that.. hahaha.. but it's relaxing..

n sch started on monday.. sianz.. this sem's work.. seem difficult.. omg.. hav to buck up.. last sem result juz so horrible.. siAnz.. but working hard is.. hard... ARGHHH.. mug mug mug.. mug mug mug...

more stuff...

took this test in tickle.. wondering true or not...

the subconscious mind test with inkblogs..
"Esther, your subconscious mind is driven most by Love

Your instinct to love and be loved is rooted very deeply in your subconscious and affects most of the decisions you make in life - whether you are aware of it or not.

You inspire people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. You also value your personal relationships more than most people.

Your unique capacity to love may be greater than those around you, which means you may have more to give in relationships than your friends or romantic partners do."

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you:	Spiritual Advancement
In a survival situation, you:	Act crazy as a diversion
Your hidden talent is:	A beautiful mind
Your gift is:	Fearlessness
In groups, you:	Act as host/ess
Your best quality is:	Your indomitable will
Your weakness is:	Being predictable
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quite true eh? hahah.. spiritual advancement.. like wow? WAD THE HECK IS THAT? nah in a grp i act as a host? hrm.. i hav been MC for stuff b4.. but.. erm.. not sure abt that.. think the next one is abit better on that point...

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you:	High Social Status / Wealth
In a survival situation, you:	Act crazy as a diversion
Your hidden talent is:	Adaptability
Your gift is:	Fearlessness
In groups, you:	Blend in
Your best quality is:	Your compassion
Your weakness is:	Your laziness
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

wow my jap name.. i rather they did the translation with my chinese name.. then it shld hav some word "yuki" in it.. cos my chinese name has the word snow.. n snow = yuki in jap.. this is weird...

My japanese name is 吉国 Yoshikuni (good fortune country) 美月 Mitsuki (beautiful moon).
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well quite pissed yesterday.. cos stupid aussies... i wanted to go take my learners licence for car... then went to the office.. then they check my name in my passport... n compare the name in my bank statement.. it's not consistent.. cos they take my first name as juz "suet" n not my whole first name "suet yee esther".. then my bank statement reads "esther" as my first name.. dumb asses.. come tell me.. that's not ya name.. so nope, u can't take ya license today.. i was like.. "WHAT?" dumb pple... then told derek abt it.. he want to go argue with them.. i told him no need lah, cos i dun wan trouble.. later i go back there n take, where got face leh.. and like i never argue with them b4 like that woh.. then he get upset n start throwing his friggin temper.. say why i dun let him to help me.. alwaes push him away.. i was feelin so crap man.. wad the heck lah.not that i dun wan u to help me. .but it wun help aniwae.. dumb.. i dunno lah.. sometimes i realli dun understand why i stil with him.. temper so hot.. can't understand me... alwaes throw temper at me.. wonders whether is it that i can't bear the pain of a break up that's why i juz try to endure thru it.. but sometimes i realli wanna stay with him.. wad a dilemma... havin a bf is really lookin for trouble for yourself i think.. though there are nice times lah..~ oh well. skip this n move on..

so today b4 i go work, i went to the bank n try fix my account name lo.. pple push me here n there.. go counter.. counter say go front desk.. front desk tell me wait for manager.. manager tell me shld go back to the branch where i opened my bank account.. then or can await she go look for someone to help me.. then that person missing. she walk ard to look for her.. half way thru someone tok to the manager n she forget abt me.. finally, after half hour of pushing n waiting.. some dude see me wait so long n the bank closin soon.. come to me n ask.. so wad's goin on.. how can i help u. told him wazzup.. n he say onli choice if u dun wanna return to the orginal branch where i open my account is, i close my current one n open a new account.. crap.. that took another half an hour.. make me late for work.. "force" me to open a savings account also.. then i told him i no money to save lah.. all my money left now is use till end of yr one.. next yr then i open lah.. then he say.. juz put abit in lah.. haiyo.. keep on pushin.. i no time d.. stil wanna persuade me.. crap lah... open open lah.. i dun wanna go any later.. hope with that i can settle the pple in that office to let me take my test...

at work.. nothing much happened.. tiring as usual.. waiting to know whether i will get employed soon.. and whether they gonna pay me soon.. hahah.. waiting for the pay to go into my another bank's account..(opened another account so my mom n guardians wldn't noe i working..)

now hav one whole stack of conan cds next to me.. waiting to be watched.. i wanna make this holz an accomplishin one.. since nothin to do is boring. juz relac on the way n do stuff too.. wun feel that i'm wasting time...

Troy

it's a little late to watch it, but yea, it's stil fine i guess.. went to watch troy yesterday nite.. it was not bad.. had trouble recognising so mani pple.. didn't realise the pathetic younger bro was "legolas" from LOTR... hahha. until near the end, he pick up the bow n wanted to shoot.. i was like.. hey that look's familiar.. did they stole the pose frm LOTR?? hrmm.. no.. eH? he looks like legolas.. like dah.. derek n winnie found it so duh that i realise it so late...wanted hector to be alive.. dun realli like agilies... wanted troy to win too.. but oh well the trojan horse story.. remember that frm pri sch or sec sch textbook.. quite cool to see things frm the textbook to reality....

shall continue later.. need to rush off somewhere...

euro cup 2004

phawa.. juz came back frm the pub after watchin euro cup 2004 finals, greece VS portugual.. wanted portugual to win cos.. they seem to be more famous with football? i dunno.. i noe too little abt football to be a big supporter of either side.. 4.30am went to pub to watch, many of them full already.. went to one last one.. too full.. no sits.. sit on steps.. damn pain my butt...quite borin i think.. not much action.. after 1st half went to find some other seat.. this time can sit, but too far away can't even see the ball.. i feeling damn slpy d.. then suddenli greece scored..hahha.. congrats congrats...after that boring again.. then this greece fan ran onto the field chuck the greece flag at figo.. n ran into the goal.. one whole bunch of security run after him. stupid idiot.. figo look damn pissed.. in the end.. greece win.. my frens bet 300 ringgit on portugual... oh well.. my rmmate was jumping with joy, why? cos she support greece since everyone supporting portugual.. n she bet with the currency in the chinese forum, 3000 that greece will win.. crazi gal.. dunno wadz in her mind... wadeva lah.. later got quite a lot of things to do.. so now i go finish my conan movie then go slp n start accomplishing stuff

hRmmmm

have u ever have the feelin that the dreams are so real that u think u realli live in them, n reality becomes so "dreamish"? i recentli juz having this feeling.. crap.. all my dreams.. feel so sickishly real... terrible, juz plain terrible, not a nice feeling at all i tell ya...

yesterday, went to celebrate derek n co.'s last day of exam.. so went ta watch spiderman 2.. not a gd movie at all.. i dunno lah.. prolly cos i didn't watch spiderman 1.. n i have extreme phobias of spider.. this is juz not the kind of movie i like... keep on picking on the small little things they are doin here n there...as a result.. irritated derek.. woopss.. with his temper.. so i decided to shut up. then went to this club.. some uni society having a party there.. but.. it was sOOO dead... crap.. i gave a try to long island ice tea.... but... something went wrong in the mixing.. there was so much stuff in there.. bacardi, gin, blah blah.. couldn't remember all. but that was one of the last thing u would wanna try on earth.. according to them the drink wasn't suppose to taste that way.. oH well.. my ex-rmmate and gd fren, winnie's bf, raziel drank it up for me~ =) lucky.. dun wanna waste the drink.. but it's juz worse then medicine..after that they decided to par lan.. i followed lah.. n tried to play.. n sadly being left out thru out the whole friggin game.. gave up n juz stand there n watch.. BORING... but wad to do? finally finish playing at 4 something.. n went home.. slp till now.. crap.. caught a cold somewhere.. the mucus doesn't seem to stop flowing.. holz starts to get boring.. but work is tiring.. i wanna go ski.. but so ex n nobodi wanna go with me.. oh well..

~2nd probation shift~

phAwa... last nite juz did my probation shift at work.. ok lah.. my supervisors quite happy with me.. b4 i went off told me most prob i will b comin back cos they think i'm very gd *wahahhaha YEAH!* that's gd cos i secured a job for the 1 month holz.. runnin realli low on cash.. that's so friggin sad man.. had a lot of free stuff at work yesterday, reached there early, changed, n was made to put in the 'sleeves' for the cones.. the paper with the brand lah.. then start tryin to make stuff that customers order.. very scary.. scared make wrong stuff. blah blah.. but then my colleages are all nice to help n ans me wheneva i ask them.. one of the customers ordered a crunchie shake and went off to the bank to take money cos no money to pay for the drink.. then never came back.. so hahahaha.. all of us drank it up.. i had another bit of tropical smoothie cos i made too much hahahah.. so i had 2 drinks for free instead of paying for them.. at nite there was leftover hotdog.. so i was offered one b4 goin off... thot why not since i haben had my dinner yet.. my shift was from 6-9pm.. so hahah.. juz take onli.. but i think the hotdogs aren't realli nice.. the bread so hard... the sauce so difficult to make it fill the hotdog.. oh well.. see how it goes on the next shift n hopefully they can giv me confirm ans of wadz goin on, so i can plan my holz..

mom forcing me to learn driving cos she doesn't noe that i'm workin and think i'm very free now.. n within one wk of endin my exams.. i'm suppose to start reading up on next semester's material.. sorry to say i muz b out of my mind n totally not esther to do that.. i gonna play and enjoy.. n at the same time earn money.. so what my mom's money will do is pay my bills, rent n stuff. but the rest of stuff for my own entertainment, i can use what i earned..

juz was informed yesterday that one of my housemates is moving out.. she was by herself in the other room.. so have been thinkin how leh.. since she go, me n my rmmate have to puke out 300 bucks more every month to cover the moved out hsemate's share of rent.. but then i juz dun like the idea of posting ard gettin a stranger to move in.. unexpected outcome sia.. frm aug to approx nov.. 3 months.. that's alreadi 1000 bucks more.. that's HORRIBLE.. i dun hav so much to spare.. realli dunno wad to do.. but see my rmmate.. sure look at me and ask me onli.. sheesh.. how i noe leh.. n one thot hav been runnin in my mind.. worth it if i try to get the rm that my hsemate moved out of? i need some privacy frm this dear rmmate of mine.. i need some room.. but i'm not certain that i can get that since i think she wld want it too.. given her missy character.. i would most probably juz giv up n let her take it juz to keep her mouth shut.

sheesh.. holz holz.. like nothin to do.. but actualli realli a lot to do.. OMG. *faints*

RecaLLing...

oh well.. wanted to post this on thurs in the end never.. cos got too pissed off by my "dearest" rmmate.. well i went to work that evening.. frm 4-7.. alot of stuff to remember.. things are everywhere.. the aussie's english are so difficult to understand sometimes.. oh well.. but pple there are nice.. i made one coffee thickshake for myself.. n i screwed it up myself.. cos.. hahaha.. i put in the chocolate icecream instead of the vanilla one.. then i realise..hahaha.. but it tasted ok.. that store can be very busy at times.. so i get a little panicky.. but all of them say to me it's fine it's ya first time.. dun need to worry so much... hahahah also found out that each hour pay is about 13 bucks wahahah.. not bad not bad... going back for probation for 2 more shift then they decide whether they wan me..

n WOW.. thurs morning was crazi.. i had psychology paper at 9.20 in sch.. n the whole nite i didn't slp cos i was studying.. till like mornin.. i wanted to take a nap before i go.. n hahhaa.. oh well.. expected frm me.. i woke up at 9.35.. i was scared the freak out of me.. i went like crap crap crap.. i'm gonna fail this paper cos i overslpt wad a screwed up reason.. shit.. yea.. n by 9.40 i was down on the street, hailed a cab n rush off to sch... told the driver that i am late for exam n pls rush there by 9.50(in my uni, last entry to examination rm is 30mins after exam commence) n lucky me.. out of the 10 traffic lite i pass thru, 8 was green.. so i manage to reach there at 9.49.. last min... but 10 bucks gone lah.. but who cares man.. as long as i can take the exam.. n i manage to finish it of cos.. cos it's 100 MCQs.. my gdness...but realli thank god for that morning.. or else i'm realli a dead meat...

now my last paper is on monday.. the paper i hate the most.. sux.. but oh well.. had to pass it lah.. =)

U IRRITATIN COPYCAT GET OUT OF MY LIFE

my roommate is a FRIGGIN COPYCAT.. wadeva i do must ask, must follow.. shees.. realli gettin on my nerves alreadi lah.. juz dun push it till one day i explode... n i SWEAR.. i will ensure i will break ya little FRAGILE soul.. u this kinda pple can't even take a little suffering.. Don't even noe wadz the meaning of being poor.. independent is TOTALLI not a entry in ya dictionary JUST GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE..

SHEesH.. this morning, when i woke up, within the FRIGGIN second u woke up.. yesterday mornin.. u did the SAME tHing.. buT u wait till i went into the bathroom.. TONITE i dun slp.. u dun slp also..i bought a electric blanket.. u wanna buy again... i buy this bookshelf.. u buy the same style..WAD THE HECK.. i buy this washing detergent u buy this.. even more clever.. u use up my old bottle WITHOUT EVEN TELLING ME.. SHEESH.. no wonder i was like WHY THE HECK EVERYTIME my detergent bottle is getting so light when i haven wash my clothes.. U use my sift.. n u FRIGGIN DUN WASH IT.. n all the flour from ya dumpling stuck there.. n u juz dun giv a damn DO U? DO U HUH? cos it's not ya stuff. it's other pples.. doesn't realli matter RITE? n mY POT! my NON-STICK POT.. wad u do to it? U USE A FORK TO FRY STUFF.. U THINK WAD? it's in the 1st place NOT FOR FRYING.. n secondly NON-STICK.. stop scripping all the non-stick layer n make me eat chemicals.. I"M GETTIN F***ing FEDUP WITH U.. CAN YOU JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE N END YA SOURCE OF IRRITATION IN ME.. ANGER IS BUILDIN.. N ONE DAY IT WILL BLOW.. BLOW U INTO PIECES.. which IS VERY MEAN.. cos it HURTs.. COs i eXperienCe it b4..n iT's not NICE.. it's life altering.. BUT U JUST THINK U DAMN NICE N CARIN N SO GOOD N PERFECT THAT U ARE NOT DOIN ANITHING WRONG DO U U empty spoil rich naive gal.. n u dare come tell me when we were to find pharmacies for fieldwork assignment.. WHY NEVER LOOK FOR IT FOR ME.. or when i got one extra place which i wanted to get more experience.. WHY NEVER GIVE YA PLACE TO ME.. FREAK.. WHO U THINK U ARE.. U ARE MY ROOMMATE.. FREN.. KLASSMATE.. i DUN even rate u in GD FREN.. N U ARE CERTAINLY NOT MY BF.. I"M NOT THE ONLY ONE COMPLAINING.. melinda(my another fren that my rmmate DAMN ATTACHED to) also SAID.. I'M NOT YA GF/BF.. STOP BEING SO CARING/BOSSIN INTO MY LIFE.. SHEESH.. but all of us are juz nice enuff to not BANG YA FRIGGIN FACE ON THE DOOR OF REALITY & TRUTH.. be happy n STOP PUSHING ME..

F***.. Just gettin on mY friggin nerve SO MUCH..

sorry pple for this entry.. need a channel to get my thots n anger out.. or else i will juz turn back now n slap her this very moment.. is it juz me? i Dun noE URGHZ... CRAP.. i NEED to move out.. AWAY FROM YOU..

2wks worth of entry

wahaha.. i've been missin for so frIggin loNg eh.. pple muz b missin me?? (no? u dun miss me? fine.. wadeva~ sObzzz =_( ) i'm juz gila yea ignore me for that part... oh well the last time i blogged was like 2wks ago? ok.. alot of stuff happened since then... hrMmm..

11th fri: spent the whole friggin nite doin the poster.. n YEAH! well i'm done.. alittle late to klass and who care's if i didn't realli prepare my speech, our grp stil got a 45/50~ wahahhaha... oh well.. quite worth it lah hor... then ya.. last day of term one.. nothing much happening.. juz that pple in uni dun bond as much in high sch.. went out to watch harry potpot~ haha... abit offensive here, to harry potter fans.. i'm juz jokin eh.. but quite fun to call like that.. great one.. though i quite lost mayb cos forgot wad the book abt alreadi.. sat thru credits.. nothing at the end.. hahah.. sit there for nothing.. my rmmate is MAD abt harry potter... go home n download the songs.. n keep on playing.. sheesh.. but yea not that bad.. but WHAT"S WRONG WITH MALFOY? he's..he's .. SUCH A BIG SISSY.. sheesh.. the new dumbledore dun look quite diff to me.. prolly cos too long since i last saw harry potter... but i prefer if he didn't tied his beard up.. looks weird.. n i liked the part when harry n hermoine ran back n he was like "what? good night!" and walked away..

12th sat: cannot remember wad happened..

13rd sun: went out.. since 14th is me n derek's one yr anniversary~ =D ok.. not realli a big deal to most i guess.. but to me. yes lo.. it's hard to get thru i think.. since his temper is terrible the past yr.. n alwaes vent on me.. then the 2 months in our home countries.. n back here onli on the wkends then meet.. yea... went out to star city~(the casino in sydney) n darling harbour.. where we started.. n i won $28 bucks frm the $2 roulette table~ cooL..haahhaha went home at like 2 or 3am? that's like the latest i've ever been out here in sydney...

14th--20th : stuvac.. wad else can i do? study lo... oh.. went dentist on fri.. then the dentist numb my gums so much.. half my face gone.. SO NUMB for the whole afternoon.. can chop it off i tell u it's not pain.. terrible... at nite 1st time try cook porridge all by myself.. while my rmmate happily sit there n wait for dinner to b served...the porridge spurt at me.. sheesh.. n rite into my eye somemore.. i no wear specs one loh.. so thankful and glad that i'm not blinded now.. then eat loh and washin leave to me again.. while miss rmmate sit there n chat with her "beloved" online "boyfren"(dunno who the heck is that.. someone she met in those forum from china.. everyday chat chat chat..)

21st: chem exam.. sucked big time.. didn't know so much stuff.. sighzz... hope i pass but disappointed cause i was aiming for 70% n above.. oh well my fault

22nd: bio exam.. also sucked.. cos everything i study properli in mcq.. those juz glimpse thru come out in short ans.. sheesh.. hope i pass again.. my fault again la.. went out to find a music score with derek in the city n came home continuously pissed by my rmmate.. so irritating.. keep on singing with her headphones(she's studyin in the livin room where i studyin.. cos her friggin study lamp lite bulb blew n she dunno where n juz dun wanna buy a replacement bulb.. FREAK.. spoilt.. CRAP).. if she sang as well as my previous rmmate last yr.. i dun mind.. but it's so friggin out of tune.. sheesh.. so distractin.. wad the heck.. n it juz gets worse when she raps along with her BELOVED jay chou... my gdness.. well but i juz can't brin myself to ask her to stop.. dunnoe how to tell her.. fragile little "princess".. not like i sing very well myself.. but juz that i noe how bad my singin is n spare others from it.. but she dun... according to my fren.. she think she sing damn well.. wad last time in malaysia stil go join competition one.. wah piang eh..i'm being so mean.. but wad eva lah.. she's juz pushin me beyond my limit.. then at nite cook dinner.. i make soup(potato, onion, tomato.. yuMMM) while she sit there ot chat again.. sheesh.. so pissed i tell her.. come cook dinner.. or you want me serve you like restaurant like that!?!? then her butt left the chair.. then start cookin... put oil in the pot d n on the fire.. went away to chat? i was like "what u think u doin??" came back.. put the food in to fry.. went away again? "i went "i dun wanna eat carbon ok.. can u come back n finish off the cookin 1st... dun chat AWHILE cannot die one.. " then come back.. wad the heck man... ask u cook alittle bit onli wanna do that.. sheesh.. movin out next yr DEFINITELI.. so pissed for the whole nite.. but never show lah.. later she come AP again..mayb it's me that's being AP.. then suddenli a call change my mood~ haha the place where i applied for job called me for interview!! YEAH!! last time when i called they say they got pple alreadi.. now.. YEAH!! hhahaha~ wad the job is? scoop icecream.. hahah like hrm.. haggen daz like that one lo.. got ice cream.. smoothies n stuff.. in aus alot this kinda thing one..

today: studyin for psyc tml.. then.. went interview.. dress up casually but neat.. n went for interview in the evenin.. they asked normal quesitons.. how much i wanna work(how many hours per wk) how i find sydney.. blah blah.. seem quite good impression.. uncertain.. say will giv me call by tml.. but on the way home.. i got the call.. n YES!! they are givin me a probation shift tml frm 4-7 n see whether i like the job n they like me.. so i say SURE!! n yea.. tml i'm goin.. n for that 3 hrs i workin.. i do get paid.. hahahaha see how it goes...

yea.. such a long entry eh.. 2 wks worth of stuff lah.. juz bored frm all the psyc that's turnin me psycho.. takin a break here.. hahaha.. wish me luck tml.. for exam n work~ *excited*

oH wEll~

yO~ 2 dAys nO updatE~ y? cos nothing realli significant happened~ hahaha.. my life is not as happening as some pple~ (not tryin to hint anithing laH~) it have been either slp or work or sch this few days... 2 tests tml~ psyc n chem~ aiming for a full mark tml for chem so i can pull back up my avg to a 9/10.. if not quite sad loH~..

suddenli update here y leH? cos i wanna mark my moment of success.. in? MAKING CUP CORN!!! hahahah.. pple who usualli eat cup corn with me in sG~ which is.. hrM.. uM.. onli got kuan i think.. waHHHahah KuaN ah can save the 2 bucks we go buy the raw ingredient i make cup corn till u go sick~ i remember last time eat got like 1/4 cup of oil maN~.. the 2 of us alwaes damn disgusted at that.. today i think i used less~ n i use a healthier one.. margarine(instead of butter? unsaturated n saturated? chem i loVe ya~ wahahahha~ *gila alreadi laH~*) somemore say salt-reduced~ hahahaha.. feel quite cooL hahaha.. makin more n more stuff.. i need ta learn more stuff to cook so i dun eat my own stuff till i bored to death since it will be another 4 and a half yrs of eating my own cookin~

*sarcasticly* oH~ hoW excited i am for the comin few days~ tml's test, fri's bio poster presentation.. i have to confess here loud n clear that I HATE BIOLOGY for now laH~.. hopefully next term human bio i will change my mind.. somemore gonna bullied into doin a poster that shld have been done by 5 person by myself.. wad the heck? then presentation at least 2 person dunno y stupid gal stil wanna pull me in.. brainless angmoh(but she not realli brainless.. dunno wad she thinkin i noe she damn clever laH~ result so freakin gd.. me also gonna shock till when bullied dunno how to rebut her..) as my title of the blog says.. OH WELL~ wad to dO eH.. stupid me.. muz buck up next sem.. stand up for myself.. 18 alreadi.. cannot let pple bully.. nobodi will sympathsize u one..

today tried to apply for work.. ~scoop ice cream~ but call abit too late lah. pple hire pple alreadi~ wAd tO dO~ sLow onLy~ cAcaT(disabled/no use in maLay) onLy...

wahahaha 2.30 alreadi.. dunno wad time will i slp~ or shld i say will i b slpin??

hrM.. u noE i haV a sTrong urge of movin out to my workin place(i.e the living room of the apartment) to slp instead of in the bedrm durin this period.. i hav such weird hours for slpin at critical periods... i wun not wan to wake my rmmate EVERY single time i open the terrible bedroom door which creaks and also happen to b stuck due to some contraction or something like that in the doorframe.. but she stubbornli refuse.. but exams or stuvac come.. i sure heck care u i do wad i wan laH~ it's my friggin bed n it's my friggin life.. doesn't mean u my rmmate n u elder than me by like 9 months u can come bug my life sometimes.. wahahahha. i sound so mean.. naH.. juz sometimes.. she's juz.. hAizz. i will elaborate next time n u will understand.. definitely not now eH~ scally i type til 3 man.. *feelin quite mean*

aNywaY~ does anione noe wad to do when ur eyes r realli itchy n u wanna rub them? when i feel damn tired i tend to rub my eyes alot.. and alwaes gonna swollen one.. n now dunno y one of my eye's black eye ring more obvious than de other... i wonder y? one eye slp more than the other? does this means one of my eye gettin myopia then the other eye workin too hard to compensate it? URGH ITCHY LAH..ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

BaCk To SCh?

waHHH yesterday nite tried 2 shots of tequila.. 40% wOhhooo.. nearly went bonkers.. today stil manage to wake up to go to sch.. was actually at derek's place yesterday nite(nope i wasn't drunk and we didn't do anithing~) then woke up late this morning to go to sch.. need to take train unlike at my place onli need to cycle to sch..

went up the train without lookin at wad stop it will be stoppin at~ (let me explain the train system here.. i will use sg train station names to make it easier.. take it i wanna go frm tampines to city hall.. trains here some will go straight frm tampines to town hall or onli stop at bedok, bugis... the sequence and the stops are juz different for any train..) aniway i hopped on.. derek went down when the train reached 'central' and i'm suppose to alight the next one, 'town hall' to go back my home to get my bks for sch.. buT.. when the train went off to the next stop i wasn't 'town hall' went de other direction (this line is called 'city circle' n as the name says.. tour ard the city.. instead of the usual sequence of goin to town hall after central, it went central->museum->st james-> ...then finally townhall.. took me another 15 mins to reach home.. touring of the ciTy.. like WOW(i dun realli need that animore do i?)

by the time i got ready.. it was 9.30 alreadi.. pass my 1st lecture.. gave up and went for my 2nd lecture onli.. then went to photocopy some group reports each of us need to file in.. and collected my major assignment.. n guess wad? WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. i passed.~ mere pass.. oh but whatever laH.. dun count marks one.. n i did the nite b4.. never realli expected much frm there.. then hardworkingly stayed in library to check ans for practice exam and realise i realli suck in bio~(it's a realli boring subject.. or it's either the topics now are juz tOOOOO terribly boring)... finish oledi wanted go the other library go get the psyc TB to revise for test this comin thurs.. but gonna used.. so juz went to student centre and got the letter i needed to get for obtaining permission to work and realli went to fix it.. reach home n applied for tax file no. online something u need in au if u wanna work and pay less tax...

feelin quite accomplished... like i did alot of stuff like that.. weLL WeLL.. and then applied for the job.. stocktaking.. don't noe how's it gonna be.. send in some enquiry wondering whether they would hire me.. hopefully though.. now go cook dinner~

tonite's menu: potato chicken, fish finger, potato nuggets, egg with mince meat and veg..

I'm 18!

hRmmm.. sO frIggin bz on thursday to update anithing.. and was out yesterday so cldn't write anithing here + plus friggin internet was down. quite irritatin..

Thurs: had my stat test.. CRAP IT... studied and went in and mind went blank.. like SHIT>. i noe i studied for it and i absolutely know what to use. but i juz can't dig it out frm my brain.. out of 5 i cld onli do 2..without much confidence.. and the last 3 juz anihow circle.. wad crap...sIghz wadeva.. not that down though..

at nite need to rush 2 assignments... and i need to go over to derek's place to get some aloe vera leaves for my poster tml.. so need to rush even more since after 9.30 i'm not suppose to go to his house animore since it's too late to travel by myself at the train station.. realli dun like it.. not my fault that i need to do all those assignment.. wad to do eh? n he keep on rushin me... as if i'm taking my own sweet time eh.. sIGhz.. aniwae manage to finish by 11pm.. and my rmmate send me to train station(that's the condition if i wanna go after 9.30, someone have to send me) i dun like to trouble pple.. seriously.. reach there n my temper kinda cooled.. celebrated my bdae at 12am... had banana cake that he baked and drank some white wine.. then went off to sleep.. since next day stil got sch..

Fri: got bio lab.. blood testin.. quite cool not my own blood lah.. but some blood from the blood bank... then got back my bio report.. 14/20?? urGhz.. when my demontrator checked she realli didn't comment anithing.. cept for gd here gd there... but the score? quite disappointing.. thinking abt resubmittion but realise that at most i may onli get 1 pt.. so forget it lah.. scally submit come back the marks even lower.. after all realise they got normalisation.. so wadeva.. my rmmate quite pissed when i said i'm not realli satisfied with the score i hav now.. since quite high compared to the rest n quite mani failed.. but i mean after all juz that diff pple hav diff requirement for themselves lah.. not to say that i'm competative but i want to get honours(invitation onli) at the end of my degree.. so at least to make it worth for my parents.. so ex to send me over here.. n now even struggling with $$ so much alreadi.. something she mite never exp since she's SO FRIGGIN rich..and live such a MISSY life.. got maid foreva till come here.. so yea.. a 14/20 is juz something i wasn't expecting... aniwae then the poster display made me happy since everyone was amazed at our poster.. n we got excellent for that yeaH!.. didn't get back my major assignment though.. kinda expect a low grade for that since did that one nite b4 handin in.. after sch went for my bdae dinner..

got the small bag i wanted frm my rmmate.. then met up with everyone.. my de other housemate didn't come.. cos well i heard she didn't noe most of the pple at the dinner so didnt' wan to come but dunno how to reject me n in the end juz didn't turn up.. my rmmate, Shindi(not realli nice eh.. keep on callin my rmmate.. =P) got damn pissed.. i was ok though since after all i wasn't that keen on invitin her since i noe alot of pple she dunno but was paiseh not to invite her since we live in the same house lah.. it juz happen to b a form of courtesy to invite her.. then reach the place, nice food, nice atmosphere.. got alot of pple..24 i think.. got mani different grp of pple so some didn't realli talk.. no choice like a lot i think if dun invite not realli nice laH~.. prolly next yr will reduce the no... durin the dinner took quite alot of photo.. well i dun like photos but.. 18.. guess need the photos to preserve some nice moments here n there...Derek was forced by crowd pressure to buy a rose for me when there was someone goin ard selling it... 20 bucks.. so ex... feel so bad... then went back to city.. quite an enjoyable daY~

today:
todaY~ woke up at 3.30.. wahahahah.. too tired sIa.. feelin cranky since back quite pain.. dunno why.. mayb cos position of slpin was quite bad yesterday nite.. wasn't behavin quite nicely.. oh well felt guilty and gav derek a call to apologize...mayb also cos i'm feelin the stress building in me..guess this is quite bad.. nOOO.. sIGhz.. back to work eh.. if not even more stress...

After A Night of Statistics...

cOOl.. i'm feeling quite accomplished.. i did 5 wks of my semester work within this few days.. but then again i'm less than half way through to the material of what i will b tested on tml..

dun ask me what happened on monday.. cos i don't really remember actually.. cept for the fact that we finished the Aloe Vera poster for Pharmacy...then i'm K.O... slpt frm 2am Tues morning to 6pm Tues Evening.. wahahaha.. missed my Biology poster meeting at 8am.. missed 2 lectures(Stats...OH NO.. Chem..) i woke at 12.30p.m though.. but realising that my next lecture is at 1pm(Psychology) i decided i wouldn't be able to make it and 2pm is Biology.. i gave up and slp till.. ya 6pm.. i'm crazy slpin so much but i didn't slp at all on monday morning.. or shld i say juz one hour of slp is juz not enuff for me laH~..

realli reluntant to get outta bed since it's nice n warm while outside it's COLD... not that cold actualli if I had a heater.. but i am trying to save.. so as long as i can still survive without it.. i will be stubborn and NOT to buy it.. HrMph *determined*

had my dinner after a bath to wake myself and watched the show "There's Something About Miriam", whole show like Bachelor.. but then this time the girl is actualli a HE.. n he stil got that one down there one.. only did breast implants n ate hormone pills... no others.. quite disgusting the show everytime u see the guys all trying to go after her.. hugging her and stuff.. *pukz*... then called up pple to confirm who coming to my bdae dinner which shld b held at the Italian Village.. trying to do something different since everyone have been lurking ard the city for dinners and stuff.. gettin seriously bored.

after that juz studied and chat online with pple.. i think i'm abnormal, well at least my rmmate makes me think so.. since she slps quite normally.. and i kinda slp whole afternoon long and onli wake up late nite n stil awake in the morning(after 12am laH) to work.. but when i asked derek.. he juz say no laH.. if u feel more productive at that kinda time it's ok.. i trust him more than her seriousli..(hav lots ta say abt her sia..but.. now not the time.. i wld dedicate one whole post to her later on.. when stats is GONE.)

as expected i did quite an amount of work compared to if i juz do work during the nite and went to slp.. i realli wonder y...

it's alreadi 8.30am... i dunno whether or not to take a nap.. or else i wld prolly crash my bike on the way to sch.. a bit tired alreadi.. but if i slp now sure cannot wake up for chem lab.. sheesh.. chem lab is boring today.. juz gotta do another workshop.. i finished 3/4 of it alreadi.. juz need to finish it off in lab and come back home n work on stats again.. i dun wanna fail again.. no..

later in the afternoon goin with derek to the bdae dinner place to book the restaurant and to chcek it out.. since some restaurant quite ex n stuff lah.. he realli took me by surprise by msging me juz now... freaked me out.. thot who in the heck wld msg me at 7.50am in the mornin.. hahaha...

wanted to take a break frm work so came in here to blog.. quite bo liaO actualli practically put evy single detail here... but given me this kinda super short term memory pple.. this mite b put into gd use next time..

feeling gorgy(dunnoe is it spelt like that).. mayb i juz wld go take a nap.. 45mins~ ard one slp cycle laH(according to my psyc lecturer).. hopefully can wake up.. zzz..zzz...zzz...

First Entry~

It's been like years(seriously) when I last wrote my old blog.. and since I'm turning 18 soon, I guess I would start a new one... since I believe after every birthday, I'm starting anew, at least that's what I would like to think though it often does not prove to be true...

I'm counting down to my 18th birthday, the number that makes you "adult".. 5 more days...wondering what will change? one big thing is that i can finally apply for work secretly without having my mom to send the form. then.. i don't know. i guess people expect more of u after u turn 18. i dun like it. it may be naive, but i prefer to stay below 18 around 16 i guess.. young enuff to do some stuff but not old enuff to take on too much. nearly all the frens/classmates around me are at least 1 year older than me, but realli not much difference but i guess they take things more "experiencedly" unlike me panic only..

Whassup in life just 5 days before my birthday? what else but friggin WORK.. cRaP maN.. it's going to be so bz the next 2 wk"end"(ie thurs & fri).. and what's more.. TERRIBLE TERRIBLE exam.. 3 more wks to go, I fail, I also go(go back home laH.. fail one unit need to wait for next year before can retake unit, no $$... =_( )

I'm think who I would give my blog add to.. most prolly my sg frens.. y? i also dunno, i dun realli see anione here that wld realli b interested in readin wad i wld tell them verbally though there will b more thots here i guess.. naH.. i'll leave them out of this... i may even start complainin(or whining) as usual abt them.. so ya.. definiteli not involving them in..

after this yr, i'll learn that i wan no party, no.. it's just irritatin, or pissin in a way, so friggin much to think abt n stuff.. i finalli understand y my mom never had one for me... too troublesome..esp like when u've got so much work...

quiz comin this thurs, statistics my "FAVOURITE".. lagging so far behind i think i'm going to fail again. crazy teacher, one quiz, 7.5% but the whole quiz only got crappy 5 questions.stress man. then fri got pharmacy poster.. quite interesting lah, but when there's someone slackin in the grp, it's no fun.. at all.. lucki it's juz one, the other 5 are contributing equalli~

next wk even more exciting!! thurs psychology tutorial test, fri biology poster presentation, chemistry quiz and pharmacy portfolio.. can just die on my bed.

guess that's it for the moment.. cos it's back to revising stats. URGHZ. -_-