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It's finally new year's eve! 

As of 29th december 2014, i'm finally posted back to ship. Boy, i do love the environment here better than school. At least, i've got a goal to work towards, along with guidance from the task book given to me. 

Best of luck to me for 2015! -crosses fingers-

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"I know this is what we do, this is our life. But it just seems like the world is moving so fast, right now things are changing so much."


Hey.
Head's not really in the game for the past 2 days. 
Don't know if i'm thinking too much, or i just have too much to think about. 

The boy has been busy working for the past 2 weeks, with only 1 rest day for him and a couple of half-days, which he usually heads back home to crash anyway. This whole thing started out when I entered my OJT phase, can't really blame it on him though. For myself, i have never stepped on a ship, heck, less working in one. Hence, the 2 months given was enough for me to adapt to their routines and the work load given. Coming from a person whose always working her whole life, no job in the world is too hard to handle. Even the toughest jobs out there still has to be done by someone anyway. 

I understand he has a job to be done, i really do. But i still can't stop myself from thinking this way, okay? The time spent together is getting dull as the days pass by. The sunday nights spent together don't feel the same way it used to be. The quality time together is being neglected, slowly. And look, who gives a shit right? How am i going pick things up again, because i don't want this to be another 2013 story turnout. Why do i always have visions of all the bad in the good? Why am i always looking at the worse when it comes to relationships? 

Has the past really made me what i am today..? I used to be so insensitive, and looking at me now, i'm the opposite of what i used to be. 

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes. But it's the only thing that i know. When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes. It's the only thing that makes us feel alive.


Sigh. So much to think about. Wish i could just take another trip to where ever. 

2014 wrapped up

6 more days till 2015.
2014 has been a roller coaster ride and it was the most exciting ride in my entire life. 
2013 was chaotic. Period. 

To sum up 2014

1. Graduated from SP (hey, i managed to graduate!)
2. Enlisted to the RSN
3. Met the love of my life
4. Took a month's trip to Tekong for BMT
5. Took part in NDP14 (rifle you bitches, not an umbrella)
6. More hardworking here compared to my times in SP
7. Went through 2 months of dog life (OJT)
8. Graduated from BSC1 4/13 (again, i managed to graduate!!!!!)
9. Have the love of my life witnessing all of my mini milestones :'>
10. Vacation with love (ALONE WITH HIM ONLY)


Maybe i'll elaborate more the next time. For now, it's resolution time! Managed to come up with a few good(& stupid) ones hehehe :D

1. Learn 3 full chinese songs within 9 months (bcuz they always sing chinese songs in KTV & i feel so left out)
2. Work worse than a dog for my WPL phase, in nicer terms, work hard & smart! 
3. Again, i'll try to be a better person. This comes in every year every month every day because i'm always striving be the best i can in every way
4. Not to hold grudges, even though i seldom do that, and put the past to where it should belong
5. Wanna start back on guitar again, haven't been playing for too damn long
6. Travel at the end of the year
7. Enjoy the year, through the good, the bad, the ugly
8. Shall not take cab for more than 20 times! (unless there's drinking involved)

There! That's what i've been making up for the past 1 week. 

In the meantime, Feliz Navidad and a very happy new year!