Nothing to do

I used to be the biggest fan of nothing to do....I could start out my day doing nothing, having nothing to do in the middle, and finish off doing nothing. This isn't to say I stayed home all day--no, no! I was gone all day and returned home exhausted, but I was on my own schedule.

Six weeks ago, I got a job and began taking my school seriously. Since that time, I have been quite a busy girl, and I like it! On Thursday last, I took my last summer final and today I have nothing to do! I don't like it. I have been up for a few hours, and those hours seem like forever. I have already eaten breakfast, gone to the pool, and I have a workout set up for 1:30. Busy, right? NOPE! What am I going to do with the rest of my day? I need kids.

Children and the school of life

I'm at a point in my life where I really want kids. Unfortunately, I'm at a point in my life where I am experiencing life in the role of a junior at ASU. While many girls my age are taking pictures and having adventures with their sweet babies, I am pondering over complex calculus problems. I'm not planning on using my degree, so why am I doing this? The conclusion I've come to is this: I like a challenge, and forcing myself to stick to something I can quit at any time is a challenge.

This ponderance begs a new question: Isn't having a raising children of God the most complex challenge known to women, and men for that matter? Why is it that I can't seem to wrap my head around having kids at this moment, even though this is what I crave? I really don't know...maybe I'll keep pondering on that one.