Insinyur

It has been a while.... quite a while.
Here i am, trying to clear up the mess in my room with musics from beyonce and james morrison keeping me company. I went through the pile of papers and files stacked at a corner of the room. A wipe across them reveals all the dust that has gathered. God knows how long it has been since i touched them. At the corner of the pile, a large birthday card caught my eye. Picking it up, it says happy double 2 Houquan. A card hand made by my group of friends, by grimmjaws, my insinyur OG. Going thru it makes me nostalgic. Images of my memories flashes across my mind, a smile came across my face. It was good, the memories were good.

I still remember that day, lumbering my big bag across boon lay MRT station to look for daniel (the GL that called me). I joined up my group at a corner of the bus station. Everything feels so strange. Sitting in a corner, the GLs tried their might to get everyone to break the ice. I was never good with opening myself up to people who i dont know. I guess that was the start that changed me. We started out slowly, it isnt easy to get everyone to go all high and hyper immediately. But things got better as days pass by. We started to talk, started to joke and started to enjoy ourselves. We did alot of silly things, ran across little india like it was our playground, made a fool out of ourselves during camp fire but it was all pure fun. Camp ended as suddenly as it started.

Everyone started sch and soon there was the recruitment for the following year's subcommittee. I wasnt really that enthusiastic in the first place but i found myself in the programmer grp under Joon hoong. Then thats how it is and how i continue to give and contribute towards insinyur even after my first camp. This time round it was different. It was easier for me to mix around as i already had friends in there. I gave it my all durng the camp and i was rewarded with as much as i gave. I got the best programmer award (dont ask me how i got it, i dont know it either:p), i got new friends(my programmer grp and sauron) and the best of all, i got fabulous memories. I start to find myself loving insinyur more. :)

Camps start and end in a blink of an eye. Soon i found myself going for the interview for the MP post and found myself getting it. This marks the start of Insinyur 08/09. I find myself with a bunch of fun loving of programmers working under me, a great buddy, lixing, work alongside with, a great main committe to be in. Not matter how tiring, how much hiccups and obstacles we are thrown with, we had fun. We gave it our all to make the camp successful and fun filled. Just so that we can have more happy memories to bring home with, just so that people who take part in the camp will feel the same as we do.Just so that people can say Insinyur is fun, insinyur is where great memories are made.

Camp ended faster than the previous 2 camps. I find myself feeling empty. Its like a part of me had died with the end of the camp. i tried to find things to do but it didnt really help much. I guess insinyur is a part of me now. Regardless of whether there is one last insinyur for me or not. The memories i had will be treasured and this i am sure, they wont be taken away.. =D

I was on my way home as usual, listening to my ipod. Then suddenly i start to think about life and miracles. I start to wonder what would happen if i had put more effort into studying for my PSLE exams. I am sure i would have gotten much higher grades than i did then. If that happened, then i most probably will be in some other secondary school then the one i went to. That means i most probably would have met some other friends than the bunch i had met en route to my life now. The 23yrs of friends i made will most probably be different.
Gosh. My life would have been different. Isnt it amazing? A miracle i say. For me to get that certain grade to enter that certain school and for that other person to get that certain grade and to enter the exact school into the exact class as me and being my friend till now. What other word can i use other than it being a miracle. Whats the chances of that happening? For that exact person to be born that way is a miracle from the start.
I am a science believer so i understand the chances of concieving a person. It takes millions of "tadpole" to attack that 1 "bunk" and finally for 1 to make a breakthrough. Had that 1 be a different one, the person born will be different. Amazing!
People say its fate when things happened one way or another but i believe fate are what we do. Its because of us doing certain things thus having certain outcome.

Nevertheless, all i wan to say is life itself is a miracle, its a blessing that we ge to live another day of miracle. Be it good or bad. =)

You stood at the crossroads, wondering whats next
Without any guidance, you brood over your next step.
Should you walk down left or down right?
You stood at a point where anyone can easily take the wrong step, make the wrong move
But who decides whats right and whats wrong?

Whats the right path? you asked. Nobody knows.
You wont know unless you have taken it.
Does it mean as long as its not against moral values, its the right path?
So which way should you go?

A road without regret, a road where its within your moral values and obligations.
Dont deny yourself of the feelings and emotions you have inside, its you and its what makes you human. Instead of denying them, embrace them and follow them through.
A day will come when the path you take brings you to a place or to a stop.

You might find yourself in a dead end at the end of the day but at least u made that choice, took that path without regrets.
Cry out all your heart. its okie to cry but pick yourself up after crying and look for your way out.
Leave the wall behind and start another new path



我不要后悔

I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something I could believe in
And looking for that Magic rainbow On the horizon
I couldn’t see it Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I’m coming alive Body and soul
And feelin’ my world start to turn
And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air Left me in pieces
But now I’m rising from the ashes
Finding my wings And all that I needed
Was there all along Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart and
I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life And I’m out on the edge of forever
Ready to run I’m keeping my feet on the ground
Arms open wide Face to the sun
I’ll taste every moment And live it out loud I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life

Headline of the day:

Student stabs lecturer then jumps to his death
tragedy on NTU campus

wait. whats that i see. NTU?!?! This incident actually happen in my own sch?
Whenever you hear shooting and stabbing in school, who could have imagined it will happen in our own singapore?

What is going on? Is the stress that is put upon the students in Singapore a cause of this?

The whole school was buzzing with this news. It spread like fire. By words of mouth or thru simple texting. No one could have imagine it to be right next door, right in our own school. The news says that the student was a year 4 student with good results till the last few semesters. He was graduating in a few mnths time and now this. Tragedy indeed but life still goes on for the rest of us. It sounds cruel but thats the truth. I hope both family will be able to pull through with this.

re 个鬼屁cess

Thats my friend's msn nick and i couldnt agree more. recess? what the hell is that? a period of time where u get to work even harder? Do even more work? and seems even busier?

Even since i came into ntu, the term recess has somehow lost its meaning. Whats recess again??

Was casual chatting with my friend. The topic love life came up then it somehow lead to fate and match making. The number of people going for match making is on a high, it is now the norm but my friend believe meeting the right one thru fate/ random associations is the best.
Do you believe in fate?

The number of Singaporeans now stands at 4.5million and rising. The probability of you meeting that 1 person is 1 out of 4.5million chance. Wooo.. Isnt it amazing how u met ur friends? Next, i estimate there are about 1 million young female adults out there and the chance of meeting that 1 is about 1 out of a million? Thats as probable as me striking the 10million toto. Haha. So isnt it amazing if you are happily, blissfully in love with that one and only one? Those in love should really treasure what they have, even their friends too. =)

For those who are still single like me, dont worry. The chances of meeting a girl can be increased of course thanks to the numerous match making agencies out there =D. But that doesnt mean the probability of you meeting the right one is any higher. hahah

1280 steps i took, 60 levels i went, I managed to climb up Republic plaza, the place where i nearly gave my life to.

I was still quite happy i took part in the vertical marathon. It was quite a sense of achievement to reach the top. The feeling was amazing when u are doing it with ur friends as a team and completing it. Kudos to the two girls for nothing giving up either. It wasnt easy at all for me(someone who tried to climb abit of stairs beforehand), not to say them.

Maybe, just maybe. I might be back next year. hahah

Worked my socks off for the chingay 2 weeks ago as a crowd controller. I have to admit the worst people to deal with when u are working as a crowd controller are the aunties. Why cant they understand we are just doing what we are told to do. They are inconsiderate and constantly thinks that we are out to harm and torture them. I cant believe a group of 4 aunties scolded me and said Wo men lao le leh, ni men yi zi jiao wo zou lai zou qu when i told her a part of the road was out of bounds. Wth, shouldnt older people be wiser? Why cant they see we are just tryin to do our job. Then there was this indian auntie who was worst. Both KS and KB. I wonder how her parents taught her manners. She is obviously lacking any.

The person in charge of us was also a "joker". I think i just found another bootlicker who knows nothing. I was one of the sector IC during the event. Then after the first day, we were told to gather for a briefing. The moment we(the various sector ICs) took our seat, the bootlicker said, I tell you people how i work. I give ZERO (emphasised alot on the zero) instructions. I let you all do your job as future engineers should be able to think on their own on the ground. Just ask *** and ***, pointing to the 2 upcoming bootlickers sitting to his left and right. Then he continued. The CGLs (we are there as a FOC camp), i want you all to learn the cheers from the motivators and cheer in front of the president tml. Then we all were stunned. Didnt he just said ZERO instructions?? WTH??

haiz. talking about the people living in singapore. If all of the singaporeans are like the few aboves. The future of singapore looks grim.

Finally got my laptop sorted out, could believe it gave me problem just 7th month after i bought it. Will definitely think twice again about buying dell next time. The technician who came over to repair my laptop turns out to be a mechanical student during his school days. I cant imagine myself going door to door in the future fixing people's broken laptop. OMG.. what a traumatising future.

Lectures are always boring and yet i cant believe i made myself attend them. Its just a waste of time. As usual, nothing useful went in, i spent the hour doodling and drawling on my book. This is what i came up with. haha. Talking about making good use of your time

Chinese New Year is coming. What does chinese new year mean to you?? Let me see, to me it most probably means ba kua, hong bao, mahjong and more ba kua? haha.

Wish you people a HAPPY NIU Year! Hope this damn recession dont dampen this year too much. Ciao!

I must admit, it is not easy being a tuition teacher. Especially if you are just starting out. I didnt know the level of education in Singapore has advance to such level that i was nearly defeated by a sec 4 maths question. hahah. i feel ashamed. A uni undergraduate, nearly being defeated by a sec 4 level maths question. When i was posted that question by my friend, i took about 5 mins to understand what was going on. Haha.. after i managed to solve the question, i felt this sense of achievement coming over me. I told myself, hey, i still can do JC maths. But it all came crashing down after my friend told me its sec 4 maths. What!! SEC 4?

I was talking to my friend today on our way home, she was telling me she is currently teaching tuition to this pri 2 kid and she say she is facing problems. what??? haha.. she say she cant answer the kid's question of why is 4 x 4 = 16. Thats just like asking why is 1+1=2. hahah

i guess no matter which level u are teaching, there are sure bound to be "problems". haha

Just found my way to this damn cool starbucks at HV. Never knew of this place until xw mentioned it to me. I feel damn loser. hahah. but nevertheless, this place owns. It has 2 different level. The top level is filled with tables and chairs. The moment i got to the top, i was greeted by a sign that says happy studying. Thats something new isnt it. To make things better, there are more cute girls here than the smokers at the coffee bean. So its Cool Starbucks with the babes 1-0 Open-aired Coffee bean with the bloody smokers.

Oh, yup. i am bac at HV again. Its time to study. =))

Its a damn wonderful day today and i am in a damn good mood. It all comes down to a certain malay individual who will certainly have a lasting effect on my life. =))
The feeling was good after the drive. I sat down at the table, waiting for him to come towards me with the all holy piece of paper. I wait for what seems like eternity before his shadow looms over me. Without a word, he place my IC and pdl on the table. Then the piece of paper was placed before me. I was about to turn the piece of paper ard before u took it by the corner and signed his name on it. He gave me a glance and muttered. You can go, you passed.
AHHH!!! i took a while to decipher his words. OMG! i actually passed for what seems like another doom to an endless of lessons.. again. Ah. i cant thank him enough. He walked away as soon as he said those words. His coolness overpowered me. I feel like shouting my lungs out. But the situation doesnt allow me to.
I cant help but to walk out of the room with my face grinning.

For once, i actually like a malay guy and the way they work. thank you. Mr darwis. =)

Its the NEW year! Normally, people welcome new year with a list of new year resolutions but i guess i shall do away with it for this year. The usual new year resolutions of slimming down, doing well for exams have met with nothing but dismal and disappointment. To prevent myself from having more dismals and disappointments, i guess the best is not to have any new year resolutions. =)

And i think i am cursed and my friend agree with me. Everytime, i need to handle money, it either decided to play hide and seek with me or it decided to leave with someone else. This time, its doing the earlier. I hope it will get tired of hiding and come back to me. Huay lai ba!

What a way to start new year. =(