A Bad Day...

 今天整天都背着沉重的心情。。。。好多好多事情发生在一天里。。。怎么了？为什么就是不能提起勇气面对一切啊？怎么那么的胆小，不敢面对？是我自己一时冲动，没经过三番的考虑就决定答应人，总觉得应该负起这个责任，而不该推给其他人。。  the story is like this , i oso duno why , me and her (celina) my classmate suddenly will be together finding the shamparvee apartment, maybe before that we were impressed with the 3 bedroom one , which planning to share with karisha..but end up she dun wan...haihz ...so we get for the 2 room one without any deep consideration... i really duno y i will agree to stay with her .. i m not her bf , sometimes i duno y will find her a little bit annoying ...but yet i stil agree...how come?what has happened to me?now i have to be responsible for what i said and stay with her ... but few days before i  was thinking of letting Karisha take over my place. .. argh .. bloody hell indian ...say she most probably will take over my place and shift in with her ... and just nid to let her parents approve .. and after her parents approve .... guess what ... she jz screw me up till gai gai ... she said she dun wan ed... what the hell man .... what on earth is that　... the reason i got to knwo is because of her FD?losing rm800? and oso if shifted out ..den cant shift into hostel again..joke of the year man ... once u shift out ... nobody will feel like shift into hostel again .....and lose rm800?lol.. do u knw bank?ｗｏｎｔ　ｂｅ　ｌｏｓｉｎｇ　ｓｏ　ｍｕｃｈ　，　ｔｈｅ　ｉｎｔｅｒｅｓｔ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｆｏｌｌｏｗ　ｔｈｅ　ｄａｔｅ　ｕ　ｔａｋｅ　ｏｕｔ　．．．ａｎｄ　ｙｅｔ　ｕ　ｄａｍｎ　ｒｉｃｈ　，　ｒｍ８００　ｆｏｒ　ｕ　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ　．．．　ｈａｉｈｚ　．．ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｈａｖｉｎｇ　weird mentality.....

recently, my classmate have been being close to me ...the another malaysian guy.. i wondering what is his aim or purpose?ｉｓ　ｉｔ　ｔｒｙｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｇｅｔ　ｔｏ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｆｒｅｎｓ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ　ｍｅ？or is it bcs wanna get sth frm me ...（ this shouldnt be) if not why?ｓｕｄｄｅｎｌｙ　ａ　ｌｉｔｔｌｅ　ｂｉｔ　ｃｌｏｓｅ　ｂｕｔ　ｙｅｔ　ａ　ｂｉｔ　ｆａｒ　ｆｒｏｍ　ｍｅ　．．　ｌｏｌ　．．．　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｗｅｉｒｄ　ｆｅｅｌｉｎｇ．．．　

ｇｏｓｈ．．．　ｉｓ　ｉｔ　ｂｃｓ　ｏｆ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ　ｐｒｏｂｌｅｍ?my personality problems .. sometimes i really felt that having my own sweet time , spending time in my room, chilling myself and everything is better ... really duno why i bcm less n less interact with my classmate?ｉｓ　ｉｔ　ｂｃｓ　ｄｉｆｆｅｒｅｎｔ　ｔｈｉｎｋｉｎｇ　？or just because i m isolating myself?　ｎｏｗａｄａｙｓ　，　ｉ　ｂｃｍ　ｌｅｓｓｅｒ　ｎ　ｌｅｓｓｅｒ　ｎ　ｌｅｓｓｅｒ　ｔａｌｋ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｃｌａｓｓｍａｔｅｓ　ａｎｙ　ｍｏｒｅ　，　ｓｏｍｅｔｉｍｅｓ　ｉ　ｆｅｌｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｈｅｙ　ａｒｅ　ａｎｎｏｙｉｎｇ　．．．Ｗｈｙ?even one of my good fren , which we used to be together often in the 1st sem , now oso seperate apart.. why?ｍ　ｉ　ｂｅｉｎｇ　ｃｕｒｓｅｄ　ｏｒ　ｗａｔ？

Gosh ...one last thing...why i m cant study yet ... i nid someone to force me or wat?ｈａｉｈｚ　．．　ｎｏｗ　ｉ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｋｅｅｐ　ｏｎ　ｗａｓｔｉｎｇ　ｍｙ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｙｅｔ　．．．　ｏｎ　ｅｖｅｒｙｔｈｉｎｇ　ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　．．　ｓｏ　ｓａｄ　．．．．Ｄｏｔａ．．．．ｇｏｉｎ　ｔｏ　ｑｕｉｔ　．．．　ｈａｈａ

ａｎｙｗａｙ，　ｔｉｍｅ　ｐａｓｔ　ｓｏ　ｆａｓｔ　ｎｏｗ　．．．．　ｂｕｔ　ｔｏｏ　ｂａｄ　．．　ｐｉｔｙ　ｌｉｔｔｌｅ　ｍｅ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ａｌｏｎｅ　．．　ｓｏｍｅｔｉｍｅｓ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｆｅｌｔ　ｋｉｎｄａ　ｌｏｎｅｌｙ．．　ｈａｈａ　ｏｎｃｅ　ａｇａｉｎ　，　ｉ　ｈａｖｅ　ｎｏ　ｏｎｅ　ｔｏ　ｓａｙ　ｏｕｔ　ｗｈａｔ　ｉ　ｆｅｅｌ？　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｈａｒｄ　ｔｏ　ｆｉｎｄ　ｓｕｃｈ　ｆｒｅｎｓ　．．ｅｘｃｅｐｔ　ｄａｎｎｙ　．．　ｈａｈａ　．．ｔｏｄａｙ　ｈｅ　ｗａｓ　ｔｏｏ　ｔｉｒｅｄ　．．．　ｄａｍｎ　ｉｔ．．　ｗｈｅｎ　ｉ　ｗａｓ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｄｏｗｎ．．ｎｏｔ　ｍｕｃｈ　ｐｐｌ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｃａｒｅ　ｂｏｕｔ　ｍｅ．．．ｂｕｔ　ａｌｌ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　ｏｆ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ　ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ．．．．　ｈａｉｚｈ　．．．．　ｏｎｅ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｂａｄ　ｎｅｗｓ　．．．．．　Ｊｕｖｅ　ｎ　Ｉｎｔｅｒ　ａｒｅ　ｏｕｔ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅ　ＣＬ　．．．．ｈａｉｈｚ　．．．．ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｓａｄ　ｔｏ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｒｅｓｕｌｔｓ．．　ｂｕｔ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ａｃｃｅｐｔ　ｉｔ．．．．ＷＨＹ?why cant always go along our will, our thinking?？？ａｎｙｗａｙ，ｈｏｐｅ　ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｈｅｌｐ　ｍｅ　ｆｏｒ　ｅｖｙｔｈｉｎｇ　ｌａ　．．　ｈａｉｈｚ　

：）　ｓｍｉｌｅ　．．．．ｔｒｙ　

Post- Exam week

During the exam week ,hav been thinking of a lot of stuff n oso a lot of stuff occur during exam .. but sort of forgotten ... hehe .. but wat is learn from this time exam is never ever do the last minutes study ( screwed my exam this time ) and also stick n trust ur own notes... stick to a text book too... dun try to believe whatever person said that he / she didnt study for the exam , and end up he /she is the one who elites in the exam ....anyway ... these all r past ...let's look for future  n learn to  be a study nerd... haihz... is this really a life of a dentistry? or is it because in order to b  success, u mz pay n suffer 1st ?先苦后甜?

There are few problems to be sort n i really duno how to solve it , who can help me ? i really duno how to make decision on these stuff ... gosh ... even worse is i duno how to advise ppl to make the right choice , really hope she can do the right choice...i will support u which ever road u hav taken .... 

now i hav done my 2nd seasonal , 1 month + 2 weeks i will be taking my 3rd seasonal , which i really hope i can score well in it ....in this few days , ther are lots things i have to sort out .... the 1st one is my home stay...now i really duno who to stay with ,  n wher to stay...one of my classmate , she wanna shift out wif me, staying in the same apartment , but i really duno is it really ok or not .... haihz .....once we shift out , i think many ppl will misunderstand evything ( now many ppl ed misunderstand though) , but is really good to move out wif her since she can cook , can ask her bout study or watever stuff ....n another group is they r good, but the most i just can stay with them for a year , den nx year how? what if i cant get good roomate?  haha... but haihz .. i really duno how .... headache ...if not i shift to a single room , but i scare bored or watever la .....how? what i should do. ..? 

the 2nd thing i thinking is the bike stuff ....gosh...my bike is really fine now , but why m i keep on finding a better one ?why cant i be satisfy with what i have? 

3rd thing ar ... jz a small matter ... eventhough evyday i will make myself busy busy busy .. but kinda bored of being lonely leh? why cant God let me get my mrs.right ?why is it most of my frens ed occupied? lol .. being lonely is not wrong ,but i dun wan to be lonely la ... not only me worrying bout that,  my another fren too ..haha ...... haihz .......mayb i m 注定 to b a single ? TT 

how to solve these all stuff? 

oh ya now complain bout GOA trips ...

I TELL U HOW THOSE  猪脑的RI bloood de NRI organize the trip 

1. if u organize a thing,  u have to prepare everything for us right, not call me to book the train ticket and hotel myself, if like tis i go myself better .....

2. i told them to go a week later after exam , u knw what their response? all face dark like a charcoal n thought i said that just bcs for a gal... and u knw what is the outcome of goin day afta exam , they enjoyed staying at GOA hotel for a day without doing anything .... jz went to beach at the 2nd day, while us , those badan kuat mia , stil can play for two days ..

3. organizer shd hav tell us wher to play n watevr , sumore nid i found out myself. .. SUX my balls better ,, sorry for being rude .. but really cant endure it ... n yet give me wrong info ....told me scooter was 200 rps , instead , it is 350 per day ... n the period is from morning til nitez , not 24 hours .....

4. learn nvr ever go with them ... do it myself better ... trust myself better .... 

This is inside the train, my god , my butt was pain like hell after suffering for 5 hours ++ ...the cushion was hard like a stone ... lol. .. this is india train, consider 2nd good after the A/C one 

Guess what , the beer here is damn cheap , less than rm2 for a bottle , can u believe it ... hahaha , cheaper than drinking water 

Seafood platter, famous in goa , since fish are hard to find in india

Whole gang who went goa ...end up seperate into two groups....

omg omg omg , can u believe it , ther is a opener written my name ,so happy that the shopkeeper gave me for free :P the best gift in Goa

during my shopping , i saw a mobile puma store... lol 

anyway , i did a lot of shopping .. haha can u guys believe , i bought like rm100 stuff from GOA ....damn it .....jz bcs the stuff there is damn cheap ... .

The goa beach 

sun set

sunset2 

sunset 3

One last dinner in goa ,haha i spent like rm30 for it , damn cheap though , a long leman tea cocktail , seafood soup n platter shared  , seafood pasta

d restaurant i took 

Foootballl match , Liv draw wif MC 

This is the monkey i bought in Goa ,200rps only , made of coconut lol
This is the fish i just bought. . felt it is sick ..tat's y i bought it ....nice active like  a dragon but bad thing is it like to eat mosquito only ..sooooo chooosey TT

The end of goa journey ,again suffer in train ... so so busuk ... haihz 

Fish and the monkey 

Guys this is the culture found in india ....stim..

ExaM FeveR again

Less than 2 weeks time , my second seasonal exam will be conduct sooon ... gosh , now i just realise that i have insufficient time to cover everything of the exam portion .. so worry bout it ..everyday burning the midnitez oil ...drinking tea n coffee....and trying the best to sit on the chair to study .... and bla bla bla ... i wonder is the effort enough to pass for my exam...TT .. .the stuff need to memorize , read through , understand is way too much ... sigh 

i even tried to sleep on the chair while studying during night time ... HOW ? why i keep on failing to b confident in the exam , so fear of fail?  but i dun have the inspiration to study, is it bcs i m in overseas? or it is bcs i m really not suitable for this course? still doubt .now i still searching the feel , the inspiration for study ...why i losing confident on myself? TT..... besides that, there is a lot of stuff to worry either ... my health , shifting out , the bike ......now a days , felt that asthma is coming bac  to me again after it was treated during my child time ....and bsides that i kinda tired recently .. duno y... .TT 

besides that , everyday for lunch n dinnner .... i will b keep on thinking what should i eat ... gosh i really sick of the food here ....now still keep on finding way to shift out .....and the stupid bike ...is really a lesson for me that never be so impulsive .....haihz ...everything remain unsolve ba ? anyway .. hope everything can be covered by the laugh or smile on my face :) 

smile ......

pre---Chinese New Year

after reading a lot several articles on football, i wondering what so big n great about money ... one of the EPL team , Manchester city offered a huge grand price tag for KAKA for coming to the club.. but end up he rejected bcs was touch by his fans ... lol ...tis show us that money is not everyithng .. however , it do save u when u r in trouble .. DAmn ... i hav to bribe the security of my hostel so that i can go into my hostel . since i went to my frens house jz now ...TT ....anyway , not much complain ,since ed tell out ... gosh .....the internet connection really slow...cant really tahan la .. bt at least better than the one in my hostel ... 

now the problems i facing or fearing the most is my study .... everyone so so so so hardwork studying like hell ... n oso vy vy serious on it ... if compare to last sem ...evyone nt that serious oso ... wonder y ... or just bcs myself over pressure? i hate to be the last n i dun wan to be the last too .... TT sigh and the things i studied, i will forget it very fast ... cant remember it welll ... duno y , trying my best now ...really takut for this time exam , duno how to express the feeling... n vy vy vy pressure leh ... nid sth to let me release pressure la ..... recently ...eventhough at nitez i was strenthen or prolong my awaken time by having coffein or drinking coffee , but it seems like not really works on me .. i still keep on slipy .. yawning .. tiring ... alll of these are synptoms of over exhausted?  i hope not .....bsides that , whenever i wanna take a short nap at nitez ,   i might jz end up fall into whole night slip...the funny part is i tried to set  a lot of alarm bt stil not functioning well too TT so scare how m i goin to sit for the seasonal two ... TT dun care la ... Chinese new year ... hope can get good blessing n everything la esp in my exam ....through the past week... i have learnt a lot of lesson.......lol....isit good to jealous about someone?slipy d. ... lol ...good nitez 

NEW YEAR NEW JOURNEY 

GuiLTiNess N CHANGED

I think i had done the worst stuff in my life ..Bro if u read my blog .. pls dun tell mom or dad...... i lied to them that i didnt buy that bike bt actually i bought it ....i really cant endure it... i have been wasting my time, few days for searching a good bike .i said that if i failed to find a good bike on today, i wont b finding bike until my uni end ... bcs i knew afta tat i will b very busy with all the bucking up works or study ......AND end up, i bought it .....actually ,if nt finding bike, i was gonna used those time for my sliping so that i can burn midnitez oil bt end up i fail jor ...n i failed to study for that few days..... i duno why, once i eager to owe it , i really hope to buy it ... if not i wont be comfortable with myself ...I M REALLY SORRY MOM and DAD ... i really feel guilty by buying it ...eventhough those money was cut from my daily expenses ...i really scare that one day the bike will spoil, or nid to repair lots of stuff  or even worse if i meet accident .... since i nt really know how to ride it....now i getting better since my fren taught me ...I m sorry ... in malaysia , they not even allow me to sit on frens bike bt now ... i bought the bike n i ride on it ... OMG , even worse.... now i m really guilty with what i had done ...actually i think i had impulsive decision ,bcs i straight buy that bike once i inspected n tested it for 1 hours ++++ .....i really hope it is a good n well bike....it only 11K km  for the mileage n oso kinda new....is year 2006... sigh .. the only thing i can do is just pray hard that the bike n i will be safe for this five years 

and oso get a good reason so that can cover it or bluff over them :( 

p/s:  actually now they a little  bit agree me to get the bike , but is not from the 2nd hand dealer, they scare that they will bluff us .... my parents wan me to get it from my senior .. but wait until they planning to sell ... i m bz studying ed .. n yet ...most of their bike was 02 /03  bikes ... is kinda old for me ....n yet is modified :( ..... sorry for havin such impulsive decision .. haihz .. .now i have to live in a guilty n fear life ..... TT

For my study .. i m really left behind a lot d ... i think i nid to start study study study study worse than a study nerd ed .... i havent revise any material that were taught after exam b4 my long vacation was on .... i really know nothing bout those stuff .....gosh ... even everyday i have to cope with the latest lecture n study material , i hav nt enough time d ... i scare to fail ... i dun wan to fail .... i dun wan to be in the border line oso .. for the las exam ... almost alll  subjects i were in the border line....even now .. during lecture class , some of the stuff taught i not really can understand either ... getting more n more n more n more nervous now ... n oso sad?anyway... coffein coffein coffein ......evyday havin it now as to help on midnitez? lol..... depress.....haihz .....y hav to study dentistry ..... such a hard subject 

I think my personal characteristic hav turned bad after i came to here ....jz these few days .. i bluff my parents of the bike .... i even feeel like go n hav retalliate with the H.O.D of the dental anatomy department and oso .... i eventually smoked 1 cigarrate today ... n tat's all .... no more havin it ed ba ...... i wondering what so good bout smoking? release stress n evything? not really effective on me ...but why is it many ppl smoke/ the reason they said is bcs of exam exam exam .....sigh ......haha ... usually ppl jz will meet obstruction when in secodary school or college ... but in UNI shd b kinda smooth though ... bt y m i havin so many problems? 

after i came bac from holiday .... i realised that some of my classmate .. has changed their atttitude ... really bcm kinda scary though...stil rmb that las sem he not even bother to mix with us or jz reject us for any invitation.. but now ... he eventually volunteer to join us ... even wanna join for dinner ... what the hell he plot , usurp? lol ... no idea ....i really hard to face such ppl ... isit bcs i m too kind ? or wat? i duno .... since himself creating a wall among our relationship... y now suddenly wanna join us .. kinda weird right? n even now ... my classmate 's gang .. they start forming their small gang d ...aikz ...evything change ....luckily i  still havin my own gang = stick to myself .....carefree...i really wish i hav frens like Chor beng or Danny here la ... haihz .....maybe i jz too chooosey .. is time for me to change ba .... .besides that ... danny ... i felt he change oso .. he used to craps wif me a lots ... or either jz tell me his stuff or advise me ? bt now .. duno .. jz felt he change jor ...duno la .... haihz .. evyone change or jz myself change? or bcs cant take care myself? or nobody control me ? wont b that ba ... TT no idea .....really wish to bac to Malaysia now......lol.......haihz .....anyway ...d only thing tat i can tell myself is jz dun give up evything .....continue wif ur life happily ..........gua ? 

STuDY MoDe STarts..........

Finallly I have started my study mode...however , it wasnt smooth for past few days because i was busy finding bike with my frens...n kinda tired at nitez .. i wondering why ....gosh .... everytime i tried to sleep for like half an hour or few minutes. .. end up i will sleep for whole night .... my alarm is not working on me ..aikz ... hope somebody can wake me up, bt during that time , most of the pppl will fall sleep..lol..... TT .... tat's y i wasnt smooth at all ...oh ya , mention about bike ... lol ... now i jz know how to ride, but stilll don't know how to change the freaking gear .. .it is some sort like manual car .. but kinda hard though.... TT....However , following monday will be the last day for searching the bike...If I really fail to do it, i will just wait until i finish my freaking exam .. OMG , my exam is just less than a month now .... Tis is the 2nd week i stayed in Manipal... Guess what ....Last thurs n today was the best day i had in manipal ...Las thurs was off of the journey of searching bike but.... i went for basketball at nitez ..THIS is the best game i had in the past two weeks....defeating those arrogant ppl ..and oso played until my leg get cramped ....lol.....actually kinda hope to join college team now .. but nah... impossible for me ...since there are so much ppl who r greater than me thousand times... i mean those american seniors ... lol ....anyway ....playing basketbal  was one of the best stuff i could do to chill up myself ? haha...and today i went to BLUES after  a deep consideration bcs i was 1st thought to study .. bt nah ... the temptation really hard to resist though.... wasnt drunk n was kena cheated to buy my senior a drink ..argh .... so so innocent ....to the SURPRISE ... today was the 1st time i saw CHINESE in the BLUES ...they were from another campus ... n they were actually my Malaysian Senior ...lol ...cant believe that ... take 2 hours journey all the way here ....weird ? nah who cares ....

Tis is the las time i goin for CLUB bcs my exam exam exam ... lol 

Let's talk bout the bad things ... GOsh .. my classmate esp some of the guys have been acting like a primary or kindergarten small little kids ..they were talking in class like nobody business eventhough lecturer was having their lecture.... they keep on making weird noise or murmuring.. i wonder why they did that? just to capture our attention ?or for fun ?or wanna being screwed by the lecturer ... guys .. my classmates already having a very bad reputation in each department, most of the lecturers not really enjoy teaching my class .... just bcs of those silly acts ....Even myself oso feel that they are quite annoying ....they are studying the dentistry course, what the hell they stilll wanna act like a kids ....as a pre- professional, u have to act like a professional, not a small kids .. nobody wil respect u nor care u ..then what's the point of studying dentistry? hope they can change their attitude ..if not really hope to curse them so that they can retain in 1st year ....

lol .. actually i wondering why is it government giving those scholars so much money...i mean their monthly allowance ...damn ... they don't know how to save it though..... most of the malaysian has bought the motor or bike n modified it ....walau ...wat a waste right? lol ... but i might b doing it since kinda nice ...this is not the main point ... the main one is they like to buy anything without deep consideration or second thought ...they can jz buy watever they like .... is it bcs i m a bit bit old modern? or still in Stone age .. for me , to get a bike , at least i hav to check it welll welll n oso compare with the other shop b4 find it ....n then negotiate the price .. lol .....bt for some ppl .. they jz straight buy eventhough is expensive ...or wat....lol . they r the one who spoil the market ... TT 

lol....recently india is having strawberry season ..i bought it n i kept them in my room ... end up , on the other day , most of the strawberry had bcm rotten ... haihz ... waste my rm4 lol ... recently i m havin fruit festival, my room mz hav at least one fruits evryday now .. duno y? lol .. will change it tml .. i mena the atttitdue ... 

continue to update more ba soon or later :P 

Disorganize BLOG : p

This is what i did on the sunday after getting it for some times ... lol ......took around half an hour to do it .... lol ......actually realised that afta learning dentistry .. my handwork bcm not bad ? lol ....cant believe that i can do it right? the 1st one i did was together with my bro...

 During the half way of changing it's cloth 

good bye to my "Ex" lol , it was scratched n a little bit damaged....anyway , i still keep it with me... was my 1st laptop skin bought with my brother lol....

This is my 1st time cooking the barli + green beans successfully.... but i cant finish the beans ... jz manage to drink the soup .. i cooked it at nitez n thought of havin it as my dinner bt end up i failed jor..instead of that , was having dinner in my frens house while watching MU vs Chelsea ..cant believe that Chelsea kena till gai gai ..1st time .. lol..Now i really wanna keep fit leh ..my tummy is getting bigger d .. haihz ... sad sad ....i still remember the 1st time i cooked it in my room las few days ago spilled all over my bed bcs i didnt take care of it well .... the soup SPILLLED my bed and the whole induction cooker... aikz ....luckily ther are no ants .....haihz ... jz imagine how bored is my life in manipal without studying ...

That was sat nitez ....was celebrating my frens 18th birthday .... aikz ,was a little bit fed up with them due to their slowliness n disorganization ... haihz .... such a long story ... initially jz plan to hav a dinner together n oso bought the "SNOW spray" to celebrate the past birthday .. bt suddenly , Karisha ( the one who suggest ) suddenly went to get the candle , omg .. guess wat ... 1 candle cost roughly around rm0.80.. how expensive is that .. n she bought 20 ...OMG ... really waste of money ... bt is ok since we are sharing ... however , actually the dinner was plan to b on 7.30 ... out of my expectation that most of the foreigners were actually ON TIME ... usually they will b 15 to half an hour late ... really surprise me ...AND GUESS what . the organiser herself n another one was late ... n make evyone waiting ... OMG ...y cant be everyone be punctual ? anyway this still a small matter ... the worst is since she changing the plan .. she nt even tell or txt me ... how on earth i will know wat i shd do..gosh .... bt luckily i still manage to prepare in time wif everyone helps and oso rush like hell... if nt .. she wil b the one who spoil the plan...OH god ... afta the celebration ... we were suppose to go clubbing to chill for the one last nitez b4 entering study mode.. i was so looking forward for it bcs really feel like getting drunk so that can forget all the unhappiness , emo-ness and everything..... lol ... end up ... some of them suddenly jz said dun hav the mood or watever... .end up ....PLAN CANCEL ...lol .....from sad turned into worse....aikz aikz ....y cant they b firm with decision ....anyway ... i almost get used to those negative attitudes d ....what can i do? jz endure ..... 

For the sunday.... i woke up early morning around 10 sth since i cant continue sleep d ... duno y.....n i had my lunch on 2pm bcs waiting fren to finish his practical record boooks .. gosh ....anyway had a nice meal...and afta meal.. i were told to beach at 7pm ....lol ..actually i kinda looking forward to it eventhough it sounds ridiculous in india ... end up....PLAN CANCELed again ... due to unknown reason ... TT .....for the past one week... i had been playing basketbal alone except last tues .. cant find any frens wanna play wif it ... aikz ........India Life.......eventhough hate to b ALONE ...bt...hav to learn to b solo ....is it dentist life are meant to be alone? Hope not on me.... we will c.... lol...hope spring coming soon....oh oh oh ..... i oso realised that some of my frens kinda selfish in everything ....jz my sixth sense la ...duno true or not  .....

aikz aikz ...computer kena virus pula... susah la ... but kinda lazy to kill it ....

TODAY is the first day i start my study ... can u believe it ... and i will try to study longer hours tomolo n days on.....bt is really hard to concentrate ..duno y...... 

In the morning .. once again ... i met the lecturer i hate the most ... who stop me for sitting my exam ........i cant even concentrate in her class ..... + + + + + i was stomachache in the morning ..most probably is bcs of  INDIA food .....u will get diarrhea anytime anywhere ...regarding to the food ...where and what to have for lunch n dinnner is the most headache stuff .....really sick of the food here .......and ya ....i almost fell asleep in the class ,trying hard to open my eyes tat time ...TT 

i wondering why recently i not really like to talk in class d .. .is it a good sign ? 

OPs ... the following picture is some creepy picture .... which i curi curi taken in the anatomy practical hall .. showing the facial nerve ,artery n everything with my beloved OMNIA .. haha ...BE prepared to c it ... :)

Sat pt-2

Smoke ,ciggarette ....what the fun of having it? why is it many ppl using it .. is it just because of acting cool or just smoke for the sake of smoke? i have no idea .....lol... sat night was boring n duno how to describe it.. suddenly miss CHINESE > MANDARIN very much .... lol, maybe is because i less using mandarin .. i not even can talk in my class , no one will understand about it ...i duno y ... sometimes i really being emo in here , duno y ....today i was planning to be drunk or even throw out , but nah ...fail again .... cause everyone was tired n no mood to go ...so do I , i nt really like the clubs here .... haihz .. i miss those bac home but not here .....actually sometimes i reallly don't know how ppl organize stuff .... like today... one of my fren actually plan for the birthday celebration , but guess wat .... end up ... i m the one who is doing all the stuff ..set up n oso think of how to do it ... she jz give idea.. end up i have to do it without telling me anything ... so irresponsible .... maybe i get used to hav everything in fast pace ? lol ... no idea ........anyway ....today is not my day , hoping for tomolo room party .... cheeese , chocolate , wine ..... n watever la ...tat's all for tonitez .... really cant bother bout the unfairness or either suffering life here ba .....jz trying to be myself back ... i thought myself was back , but actually not .... lol .. sorry for emo-ing in blog ... Y is it everyone can complain stuff to me ... but i cant complain to them ? no idea ....lol ... thinking of having private internet connection ,but will see how when everyone is bac ..

SaT.....

I have been leaving my lovely home for a week ed.....however, schools start but i still can't manage to get the study moood yet .... lol ... i wonder when can i get back..lol ..human are really weird ,i stilll remember that i swear i will study and be a nerd once i reach manipal last time due to bad results... however.....until now i still cant make it....hours by hours ..day by day... when can I have the spirit back? We willl see ......

OMG omg omg ..... M i acting weird or the other people is acting weird.... i wondering y i m the only one who keep having the intention of playing basketball during every evening...no no ,should be all the time.... none of my frens eager to play either ... y? lol ..actually not none of my frens .. just bcs i hav vy vy few frens that play basketbal .... :( sick of the life here...everyday stuck in my "lovely" room doing nothing ....Besides that , i did slept a lot these few days ....really have not much stuff to do though... aikz....the only things that can pass the time is to study for exam ... lol .... i failed my dental anatomy .. just because i was late to the Exam ....:( the freaking cold blooded bastard Head of department was not allow me for taking the exam eventhough i willingly to sit the exam with lesser time.... i gave her the reasonable explaination that i had food poisoning on the night before n yet my face looks pale due to RUN RUN RUN all the way....End up, she said : sorry , i cant allow you to sit the exam because u were late .... i rmb that forever ...anyway .. today i was attending her lecturer in the early morning , can't pay much attention bcs of that stuff ....grrr....This is one of the toughest paper n i studied that like a mad cow for that subject, end up i cant sit for it ... what on earth is that .... TT anyway , many ppl failed that paper thou.....

For the practical exam of Dental anatomy , there is also some SCANDALISM ... no la .. actually is unfairness there.. .i wondering what happen to my exam carving tooth .. i was confident that i can get high marks in it ... bt out of my  expectation...i failed .... n 90%  of the foreigner fails.. what the hell is this .... n oh ya... we foreigner are good in hand work though ...i wonder what the hell is this ... anyway ... will update more detail soon ....... 

QueSTions???

this is the third day i have been to class, but yet i hardly manage to pay attention in the classs n oso trying to revise in my room ... lol... is no revise at all... i nid to quit away all this bad stuff b4 i really die in exam again ....during tooth carving practical class today , some of us were completely fed up or frustrated with the marks we obtained for the toooth we carved during exam...most of us get 3 or 4 out of 10 !!! can u believe this ? i gt 4/10 , and the worst is celina .. she jz got 3/10..what on earth is that . she is consider one of the best carver in our class ...HOW THE head of Department JUDGE OUR carving? WTH,to our surprise , those who sux at carving obtain better marks than us ...as far as i know , one of my table member get 5/10 , which she supposed to be in the 1 or 2 marks category....even my ex-table teacher surprise with the marks ....OUCH .. my heart once again being hurt by the fucking college.... is it bcs of rasicm or FOREIGNERISM?or favourism appeared in this department n college? Why ther must be favourism ,can't we be treated equally? we are both human , but i just different in the skin color , race , nationality....anyway , i have accustom to it since i was small.... Besides that, NEW YEAR start  , n i have a NEW table teacher .. omg ...our ex table teacher which good at carving is no longer in our table ... how ? how r we goin to survive in MOLAR tooth? ......Sigh .... to my surprise , even Head of department , Sunita is in our class....fuck off la..... haihz .......

Today is the third attempt to the basketbal sololy .... n i swear i dun wan go anymore in the evening unless i were told to go.....i really cant believe that the third time i went to the basketball, it was occupy by selfish ppl .... i wondering why cant we just share n play together instead of playing themself only ...this is the third time i met the same people occupied the baskebal court..thru this i can deduce that most of the medic field student are 自私 no matter is INDIAN TEMPE or Malaysian...tat time i really wish i hav a gang of frens so that we can CRASH them.. y cant i find someone which share almost all the same interest in my course?sigh...i was really damn sad n depress that's y i nid to go basketbal to release it ....the only time i can forget the any feeling and anyone is during basketball. Dentistry n Manipal sux ...Wilson sux ... 

Once i bac to india , my HP can rest more than me ......lol .. no longer having sms or calls .....is it a good sign or showing i m being isolated ? sigh .. wanna update myself with someone else oso fail ....what a pathetic life now ....anyway ... really wish my life can go smoothly ..n dun hope the almost similar scene from the song-silent  from Jay , occur in my life .....LIFe goes on......

2nD day in india ...

For the first day in india, i was managed to attend class in time eventhough my HP alarm wasnt functioning. .. i wondering why ..even today ....maybe there is some setting problem .. however , for the first day, to my surprise, there was only 20% ++ students attend the class.. oh gosh .. i wonder why i should come bac so early , if not i will stay at home ,enjoying my extended holiday .. the class not even teach officially , some of the lecture is revision class and Dental anatomy classs was canceled ....Sigh , anyway , if i extended my holiday i would felt guilty either, maybe this is the malaysia KIA SU attitude ... .i was really not in mood for studying n attending the class, some thing was bothering my mind whole day :( wasnt in good mood for the whole day... especially my MSN is not functioning , i wondering why ... Tat's y hoping skype hav ppl to let me chit chat ...i was waiting for my parents to online yesterday , but fail to meet them .. As usual , in the evening, i Solo to the Basketbal court , hoping to play basketbal.. but it was occupied... both courts ..end up , i jz can go back my hostel sadly.......However, luckily i managed to play basketbal at night , from 1030 -12 pm ... felt i m a maniac right, play in the middle of night ? anyway , i did felt a little bit bit bit better afta playing the basketbal ...now i just realised one stuff ....if u cant get what u waiting for, u will be very down for sure ... TT

for today ,nothing much as usual... but during breakfast time , i took a cheese n egg bun .. OMG since when i m so haevy eating.. maybe is bcs JET Flight--- means times different... lol, this is what i learnt frm my classmate....

oh ya, what's make me more sad is undecisive for my meals .. ( lunch n dinner ) it's really headache when thinking of that especially when ur mood is not really good thou .... i know is sounds stupid , but argh , i jz duno what to eat ...for the past few days in india, i cant manage to finish my foood ...the food i taste disgust me , dun like it though .. tasteless...india really make me sick .... 

jz now evening, i went to try for basketbal again ... end up i fail to play it ...i m thinking , is it bcs my frens circle is too small? or either i m really bad until nobody likes me ? or i bad at communicate? or i m really annoying? which one is my characteristic..... all i wish to find some frens that share the same interest n oso can be mix up often ... but until now . i still cant get one in india....y? is it a form of punishment from GOD  for what i did in the past .... but what i did in the past? no idea thou .. .....sometimes really feel that my life really kinda empty .. but what to do ... this is the life of a dentist ba ....can i change the life of dentist to be interesting ?how how ?

...a new life has come , INdia ....

sigh ... hopefully this is the las few blog that will be thinking pessimistic....gosh ....i have been emo or depress days before i fly ..seriously i wondering why i still cant accept the fact that i m goin to india study again.. just 7 months, can i endure it? i really have to be tough since i have chosen the road..but however, goin bac to india seems like goin bac to hell for me.. TT , i really heavy hearted to leave important things in malaysia...i have done whatever i planned to do, but i still left some stuff undone or maybe fail to do it  ?i have to be patient, endure and do it...hope i can do it .... Night before i leave, i was really damn emo , depress especially when listen to the sad songs n .....however , i fail to stay up late bcs i was really tired? lack of slipness recently . i really hate myself that why i cant stay up whole night, watching anime while waiting.....on the other day, i woke up at 7sth n den slept bac due to  no moood to do anything...although i plan to have breakfast ... bt luckily my mom bought it for me , the white color wan tan mee... the traditional wan tan mee in BM...n then me n my bro bz doing the final packing stuff n oso get the PRE ang pow from my K-mom... gosh , this make me more reluctant to leave ,since whole holiday i came bac , i just meet her once ... that's NOT enough ... TT .....for the lunch , my bro n i were went to hav DUCK porridge , damn nice !! two of us ate half of duck n i oso ate the neck : p .... yam yam , when think of it, really happy .....OPs ... tat was almost time to go Penang , after bath , we rush to pacific for  a while , to buy fifa 09 n oso find my OMNIA casing ..wtf ...why i search whole PG stil cant get one ... .:( maybe i really fated to be unlucky ba ....haihz ....to my grieveness n sadnes...i went to QB for 10 mins only ...i really reluctant to leave PG .....ppl, places, food that make me really reluctant to fly away ......i felt like escaping from the airport :( haihz ... anyway , i really have to thanks to Sf n alison for coming sending me flight ...at least there r 2 ppl tat send me flight ....n my bro .....WHY i so fear to take picture with my bro , parents before i leave ?shy ... why?n oso hoping someone to send me bt fail to ask ?argh , i keep on think of doing it , but jz shy to say out .... TT ... WILSON = USELESS ......maybe........haihz .... dota can remake , but life ? can remake?  no way ....

maybe i m unlucky ba for that days .... lol , people say new year will have good luck , but me, new year have bad luck....lol ....chill chilll ......whole flight journey was safe though.....n duno la ... was really down ....no way to let me express it .... 

once i reach INdia , i jz realise i didnt hav my air tel SIM card n oso my network cable ......cant online n oso cant use HP ... omG ..... what on earth is tat ... luckily i manage to solve one of them n get to online ,another HP hav to wait for tml to try for my luck to duplicate the new sim card d .... to my surprise , there are china ppl who work here ... jz now was playing basketbal with them eventhough really tired .....i jz wanna find way to release my EMOTION ... TT 

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spent whole aftanoon to tidy up n unload my stuff .... 

90% done now ... 

Emo ....

......gosh........left less than 24 hours now ... how m i goin to passs it wisely? anyway to escape from goin bac to india? help me ... some body cure me ... i dun wanna leave my room , my house , my BM , my PG .....:( 

..................full of sadness................................................

New Year New Life?

Recently a bit addicted to blogging again , i wondering is it because i m goin to 'dead' soon? be pessimistic lol ... let's review n  c what i have done for las few days. First of all , the day before i went to genting , i had done the greatest mistake ever, that is dated someone for movie, but end up failed ...just get to watch the 2nd half part.. Is my fault though, but the one who caused my fault is bcs of the MAS office.. As usual , i like to estimate , and all i estimation was fail for that day .. first of all , i thougth the plan was meet her at 2 and then go to settle air ticket n go for movie .. but end up , bcs there is some changes , so danny n I were decided to settle the air ticket stuff n den meet her .. to my surprise,  there was slightly jam in the ferry ....just a little bit jam , but cause a lot of difficulty.. i was nt realy eager to ask danny jz to acc me til penang port n ask him bac . hence i asked him to place me in the MAs office n then go to gurney .... gosh ... .to my surprise , i estimated to finish the MAS stuff within half an hour  , bt end up .. i jz managed to finish it in 2 hours ... 1st of all , this is bcs the slowness of the stuff , and also the egoness of the manager? first,jz wondering, there r only 5 or 6 customer , but i wondering why i have to wait for roughly 2 hours to get my turn? eventhough they jz open 2 counter out of 10 , but yet , that wasnt the reason... i wondering why.. 2nd , i went to apply the extra weight from the MAS ,but y i cant go to meet the manager , instead have to ask the secretary to meet ... he is free thou, but y i cant meet? is it weird ....and much stuff to say yet .. jz kinda lazy now .... 

and bcs of that , i let her to wait for an hour ++ ... and jz managed to watch half of the movie ... reallly sorry , i really duno how to mend tis mistake.... but i make sure that i wont repeat it next time ..i knw that tis is the worst thing ever for a guy to treat a gal like tis .... :( other than that , tat day was smoooth until we were rush for the bus .. haha .... bcs we were not really sure for the location ....lol, is my fault thou cuz didnt manage to understand everything well .. all just depends on her ... ouch .....n i were con by the quiksilver bcs i thought that if i bought the perfume and some stuff , which is over rm200 , i will have a rm50 voucher ... but tis is nt true :( so sad ..

From what i realise is , who is my true frens , which one is not .. those who really willing to help u, accompany u and everything, is ur true frens ...frenship is one of the most important part in the life ...danny, ccb , hw , ks , sf ,cj and much more.. i knew them since las year, n sum even longer than a years... but what i feel is the warmth of the frenship ..

For the genting trip stuff , i have experience something good n oso something bad ?lol .. i have no idea with it , but have to clarify with it .... the bad things that i realise is i have not prepare enough for traveling ...such as medicine , waters....maybe those stuff i used to rely on others n yet i have not learn enough of medic knowledge? i should have prepare some medicine when go to such places, such as sth that can treat nauseaness, vomit and some other basic medicine ... so that wont panick striken when sth happen ...learnt an expereince ...aikz .....once happened , will never repeat again ..anyway , before tat were kinda enjoy playing those outdoor stuff..... 

everything gone well until afta sing K? aikz ,maybe i have done or said sth wrong or whatever, then after tat , felt much strange stuffs happenned or maybe just d illusion or brain is out of function...hope to clarify it soon....and i even felt like dying at nitez, maybe bcs i didnt get enough of caffein to energize myself .n hence i went to starbuck .. to my suprise, while waiting for the starbuck drinks ...i was asleep.. i thought of sitting on sofa while waiting for the drinks to arrrive , however ,the guy saw i was sliping n hence let me slept...thank god, jun qian called me , if not i wondering i will slip for how long? n bla bla bla... thanks for acc me for passing the new year countdown too, really apppreciate it lots lots lots lots :) n ccb , realy sorry didnt acc u celebrate new year count down .... guys .. i really thanks for the dinner just now .... i know i bit bit selfish n stubborn , but i just wanna c u guys one las time b4 i leave to india ...is my bad ... but really thanks for that ... ... continue after tomolo ...kinda emo again .. 

Time for me to emo again ..MOM , dad , bro , sister , my frens .....i really dun wanna go to india n study... i really dunno why, maybe i dun like the environment there and i dun like the study system ther ... but how ? what i should do? change course? change place or continue to study with it ... who can advise me ? seriously usually i dont have such feeling of escaping from studying and such sad , but everytime when thinking of leaving to india study, i will start emo again ... i really hope that i can be happy n chill of goin to study in overseas , but seems like fail for me .. :( how? what i can do now , is just using the time wisely..... n reduce my sleepness in malaysia ba ...sigh , i dun think anyone will understand this feeling ba ... .

n still have some personal emo stuff...way obstruction to go before leave malaysia .... 

lol ... 

anyway, no idea n clueless ... :) nitez n hope new year have new solutions .... haha ...