WOW has it been 1 yr?

Dear Blog,

I'm sorry to have abandoned you for 11 months... i have so much to write.. yet i've been a lazy bum as usual (my msn blog is updated till nov).

Here is the copy..
Thus shall give u short summaries of wad have happened in these 4 months..

Dec

-flew to HK, and met with MOST of my cousins.. unbelievable.. hahah cos i met one of my cousins which i haven seen for at least 16 years? probably more.. since i didn't even remember he existed... the organising part was a nightmare due to unexpected complications.. but the night was fun.. it was very weird during dinner.. most of the table were really quiet~ probably due to the age gap between the oldest cousin(29) and the youngest(14)? but later at night it all heated up.. we went to the boardgame cafe and decided to play pictionary. absolutely crazy.. fun nite nevertheless...

-had heaps of gd food in HK as well.. YUMMM

-met up with my dear Winnie... and saw her dog~ it's gd to see her doing well.. unfortunately didn't get to see her more..

-dad graduated with Masters~ so went to those old-fashioned studio to take photo~ and we took the chance to take proper family photo as well~ the photo looks gd.. i don't have a copy with me though.. =(

Jan

-went through a mad rush to meet frenz in sg before leaving for syd again..

-back to sydney.. ALL ALONE. gosh.. absolutely boring.. and when internet broke down, i broke down too.. internet is too impt to me now..

-life was very slow paced, until my frenz start coming back..

-relationship status went back to single

Feb

-work work work...

-play with frenz..

-chasing teri to come back to play NDS with me..

Mar

-uni started. DAMN.

-all frenz BACK! yay! weekly events with my taylors frenz which is ABSOLUTELY fantastic~ mel & winnie's presence are much missed though...

-ridiculous mid-term break after wk 3..

-MORE WORK, but this time it's uni work...

Apr

-uni work has flooded me.. and i'm jus so tired.. that i can't believe it's only the middle of the semester....

-printer broke down (well not really.. it still prints.. but the toner is so expensive, i might as well buy a new printer..)

there u go, summary of 4mths... i dunno whether u shld hope to see me write here more often or not..

i write when i'm procrastinating..

i don't write when i'm bloody busy...

tml is placement's med review. yet to start my review.. tsk.. back to work back to work...

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unbelievable that i haven't been here for that long.. gosh.. hahaha.. well may or may not visit here more often.. may sway either ways... until then.. cyaaaaa

n events unfold

Thanks for everyone's caring comments. THANK YOU. with your blessings... the events are finally unfolding.. my parents have agreed to me having my surgery done in july. now i just have to settle the insurance.. so much distractions for the past wks.. the post-op pain and the tedious physiotherapy sessions are catching up on me but at least.. we're moving..

my brain juz felt like it's overloading for the past few months.. and i was taking so much rest.. escaping from everything...

while doing my not-so-routine blog browsing i realise alot of u all are having holz now.. i hope you are enjoyin them... i'm getting so slpy.. hahaha i'm gonna copy my myspace entry here too.. i hate not being able to post photos...

Myspace entry
v. random events of wad i remember =P

1) very very sad!!! my poor camera.. i think it needs to go to repairs.. since the left side of the photo is always out of focus. and my internet is too slow to upload my photos. oh well.. i'm juz not patient enough to wait...

2) went to Sing K with Derek, Mel, Winnie, Teri, Haz & Shaira~ this alwaes send us into random high.. tried a new K place near QVB.. not bad just that the english songs didn't have the real MTVs...

Hanging out with friends is unbelievably fun!! hahaha.. this sounds weird doesn't it as it's quite an obvious point? just that recently my group of frens haven been meeting up as much... and i miss them.. slightly similar to the feeling of missing derek (muahah letz skip the mushy details)...

juz recently manage to go eat dinner with andre, hilman, mel... and it really brought me so much joy that everybody is enjoying themselves... uni really drains us of one of the main joy we get from our friends...

3)Ivan, derek's friend came to visit from brisbane.. hahaha it's nice to have pple visiting.. but i missed out on that Ivan's famous breakfast. Ivan.. u owe me 1 breakfast!! one of the nights we decided we shall go star city.. as Ivan's never been there.. and Mel haven been there too.. muahahah and the gambler inside me was making my hands all itchy and wad not... we signed up to be members and had some free credits to play around with. We tried our luck at pokies.. but seriously had no idea how to win.. hahaha then we moved to the tables... i've tried roulette before.. so we went back to roulette. we all lost our free credits.. lolz. finally we found a table with some space and i settled myself down.. and observed the trend.. which is way weird. (as in the no. that the ball lands on) "31,31,20,20,10,9,20" just as i was about to put my next bet down.. mel and ivan walks away as nothing xciting was going on other than me losing my capital.. hahaha.. n i decided i wld b crazy n bet on "20" which wld b such conincidence. and u noe wad? it hits."20!!!!" OMG. this is the very very first time seeing a $100 star city chip.. i lost like 1/4 of my winnings and was pulled away by derek.. (preventing the very start of my gambling prob =P) ... hahaha it was really enjoyable and when ivan and mel saw my 100 buck chip their jaw dropped. hahaha interesting sight...

4) *IMPORTANT* hahah i finished reading a bk named "Conversations with God" by Neale Donald Walsch.. this is like 1 of the most amazing books i've read.. it answered so many questions that I had in my mind from young.. i was never the religious gal.. cos i can't seem to find ans to many of the religious questions.. but this book.. amazingly answered them. I'm not gonna blindly follow it words, and be gullible and believe everything.. till i can experience it. and I AM experiencing it. I'm recommending it to you all... it's not a christianity propaganda... even if u are like a free-thinker or are of other religion.. give it a go.. see it as a chance to open your mind.. maybe it can answer some questions u alwaes had.. but no one had the answer. there's so many parts of it.. i just want to type it out here...maybe i shld.. hahaha but seeing that i already have so many excuses in not studying.. i shldn't let myself gain another excuse.


5)FINALLY yesterday.. whatever that have been bothering my mind for the whole semester seems to slightly unclog it self.. and the events is starting to flow.. phew...

Random ... really random entry.. as my memory is no longer intact...i've been suffering short-term memory lost.. hahaha muz b uni. =P

recently...

MRI results were back.. WOW.. my knee in the place of those brain pictures u see in House or Grey's..the ligament is OFFICIALLy G-O-N-E. non-existent. informed parents already.. n they both agree that bearing in mind my future health, the operation has to b done. now the prob is when? as there is a crack in one of the soft bone that protects one of the bones at the knee.. i shldn't push it any further... alot of things running thru my head all the time... tiring... for unknown reason.. weather (suddenly rain whole wk.. gd for slping)? or is it all those thinking? i juz slp alot.. i mean yea.. in the first place i slp alot already.. but now it's worsening..

nothing too happy happened recently.. so it'z gonna b self-pitying, whining entries for awhile here...

Impulse.

for unknown reason, last night when I went out for dinner with my frenz, i had the urge to tok to my ex-hsemate.. u noe the one that i alwayz disliked? I was guessing she was going to the dinner... and on the way there.. i juz kept on thinking... thinking.. and thinking..shld i? will i regret? what wld happen again? will i become that disgusting creature that keeps complaining abt her that all my frenz would wanna shun away frm me whenever i wanna open my mouth. I hope i will b able to keep her at the current distance. Just a Hi-Bye fren, nothing more, nothing less.. makes the situation easier for my frenz as well.. less awkward.

impulses.. most pple tell u juz follow ur instincts... and do it. i dunno where this impulse will lead me to.. but hopefully is something gd...

what shld i do...

SOBZ!!!!! somebody tell me... tell me... i know there's a price to pay for everything in this world. nothing comes for nothing. the price might not just be monetary, it might be time, effort, brain power.. wadeva.

i think i mention here before.. i've injuried my knee last yr... with 2 physiotherapist, 1 sports doctor, 1 orthapedic surgeon.. all telling me that's it. my ligament is snapped. n the only way for it to heal is to do a surgery to reconstruct my ligament.

i dunno wad to do.. at first i thot juz do it. as long as i get back my knee... then i read more and more abt it.. and it's starting to freak me out...the price to pay is not cheap,

i need to put in
money: surgery, physiotherapy (at least 6 mths, with up to 3time/wk)
time: to do all the rehab exercise (pple describing it as part time work)
effort/preseverance: to continue despite of pain, no improvement

n after all that, i might not recover to how i originally is, i can exercise but most pple have said that they are juz satisfied that they can run.. pple that continue to do their vigorous exercise tend to say that they juz snapped the ligament AGAIN.

but i'm not going to settle for juz running.. comparing it to my current situation of fearing to do any exercise.. it's better than nothing.. but then put in all that amount of money, time and effort i wld wanna recover till i shall not fear in doing anything. i wanna go ski again, i wanna skydive.i wanna LIVE my life.

ARGH. ARGH ARGHHHH.. one worrying yr after another. sighz.

going for MRI scan on wed... hav to wait half a mth before i will get to tok to my doc again. Wad shld i do???

Searching for Christmas Decorations I

I know I've blogged about this in MySpace.. but i hopefully can put more picts here...
See... being Antisocial is a target.... hahaha fang and kuan.. who does this remind u of???
Anywayz.. i was saying i went to look for Christmas Decors in the city.. here are the complete pics of designs i took.. with my camera on a bubble tea cup.. lolz.. i think i look silly next to all these pple with their tripods..

Searching for Xmas Decorations II

This was one of my fav designs... but Happy Christmas sounds weird...

Searching for Xmas Decorations III

Actually most of the time.. i don't know what kinda pattern I'm looking at.. lolz..

3 storey high Xmas tree!!!!.. hahha it's really really big... but don't hav gigantic presents at the bottom though....

Searching for Xmas Decorations IV

I know this is barely readable.. but hahah i'm too lazy to type this list again.. for details, pls see MySpace blog =P but this tree does takes alot to put together... >.<" Look at all those Swaroski Crystals.. they put barrier ard the tree so that pple cannot juz take'em.. but some how they look sortta fake.. i realise i find weird Xmas trees every year.. 2 yr ago, i found a beer can Xmas tree, 1 yr ago, i found the ferrero roche Xmas tree, this yr a Swaroski crystal Xmas tree.. i wonder what will i feel next yr...


Wow!!! look what I found at a display window near the Xmas tree... well the tree is found in a building called Queen Victoria Building.. i forgot why is it called the name.. but anywayz.. i wonder in like 78 years will i still be alive to read it? I would be what? 99 years old?? hahahah hrm.. the content might be really interesting though....
doesn't this look familiar? the all famous Matrix fountain~ hahaha i never recognised it.. but then Derek pointed it out to me~ i wished i was here when they were filming though.. wanted to see Keanu Reeves..he's one of the actors that i actually think that he's quite handsome =P

but this marks the end of my lonly trip ard the city.. at like 9pm? hahaha.. my legs were like super tired.. i wore new shoes to walk ard.. and it really hurt.. since they are not wore-in yet..

whining session

ARGHHH. i need ta whine. omg.

2 reports due and i'm approaching the end of holz.. been lazing ard (got excuse since was sick).. sighz.. gotta get my brain working again... chiong ah....

i'm currently quite broke.. barely hav enuff money to pay my rent till i get my next load of money frm my parents... yet i have so much "wants"... i want a one/two seater couch (if it can ever fit in) in my so called "lounge rm" that isn't very lounge-looking.. with a LCD TV that's at least 21" equipped with Wii (the new Nintendo console) *droolz*, i wouldn't mind a new closet too, one that is taller than me, with more hanging space, and a body-length mirror. haahah guess all this will not happen unless i manage to work my butt off during the holz or strike a lottery...

i'm dreaming too.. just got a application form for industrial placement scholarship for the holz... ard 200 bucks per wk? i must b crazy, mayb i shld leave it to next yr.. shld ask them whether i will be qualified still... if i do ever get in.. i might be able to do all those lab testing, quality control.. oooooo my fav... hahah compulsive lab work... but they chosin pple based on academic merits.. n my results.. sighz. who wld ever want me? nevertheless i will giv it a go. sad case...