Live life to the fullest.. pick more daisies..

just would like to share this poem with you all. You not gonna believe it, received it from our our top guy via global mass-email. Love it, he is human after all..


I’d Pick More Daisies
By Nadine Stair, age 85

If I had my life to live over, I'd try to make more mistakes next time.

I would relax. I would limber up. I would be sillier than I have on this trip.

I would be crazier. I would be less hygienic.
I would take more chances, I would take more trips.
I would climb more mountains, swim more rivers, and watch more sunsets.
I would burn more gasoline.
I would eat more ice cream and less beans. I would have more actual troubles and fewer imaginary ones.
You see, I am one of those people who lives prophylactically and sensibly and sanely, hour after hour, day after day.
Oh, I have had my moments
And if I had it to do over again, I'd have more of them.
In fact, I'd try to have nothing else.
Just moments, one after another.
Instead of living so many years ahead each day.
I have been one of those people who never go anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a gargle, a raincoat,and a parachute.
If I had to do it over again, I would go places and do things.
I'd travel lighter than I have.
If I had my life to live over, I would start barefooted earlier in the spring
and stay that way later in the fall.
I would play hooky more.
I wouldn't make such good grades, except by accident.
I would ride on merry-go-rounds.
I'd pick more daisies!

from The Springs of Joy by Tasha Tudor

Welcome me back..

Gosh, i dont believe i had ignored you blog for the longest time, its been hmm, 2months since.. its the age thing again, I forgot that I had you dear blog.. anyways, here i am, too much things had happened this past few months. On the love frontier, I found him but lost him and gained a friend instead (we both agreed that if fate is on our side, we shall be together, but to me it's just wishful thinking,I'm not doubting you God, im doubting myself again.. sob sob), Love complication, matters of heart, dearie, what's new. I believe everything happened for a reason, so just keep moving on..

I was having a casual conversation with some friends on Sat morning at about 1.15am, over teh tarik & morning dew. We were talking about some financial things, when I said something like 'since im gonna be alone when im old, might as well save some money', my guy friend that i was talking to cut in, wat makes you so sure that you're gonna be alone, don't you think tat somewhere out there there is a guy who is exactly having the same sentiment as you but still continues looking for love? I was a tad bit silent after tat but managed to pull a 'yeah im sure' but then silence again..Well, he went on saying tat from his past experience that he had, you just need to continue looking for THe ONe and not give up.. Well, hmm im not too sure about tat, dear fren (coz he is dating my girlfrend now, so all that positive attitude makes me more hmm cloudily sick).. i just turn a potential husband material into 'friend' status, so don't tell me to look for someone else coz rite now im not in the mood to look for him anymore, i'm resigned to spinsterhood for the rest of this year..cheyy...

Anyways, looking at a sunnier side in my life, i passed my final theory driving test, and I'm pushing myself & trying hard to get that license by this year. I stopped for a year to do my house in KL..at least that is something that is within my control, and i know a driving license won't break my heart, unlike men.. haha..

its my party and i cry if i want to, cry if i want to..

yup, its my birthday today.. im a year older.. and i feel nothing, just plain old, not much achievement to be proud of, just a few more strands of white hair..anyways, im gonna enjoy what last hours i have of my birthday today, prices of flowers are expensive, restaurants are making a kill, which is utter rubbish so why even bother to go out today,might as well go home to my lovely family..last 2 months had been a hell of a joyride..good things that i havent had a chance to blog, Ms Zzzz has been buzzyyy...meaning I do have a life... Yesss a life.. wippeee...

aku bisa membuatmu jatuh cinta kepadaku meski...

kau tak cinta kepadaku... this song from dewa touches my heartstring.. im feeling sombre again, tomorrow im gonnna make a road trip to kl.. yes kl calling me again.. havent got time to blog, too much happenings in my life these past weeks.. met up with shienli for nasi padang and had a good catching up with her after she left for Canberra with her husband two years ago. I forgot to take some pixs together fortunately im meeting up with her again after i come back fm my kl trip..

This coming new year is full of uncertainties.. im not sure where my love life is heading.. i do look forward to meet new people after a year of hibernation. Gosh a year, it just seems like yesterday. im gonna be 33 in a few months time, and its unbelieveable. People around me are moving on but it seems like im just stuck here, nothing to look forward to .. am i just destined to be like this forever? Im not sure, i hope to change my non-existance love life but where do i start?... somebody give me a love compass pleeassee...

My week so far..

...has been a mixture of fortunate & unfortunate events..It was smooth sailling until yesterday, my msn was infected by some virus and im totally upset that I had to reinstall all my softwares. Today I made a gross mistake at work that I'm too embarassed to even mention, how can i be so incompetent!!! I've never made this kind of mistake my entire working life and there's no excuse for it. At that point all i can do is pray to Allah and asked for HIS guidance, emails was flying here and there between my boss and me, he even managed to lighten the situation by cracking some joke but to me its not funny. I told him yes, its an oversight from me and im gonna admit to client, at this point i just felt like a piece of stale curry puff kena langgar by lorry..I did the apologizing and my client accepted it and was also nice about it, I can't believe it! and I swear I can feel that Allah is there with me, protecting me. I thank YOU.

Towards the end of the day, I finally came to terms with what had happened and calmed myself that this is part and parcel of life, this is a blessing in disguise, everything happened for a reason and im only human who made mistake, nobody is perfect, im not for sure.

The best part to wind down this crazy week is another of my ad passed a tedious censorship process without any glitch, that is a bonus after a dramatic day. I am truly blessed.

Met up with Nofa today, we went to JL sale again and I did some serious shopping.. im happy..

When there's sorrow there's joy..

I believe this two elements are intertwined. I've never met anyone who hasn't experience neither.. I hate sorrow but I can't run away from it. From sorrow we learn to see joy and to live life. What is life without a little bit of sorrow, we can't be happy all the time. Although happiness is what we crave all our life.

For me the meaning of joy are the simple things in life, like leaving office after a hard day at work, that sure put a big smile on my face, waking up to a good cup of tea in the morning, the smiles of my love ones.. its nothing gigantic but it did make me happy.. sorrow is all around us but if we can see beyond the sorrow and pain I think there is a glimmer of hope and joy ..

I love this poem...

On Joy and Sorrow
Kahlil Gibran

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater thar sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

I just felt like in love...

I'm having my clingy week this week... Just bear with me peeps... I found this really lovely song from the group Naff.. its goes something like deep down inside me, i still believe youre The One.. sigh... have you ever had that feelings of lost love and a tinge of regret that it didnt work out.. i know if something is not meant to be yours its not meant to be yours, probably we all want to belong to someone, but then there are circumstances.. here's my list of clingy songs, not much but still painfully clingy enuf.. enjoy...



tis one about secret admirer cum I-can't-get-the guy-i-love & im secretly idolising you (aka stalker lah)..



tis one is about love tringle, i love you but i also love someone else.. kns..


tis one is just plain painful.. loved it..

Should she just walk away...

I'm sorry blog been ignoring you for the longest time ever..I need to pour my hearts out on a topic really close to my heart.. yes, love .. i love to talk about love...

Does true love really exist in real life? I mean we have seen countless movies about love stories, tragic ones, sad ones, happy ones and the list goes on.. but the question that I always asked myself does true love really exist?

Based on my limited love adventure, basically it revolves around the first 5secs i laid my eyes on him, its good enough to judge whether i can see myself with this guy or not, there are times when i wished the ground would just swallow me if my date turn up errm not up to my likings.. hehe..not too sure about man how they judge us woman. I've been a sucker for guys who suit my so called ideal pleasing- to- the- eyes standard, but i do cut them some slack lah, sometimes, of course. So pardon me if i sound too judgemental, some ugly guys are nice, well they have to right?, some good looking ones are sucky well they have all the right, wrong?.. so when does it strike a balance now, i dont have the answer now, i might have to ponder on that.

Speaking of which i've not had a single date this year, earlier this year I told myself i need a break from the dating scene after a many many disappointing ones last year, well i guess my break has been a bit too long, time to dust off that hi heels and start wearing proper make up Rina or else you'd just be the brinjal left on the shelves.. kanasai...here we go again...

I miss Perth already...

Its my game plan to blog every single day i was there last week but unfortunately i cant get any internet connection hence i have to blog now,,.. its a bit too late but better late than never..

I had a fantastic time downunder.. some say Perth is a boring city but not to me.. i had fallen in love with it, basically i need the serenity, the quiet and tranquil environment away from the hustle and noise of city like Singapore.. In the morning when i woke up i can actually hear the birds chirping, funny noises, according to San its probably Kookabura bird.. i instantly remembered the song we were force to sing in primary school... kookabura sits on the old gum tree merry merry king of the bush is he.. laugh kooka bura laugh, kooka bura gay your life must be.. something like tat...I wonder does gay means happy or gay as in homosexual,.. hmm i think its the latter.. hahaha

anyways back to Perth, San picked me up at the airport around 10pm on my first nite in Perth Fri, 31Aug, drove me straight to his home in Subiaco and shortly after we went clubbing at Club Amber, he brought with him his housemate, Ulrik Christensen from Denmark. He is a funny character, that irritates the shit out of San, poor darling... lucky he is quite cute if not he had him packing rite away, after clubbing we went to the Kings Park in the wee hours of the morning around 2 something.. it was freezing cold, i didnt expect it to be this chilly... the coldness got into my bones and to my entire body... i was shivering but was so excited to see the city skyline at nite.. it was about 14-16degree .. its a miracle that i didnt turn to ice.. hehe..

I will post some of my pix when i got time.. right now i got to get some sleep.. tomorrow im going to KL again.. got some secret mission there... will keep you posted... in the meantime.. wait for my next adventure in Perth aka Retirement Village...

Goodnite and sleep tight,

love

Life as you know it..

Recent events that happened to me and my family had made me realised that you can't take life for granted. I believe God has given us challenges for us to face so that after going through the rough patches, we will realise and learn from that experience and grow as an individual.

It is a test of our strength and our faith to HIM. When you think that you are miserable and the going is really tough, there are others who had to go through even tougher challenges.

My mum always pacify me that this is what real life is all about, no challenges no life.. I guess she is right, that simple mantra will be etched in my heart forever and i know i will grow stronger and stronger as the days goes by..

Some theory to ponder = positive parenting equates positive children.. hehehe plus i just found out that im a decendent of the Bugis pirates that invades south Malaysia during the 18th Century...hmm no wonder im such a brave soul.. muahahaha...