argument

oh ya. ...jz now oso suddenly argue wif my parents oso ... sigh....bcs of the DeLL ... bt is their fault thou .. .....

d3c1s1ons......

Tim3 Stop pls .. i really hate the time tick tock tick tock continue run away ,as the time in  malaysia bcm less n less n less ed .. i really dun wan  to leave my lovely home to sucky india .. gosh .. i really wish there is a time machine for me to control evything, during exam time , hope the time wil slow, time wil fly when in india , n time wil stop when i m in malaysia..gosh .. i really dun wish to go india .. eventhough this is my final decision .. study in india.. once again , to reitirate my cowardness ?thinking y i m studying in india instead of iMU ...jz bcs i m scare that i cant score well in imu n cant get into aussie to further my study sys... until now i stil dun hav the gut to study in IMU ,  i m tryin.. bt i cant .. .i think i equip all the quality , just dun hav the braveness n oso mayb the intelligent? clueless ... to be honest, studyin in india hav been increase my courageness for facing the death or injury ?sometimes i really thinking of instead of goin to india, i can jz go ahead n bang a car to meet an accident,den i can no nid to go india? or either jz hav war  in india or watever , so that can stop me from goin to india.. since i were born ,  i dun hav the mind of tat until now .. thinking of avoiding india... when i go to india, i think i will be fated to be single forever? lonely little dentist ba ... or wat so  ever...today i went for hair cutting n i was expecting ccb to call me during the journey, but end up .. mayb he forgot or watever, n i sms n remind him bt yet d same .. mayb i dun deserve the best frenship ?or the way i treat him is really cant deserve for that ? i have no idea at all....lol ..now  i have less true best frens left,ccb ,ks,  hun wei , danny,sc ... oh shit ...i even can count wif my silly fingers now..looks how failure m i ... i was shitty boring  n lonely for whole day ... went for hair cut n tat's all for today activity... the time stay in PG lesser , the more u hope to stay in home n enjoying d home cook.. i oso duno y ... i really home sick or mayb i not suitable for going ovaseas n study? 

argh... besides tat , i have realise some stuff .. u mz b able to do it before u can advise ppl .. bt the things is i can advise ppl to do tis do tat , but me myself , fail to do it at all ... to b optimistic ?but myself keep on pessimistic now ...why ?no idea, really hope tat i can restart my damn weird life n hav a normal life again? somebody please help me ... i really need someone to direct me to the correct way? furthermore, i oso discover one stuff...there r two type of laugh, one is laugh from ur true heart , another one is laugh when u think of laughing..is it a bit weird theory .. maybe it jz apply on me .. the 1st  type is whenever u laugh, u will release all the stress n wil be very happy after that , the 2nd one is jz laugh n hav no effect ,just like a normal laugh.. n wont chill u up ... n i think i m always having the 2nd one .. the surface laugh? laugh bcs u were thinking of laugh...maybe ...i have no idea thou......lol, now jz hope that i can enjoy my one las trip b4 i leave 

about the decision , i think i have been always doing the wrong decision for this year ... the 1st one is study dentistry in india , 2nd one is buying omnia  n so on ... stl have a lot bt lazy to mention it .. afta experiencing the decision , i jz regret on them , but wat to do ...gosh ....how can i change my india study? how how ?eventhough my mom asking me to imu , but i gutless...haihz 

after having omnia, i jz realise that , omnia wasnt as goood as wat i think , instead . it really sux... gosh.. d only good stuff is have big bigspace for me to keep stuff .. err... i hate the cable , the samsung widget which cant edit, gps which i duno how to decode it n bla bla bla bla .....since i ed hav  it as my birthday prezzie , i cant do anything beside hav to endure n use it ...

i have been learning a lot of endurance this year ... from my ex....frm my LOUSY  DECISIONS ... n wat so ever la ...

sigh , there is a conflict in myself thou, sometimes really dun hope ppl to read my blog , but sometimes i really hope to show......really confusing la ... gosh...someone pls help me to calm my mind off .. pls ......

afta thinking much about some stuff , u will fear to do it thou...thinking deeply , u will be choosing instead of risky or might hurts someone but might gain lots of advantage ...u will choose something less risky less hurting ppl  but suffering.. i wonder which one i shd go for it? shd go with wat THE ROAD NOT TAKEN preach ?.... sigh .....

anyway , do hope can enjoy the momment while stil able...

MOOooooooody ?? bad mood or jz bcs bad luck ?

is it weird that when u feel happy , u will have a lot of stuff to tell people , but when u feel sad or down, duno why willl suddenly so so so hav nothing to talk about ..mayb is bcs once u tell d ppl , u will show that u r weak ?u r useless? or dey might boring after listen to it? or just wan to show them ur good aspect instead of weak one ? ... i really duno how ? how to expressr ur emo-ness to people while u really nid someone to care bout u?while scare once u told, thy wil feel like u r really weakling ?is it d best is keep inside own heart n forget it soon or later or by being drunk...argh. for now , try to write in this blog ba ....at least can b better a bit....lol.....against my motto , tell evything to someone , dun keep inside own heart, very suffering.. haha .....really weird...really thanks her for sacrifying heer time to accompanying me for so long n so many days .. really thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks n appreciate a lot , hope that she wont feel unhappy or bored when hanging out wif me .. haha , kinda hope that can continue like tis , but haihz ..manipal....study .......jz can come bac twice in a year :( vy sad thou....haihz ..today really a a a black day for me, besides duno how to fully utilize my hp , realisng the omnia a bit bit weird for me,bcs nt really good at handling it yet .. arhg,the worst thing is the GPS nid to do a lot lot complicated setting to fix it n use it ..damn ... others r stil good ... oh ya , omnia make my hand pain too, especially my" injured " thumb.....ish ........

Besides that , i went  to my dad office to fix webcam , to my surprise , afta spendign 2 hours ++=we stil fail  to find out the reason y webcam cant b use... gosh .. i really nvr fail for so long b4.. n yet jz bcs of wiring prob...one good in computer (me) n one good in wiring ( my dad) , we stil fail.. why ? no idea , den afta tat i suggest to get a new webcam ,hencce i went to ezone to get one ... i asked him tocheck for me once, but afta i came bac home n trying to install it ... it fail .. ...y y y ? kena my bro n dad zat pula haihz ... really nlucky .. ah damn it .. jz now i was trying to fix the remote control but fail too ... dun hav enuf accesories to fix it .....

besde that , just now i went to buy char keoy tiao wif duck egg one ...hav to wait for like 45-1 hours to pack them .. gosh .. how come so crowded.. ;( n much more la .. kinda frustrated n bad moood today  + being kacau by the little kids ... , but i really duno how to release it .. telling ppl ?or wat way else ? 

...TT

BabY SitTing

He is having his dinner.....
showing innnocent face after his dinner
Disturbing people watching people ,

esp my dad

alamak, baby  also start 'cam whore-ing"

hahaha
He almost cried while 

watching xing guang da dao,

when someone is eliminated, forgotten who

Lol.. i wondering is that everyone experience before baby sitting? once a small little baby in ur house , everything will be looks different , even the environment, from a quiet pace can suddenly turn into noisy and joyful atmosphere.. sometimes kinda annoying though when u busy doing something... las week, i start my baby sitting job along my mom ,taking care my sis little kid....around 2 year, but damn naughty baby ... haha.....to my surprise ,i was once his biggest enemy, the ppl he hate the most, but suddenly all come to an end , and the 1st day he met me , he start prefer me more than my brother , which is some unusual stuff .. i wondering why? haha is it something stroke his mind? or he has forgotten all d past? haha ....i wish to ba . i used to bully him ...wakakaka 

OMG, taking care a baby shd b harder than study ba ,he is like a glu, like to stick to person ,especially my mom... thank god .. haha ;p he has a lot lot lot of characteristic that like a guarding dog.. everything he also eager to know , why u goin out ?goin out do what ... n bla bla bla .. beside that , cleaning car, picking dry leaves, cleaning house , picking stuff n whatever, he oso wanna involve in it .. such a kepo ppl .. but is good to have that attitude la .. so tat nx time can help me clean my room .. but i dn think this wil las long thou.. haha

He oso very tam chiakk .....wakaka, whenever u trying to eat something,  u have to wait until he sleep or either curi curi makan at  behind of him ...lol .. i stil rmb , while having dinner outside wif him, i even hav to sit on the other table to drink thewater .... lol .... :P kinda tired now, afta having some maniac schedule, afternoon badminton and evening basketbal ... lol wil update more soon .... 

oh ya .. he oso damn emotional, whenever watching people crying , he wil complain his eyes is hurt ,but actually is almost tear ... lol....he oso kinda like to watch  tv, eventhough he  he duno what the story about .... haha ... 70% like his mom ...;p

lol....fail?

Recently suddenly feel like writting blog since i m damn freee......nowadays .. i realise that the part time job people arent really understand much about their working field...for example, when i went to popular , the part time worker not even know wher is the location of a particular stuff .. n yet have to ask me .. OMG ..hard to believe it ... lol ...den yesterday i went to midland to find my spawn ,what i found is the worker not even understand about the Spawn...what is spawn ?he ask me ... lol .. what on earth is that .. he work in a toy figuring shop , but dont know about the stuff ... if there is stuff i wanna get it , i wont buy it from that shop since the service sux.. however .. tat day i was impressed by another toy figuring shop.. tat guy really a profession in anime stuff...japanese toy series ba ... he knows a lot n we chit chat a lot ... that guy summore wearing costume... i really wanna get some stuff from him , but i cant get the spawn i wan :( he didnt keep that stock .. so sad ... 

Felt so sad that my planning for clubbing fail again.. i wonder should i stop clubbing ? lol.. all d kaki seems like no more clubbing ed .. m i too old for it ed? haha ...no idea ...felt really sorry for my sucky arrangement oso .. thought can gather evyone together to go clubbing or yam cha.. but i felt that it will fail thou... no idea la .. if not the worst is go to watch midnitez movie la .. haihz ....m i really so bad in planning stuff? calling ppl? or either my relationship is not good enough ? lol hope is not the third one ... now i even thinking how would i pass my xmas eve n new year ...like las year ? go gurney? or go autocity? gosh .. i dun wanna go autocity, kinda bored thou....n JAM!!! no idea .. 

Lastly before i slip , what on earth is kingfisher doing? i have done all the complain but it seems like fail ... i really hope to extend my holiday :( argh.....but jz now my parents jz told me tat .. u really wan extend? ur result so bad ed ... haihz ...even make me more sad .. i really dun wanna go bac to the hell la ... u guys shd knw how i feel when i go india ba .. if go othr country ,maybe i wont be not so reluctant .. but india. ..... oh gosh ....hope i can withstand these 5  years .

even my bro said that,u shd be relieve because u r goin to india , not aussie ... if u going to aussie , u wont b enjoying oso .. more pressure there  and the food is like can see but cant enjoy ... somebody save me...

 

ComPlAin.....

haha .. another complain for today again ... gosh ...gosh gosh ... 一个人的行李..this song reminds me a lot of stuff man ... n let me feel lonely again .. haha... i really cant imagine that i went to penang alone n cant find any frens .. eventhough I m the one who insist to b alone ...the feel of being lonely is really suffering, when driving ,there is no one who talk with u . chit chat with u .. disturbing u .....especially when Jam ...damn it .. all i can do is jz facing the radio whole journey .. keep on changing the channel , there is nothing that please me thou.... is it bcs i cant stand bcoming lonely? have to be tough enough ..but i dont know i can ovacome that or not ...Where is my  true love? who is my true love? M i fated to be single whole life ? All i want is just find some true love but it seems like hard to get a true love from Malaysia ... can both of us withstand Long distant relationship? lol ... no idea ...everything is a question mark for me ba ....afta previous relationship, really dont know dare to have a long term relationship or either continue waiting for the India junior which seems to be condem? hopeless especially after the twinnning system for dentistry is available ... hahaha ... wilson u sux... =p this is what i can said ... just now went out supper or dinner with zen xern , jolin , xin cheer ...Besides different study region , course, the biggest different is that i m single and they are in relationship already... lol .... this make me feel more like a failure ba ....

haha love love love love love .....what is the feel of love i also not sure though

besides that , just now i went to Penang .. the traffic ther sux to the core and spoil my mood oso ... bcs of a car stop at the middle of penang bridge , end up  a damn long queue .... not only from go to penang , also when bac to bm ... lol both way oso .. so unlucky m i ...just now i pass through ferry terminal too , the penang one ...that time were just 4 something, but the queue is like long until the round about ther .. just imagine how jam is it ... why? is it ferry failure  ?lol no idea.. that time wasnt the balik rumah masa juga ... haihz 

World has change ..... 

Oh ya .. i just realise one thing ...after becoming single .. i have bcm more n more rich .. lol ..i can spend anything i wan ... buy anything i wish to ... lol .... especially the spawn n oso some other figure ... FINAL FANTAsy... now i have the money , but the stuff  i cant find it anymore ... TT

so sad la ... 

2008....G0N3

lol ...This year i have lost a lot of stuff ... wakakka .. my HP PDA .... !!!! freaking LCD screen , my Laptop keyboad ..maybe la ... , gf ... lol long distance relationship .. TIME !!!! ....

DilEmmma

It has been long time nvr blogging d ... now suddenly REblog due to a lot lot lot complain to go .... haihz .. first of all ...time past fast like hell now ... i wondering y is it the happy time usually past  faster than normal time.. since came bac from india, life has been wonderful, everyday eat slip play...hang out wif frens ... badminton , basketbal and much more ...i really hope the time will stop n thinking wanna prolong my holiday or not ...i really wish to prolong it, but i scare it will really affect my study as my study  in india wasnt as smoooth as the past and my exam is just one month away....and CNY is before my 2nd seasonal exam...mayb i m not capable of studying dentistry? dun have interest in it ? different environment? no idea..but the only thing i know is never give up ... n continue with it .... hope my decision is correct and good for my future ... Dilemma between Manipal n IMU really difficult... i do hope i can study in IMU , but the point is whether i can keep up with the IMU pace , study environmnet, cope with the pressure? i have to be top 20 in order to further my study in AuS ... not only be top 20, also have to reach the Aus requirement ...if fail , u wil have to trap in malaysia and might b only work for malaysia n not recognize worldwidely..However with my performance in india now , i think i will be last in IMU ...haihz .. Wilson wilson ... wake up wake up n go ahead for india dentistry ba... u r suit with it d ...eventhough india life really not suitable for me ..... haha .....Wilson u r fated to suffer now ...

Another thing to worry is might b single whole life ? haha , really funny when mention tat .. but i dunwan to be single whole life ....grrr......i wondering is there any chance that my junior will hav  female? lol ... seems like no more chance as the twinning programme for dentistry is out and india having a lot terrorist problem yet... haihz ..Far distance relationship? that one is it really work for everyone? haihz ... eventhough think of having it .. but i wonder is there any chance yet? no more ba , since more n more ppl r occupy? lol ..argh just crappng .... wilson u r fated to b single ba ...no idea la ... really scare ...Sometimes i felt that human r weird, when they have another half  , they will jealous those single bcs they have lots freedom ...but when u r single , u will be craving or desperate for love... haha .....to be frank, now i kinda think of having another half , to have someone to care bout u , sharing ur stuff, happiness or sadness , accompany u go out and shopping and bla bla bla ... of cuz , this cant be rush since kinda hard to find a perfect person .... actually , i oso cant differentiate or duno what is the feel of Loving a person? everytime miss her ? thinking of her? waiting her sms ? hang out wif her ? chatting with her? sharing the thought with her? caring her? lol ...but sometimes , there are some frens who will do those , including guy frens ... lol .. is that consider love ? hell no... should be consider as frenship? so what exactly is love ?so comfusing .. anyway , dun think of love , i dun think i can find people who love me eventhough i love her...hahaha .....bla bla bla ....crapz crapz crapz ....not understand what i m talking about ....

OMG ...start from tis week, i was bugging by my sister son .. OMG he really a monster but is a cute one .. haha ..... he is playful ,very stern ,assertive , firm with what he wan ...(keras kepala) ..n oso very kepo---busy body ... whatever stuff oso wanna know .. when he wan something, he wil keep on repeating until u fed up or frustrated and give him what he wan ... lol ... is really funny htough...but the weird thing is .. i stil not understand y he suddenly fond of me, last time he used to hate me a lot .. haha ...cuz i keep on bullying him....but now he is the one who bully me ... haihz ....

Afta the trip to kl ,i realised i m really outdated liao lo .... d wearing and everything .. haihz .. stil having one dillema ... i really love adicolor a lot lot lot lot .. but i stil thinking wanna get it or nt? if i get it would b a waste since i hav another nike sneaker which i bought few month before...argh n yet i nt really wear it when i m in india... haihz ..who can help me?  TT 

conclusion is .. i think i m really a failure ba ... haihz