A Bad Day...

 今天整天都背着沉重的心情。。。。好多好多事情发生在一天里。。。怎么了？为什么就是不能提起勇气面对一切啊？怎么那么的胆小，不敢面对？是我自己一时冲动，没经过三番的考虑就决定答应人，总觉得应该负起这个责任，而不该推给其他人。。  the story is like this , i oso duno why , me and her (celina) my classmate suddenly will be together finding the shamparvee apartment, maybe before that we were impressed with the 3 bedroom one , which planning to share with karisha..but end up she dun wan...haihz ...so we get for the 2 room one without any deep consideration... i really duno y i will agree to stay with her .. i m not her bf , sometimes i duno y will find her a little bit annoying ...but yet i stil agree...how come?what has happened to me?now i have to be responsible for what i said and stay with her ... but few days before i  was thinking of letting Karisha take over my place. .. argh .. bloody hell indian ...say she most probably will take over my place and shift in with her ... and just nid to let her parents approve .. and after her parents approve .... guess what ... she jz screw me up till gai gai ... she said she dun wan ed... what the hell man .... what on earth is that　... the reason i got to knwo is because of her FD?losing rm800? and oso if shifted out ..den cant shift into hostel again..joke of the year man ... once u shift out ... nobody will feel like shift into hostel again .....and lose rm800?lol.. do u knw bank?ｗｏｎｔ　ｂｅ　ｌｏｓｉｎｇ　ｓｏ　ｍｕｃｈ　，　ｔｈｅ　ｉｎｔｅｒｅｓｔ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｆｏｌｌｏｗ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｔｅ　ｕ　ｔａｋｅ　ｏｕｔ　．．．ａｎｄ　ｙｅｔ　ｕ　ｄａｍｎ　ｒｉｃｈ　，　ｒｍ８００　ｆｏｒ　ｕ　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ　．．．　ｈａｉｈｚ　．．ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｈａｖｉｎｇ　weird mentality.....

recently, my classmate have been being close to me ...the another malaysian guy.. i wondering what is his aim or purpose?ｉｓ　ｉｔ　ｔｒｙｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｇｅｔ　ｔｏ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｆｒｅｎｓ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ　ｍｅ？or is it bcs wanna get sth frm me ...（ this shouldnt be) if not why?ｓｕｄｄｅｎｌｙ　ａ　ｌｉｔｔｌｅ　ｂｉｔ　ｃｌｏｓｅ　ｂｕｔ　ｙｅｔ　ａ　ｂｉｔ　ｆａｒ　ｆｒｏｍ　ｍｅ　．．　ｌｏｌ　．．．　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｗｅｉｒｄ　ｆｅｅｌｉｎｇ．．．　

ｇｏｓｈ．．．　ｉｓ　ｉｔ　ｂｃｓ　ｏｆ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ　ｐｒｏｂｌｅｍ?my personality problems .. sometimes i really felt that having my own sweet time , spending time in my room, chilling myself and everything is better ... really duno why i bcm less n less interact with my classmate?ｉｓ　ｉｔ　ｂｃｓ　ｄｉｆｆｅｒｅｎｔ　ｔｈｉｎｋｉｎｇ　？or just because i m isolating myself?　ｎｏｗａｄａｙｓ　，　ｉ　ｂｃｍ　ｌｅｓｓｅｒ　ｎ　ｌｅｓｓｅｒ　ｎ　ｌｅｓｓｅｒ　ｔａｌｋ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｃｌａｓｓｍａｔｅｓ　ａｎｙ　ｍｏｒｅ　，　ｓｏｍｅｔｉｍｅｓ　ｉ　ｆｅｌｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅｙ　ａｒｅ　ａｎｎｏｙｉｎｇ　．．．Ｗｈｙ?even one of my good fren , which we used to be together often in the 1st sem , now oso seperate apart.. why?ｍ　ｉ　ｂｅｉｎｇ　ｃｕｒｓｅｄ　ｏｒ　ｗａｔ？

Gosh ...one last thing...why i m cant study yet ... i nid someone to force me or wat?ｈａｉｈｚ　．．　ｎｏｗ　ｉ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｋｅｅｐ　ｏｎ　ｗａｓｔｉｎｇ　ｍｙ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｙｅｔ　．．．　ｏｎ　ｅｖｅｒｙｔｈｉｎｇ　ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　．．　ｓｏ　ｓａｄ　．．．．Ｄｏｔａ．．．．ｇｏｉｎ　ｔｏ　ｑｕｉｔ　．．．　ｈａｈａ

ａｎｙｗａｙ，　ｔｉｍｅ　ｐａｓｔ　ｓｏ　ｆａｓｔ　ｎｏｗ　．．．．　ｂｕｔ　ｔｏｏ　ｂａｄ　．．　ｐｉｔｙ　ｌｉｔｔｌｅ　ｍｅ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ａｌｏｎｅ　．．　ｓｏｍｅｔｉｍｅｓ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｆｅｌｔ　ｋｉｎｄａ　ｌｏｎｅｌｙ．．　ｈａｈａ　ｏｎｃｅ　ａｇａｉｎ　，　ｉ　ｈａｖｅ　ｎｏ　ｏｎｅ　ｔｏ　ｓａｙ　ｏｕｔ　ｗｈａｔ　ｉ　ｆｅｅｌ？　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｈａｒｄ　ｔｏ　ｆｉｎｄ　ｓｕｃｈ　ｆｒｅｎｓ　．．ｅｘｃｅｐｔ　ｄａｎｎｙ　．．　ｈａｈａ　．．ｔｏｄａｙ　ｈｅ　ｗａｓ　ｔｏｏ　ｔｉｒｅｄ　．．．　ｄａｍｎ　ｉｔ．．　ｗｈｅｎ　ｉ　ｗａｓ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｄｏｗｎ．．ｎｏｔ　ｍｕｃｈ　ｐｐｌ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｃａｒｅ　ｂｏｕｔ　ｍｅ．．．ｂｕｔ　ａｌｌ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　ｏｆ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ　ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ．．．．　ｈａｉｚｈ　．．．．　ｏｎｅ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｂａｄ　ｎｅｗｓ　．．．．．　Ｊｕｖｅ　ｎ　Ｉｎｔｅｒ　ａｒｅ　ｏｕｔ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅ　ＣＬ　．．．．ｈａｉｈｚ　．．．．ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｓａｄ　ｔｏ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｒｅｓｕｌｔｓ．．　ｂｕｔ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ａｃｃｅｐｔ　ｉｔ．．．．ＷＨＹ?why cant always go along our will, our thinking?？？ａｎｙｗａｙ，ｈｏｐｅ　ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｈｅｌｐ　ｍｅ　ｆｏｒ　ｅｖｙｔｈｉｎｇ　ｌａ　．．　ｈａｉｈｚ　

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