I don get it.

Wad the fuck is happening?? Things wasn't planned by me. Nothing concerns me. I got all the shit. Wad is wrong?? Every one going against me.

I got hold of the information and I told u. The best u can tell me is 'bro I'm busy now... Don like this". Like wad?? Im didn't do anything wrong. If u asked I will definitely do wad I can. U didn't even do anything and this is ur tone??

"now u got spare time, Atleast help me out", u didn't ask, u didn't let me know, and should this be the tone?? "Atleast"??? U think that is only wad I can do??

Omg. I'm so disappointed. This is how u gonna treat me from today onwards?? This is how u wanna treat ur sworn??

Hope this is just me being sensitive.

Things to say

I have so many things to say while I'm away from here but I didn't manage to put it up here. I was either too busy or too lazy. I even had a written but forgot to publish cuz I was too busy suddenly. Haix. I had a nice quote but don think I will even be able to find it again. Let fate decide then.

Had too much to say but all forgotten. Twitter is my best platform as I can do it immediately but too sad, I can longer use it as it might offend Ppl again as they might think that I'm referring to them. *sensitive ppl*

Nothing much I can do as there is always a thing to decipher my words to him but we won't decipher hers to him as we respect him and do not wan to be the culprit to separate them. We won't like to get blame as it implicates Alot of things.

So much else I wanted to say but I just can't possible to bring it back up from the deepest of my memory.

Oh ya. This two days, I had made to new friends on a social platform. Nice Ppl. A humorous one and a polite one which I can talk life with. Hahax. Nice knowing them. Thinking to make more friends on this platform. Gf?? Let fate decide. Haax. I really enjoy chatting with them as they really can brighten my day.

Today I went to a seminar about being the major pioneer of a MLM company. It's hasn't started yet. I'm still skeptical to join. See how bah. If I can fix my 'legs' then I will consider.

Ohh... Rt tweet me something interesting about there's bowling tonight. Actually C also tweeted about someone having bowling night when she is always busy studying but I didn't got bothered about it cuz I tried to think that it's her parent and siblings. Too bad. I didnt know who planned this session but it wad blurbed out by Rt. Hahax. Guess Kevin was abandon again due to some 'reasons'.

I rejected him once this week, so I think he's quite skeptical to ask me again. Doesn't matter, I'm occupied anyway. Hahax. No anger towards this. Hope they can really train well and make it a beneficial one. They really need more trainings.

I believe I'm good enough, please really train hard guys. We can own this.

Think that's all I have today for now. Hope things will get better tml. *Cheers!!* v(^.^)v

VDA (Virtual Display of Affection)

Omg. Ppl have upgraded. They know that PDA is not good and changed to VDA. Can't stand them. There is always a direct msg platform but they choose to say it in a public platform.

Do they think that it's different from PDA?? No, it's almost similar.

Did they ever tot about the rest on the same platform?? No, I don think so.

Please spare a tot for the rest. There are always Ppl that have gone thru more than u. There are always Ppl that is more mature than you. There are always Ppl that mature faster than u and know wad is life.

One might think that I'm pure jealous to be complaining about all this. Yes, I might be, as I have been thru that stage of life and one doing all this in public, be it real or virtual, can make me bring back my memories. I'm truly disappointed. One have picked the negative person to follow.

I hope one won't feel the same thing as me when u have broken up and saw all this in a public platform.

Another side complain. Why must u always show off about things that u have. I know it can create a lot of attention for u but do u really need to do it?? Must u be as attention seeking as ever??

Omg!! I'm complaining so much that I'm looking like a bitch but if there is nothing wrong I won't be bitching!!

Contented

I had a tough time bowling today. Don know wad is wrong with me, can't get my usual standard. *sad* But I earned a new spinning technique while I'm in a limbo state. :)

Putting bowling aside, I saw the old Rt again!! We are all our usual self tonight. I'm so thankful that this night come again.

I hope this mood can last forever but they got their exams coming soon. UOL is tough.

I wish them best of luck!! (^.^)v

Thinking

I really feel that it's unfair to us. Now the situation is like that because she is always complaining to u about us. But did we?? We did not. Thats why u can see such a beauty side of her and ugly side of us. There are things not said at our presence but we got know of it. And everyone will believe that it's a reliable source.

Please open ur eyes, stop living in the illusion.

We felt u, please feel us.

Don get fooled, see wads truth. Don regret when it can't be undone.

Sensativity

Think I'm being too sensitive. Kevin just wanted to let me know that he is playing twisted metal with Zy. But I took it as a show off. It just didn't feel right for me. When I told him to make a choice he said I'm drifting arrows to him. I got quite pissed too. Maybe it's just me being too stressed now. Can't blame them. They wont have the intention to hurt me.

The changes

I feel that my apology didn't work. It seems that I have lost all the faith every one had on me. I will not wan it to come to a point that I have won the war but at the same time lost the hearts.

From my perception, C isn't happy at all. I hope this is her cooling down period. I do not wan to hurt her and anymore innocent parties again. E is abit proactive now to solve things, I think she do not wan to see everyone sad too. She is such a good friend to have.

For me, although no one will believe, everyone has lost their heart. No matter how they try to tell me in sounds that they had their stand strong, their face wasnt following at all.

I can gladly say that I lost the war. No one will know about my inner pride. U all will think that this is then the start. But I think otherwise.

I'm willing to lost this war for Rt, C and other innocents.