Salvation

You are my salvation and Your right hand upholds me.
When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I am.

Spring Cleaning

I just did a spring cleaning for my room and everything is neat and clean!

Just as Pastor Kong was sharing with the congregation about cleaning and scrubbing whatever that is not clean in our lives, I had the same train of thoughts this week too! Because of my room.. And like what Dr AR Bernard always says, the natural is always parallel to the spiritual.

Just like my room previously and our hearts. When things gets messy, there's a need to pack. Don't let it pile up so high that things are so messy and you don't know where to start cleaning and then you just leave it as it is.

Start cleaning now, one at a time. For your room and your heart..

Habits are formed

I like to caps HI (NAME)!!:D in my messages these days. I wonder why! It feels like I'm calling out to their name loud and hyperly! HAHAHA.
Oh well, it's kinda cool for now. HAHAHA.

AND I LOVE ITUNES.
I downloaded lots of podcasts by Pastor Kong and Pastor Phil! Wheeehooo! :D

Word of God is my sword.

Bestest decision

I hope that I've made the bestest decision so far!

How should I bid goodbye?

Never overstep boundaries

"What we didn't need to know, we don't need to ask. Some people just don't quite get the gist of that. You can have plenty of conversations with people, meaningful conversations without getting too personal. There's a line, you know, like an invisible field around people that you just know not to enter."

A bruised reed, He'll not break

"Looking back on it, she knew that she really needed him more than he needed her. She needed to be needed so she could feel that she wasn't just standing idly by, utterly helpless."

Abba Father, never let me go

I never want to forget the reason why am I serving as a connect group leader in my cell group.
I never want to forget how I am impacted by my leaders to want to be like them someday.
I never want to forget it's because of God's love and the love for people that's why I am serving.

I want to pattern my life after God's Fatherhood...

A bruised reed He will not break,
And smoking flax He will not quench;
He will bring forth justice for truth.
Isaiah 42:3

Counting my stars

I just finished watching the service whereby PK preached about Counting Your Stars.

I am so stirred.. So stirred within me to want to count my stars. To want to dig out every single promise that God has for me in the bible. And I've decided, the journey of finding and counting my stars start today. A verse everyday.

World shakers and history makers didn't come easily and they weren't just born yesterday. But they were the ones who tirelessly believe in God, counting their stars that are in heaven and clinging on to the very promise that God said that they can do it despite the world say that they can't. But while hanging on to the promise, God answered, God responded, just like how He gave Abraham Isaac after 15 years of counting and resisting the temptations of not returning to the tent, a place of limitations.

Always remember that world shakers and history makers aren't born yesterday, they are the ones who plow through, counted their stars and clung on. And that's how they became world shakers and history makers.

Count the stars of promises, look unto Jesus..

Love Languages

Jan 2008

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Physical Touch:		3
Receiving Gifts:		3

Feb 2009

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Receiving Gifts:		4
Physical Touch:		2

Feb 2010

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		8
Receiving Gifts:		6
Acts of Service:		5
Physical Touch:		0

Jan 2011

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Acts of Service:		6
Receiving Gifts:		6
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		1

Take the quiz

Changes.... (:

Easy come, easy go

"It's like hearing gurgling babies echoing in the church at the funeral. There's nothing more uplifting than to hear the sound of an innocent child being so happy in a place that people are sad. It reminds you that life goes on and on and on, just not for the one you're saying goodbye to. People come and people go and we know this happens, yet we get such a shock when it does. To use that old cliché, the only certainty in life is death. It's a certainty, it's the one condition of living that we're given but we often let it tear us apart."

Proper update about life

Okay, I think I should really give a proper update about life and not just about quotes, pictures, thank you post etc etc.

SO.. life hasn't been great but whatever it is, it's gonna be over soon.
And I need to be me all over again. Feels weird not to be me. But on the good side of not being me, I don't feel the hunger pang.

And speaking of hunger pang, I need to control myself from feeling hungry. I must start to really come up with my diet plan. What to eat, what not to eat. It will all start after my 19th birthday. HAHA. But in the meanwhile, I will start exercising in the coming week. So as to make up for the stuff that I'm not supposed to eat.

I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO LOOKING GOOD IN SEPTEMBER.
Discipline Jas! Important to look good for your dearest leader's wedding!

Bookworm

Did I say that I was reading a lot recently? And i finished two relatively not very thin books in four days? Hahaha, that's explaining the oh-so-many quotes that I've quoted from the books that I've read.

I like reading! It's like the most awesome thing someone can do when you're traveling, when you're alone, when you're anywhere..

Embarking on my third book now.. Halfway through and I love how the writer is so good at captivating the audience's attention!

I love Cecelia Ahern's books. There's always something I can learn from her books despite it being fiction!

Hohoho! Off to reading once more...(:

Where rainbows end

"You can run and run as fast and as far as you like, but the truth is, wherever you run, there you are."

Things change...fast

"Just three weeks ago she had sat there for an interview and now here she was putting ideas forward to her new boss. Funny how life changed so quickly-but then again she had learned that already..."

But still believing that...


"...God leads you to it and takes you through it."

I'm sorry

"Holly hadn't even thought about the fact that Sharon and John had lost their best friend, that her parents had lost their son-in-law and Gerry's parents had lost their only son. She had just been so busy thinking about herself."

Walls up high

I was doing some soul time at Coffee Bean and I sat there for 5 hours and finish reading a book! It was good! Thank God for my ipod and I was people watching while resting my eyes from the reading.

Before I was about to leave and head to the toilet, this old uncle suddenly came and sat at my table. I was stunned for a moment, looked up with a shocked face and stared at him for awhile. I looked around and saw that there were actually many empty tables and was thinking why didn't he want to sit at other tables. Was about to stand up and leave because I felt that my privacy was like kinda invaded and HELLO! I DON'T KNOW YOU AND WHY ARE YOU SITTING AT MY TABLE!

I grabbed my bag and was about to stand up and go, something within me asked me to just sit down for awhile more. So I did. And I watched.

I watched the old uncle took out an envelope, a warranty card, his specs and a pen. (I'm surprised that I remember the details!) And he started to fill up his warranty card. I sat there watching him fill up every single detail.. From his name to IC no. to contact no. and address. This thought came when I was watching, he didn't mean any harm or whatsoever, he just need to fill up a warranty card and get it posted later on. Why build up such high walls of defense?

So I just sat there watching and thinking about the thought that came..

While I was still thinking about it, the old uncle got up and walked away.

I left shortly and I found him at the post office. I smiled to myself because firstly, I was right that he wanted to send out the warranty card while he was filling it up and secondly he really didn't mean anything, he just want to sit down and get his card filled that's all.

This whole incident just reminded me of what would Jesus do?
He wouldn't react like how I reacted initially.. He'll probably get to know about the old uncle.
I was once again reminded to have a heart for people. That's precisely why Jesus came. And while immerse in my thoughts, the song Jesus loves Me/ Your love by children's church was playing. How apt...

And yes, it's time that my focus should be shift to the people around me and not myself anymore. Yes, the past few weeks hasn't been easy, but it's time..

My prayer: Place in me a new heart, a heart for Your people, Your creation whom You love so dearly that You gave Your son.

You gave Your life for me
You took my sin away
And on the cross
You've given Your only son
I bow before Your throne
Declare Your majesty
I know that Jesus loves me

Thank you

Thank you Sarahs from the bottom of my heart, lungs toes and feet!

Really appreciate you girls for praying for me, standing by me thru the most difficult times while I'm still deciding, accepting me for who I am despite being so imperfect, listening to me rant like there's no tomorrow, helping me with my choices even though you heard the same thing almost a million times but you both are always so ready!

Thank you for specially taking time out to text me to check if I'm doing okay.
I know both of you have got your own stuff and projects to do as well. But still, you both rather spent time with me first then back home to your projects.

I'm really really very touched by your gestures. I may be not have been in the best condition to be a good friend, but both of you are.

I LOVE YOU BOTH XMILLION, BILLION, TRILLION!

Jasmin Roxanne

Songs

I know I've been blogging a lot lately. Haha. Don't know if it's a good or bad thing. And the thing is I wonder who even reads my blog other than Xinying and Sarah? HAHAHA. *Looks at both and waves!*

Anyways, just had thoughts about songs. Was and still am listening to songs while reading, I just got reminded of what Dr AR Bernard said. We're God's poems and poems can be in many forms. One of which can be in the form of songs.

Lyrics are thoughts and feelings being sang out.
That's what I concluded.
The lyrics that the person wrote are the thoughts and feelings of the song writer.
Every single song is a thought and feeling of a person at different point of their life. It's just they chose to express it in lyrical form that's all.

Never am I looking at songs the same way again!

My life, Your song...
And I know You're not done writing it yet.

(:

Every joint supplies

I'm back at it again..

Never will I forget that. Everyone in the house of God is important. Even those that you don't notice. I was just talking to my dearest friend Sarah about people we see in church especially those we see on stage.

Every single one plays a part in building His house.
Every single one, even the weakest one.

Thank You for calling me to be part of building Your house.

Thanks for the memories

"I've increasingly found that people never truly tire of playing games and dressing up, no matter how many years pass. Our lies now are just more sophisticated; our words to deceive, more eloquent."

Decisions

There are so many decisions that we make in life.
A fair share of both easy and difficult ones.
Some can be life and death, some can just be as insignificant as to whether to take the bus or the train. But today i realised the importance of decision making. It leaves an impact no matter how subtle it may look. That's why i think that the best candidate to make the decision for us would be God. He's the one who has a bird's eye view of everything. He can see what's ahead of the problem when we can only see our problem.

I pray that the decisions that i'm gonna make in the near future, would not just be made by me. But also by God.. Entrusting my future into His hands.

Trust in the LORD and lean not on your own understanding...

Good O' times!

I am missing the good old times.. with my ex members!
Sadly I can't really dig out any old pictures together :(
As much as life goes on, I hope they are all doing well too!

Was just thinking about my dearest yuping and jon! Haha, days whereby we spent together fellowshiping and me feeling young all over again! (:
I never feel too old hanging around them! HAHA sorry guys, I just had to say that! Now thinking about that, I feel a little comforted even though I'm turning 19 soon, but I can always remember that there're still older ones in my life! *GRINS*

I grew up under their care. HAHA. Yes, I grew up under their care..
Yuping, Jon, Xia, Eunice, Kaifei, Yuping, Junming, Charlene, April AND MOREEEEEE! Oh gosh, I miss them all now!

P.S, I love you

Finally read the book and it was fantabulous!
I love books that gets me thinking about life. (:

I enjoyed reading it! More of such to come!

"She sat down on a park bench opposite the playground and listened to the children's screams of delight. She wished she could go in and play on the slide and be pushed on the swings instead of sitting here and watching. Why did people have to grow up? Holly realised she had been dreaming of going back to her youth all weekend. She wanted to be irresponsible, she wanted to be looked after, to be told that she didn't have to worry about a thing and that someone else would take care of everything. How easy life would be without having grown up problems to worry about."

Birthdays

It's 2 more weeks to Chinese New Year and then after that I'm turning 19.
I'm definitely not looking forward to it now and truthfully speaking, I don't even feel like celebrating it.

Just wanna spend some time alone. To be immersed with my own thoughts and dwell in the presence of Abba Father...

My prayer...

Why are your valiant men swept away?
They did not stand
Because the LORD drove them away.
Jeremiah 46:15

Let me not be strong because of my own strength.

Choosing to smile

When was the last time smiling was not so easy to you?

The word of God

The word of God revives, the word of God restores.

Speak the word of God above every other word.

Was just reading my bible and was reminded of what pst Tan preached. Pray the word. Learn to pray from the bible, learn to pray the words that was inspired by the Holy Spirit.

When my world was in darkness
You spoke Your word
Night turned into day
Your beauty filled this place

the word

The word of God revives, the word of God restores.

Speak the word of God above every other word.

our dance wont stop

today is THE day

i pray for grace and wisdom so as to be able to go thru it.

Thank You Jesus.

Back!

Back from Kluang.

So going back again to do some shopping, things there are MAD CHEAP. Haha!
Anyways, the short get away was good except for the not much appetite and shoulder aches!

Friends

I've used 18 years of my life (going 19.. SIGHHHH!) to conclude that I don't really need to be have a lot of friends around me, just the very faithful few will do.

We all read in books and watch in high school dramas that everyone of us wants to be in the so called popular clique. It's so cool to hang out with the popular few and be the limelight in school. But quite often, they don't really end up good. Not that it's wrong to be in the popular clique! But don't try too hard to fit into somewhere where you don't belong to.

I think I've encountered quite a few to be saying that. I personally feel that I would rather have a faithful and true friend that's always alongside by me, go thru difficult times with me, encourage me when I feel like giving up etc. And I believe that this kinda friendship is really a God given one.

Wouldn't life be better with just one than trying so hard to fit in to somewhere you don't belong and in the end be left with none? I've learnt to be content with what I have.

I have the bestest Friend that I can ever ask for(:

...But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
Proverbs 18:24

God's chasing

Was worshipping just now and was just reminded of the S.O.S bs with pastor kong sometime back. It started with growing love.

I was just reminded of how God would want to draw us back to Him whereby on days we feel so passive, on days whereby we feel like shutting out. But He's patiently waiting for us to open up and come away with Him.
Well, there are days whereby i just feel like sleeping my time away and just be alone.. But one thing is that God is patient and faithful. He knows how to deal with it.

Thankful to know that even though a lot of people may have given up on me, but He'lll never give up on me.

Meditate

I'm gonna learn to meditate on the word till my breakthru comes.

Simple but yet sometimes it just slips.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6

“当没有人骂你的时候已经太慢了。”

Voice

You know how we are so familiar with each other's voice and we can know who's who when we hear just the voice?

Rae used to say that she always hear me before she sees me that's because she recognises my voice and i'm THAT loud, yes I know....... BUT that's not the main point. Main point is that she recognises my voice because she knows me!

For me, I feel a little uneasy over the phone if the voice is someone's voice I don't remember. I just feel really insecure about listening to an unfamiliar voice. Well, I don't know about you but that's for me. That's why most of the time I would prefer to text someone I don't know than to call.

So after reading all I have to say about voice, I just realised after an eventful week, how can I not recognise the ever so familiar voice that's calling out to me everyday? How can I ever forget that voice and choose to believe the other unfamiliar voices that SEEM familiar?

I don't ever want to forget that voice ever again.

So close to reaching that famous happy end

Was watching Enchanted at home and heard the song by Jon McLaughlin, So Close.

AND I GOT REMINDED OF JASLYNN NG!
Woman in Jakarta/Bundung/WHICHEVER PART OF INDONESIA, you're finally coming home tomorrow! :D Wheeehooo!

Life's not that bad afterall :)

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

"神 啊 ， 求 你 为 我 造 清 洁 的 心 ， 使 我 里 面 重 新 有 正 直 的 灵 。
不 要 丢 弃 我 ， 使 我 离 开 你 的 面 ； 不 要 从 我 收 回 你 的 圣 灵 。"

Running

Quit running away and face your problems.

What can i say?

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
What can I say?

God's gentleness

"For myself i think i get furthest into the heart of this truth when i think of greatness as grace of the one who puts Himself as one with us that He understands how we feel, taking our weaknesses and difficulties and ddoubts and fears as His own. God is our Father - setting ever before Himself the loftiest purpose concerning us, yet ever seeing our weaknesses, feeling it, and stooping tenderly to help us. That is the gentleness of God"

You have also given me the shield of Your salvation;
Your right hand has held me up,
Your gentleness has made me great.
Psalm 18:35

Phuket

Heh! Family's going to Phuket in March and we're gonna stay in 2 hotels!
Firstly: Ratana Apart Hotel





Credits: From Ratana Apart Hotel's web
Looks really good and hopefully we'll not be cheated! Hee!

The next hotel we're gonna stay in is a FIVE star family suite! THERE'RE LIKE 2 JACUZZI in the room itself! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO it's gonna be awesome! HOPEFULLY I WON'T BE CHEATED TOO!

Checkout the floorplan!

Credits: From Sea Pearl Villas and Spa Resort

I AM EXCITED FOR MY REAL BREAK!

Third day of a new year

It's the third day of a new year and i'm hanging on.

"Giving up is a temptation"

Hello 2011!

Spent the first 2 hours praying for 2011.
The way we enter is important too!

Not much resolutions for 2011, but one main one would be to get deeper in everything.
Deeper with the Holy Spirit, deeper in love with God, deeper in love with the word, deeper in love with God's people, deeper, deeper and even deeper.

Believing that 2011 will be the year filled with breakthrus and even more breakthrus.

Let my heart beat together with Yours.