My first real solo trip to...

Perth!!!... yes, ive finally decided that i will make a solo trip downunder.. after procastinating for years, ive finally decided to just do it..When Caitlin was in Sydney i kept saying I'll come I'll come and i did not, she got married and left for New York. This time around im not taking any chances, San Darling is there so im just gonna pack up and go. San was so excited when I told him im coming, he sms me at 3am on Sat to asked for my flight details. Love him always..

I guess, I have to start being brave to lead my life alone, I mean I'm not 18 anymore, I need to confront my fears and just go with it..Probably, if im brave enough to do this trip on my own, who knows i'd be brave enough to take on bigger things in life like i dont know, the M word? Hmm, rite now I dont even want to think about it, I know someday I have to but right now I'm just too excited about my trip. I told mum about my plans and she is cool about it. Thank God I have a very understanding mum, she is the best. If dad is around im sure he is cool with it too.. God Bless.

Get ready Jennifer Hudson, Kate Moss is coming...

Sorry blog i have not been fondling you enough....

..yes im such a slacker .. haven't been updating tis webbie for a very long long long time.. i just cant find any inspiration to write.. in smple english, im having writer's block..like real... heee..

Yesterday was my mum's birthday, we had a simple celebration, kak nong and nofa came by to visit mum, they had been very sweet to me, they treat mum as theirs as well, just like how i treat Pak Din their father as mine. I miss Pak Din, he is in Surabaya now happily living his retired life there. I'm happy for him. Recently I'v been thinking about Pak Din, i miss his dangdut singing session in his cab when he used to drive us around for dinner, Nofa and me used to joget joget in the cab.. .those were the fun days sia.. Why must all the good things come to an end, why must the rainbow be blocked by HDB flats just when im begining to enjoy its beauty.. why why why..and why am i feeling so sorry for nothing right now...duuhh i need to chill..

Recently a guy fren of mine let's just call him J, suggested that i enrolled in an internet dating webbie for singles, a muslim one. I went in to look see look see, goodness me, its such a disappointment I don't mean to be crude, but they all looked like they are ready to bomb the next tallest building in some country.. hahaha.. sorry J, I cannot bring myself to do it.. I wish you good luck in your search.. I will just stick to my Mat Rockers ok.. hehehe..

Enough of me being a sceptic, i think internet dating can be a success if you have faith, and willing to take the risk, as for me im not brave enough to start something that I can't finish. Period. I know i got not much time left to search for The One, but i believe that The One will show himself soon just like how the phoenix rises from the ashes.. hahaha.. keep on dreaming Rina...

To all the Mat Rockers out there i dedicate this below song to you la brader.. Goodnite & love you many many, hahaha...

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pisau belati...