Take a ride with me...

It's 5.06pm now am waiting for time to chiao from this office.. its the begining of a longggg hols ahead.. radio is playing Nelly Ride wit me.. damn this song vintage hahaha.. reminds me of my yo yo yo days..those were the good ol days,.. hahaha.. Nelly is a fly guy fly by.. felt like wanna go party tonite but hmm wheres all my possee?? at home probably sleeping.. i better go activate them...

A few good men..

Was chatting to Nofa (she's is my soulmate of 20years) yesterday nite, she gave me an insight to what is wrong with me(she knows me too well that she can even read my mind) that till today I can't seem to find a single men to love and give love. I must admit all the guys that I got to know will end up as friends only, nothing beyond that OR they'd just died a premature death, in trashland.

This is her take:

1. I should stop threating them as friends in the first place. (She mentioned my tone of voice shouldnt be the same like how i talk to her, and she goes on to demonstrate the smoother tone, close to being helpless, eewww, hilarious i tell u but it was insightful I didn't know this & i was laughing my guts out..hahaha)

2. Act more demure (she knows im the sort of can-roll-on-the-floor-funny girl but must save this for later if you want a guy to like you and treat you more as friends..

3. Love hurts, open yourself up to nice guys out there, not all men are b*****d.

4. Stop over analysing stuff and take what guys say or act at face value, they are very literal creature unlike us women who can get very emotional, put things under a microscope (that is so me.. ) and very complicated. Cut them some slack but not all the time..

5. This is a good one - lower down your ego Rina, its getting huge nowadays..(hehee yes I'm guilty of that, as you grow older I can't tolerate nonsense esp from men, but I'll try to work on this, I promise, I promise, I promise)

All said and highlighted, I remembered my darling Hong San used to tell me flip your goddamn hair darling, just like Charlies Angel... hmmmm...

Tranquility amidst the chaos...

It's Sat and i didnt even go out today, mum went out with baby and I didnt join them instead i chose to do mundane house chores like laundry and mopping..Some people hates household chores but i just get a kick from watching my floor sparkles after a good scrub, and who can beat the smell of fresh laundry.. priceless.. Come to think of it this is the first Sat that I've spend alone at home all by myself coz usually i'd be a bukit batok doing what else practice my driving.. Did the S and crank Course yesterday, not bad at all even though its my first time doing it, langgar a few kerb here and there but hey at least i managed to pass thru. I think my confidence level is so much higher now and i can control and manage the cluth, accelerator, brake routine now. So proud of myself... heee...

Anyways, my long lost friend Fifi messaged me last nite, not sure why probably he missed me.. hehehe.. Fifi he is a nice guy, always tekan him but he still want to be my friend well only strong man can tolerate me and my bitchiness, come to think of it, not only him, A is another good guy friend who can tolerate me for being myself and trust me i do speak my mind. To some guys who has an ego the size of Africa, they can't accept it. I think guys shouldnt follow their ego too much, its damaging. No harm lowering them for the sake of letting the women win sometimes, hahaha.. i believe some girls (like myself..) are just born with high testesterone level so don't blame us for being as smart/competitive as you guys..

gtg, wanna watch some tv before i call it a day, .. tomorrow i'll be beautiful again..

There are kind souls out there...

Just want to share my experience on Monday, Kak Mas & me were on our way back to office from lunch when Mr Rain decided to get heavy, 4 traffic lights to go before we reach the junction of Chin Swee & DDB. We were half soaked and there's no sign of green lights any sooner. We were trying to cover our head with our bare hands and looked quite unglam in the middle of heavy traffic. Lights turned green, one kind soul from a white van, honked at us and threw an umbrella at us, while speeding up to CTE. Gosh! i was too stunned to even react, Kak Mas ran towards the fallen umbrella and picked it up for us to use. My Goodness we were singing praises to whoever that kind soul in the white van is, you really have touched our hearts. Mind you the umbrella was a brand new one. God Bless Mr-Kind-Soul, i will never forget what you'd done, thank you so much..

Hmm, its good to feel like a damsel in distress sometimes and my knight in a shining armour came to the rescue, how romantic...except my knight in the shining armour drove a white van.. hehehehe...

Fate

What does it mean? A force that pre-determines your destiny? Things that are meant and not meant to be?
Who are we to question God for His action for He knows what is best. The thought of losing someone so dear to you in a nick of time is the greatest test that God can bestow upon His creation. It made me realised that life is so short and we don't know what is in store for us. Appreciate your love ones for you will never know if today is gonna be the last..

Inner beauty is bullshit

You women seriously believe that a guy would fall for your inner beauty??? I think is all bull, crap..What is the first thing that they see when they're checking you out BINGO! your breast (and they're not discreet about it), secondly? BINGO again.. your ass.. thirdly? BINGO whether they can get lucky when you go out with them on the 1st date.. so dun tell me about inner beauty, its equivalent to saying 'Get out of my face u ugly bitch....'

When a guy is not into you.. look for these red flags, tell tale signs and dead giveaways..

1. I will call you tonite & 2 wks later he still havent call (read: im just not into you.. ugly bitch.. )
2. I'm busy (read: im just not into you.. im chatting with this hot chick online now at work, u ugly bitch)
3. Had a great time tonite, but i need to go fetch my sis/mother/grandmother/ etc (read im not into you, ugly bitch, go find your own way home).
4. you should do something about ur hair like rebond it, straightened it (read: im not into you, im into SPG lookalike you ugly curly hair bitch)
5. I really like you but the time is just not right (read: im not into you, im into your hot best girlfriend that always hangout with us, u ugly bitch)

So tell me where does the inner beauty ever crosses a guy's mind??? read: NEVER!!!!! Plus if a guy dont like you they're just too afraid to say it out loud, they'd rather be hit by a truck then tell you that you're not his type/not hot enuff etc etc... think deeply about it and dont waste your glamourous time on that idiotic loser who just don't know how to appreciate you..

signing off as angry as ever,
kate moss..without weed..

Red as lobster...

It's Sat and im blogging, nevermind, just felt like it.. btw, just came back from Mercu family day, it's my niece student care event at Sentosa, my darn card reader is having problem so i can't upload my pixs, later perhaps. We had so much fun, Suhaimi Yusof is the mc, God he is funnier in person. I did a simple manicure with Kak Mas's sister who happened to be one of the sponsor, was admiring my soft hands and fingernails the whole day. Nurul and me participated in the 'tarik upih' game, where she sat on a dry coconut branch and I had to pull her. Felt like a star coz throughout the game, the cameraman kept taking our pix, heeeheee, i was very interested in his Nikon SLR.. hahaha...

Anyways, had loads of fun today, even though I was red from the heat and looked like a boiled lobster, well that's my natural glow darling..

P/s: Mr Cameraman is quite cute..hmm
Love,
Kate Moss..

Things tat makes u go huh??...

Went out with Nana yesterday to Esplanade, to watch get this Pesta Raya, Ive never ever in my life been to a concert where there is traditional elements involved like Malay dance, traditional drums etc etc... Well i came by because Mr-Malay-Dance-Guy, invited me to watch the performance that he coordinated. I told myself what can possibly go wrong anyway Nana loves this kinda thing although she's more into dikir barat.

The night ended rather early for me (thank God!) even though the event should be ending at 5am. I'm pretty much bored by the unimpressive jumpings, missing beats and the dance group trying to fuse in hip hop and traditional zapin which i think is haphazardly done, no standing ovation for that but good try mate. Call me conservative my idea of a malay dance is totally not what I saw yesterday or is it the new contemporary/fusion what may you call it. Anyways, who am I to judge as im not really into this kinda genre.. gimme my Radiohead/U2/RHCP/Smashing pumpkins anyday man...

I hope my constructive criticism is not gonna offend anyone, that's my point-of-view from a virgined-1st time-traditional concert goer, do gimme something better next time i might reconsider being a fan..Anyway, Nana said it was a boring performance and she told me her production next year gonna change my mind completely.. we shall wait and see if it does. Dear Mr-Malay-Dance-Guy, I need some time to appreciate your art alright. This has been all totally new to me and its no love at first sight.. hhmmm...

Siapa lah aku ini...

Waa in emo mood again.. listening to Exist Mengintal dari tirai kamar.. makkk emo jiwang maut.. hahaha i think i need to go karaoke asap.. Below is the list fav of songs

1. Mengintal dari tirai kamar - lagu wajib (nak nak kalau Apit yg nyanyi hmmm ape dia punya maksud tu???
2. Sepi Sekuntum Mawar merah - ella confirm lagu wajib
3. Memori daun pisang - tak nyanyi tak sah.. (too bad Din, i have to find other partner to sing this song with, if not memori dok...)

tats all i can ingat for lagu wajib.. nanti kalau ingat lagi i will list down ok.. da lama tak gi ni... aiyo..

Siapa lah aku ini untuk memintal buih yg memutih
Menjadi permaidani seperti mana yg tertulis dalam
novel cinta
juga mustahil bagiku menggapai bintang di langit
menjadikan hantaran syarat untuk miliki mu
semua itu sungguh aku tak termampu

Silap aku juga senang jatuh cinta
insan seperti mu seanggun bidadari
seharusnya aku cerminkan diriku
sebelum tirai kamar aku buka untuk
mengintai muuuuu....
Aaa aaa aaahh aaa ...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

I'm such a slacker this blog has been ignored for almost 2 weeks, im ashamed of myself..

I would like to take this opportunity to seek forgiveness from you, those that I have offended or said things that hurt your feelings. We learn from our mistakes and hope that our journey in this world will always be bless by Allah.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

Hmmm.. i can smell my mum's rendang and kuah kacang from my room, apa lagi.. Attackkkkk!!!!! Wippeee!!!

....Selamat hari raya hari untuk kita bersuka ria..

Bingit sak..

sorry friends, i need to write in Malay..

hari ni aku bingit, aku tak buat salah tapi kena marah,..
buat baik tapi orang kutuk
semua aku buat betul pun jadi salah.
nabeh..

kalau aku tau ni macam aku taknak tolong
selalu gini ah,
aku memang bodoh,
selalu pikir pasal orang
tapi diri sendrik takde orang amik tau
aku ingat tolong orang leh kasi senang
ni tak kena sembur..
nabeh..

ni macam takleh jadi,
aku nak gi toilet amik air sembahyang
lagi baik..
buat pe pikir pasal orang
buat bongok sua..

nabeh..

You drive me crazy..

I went for my second stage of my practical driving today. My instructor told me that Im improving although a bit slow in progressing. Yay!! finally im improving and hopefully i dont run onto the kerb again. He said it's ok, cause I'm kinda like the weekend driver. I told him what's the point of rushing it and making myself all stressed up, when I can enjoy and absorb the lessons at my own pace. He said that's true. I'm beginning to overcome my fear of the steering wheel, the clutch, accelerator, brake routine. I'm telling myself its only driving not extracting some tooth or something. I'm targetting by end next year, I'll be the full fledge lady driver. Guys, can you please excuse me while i powder my nose before driving off..hmm..

Quote & Unquote

'Many a man falls in love with a dimple, made the mistake of marrying the whole woman'

I saw this quote somewhere I think it can be said eitherways for woman too. There's some truth in it, sometimes people hides their true self in the beginning stages of love or courting and after marriage my God its a total stranger sleeping besides me.

'Love is blind but marriage is an eye opener'

Some of my girlfriends told me marriage is a risk that you have to take, and the path to happiness is bittersweet. I guess I'm not much of a risk taker and that's why I'm still swinging single.

Fret not my dear single friends, somewhere out there is that great somebody just waiting to be discovered, and it's up to you to decide what's best. As for me, I'm much more interested in that pair of shoes. Shoes always fit and they never fail to make me happy.

Rinasaurus

such a fine day...

Thinking about it

I was talking to Nofa yesterday about my plan of visiting this makcik whom I saw on tv, she's on one of those heartwrenching 'Kau istimewa' I told her that I want to look for her in Queenstown mrt. She sells curry puffs in one of those blue plastic market shopping bag, you know just to hang around and chat and keep her company. She looked at me and said 'eh kepo nye kau' and the are-you-out-of-your-mind look. I said nothing wrong ok and I went on to say that I want to bring her home, Nofa was hysterical, I just laughed sheepishly. Her husband just passed away and she's all alone no one to talk to, I just want to keep her company. Nofa said if you want to volunteer that's noble, just go to the proper channel, the makcik might think that I'm invading her privacy or even think that I'm crazy or something.. but hey I just want to make that makcik happy, no harm done.

Sometimes we forget that life is not all about us, what we have, we need to give something back. We are insanely immersed in our daily life which borders on the material things and sometimes we think that's all to life but it's not, what we have and treasure today might not be ours tommorrow. There is a lesson to be learnt and we can't be selfish.

Nofa said, you never know what she'd had done when she was young that left her all alone now, I told her this makcik looks like the nice sort, maybe she's not that lucky in her twilight years. It could probably be us you know when we are old, all alone and sad, but Insyallah we won't be like that. If I'm all alone when I'm old sitting at Queenstown mrt and this young pretty girl wants to sit besides me and chat while I'm selling my curry puffs in my blue plastic market bag, I will pray for that girl and I will be grateful.. Think I will still look for that makcik.. hmmm...

p/s. you don't bring me flowers anymore by barbra streisand is playing in the background... sigh, it's such a sad song...

Messy messy messy

Sometimes we'd say tell the to rain not to drop but this time I pray for the rain to drop Mr Haze is making its way again in a big way. It doesn't help that my house is facing a big open field and I can smell the haze once we open our door, no wonder my throat and nose been itchy these couple of days. Haze or not, the shopping must go on, went Geylang with mum and baby today, need to get her baju kurung before it ran out of stock. Not much to do today except clean clean and more cleaning. My room is in a heap of mess, its spring cleaning and clothes trashing day, normally this time of the year is time to bundle those old tshirts and what-not for give away to whoever came to visit. It a great way to de-clutter my wardrobe.

I Can't Make You Love me...

I'm having this really heavy feeling inside of me these couple of days. Trashed baby with her homework yesterday, can you believe it she forgot how to tell the time and it doesn't help that im having a little pms. Today's session was better, I'm much more calmer and more patient, thank God today's homework was pretty ok, she got most of it right, if not, i'll be the Tarzan again. My neighbour must be wondering what the hell was happening there, i think they heard my screaming, can't help it. Nofa always told me to keep my temper in check, i know i shouldn't flare up, i shall work on this one, i promise. I'm gonna crawl into bed in the dark, with this song in the background, i just love this song, it reminds me of all the rejections and heartpain all over again maybe I'll cry myself to sleep or probably not, or maybe just a sniff.. blame it on the hormones.. iskk iskk...

I Can't Make You Love Me by George Michael

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me If you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

I'll close my eyes and then I won't see
The love you do not feel, when you're holding me
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right
Just give me til then, to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

And I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
And here in the dark in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no, you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't.

Ain't no use in you trying
It's no good for me baby without love
All my tears, all these years, everything I believed in
Baby

Hady tats my boy...

Wat can i say.. hady is the Singapore Idol..hmm, but deep down inside i still prefers my Ultraman Dina, he can definately go far, with that intense eyes, and deep voice can always break into international market, for sure..not too sure for hady though, if Taufik is endorsing seven eleven, hey maybe Hady can do NTUC if all else fails...

Its the second day of fasting today, I've never felt so settled and at peace, is this the answer I've been looking for all this while? I've made a promise to myself to do my prayers more frequently ever since Ayah left us, I've not done much prayers for him which I truely regret. I must admit that im still hurting and I don't think I've let him go, I know I should. I really missed him so much sometimes, that i'd just cry myself to sleep. This is the time when his presence is really needed, memories of him at the dinner table, his antiques, his wicked sense of humour which i think I've inherited and also those dimples, I've got it from you cause mum doesn't do dimples..so many things has not been said and I hurt you big time Ayah, I regret hurting your feelings and I can't turn back time, how I wish I could and make amends. Allah loves you more..

I've been lost these two years without you Ayah, I still haven't master the skills of changing the light bulb that you taught me, I leave that to the boys..but you taught me to be this strong person that I am, I think I am but I'm not too sure sometimes..your determination, your no bullshit attitude and your bravery is something that I admired very much. You said that I'm stubborn, I think I got that from you just a bit, thanks Ayah for making me what I am today and for having you as my dad..I promise I'd try not to cry and I know you hated crybabies.. Al-Fatihah..

Desperado ... you better let somebody love you...

God, that song is in my mind.. after watching Hady on Singapore Idol im smitten.Preferred Jonathan actually cause he looked like Ultraman Dina, but Hady hes my man. Just finished chatting with Caitlin, glad that she is ok, nicely settled in NYC, good for you girlfriend. I promise to keep enough money to come visit, I know i said that when you were in Sydney but I try i try i try..

The Big Apple seems so far but i would love to go there one day, do something different something adventurous. Someday when im old i can look back and say hey i did tat all by myself..

For now let me just enjoy my dessssppperaaadddo...

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late

Moving on with life...

I've got a job offer today, my well meaning friend, email me with 'Rina are you ready to move on... there's an opening for a PA position in so & so Agency, you want it???' pays well.. hmm not a bad idea, with that kind of money i can definately afford a decent car that I've always wanted, not that I have the license yet, but soon i will.. PA, personal assistant, kinda my cup of tea, but judging from the job that I've been doing it put multi-tasking to a whole new dimension altogether, currently I'm a account coordinator-cum-account executive cum-stand-in when account manager went on leave-cum-travel councilor-cum-pakaliaueverything.

You work in advertising not wanting to do something when you are asked will make you look non-proactive, meaning you are doomed, not a team player. Account servicing is all about proactiveness, no work to do ask around, be active be helpful. be stupid do things that others dont want to do is being proactive.. now it seems like stupid but hey when you are young and starting out with this passion in you, all that didn't matter, in fact that is my mantra.. do it for the passion.. but now 10 years down the road, it seems rather stupid and im worth much more that all this.. Seen it all done it all.. Hmm PA doesn't sound like a bad choice either..well i think age has something to do with it too. Give myself 10 more years make enough money and leave when you are at your height. 40 and still in advertising?? something must be very wrong, but if you are a PA that's a different ball game altogether..

I was sprucing up my CV during office hours, well it's something that I just had to do, the Client called up.. Gosh THE CLIENT...
Client: hey did you receive my boss email, there's some changes to the DI (digital imaging)
Me standing in for account manager who is on leave: Sorry, but wat changes??
Client: you never receive the email ah?
MSIFAMWIOL: No
Client: got lah maybe you not on cc, let me email you
MSIFAMWIOL: ok.
Client: eh u dont know ah, the man standing beside the piano very fake lah, can tone down or not?? blend in with the background
MSIFAMWIOL: I've not receive the email and im only following up today so let me see your boss comments. How about the rest of the images? Is it ok?
Client: the rest is fine, you go do the man first ok, tone down..

So me being proactive and passionate about the job, went downstairs all happy that THE CLIENT finally approved the images, sashayed back to my seat, was about to put my fingers on the keyboard and like 2secs the phone rang.. guess who?...

Client: eh looking at the images again ah, the screen not seated on the phone lah.. how many times must you guys do these images and not get it right.. blah blah blah.. I thought you just said 2 secs ago that it is approved now you saying that it is not right...make up your bloody mind..im just so tired... Now PA sounds REALLY good..

Im keeping my options open so open that its just bouncing off the wall in openness... I can imagine myself walking down Taka with my Kate Spade tote bag, going into Tods and admiring that wonderful wonderful bags and actually buying them on my platinum card..then go across the street to Jimmy Choo's and getting 2 or maybe 3 pairs of that fabulous slings, on my platinum card again..hmm..not a bad idea at all..Suddenly my world looks rosy again.. the sky cleared up the sun shining down on me, bright and sunny and warm..

(Sun still shining and warm)...Anyways... me and nofa had a bet today, its the ultimate YES or NO, both of us picked 'NO' but someone has to pick 'YES' right, so the best is to throw the scissors,paper, stone, hah, three strikes and I won! I got the NO so the deadline is 15Nov2006, at 5pm both our handphone will beep as reminder of who is the winner or the sore loser.. I can't tell what the bet is cause it's kind of a girl thing, no boy will ever know about it, ever...hint hint, i lost the other time, and he is happily married now, so it is about my love life...

My head is spinning now.. got to go to sleep, tommorrow is another day in paradise, paradise? i guess not.. my happy ending is playing on my internet radio.. that song is very meaningful to me mate.. you were all the things i thought i knew and thought we could be.. we were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it.. all this time u were pretending so much for my happy ending..