Moved

Thank you rhythmlikeyou.blogspot.com for the past 3 years or so..

My memories I'll keep with you.


Love,
Jasmin Roxanne

You haven't seen the last of me

There will be no fade-out
This is not the end
I'm down now
And I'll be standing on top again.
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of

Daniel 11:32

... but the people who know their God shall be strong, and carry out great exploits.

Know God
Strength
Great exploits

Note the order, knowing God is placed first. Without knowing Him, there can never be strength, great exploits cannot be carried out.

God must be in the core of your life.

"What is worse than death? Betrayal."

Jesus, take the wheel

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

Phuket

I really like this picture a lot! What a pity Jaslynn didn't manage to come with us!

Missing the beach, ESPECIALLY the food in Phuket already! Thank God for this awesome trip, thought thru a lot of things!

(I still had my not long not short, half black half brown messy hair then! HAHA)

My most comfortable pair of shoes

This is my most comfortable pair of Converse sneakers that I love a lot despite it has holes at the sides already. This is my going 4th year wearing it! It's even more comfortable than my slippers!

I can't bear to throw it away because it has brought me to so many places. It has been with me thru good and bad times.

And it was the same for my very first pair of Converse shoes. I wore till it has holes everywhere and the sole even came out, I still didn't bear to throw it away. But in the end it was my maid/mom who threw it away!:(

Haha, I don't know why am I blogging this, but thanks for reading though;)

Reevaluate

There's a need to reevaluate on the important things in life.

At the end of the day, it's all about how God views it.

Sift and shake till only the good and pleasing will remain.

Love

On this new day, I choose LOVE

Chaff

I've deleted the folder called Social Networking and everything inside on my BB.

Yes, which means off you go Twitter and Fb!

Chaff are worthless things in life that will be burned away and they are not needed for eternity.

Build only things that last.

I cut and dyed my hair!
Yahoo! Bestest choice thus far... but a little not used to it!

Forsaking

Was just resting and enjoying soul time last night and the song Sanctuary just played on my ipod. (It's one of the songs that I love so much! A song that I always listen to during a season of my life and it's just so well written!)

And I just had this thought.

Will you forsake one for all OR all for one?

I found myself thinking and saying to myself "God forsook One for all, I am forsaking all for One."

Forsaking all, I follow You my Lord..

Overwhelmed

Finished listening to SOS, initial love's mp3.

A need for greater consecration.
A need to cry out to God "draw me"
A need to press in to God.
A decision to make, Christ is above all.
A decision to make, though none go with me, I still will follow.

我献上自己

我只愿能更多亲近你
依偎在你同在里
更贴近你的心意

我只愿能全心依靠你
永远不离开你

是你赐给我生命气息
赐给我温柔的心
让我能全心相信

世上无人能够取代你
一身只愿为你

主我献上自己
成为爱的器皿
来完成你旨意
一生永不放弃

主我献上自己
求塑造我生命
指教我你命定
我全人只为你
一生只愿为你

Something precious

So guess what I've found! Hahha

I've found the bible story book which I used to love it a lot a lot! The brown's one my current bible:)

I guess the story which I loved was Jonah and the big fish. Cause I folded it.. HAHA.



So glad that I found it!:)

Brokenness

I've been thinking lately about brokenness.

It may seem scary and not appealing.. but it is necessary in our walk with God.

It's when you're broken, then can the anointing flow.

It's when you're broken, then can the fragrance diffuse and spread to the entire room.

Only when you're broken...

In order to smell like Jesus , you gotta first be broken.

LOVE never fails

Jesus is love.

And He never fails.

Thank You for Your unfailing love.

(:

Tomorrow is ORIENTATION!

I haven't posted for a long time but I went to look at my blog and it has a post almost everyday then I was like "How's that possibleee! I really didn't bloggg!" and I realised that I actually scheduled a few posts.. HAHAHA.
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SO! Tomorrow is orientation and this is the FIRST orientation that I'm going alone. For the past few orientations in my life, I've someone to accompany me to. But this time round, I'm going alone while some of my friends are going to SENTOSA! But I kinda am happy that I've got orientation because I don't have to be under the sun in Sentosa. So I'm not whining about it! HAHAHA! (My skin is peeling now... AND I've got enough burnts in Phuket. SO I'll give the beach a miss for awhile now! But it's still sun over rain anytime!)

I'm kinda excited and anxious! Excited because school is starting on the 4th Apr which is REALLY SOON! Anxious because I am gonna get to know new people, have new classmates. But I know everything will be well! God's gonna be with me thruout the orientation and I'm gonna make good friends that flow together with me!

Just realised that my blog has been wordy much... So, I shall post up a picture to end of this post! Meanwhile, please pray for me! Thanks! (:

Haven't been really updating this space but haha today has been really fruitful.

Delivered medicine!
Met my dearest leader for lunch.
Catch up with my 4 years long and counting good friend, ah Sian.
Bbt(!!)
Headed to SP to pay school fees.

And now home!
The rain's making me gloomy..
Missing the sun in Phuket already! Oh the beach.... :)

A new day (for me)

Just when we were celebrating our grand opening on Sunday, mom called and told me that the SIM letter has came!

Gonna start school on the 4 Apr and I know that 15months will be good!

"Our best days undoubtedly lay before us!"

A new day

God has truly been good.

21 years... He's so real to our church.

Moving into Suntec is another milestone in CHC's history and I'm excited with what God is gonna do in time to come..

A new day for CHC, a new day for myself:)

A new day, new heart, new breakthrus!

It is 1974...

"...and I am in my religious high school. The subject is the parting of the Red Sea. I yawn. What is left to learn about this? I've heard it a million times. I look across the room to a girl I like and contemplate how hard it would be to get her attention.

'There is a Talmudic commentary here,' the teacher says.

Oh, great, I figure. This means translation which is slow and painful. But as the story unfolds, I begin to pay attention.

After the Israelites safely crossed the Red Sea, the Egyptians chased after them and were drowned. God's angels wanted to celebrate the enemy's demise.

According to the commentary, God saw this and grew angry. He said, in essence: 'Stop celebrating. For those were my children, too.'

Those were my children, too.

'What do you think of that?' the teacher asks us.

Someone else answers. But I know what I think. I think it is the first time I've heard that God might love the 'enemy' as well as us.

Years later,I will forget the class, forget the teacher's name, forget the girl across the room. But I will remember the story."

To love your enemy as your own...
God demonstrate it even thousands of years back.
To love, is to live...

Crying

"I give myself a good cry if I need it. But then I concentrate on all the good things still in my life."

Life

Just finished reading Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. They are just SO touching and awesome.

I've learnt so much after reading...
The very simple things in life are to be guarded. Don't get too busy that all these simple things in life are gone.

And I just had this thought while reading, in everything, do your best. The end result really doesn't matter. We are so shaped by our culture. We are being fed with thoughts like "Being no. 1 is good, being the last is lousy.", "No. 2 is inferior to no. 1" etc.

But was then again reminded that, as long as you've gave your best shot in everything that you do, no. 2 is as good as no. 1, the last is as good as no. 1.

"It is 1979, a basketball game in the Brandeis gym. The team is doing well, and the student section begins a change, 'We're number one! We're number one!' At one point, in the midst of 'We're number one!' he rises and yells, 'What's wrong with being number two?' The students look at him. They stop chanting. He sits down, smiling and triumphant."

Forward, backwards

"If you've found meaning in your life, you don't want to go back. You want to go forward."

Life and love

"Life has to end, " she said. "Love doesn't."

Sacrifice

"Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."

Heaven

"That's what heaven is. You get to make sense of your yesterdays."

Strangers

"Strangers," the Blue Man said, "are just family you have yet to come to know."

The five people you meet in heaven

It was a great book!
And it got me into lots of thinking...

I've been homesick for the past 3 hours but when the song Jesus played on my itunes, my whole being was calmed down.

It's the presence of God that calms the inner storms of our hearts..
The presence of God...

"This is the greatest gift God can give you: To understand what happened in your life. To have it explained. It is the peace you have been searching for"

(:

The sun is on my side and takes me for a ride
I smile up to the sky, I know I'll be alright

Pocketful of sunshine

GREETINGS FROM PHUKET!

I was up since 8AM S'pore time...
Guess I was just not used to the bed in hotels! Ha!

WE'RE GOING TO THE BEACH LATER!
The weather is REALLY awesome here! I likeeee!

With pocketful of sunshine,
JASMIN ROXANNE<3

Leaving for Phuket

I'm currently sitting in the Budget Terminal's departure hall!

Called my dad to bid goodbye and he was like "Don't go to the beach, later got tsunami."
And I was like "Huh, don't go to the beach go Phuket for what? Aiya when the tsunami come, we go already lah!"
He said "Okay lor, you tell God to protect you all okay..."
I replied "You tell lah!!"
He said "I don't know how to speak English later God don't understand.."
I replied "Can lah.. He can understand one."
He said "I speak hokkien can or not?"
I replied "Can! Of course can! He very li4 hai4 one please!"
He said "Okay lah, I will tell Him. You all be careful!"

Haha cute right?:)
God bless my dad and grant us journey mercy.

Youths

The youths are the precious ones of God..

Am thankful that I'm still a youth.
I am gonna sow seeds into the life of other youths just like how my leader has sown into my life..

To serve my generation just like how King David did! Please use me O Lord I pray...

A great and mighty revival that'll never stop.
A great and mighty revival that'll happen all the time.
A great and might revival that's from You Holy Spirit.

A GREAT and MIGHTY revival.
Stir our hearts and awaken every spirit..
Behold, a GREAT and MIGHTY revival is coming!

Dreams

I love dreaming these days! I used to not like dreaming because I always dream of some nonsense and it makes me feel like I have not enough rest..

But these days, I love it! Because it's not some nonsense that I dream about but I actually dreamt once that I was sitting in the front row next to Pst Eileen.. And I could clearly remember the praise song that we sang - I will fly.

And this morning, I dreamt that we were having a meeting in my grandma's old place and there were a lot of people! After the meeting, I kinda withdrew myself to wanna worship and the song I was singing was Come Holy Spirit.

I woke up when I sang till I'm reaching for Your heart, You hold my life in Your hands..

Now tell me why I shouldn't love dreams these days? :)

Food!

Being able to eat is just such a bliss! And all the cheap market food and the glorious home cooked food by my dearest grandma just makes life more worth living. Am I exaggerating here? Hahaha.

What would life be like if we've got no food? And one of the worst days would be not being able to eat and gotta go hungry.

Eating good food and celebrating life! Can't wait for the trip to Phuket! Oh all the glorious Thai food!;)

When I stay up..

This is what happens when I don't sleep for the entire night..

1. Very short term memory throughout the day. I forget things so easily it's so horrifying!!
2. I'll get gastric at around 5-7AM in the morning. And I concluded that it maybe cause my stomach has been working the whole night and I'm not a supper person..
3. I used to get flu after that but thank God I'm not having it anymore!
4. I will just sprout nonsense and really don't know what I am saying. Ahaha!
5. I will (sometimes) not be sane and start to become high. Related to point 4.
6. I will try my best to tahan through the day and sleep at night.. Cause I don't want to further spoil my body clock.
7. (Usually) when I stay up, I'll be watching dramas or (recently) TV!
8. My eyes will look so tired that it literally look like I haven't had a good sleep for probably 1 month or something. But when I get up after sleeping, it's gone!
9. I can totally ignore everyone and just sleep my day away!
10. I feel like smashing my sister's phone because it rings every 5min and she doesn't wake up. Or rather actually have the courtesy to switch it off so that me, who's trying to fall asleep will be able to do so.

When I was/am a youth

When I was younger as a youth, I realised that I've spent lots of time doing what God didn't called me to do.

Now that I am still youth, the prayer that I wanna make, to be like King David, to have a heart after God's and to serve my own generation like he did.

Clean & neat room

Just recently (past 2 months) I have started to pack my room and make sure that it's clean and tidy everyday. I really magic clean it everyday and make it really neat and clean as possible!
And one more thing is that I start to fold my blanket when I wake up. It's just that one step before you head to the toilet to brush your teeth so why not? Doesn't really take much time and it makes the room looks so much neater!

Haha!

Last time I used to think that why I need to pack my room, I can find things like that so it's okay not to pack. So my table becomes my book shelf, it has books piling up and papers everywhere. You guys should have take a look at my cupboard before I packed it.. It was horrendous much. Everything is everywhere and it's just a heap of clothes inside. HAHA. Yes I was that zao gao last time but my room is really much neater and cleaner now.

I really think it's because I magic clean it everyday, that's why my nose is not working up and I'm less prone to falling sick!

Even though it's just doing the same routine everyday, but it ALWAYS remind me that I need to clean my heart daily as well... because of the upgrading works, my room gets dusty everyday so I gotta clean it. It's the same for our hearts, you won't know what is it being polluted by that day so we gotta clean it with the word of God!

Quit being lazy like the old me and start cleaning up your room if it's not packed yet!

BONUS! You can work out at the same time! :)

Don't get burnt

Just a thought since just now..

Don't go near the fire and you won't be burnt. Simple as it may be, but so many still chose to go near the fire and end up getting burnt..

Just got reminded of what Pst Darren shared during GOTP, he said that when an ex convict got release from prison and goes back to his territory whereby all his old friends were, the more likely he's going back again.

So we gotta stay away and not lead ourselves into those zone of temptations..

Don't play with fire.
Don't get burnt.

Deep calling unto the deep

Encounters upon encounters.
This is the life that I want to live - to be able to meet You daily..

That one touch is more than enough.. That precious one touch.

Holy Spirit, You're all that I've ever needed.

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On a side note, I can't wait to get to Phuket! It's gonna be awesome to be able to be under the sunny sun and ENJOY LIFE!

God will provide! :)

Places and position

I just had this random thought...

Why do some people who wanna drink actually like go to pubs and etc while uncles are satisfied in drinking at the coffeeshop nearby their place. Haha I know this is ultra random but hey who am I? The queen of randomness peeps! Haha

So anyways, I was just thinking of it because Xy was like saying to me a few days back that we haven't been to Timbre for quite some time.. Then I was like thinking why can't we go to coffeeshop instead. Haha it's just a thought, don't wack me ah!!

But I concluded, it's just the place we belong to and the position that God has designed and put us in.. He has made us a certain way to fit into a certain place.

So for me, no coffeeshop or Timbre because I don't drink, Starbucks or Coffeebean anytime for me! Heh!

:)

Looking at the past to embrace the future

I am not proud of my past especially the teenage years..
But looking back at my past helps me to cherish God's presence now..

And truly everything happens for a reason.. Even though we may not know it but God does!

Although there are many things I would very much like to go back and change but I'm moving on (even though I've long moved on!!) From the past and to live out the future that God has pathed for me!

Favourite place

This is my favourite spot in my room! The answer is very simple because this is where I do my qt and read my bible daily and have encounters upon encounters with God..

My favourite spot in my room!:)

Today is the last service for me at JW! When I'm back from Phuket, we'll be in Suntec! God is good!

Definitely gonna miss JW but we'll still be back! So it's alright! Hello Suntec! *Waves franctically*

Compassion

The CWBS on the book of Ezekiel was just so in season..

The compassion of Jesus didn't came cheap. And in order to have the same compassion that Jesus had it'll cost us something..

Gold is only real gold when it is tried under the fire..

A yielded vessel for You Holy Spirit..

Comfort zone

We all have a comfort zone whereby we allow people that we're comfortable with to come in. And it's especially true now that I think back on what I've learnt in Communications class in year 1. There's a certain distance that certain people can come near us.

When strangers, people that we don't know step within the boundary, we'll get defensive and maybe start to do actions like folding of our arms or even take a step back.

It does happens to me so many times this week. Whereby people "intruded" my personal comfort zone. Like strangers getting too close and I would always react by taking a step back. Haha I'm just so not secure and do not like it when people whom I don't know getting so close to me..

I don't know about you but this personal space theory applies for me! And guess what? I am at Dover station now. Ahaha. Remembering what I've learnt here..

Till here!:)

Grace

What's keeping me up is no longer my toothache but my stomach. Not that I'm hungry but it just feels so wrong for the entire day.

Just a thought, does anyone actually feel afraid to dream and thus does not sleep? Hahaha that would be funny but this is a big world, so I don't think I'll be surprised if someone actually says that!

So anyways, since I was up, I was actually watching Pst Tan's message on imparting grace to hearers.

We are to be GOOD representatives of God.

Speaking words = imparting grace
Not speaking words = not imparting grace

Having cold war is a form whereby you're telling the person that you don't want to impart grace to him/her.

Impart grace and shalom, the peace of God into people's life!

It's the tooth again...

Really missing those times whereby I have really healthy and awesome teeth with no problem. :(
And the free dental service in school. SERIOUSLY. Why are dental services so expensive huh huh huhuhh?

Same problem

Sigh, I'm still having toothache. This time round it's another tooth! Anddddd I am so not enjoying this pain. It's just SOOOO irritating seriously!:(

Will probably have to spend another 50bucks:( xin tong max seriously! Dentist really earn a lot lehhhhhh! Pray that I can actually sleep tonight. Cause the pain actually just got worse at night.

Stress

I've been resting for the past 2 months and I just feel like I need to do something. When people around me are complaining about stress, I'm here relaxing, sleeping till late everyday.. I really need to do something productive. If (AND I KNOW I WILL GET INTO SIM!) SIM accepts me for the April's intake and I just spent my 3 months doing nothing, I'm afraid that I will break down really fast. So I should start to do some reading up... Hahaha.

Hmmm...

March is gonna be good

I am going to Phuket!! Heh! I like~ March is gonna be awesome! Heh!:D

Love at first sight

I know I'm having toothache but just suddenly thought of this..

Love at first sight.

We hear it in songs, watch it in dramas and movies but do you really believe in it?
If you actually ask me about it few years back, I'll probably say yes. But now that you've asked me, I would have replied you no. I don't believe in love at first sight anymore.

I guess it's all the MTVs, dramas and movies that made me think that love at first sight was possible back then. But as I think back, what a silly thought! Things that happen in MTVs, dramas and movies seldom happen in real life. It's just to make us go awwwwwww! Don't you agree? Haha. Well, I'm more down to earth now!

I personally think that we need to spend time knowing each other before anything can start. Friendship is always important.. A relationship gotta be built first.

For me, love at first sight will continue to stay in dramas, movies, MTVs and even story books(:

Nothing changed

When I was in primary school, the dentist would call us back for dental checkup during the school holidays. And the funny part is I would be so afraid that the dentist would scold me, I would brush my teeth super a lot of times the day before and I would not eat anything before the dental checkup.. Haha

I'm gonna see the dentist later cause I'm having toothache! And this is the first time in my entire 19 years I'm having a toothache. And I'm still afraid of the dentist and I just brushed my teeth and not gonna eat anything before I go down. Haha.. Nothing chnaged...

Standards

There are standards in life that cannot be compromise. There are things in life that need to be consistent.

It is so important to be transparent..
It is so important to be consistent in everything we do.

Values and morals are not to be "cheapen" in different situations.
There are standards to be met.

My standard bearer, my Holy Spirit..

Your Presence

Then he said to Him, “If Your Presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here."
Exodus 33:15

If Your Presence does not go with me, do not bring me away from where I am.. I would rather be a door keeper of Your house, to be in a glimpse of Your glory and presence than to be feasting away at the tents of the wicked..

God, do not take away Your Holy Spirit away from me...
Let me continue to dwell in Your Presence..

我知道我在拼什么了...

The Great Exchange

The soul of Jesus endures the greatest wrath of God.
So that our soul won't have to go thru hades and the darkest darkness that we were to go thru in the first place.

God turned His face away from Jesus when He was on the cross. Jesus took it all alone. So that we won't have to go thru it ourselves.

每当我一想起你为我做的一切，我的心是如此充满的感恩.
全部的荣耀和赞美都属于你，我的君王.

Your will

Had a great meeting with Kelvin last night..

And the message was just so apt.. It speaks of different stages in our life and one thing for sure is that God is not done with the clay yet.

My prayer: let Your will be done in my life. If You need to rework this clay of Yours, You have the full permission to do so. You know what's best for me... Let Your will be done.

Trouble

"When you're in trouble you look harder for answers than those who aren't, and it's those answers that help you through."

A very HAPPY me

I totally had a blast yesterday! Hahaha.
Went to the hospital in the morning with my grandma! And then guess what? God is good! Hahaha!

The doctor that was assisting the consultant was like woohoo! So good looking! Teehee! What a bonus to bring my grandma to the hospital!

Went for bible reading and they gave me a pleasant surprise!


A real cake, a very lovely burger cake and a green tea! Haha thanks guys! LOVE!


LZX's new album and a lovely card! ;)


LZX fans! ;)


Oh and not forgetting bb users! BB ftw yo! Hahahahaha


Thank you my dearest friends for making the night so awesome and a blast! Hahaha Totally had so much fun laughing (till I sound like I had asthma attack! HAHA) till my back literally ached! Love every single one of you!

Signing off with a very happy me!


P.S XY I NEVER TAKE PICTURE WITH YOU SIA. LIKE THOSE INDIVIDUAL KIND........

Garden of love

"It's like my garden, love. Everything grows. Including love. And with that growing everyday how can you expect missing her to ever fade away? Everything builds, including our ability to cope with it. That's how we keep going."

Altering

"In my darkest moments, my most fearful times, when faced, became my bravest. When feeling at your weakest you end up showing more strength, when at your lowest are suddenly lifted above higher than you've ever been. They all border one another those opposites, and how quickly we can be altered. Despair can be altered by one simple smile offered by a stranger; confidence can become fear by arrival of one uneasy presence."

THE day

It's just tomorrow! Haha what a weird feeling to be 19 already!

But all is well with God! (:

"Nothing was ever easy"

"She had enjoyed every second with Gerry, but now it was time to move on. Move on to the next chapter of life, bringing wonderful memories with her, and experiences that would teach her and help mould her future. Sure, it would be difficult; she had learned that nothing was never easy... She had been given a wonderful gift: life. Sometimes it was cruelly take away too soon, but it's what you did that counted, not how long it lasted."

Time

"Our life is made up of time. Our days are measured in hours, our pay measured by those hours, our knowledge is measured by years. We grab a few minutes in our busy day to have a coffee break. We rush back to our desks, we watch the clock, we live by appointments. And yet time eventually runs out and you wonder in your heart of hearts if those seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years and decades were being spent the best way they possibly could."

Rededication

It is the time of the year once more. A time to rededicate my life to my Lord Jesus Christ..
Every year since 2008, I can't help but to be very thankful for that decision that I've made back in 2004.

On bended knees crying out "Hosanna in the highest, let our King be lifted up, Hosanna"
My King, be glorified in my life as I turn 19 this year.
Be lifted up, Hosanna!

Chapter of life

"But I am just a chapter in your life - there will be many more. Remember our wonderful memories, but please don't be afraid to make some more."

BB

YAY! I'VE GOTTEN MY BB! HAHAHAHAHAH

Am totally exploring how to use it now! wheeee

Being there

Sharon: You know it's good to be around people, Hol. Friends and family can help you.
Holly: Oh, I realised that now. I just thought I could handle it on my own at first.

Brutality

I was googling about a ritual murder case which happened in the 1980s.

It was just plain scary to know that someone can actually do something like that to CHILDREN.
If you wanna know about the brutal murder case, it's the Adrian Lim's ritual murder. He used to stay in Toa Payoh Lorang 7 Blk 12.

Holding on

"You can't hold on to things forever, no matter how hard you grip them."

Soverignty

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego answered King Nebuchadnezzar, "Your threat means nothing to us. If you throw us in the fire, the God we serve can rescue us from your roaring furnace and anything else you might cook up, O king. But even if He doesn't, it wouldn't make a bit of difference, O king. We still wouldn't serve your gods or worship the gold statue you set up."
Daniel 3:16-18 (MSG)

Memories

"People don't intend to lose memories. Although there are always some things that we would rather forget."

Surprises

I personally am neutral about surprises. Haha
But I'm fine with surprises that are not too overboard!

And I think very little peeps have successfully surprised me. Haha that's because they behaved too suspiciously!

The no. 1 suspicious act is TEXTING TOO MUCH when I'm around!
That's the very big giveaway.. Hahaha. But I will just play along even if i know!

But pleasant surprises are nice(:

Travel

I would like to travel to many places. But that's if I have the money and if time allows!

So when I start to work and save up, I'll definitely get out of the country and travel!
A few places to go after I start working would be USA especially New York and Europe definitely going to Germany and France! Hoho! AND NOT FORGETTING ISRAEL!

When I start working and start saving up....

But for now, short term goal would be to step into Taiwan and HK's soil before I turn 21. Join me anyone?

(:

Secure in Christ

Have I ever felt insecure?
Have I ever felt that I was not good enough?
Have I ever felt that I was inferior to a certain person?
Have I ever felt that I was a plan B?

The answer to the above questions are yes.

But we will come to a point of time whereby all these questions will be thrown at you. And you'll have to make a decision to not doubt and have faith and be secure in Christ.

I am secure in Christ.
I am good enough for Jesus.
I am not inferior to anyone.
I am definitely never plan B.

I am secure in Christ.

Happy valentine's day

Haha, what a day! But I'm gonna spend it at home watching my HK drama! Whee!

Bestest v day ever! ;)
Can do what I like!

Reunion

It was such a joy to meet up with the W194 peeps! :)
Steamboat, April's "just one moreee!", laughing at the chinese shows, watching news, celebrated the Feb babies' birthday, lo hei, splitting of cheesecake and then home!

Even though I didn't sleep the whole day, but it was worth it!
Enjoyed every single bit of the fellowship! Everyone's so different but I hope it's a good change!

(:

Anything is good to take picture with...

Love this picture! Hahaha make us look so pro!

10 more days

I can't believe that it's gonna happen in 10 days time!
Kinda apprehensive!

:O

Didn't expect time to pass so fast....

Hardcore drama watching

Yes, I am the hardcore hk drama watching woman here typing this blogpost.

I just finish watching a 25 episode drama in 2 days. Mad crazy I know!!

Sometimes I wonder why am I so hardcore................ hmmm. Hahaha, it's just once in a very blue moon.

Because not every HK drama film is crime and police related! HAHA. I especially do not like those that involves "fighting" with family members kind to get power and wealth. It's just not nice to watch family "fighting" and seeing people so scheming against their own kins. Sometimes I also like to watch those 古装 shows! Hahaha that's if it's not bad then I will watch.

Okay enough bout drama rantings, till here! ;)

Stocked up fridge

One thing that I will do is to make sure my future fridge's stocked up with super a lot of food!

Life kinda sucks when the fridge is empty. And even though knowing that your fridge is empty, you still "visit" it often just to check whether there'll be any food pop out miraculously. Hahaha. Maybe it's just a habit.

I absolutely love it when we go to supermarkets to buy like there's no tomorrow to stock up!

So, a stocked up fridge is a MUST!

"Perfect" job

Today saw me heading to Tampines to job hunt. Well, I don't know if I should say that I've super high faith or just plain can't be bothered.

Because after walking both malls (Tampines Mall and Century Square), I only applied for ONE job. Hahaha. After almost 2 hours. So after applying for that ONE job, I went home.

Or then again maybe it's just cause I have high expectations of part time jobs.

HA!

Well, I HATE folding clothes, so half the shopping mall's shops are like out! And office part time jobs need people to commit at least 4 months? But it's like I start school in Apr! Those giving out flyers ain't an everyday thing. So what am I to do for the next one month plus? And I promise myself never to do roadshows ever again! Don't like commission based work.

So basically, let me summarised everything up for you. There're A LOT of jobs that are not suitable for me....

Hahaha.

By faith...........

You are

You are the strength for those in need
You are the defender of the weak
You are everything we need
You are our God

You are my covenant keeping God.

This CNY...

It has been rather quiet and I wonder where did all the people in Singapore went to..
But, I like this silence..
It's as though the entire country's in a slumber during this period of time and I like the peace.

Peace, be still

History

I don't know if I did said or broadcast that I actually really love history!

I truly believe that if there is no past, there will be no present! So the past is very important. We can learn from the past. The phrase "lesson learnt" can be used is because there was a past. If there wasn't a past, we can never learn anything from it! So history is very important.

And guess what? My favouritest book on the earth, the bible is history as well. Every single word in it is history. We're all learning and reading history everyday! So don't you Christians dare say you do not like history because what you're reading daily IS history!

Because there is history, there is a now.

Because there is history, there is progression.

And Singapore is the best example of progression because of history.

(:

History in another perspective.

Being filial

I like what LZX said about being filial to parents.

“我觉得孝顺不能拿来表扬的。我觉得孝顺本来就不是让大家来当作学习的一件事情。孝顺本来就是我们子女应该做的。怎么可以拿来当作表扬呢？"

New heart

I pray, for a new heart. A heart that is a good ground, a heart when seeds of God are sown, deep roots will form.

I pray for a new heart.

Create in me, a new heart

我在拼 什麼?

我在拼 什麼 在意什麼最多
為了什麼又累又寂寞
不怕別人誤會了
就怕最在乎的人 也不想懂

有些時候我會做夢
盼望 回過頭妳在身后
溫柔看我 沒有不快樂 沒有逼我做抉擇
懂我拼什麼 懂我最寶貝妳了
懂妳讓我 多痛

I want to..

I want to grow up in CHC, KEL zone.
I want to never leave the place where I have found true love.
I want to fulfill my destiny in the place where I called home.

I want to...

Going 7years and still counting..

For granted

I was googling some stuff regarding the bell chime that we hear on the every first day of the month at 12noon and interestingly I've found that it's NOT from a nearby church near your place. But it's from the public warning system(pws) on our HDB rooftop!!


And it looks like this!

The purpose of the testing every month is to ensure that the pws is ready to alert the public in an emergency. There're also other warnings as well.

"Alarm" Signal - these are wailing blasts that are sounded when an air raid or shelling is imminent. You should move to a shelter immediately.
"All Clear" Signal - these are continuous blasts that are sounded when the threat is over. You can leave the shelter.
"Important Message" Signal - these are pulsating blasts that are sounded to alert the population to an important broadcast on the radio. You should tune in to any local FM radio station.

So it's good to know all these IN CASE of emergency.
Well, most of us don't know all these is because we all took the safety we had in the past 45 (going on to 46) years for granted.. Don't you agree?

Sometimes having a break is good, because I end up doing this kinda stuff to educate myself (:

Part Time Jobs

I pray I pray..

that I'll get the part time job. And I really pray that it'll be that 7/hr @ Suntec's Admin job! PLEASE GOD PLEASE!

Thank You!!

Purpose driven

Hi FEB!

Time flew. Literally. And it's feb. It's like a bittersweet month!

Don't know whether be excited to count down to being 19 or just let the days pass...... HMMM...

Never mind, I am going to learn that age doesn't matter. It's just ... AGE. What's more important is that before the next birthday comes, what have I done with that 365 days of being 19?

Purpose in life..

I am determined to find out what's my God given purpose.

"He knew that every thing and everyone had a place in life; every piece of cargo that lay stocked up on the docks and every man and woman who worked alongside him had a space to slot and part to play"

Salvation

You are my salvation and Your right hand upholds me.
When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I am.

Spring Cleaning

I just did a spring cleaning for my room and everything is neat and clean!

Just as Pastor Kong was sharing with the congregation about cleaning and scrubbing whatever that is not clean in our lives, I had the same train of thoughts this week too! Because of my room.. And like what Dr AR Bernard always says, the natural is always parallel to the spiritual.

Just like my room previously and our hearts. When things gets messy, there's a need to pack. Don't let it pile up so high that things are so messy and you don't know where to start cleaning and then you just leave it as it is.

Start cleaning now, one at a time. For your room and your heart..

Habits are formed

I like to caps HI (NAME)!!:D in my messages these days. I wonder why! It feels like I'm calling out to their name loud and hyperly! HAHAHA.
Oh well, it's kinda cool for now. HAHAHA.

AND I LOVE ITUNES.
I downloaded lots of podcasts by Pastor Kong and Pastor Phil! Wheeehooo! :D

Word of God is my sword.

Bestest decision

I hope that I've made the bestest decision so far!

How should I bid goodbye?

Never overstep boundaries

"What we didn't need to know, we don't need to ask. Some people just don't quite get the gist of that. You can have plenty of conversations with people, meaningful conversations without getting too personal. There's a line, you know, like an invisible field around people that you just know not to enter."

A bruised reed, He'll not break

"Looking back on it, she knew that she really needed him more than he needed her. She needed to be needed so she could feel that she wasn't just standing idly by, utterly helpless."

Abba Father, never let me go

I never want to forget the reason why am I serving as a connect group leader in my cell group.
I never want to forget how I am impacted by my leaders to want to be like them someday.
I never want to forget it's because of God's love and the love for people that's why I am serving.

I want to pattern my life after God's Fatherhood...

A bruised reed He will not break,
And smoking flax He will not quench;
He will bring forth justice for truth.
Isaiah 42:3

Counting my stars

I just finished watching the service whereby PK preached about Counting Your Stars.

I am so stirred.. So stirred within me to want to count my stars. To want to dig out every single promise that God has for me in the bible. And I've decided, the journey of finding and counting my stars start today. A verse everyday.

World shakers and history makers didn't come easily and they weren't just born yesterday. But they were the ones who tirelessly believe in God, counting their stars that are in heaven and clinging on to the very promise that God said that they can do it despite the world say that they can't. But while hanging on to the promise, God answered, God responded, just like how He gave Abraham Isaac after 15 years of counting and resisting the temptations of not returning to the tent, a place of limitations.

Always remember that world shakers and history makers aren't born yesterday, they are the ones who plow through, counted their stars and clung on. And that's how they became world shakers and history makers.

Count the stars of promises, look unto Jesus..

Love Languages

Jan 2008

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Physical Touch:		3
Receiving Gifts:		3

Feb 2009

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Receiving Gifts:		4
Physical Touch:		2

Feb 2010

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		8
Receiving Gifts:		6
Acts of Service:		5
Physical Touch:		0

Jan 2011

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Acts of Service:		6
Receiving Gifts:		6
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		1

Take the quiz

Changes.... (:

Easy come, easy go

"It's like hearing gurgling babies echoing in the church at the funeral. There's nothing more uplifting than to hear the sound of an innocent child being so happy in a place that people are sad. It reminds you that life goes on and on and on, just not for the one you're saying goodbye to. People come and people go and we know this happens, yet we get such a shock when it does. To use that old cliché, the only certainty in life is death. It's a certainty, it's the one condition of living that we're given but we often let it tear us apart."

Proper update about life

Okay, I think I should really give a proper update about life and not just about quotes, pictures, thank you post etc etc.

SO.. life hasn't been great but whatever it is, it's gonna be over soon.
And I need to be me all over again. Feels weird not to be me. But on the good side of not being me, I don't feel the hunger pang.

And speaking of hunger pang, I need to control myself from feeling hungry. I must start to really come up with my diet plan. What to eat, what not to eat. It will all start after my 19th birthday. HAHA. But in the meanwhile, I will start exercising in the coming week. So as to make up for the stuff that I'm not supposed to eat.

I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO LOOKING GOOD IN SEPTEMBER.
Discipline Jas! Important to look good for your dearest leader's wedding!

Bookworm

Did I say that I was reading a lot recently? And i finished two relatively not very thin books in four days? Hahaha, that's explaining the oh-so-many quotes that I've quoted from the books that I've read.

I like reading! It's like the most awesome thing someone can do when you're traveling, when you're alone, when you're anywhere..

Embarking on my third book now.. Halfway through and I love how the writer is so good at captivating the audience's attention!

I love Cecelia Ahern's books. There's always something I can learn from her books despite it being fiction!

Hohoho! Off to reading once more...(:

Where rainbows end

"You can run and run as fast and as far as you like, but the truth is, wherever you run, there you are."

Things change...fast

"Just three weeks ago she had sat there for an interview and now here she was putting ideas forward to her new boss. Funny how life changed so quickly-but then again she had learned that already..."

But still believing that...


"...God leads you to it and takes you through it."

I'm sorry

"Holly hadn't even thought about the fact that Sharon and John had lost their best friend, that her parents had lost their son-in-law and Gerry's parents had lost their only son. She had just been so busy thinking about herself."

Walls up high

I was doing some soul time at Coffee Bean and I sat there for 5 hours and finish reading a book! It was good! Thank God for my ipod and I was people watching while resting my eyes from the reading.

Before I was about to leave and head to the toilet, this old uncle suddenly came and sat at my table. I was stunned for a moment, looked up with a shocked face and stared at him for awhile. I looked around and saw that there were actually many empty tables and was thinking why didn't he want to sit at other tables. Was about to stand up and leave because I felt that my privacy was like kinda invaded and HELLO! I DON'T KNOW YOU AND WHY ARE YOU SITTING AT MY TABLE!

I grabbed my bag and was about to stand up and go, something within me asked me to just sit down for awhile more. So I did. And I watched.

I watched the old uncle took out an envelope, a warranty card, his specs and a pen. (I'm surprised that I remember the details!) And he started to fill up his warranty card. I sat there watching him fill up every single detail.. From his name to IC no. to contact no. and address. This thought came when I was watching, he didn't mean any harm or whatsoever, he just need to fill up a warranty card and get it posted later on. Why build up such high walls of defense?

So I just sat there watching and thinking about the thought that came..

While I was still thinking about it, the old uncle got up and walked away.

I left shortly and I found him at the post office. I smiled to myself because firstly, I was right that he wanted to send out the warranty card while he was filling it up and secondly he really didn't mean anything, he just want to sit down and get his card filled that's all.

This whole incident just reminded me of what would Jesus do?
He wouldn't react like how I reacted initially.. He'll probably get to know about the old uncle.
I was once again reminded to have a heart for people. That's precisely why Jesus came. And while immerse in my thoughts, the song Jesus loves Me/ Your love by children's church was playing. How apt...

And yes, it's time that my focus should be shift to the people around me and not myself anymore. Yes, the past few weeks hasn't been easy, but it's time..

My prayer: Place in me a new heart, a heart for Your people, Your creation whom You love so dearly that You gave Your son.

You gave Your life for me
You took my sin away
And on the cross
You've given Your only son
I bow before Your throne
Declare Your majesty
I know that Jesus loves me

Thank you

Thank you Sarahs from the bottom of my heart, lungs toes and feet!

Really appreciate you girls for praying for me, standing by me thru the most difficult times while I'm still deciding, accepting me for who I am despite being so imperfect, listening to me rant like there's no tomorrow, helping me with my choices even though you heard the same thing almost a million times but you both are always so ready!

Thank you for specially taking time out to text me to check if I'm doing okay.
I know both of you have got your own stuff and projects to do as well. But still, you both rather spent time with me first then back home to your projects.

I'm really really very touched by your gestures. I may be not have been in the best condition to be a good friend, but both of you are.

I LOVE YOU BOTH XMILLION, BILLION, TRILLION!

Jasmin Roxanne

Songs

I know I've been blogging a lot lately. Haha. Don't know if it's a good or bad thing. And the thing is I wonder who even reads my blog other than Xinying and Sarah? HAHAHA. *Looks at both and waves!*

Anyways, just had thoughts about songs. Was and still am listening to songs while reading, I just got reminded of what Dr AR Bernard said. We're God's poems and poems can be in many forms. One of which can be in the form of songs.

Lyrics are thoughts and feelings being sang out.
That's what I concluded.
The lyrics that the person wrote are the thoughts and feelings of the song writer.
Every single song is a thought and feeling of a person at different point of their life. It's just they chose to express it in lyrical form that's all.

Never am I looking at songs the same way again!

My life, Your song...
And I know You're not done writing it yet.

(:

Every joint supplies

I'm back at it again..

Never will I forget that. Everyone in the house of God is important. Even those that you don't notice. I was just talking to my dearest friend Sarah about people we see in church especially those we see on stage.

Every single one plays a part in building His house.
Every single one, even the weakest one.

Thank You for calling me to be part of building Your house.

Thanks for the memories

"I've increasingly found that people never truly tire of playing games and dressing up, no matter how many years pass. Our lies now are just more sophisticated; our words to deceive, more eloquent."

Decisions

There are so many decisions that we make in life.
A fair share of both easy and difficult ones.
Some can be life and death, some can just be as insignificant as to whether to take the bus or the train. But today i realised the importance of decision making. It leaves an impact no matter how subtle it may look. That's why i think that the best candidate to make the decision for us would be God. He's the one who has a bird's eye view of everything. He can see what's ahead of the problem when we can only see our problem.

I pray that the decisions that i'm gonna make in the near future, would not just be made by me. But also by God.. Entrusting my future into His hands.

Trust in the LORD and lean not on your own understanding...

Good O' times!

I am missing the good old times.. with my ex members!
Sadly I can't really dig out any old pictures together :(
As much as life goes on, I hope they are all doing well too!

Was just thinking about my dearest yuping and jon! Haha, days whereby we spent together fellowshiping and me feeling young all over again! (:
I never feel too old hanging around them! HAHA sorry guys, I just had to say that! Now thinking about that, I feel a little comforted even though I'm turning 19 soon, but I can always remember that there're still older ones in my life! *GRINS*

I grew up under their care. HAHA. Yes, I grew up under their care..
Yuping, Jon, Xia, Eunice, Kaifei, Yuping, Junming, Charlene, April AND MOREEEEEE! Oh gosh, I miss them all now!

P.S, I love you

Finally read the book and it was fantabulous!
I love books that gets me thinking about life. (:

I enjoyed reading it! More of such to come!

"She sat down on a park bench opposite the playground and listened to the children's screams of delight. She wished she could go in and play on the slide and be pushed on the swings instead of sitting here and watching. Why did people have to grow up? Holly realised she had been dreaming of going back to her youth all weekend. She wanted to be irresponsible, she wanted to be looked after, to be told that she didn't have to worry about a thing and that someone else would take care of everything. How easy life would be without having grown up problems to worry about."

Birthdays

It's 2 more weeks to Chinese New Year and then after that I'm turning 19.
I'm definitely not looking forward to it now and truthfully speaking, I don't even feel like celebrating it.

Just wanna spend some time alone. To be immersed with my own thoughts and dwell in the presence of Abba Father...

My prayer...

Why are your valiant men swept away?
They did not stand
Because the LORD drove them away.
Jeremiah 46:15

Let me not be strong because of my own strength.

Choosing to smile

When was the last time smiling was not so easy to you?

The word of God

The word of God revives, the word of God restores.

Speak the word of God above every other word.

Was just reading my bible and was reminded of what pst Tan preached. Pray the word. Learn to pray from the bible, learn to pray the words that was inspired by the Holy Spirit.

When my world was in darkness
You spoke Your word
Night turned into day
Your beauty filled this place

the word

The word of God revives, the word of God restores.

Speak the word of God above every other word.

our dance wont stop

today is THE day

i pray for grace and wisdom so as to be able to go thru it.

Thank You Jesus.

Back!

Back from Kluang.

So going back again to do some shopping, things there are MAD CHEAP. Haha!
Anyways, the short get away was good except for the not much appetite and shoulder aches!

Friends

I've used 18 years of my life (going 19.. SIGHHHH!) to conclude that I don't really need to be have a lot of friends around me, just the very faithful few will do.

We all read in books and watch in high school dramas that everyone of us wants to be in the so called popular clique. It's so cool to hang out with the popular few and be the limelight in school. But quite often, they don't really end up good. Not that it's wrong to be in the popular clique! But don't try too hard to fit into somewhere where you don't belong to.

I think I've encountered quite a few to be saying that. I personally feel that I would rather have a faithful and true friend that's always alongside by me, go thru difficult times with me, encourage me when I feel like giving up etc. And I believe that this kinda friendship is really a God given one.

Wouldn't life be better with just one than trying so hard to fit in to somewhere you don't belong and in the end be left with none? I've learnt to be content with what I have.

I have the bestest Friend that I can ever ask for(:

...But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
Proverbs 18:24

God's chasing

Was worshipping just now and was just reminded of the S.O.S bs with pastor kong sometime back. It started with growing love.

I was just reminded of how God would want to draw us back to Him whereby on days we feel so passive, on days whereby we feel like shutting out. But He's patiently waiting for us to open up and come away with Him.
Well, there are days whereby i just feel like sleeping my time away and just be alone.. But one thing is that God is patient and faithful. He knows how to deal with it.

Thankful to know that even though a lot of people may have given up on me, but He'lll never give up on me.

Meditate

I'm gonna learn to meditate on the word till my breakthru comes.

Simple but yet sometimes it just slips.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6

“当没有人骂你的时候已经太慢了。”

Voice

You know how we are so familiar with each other's voice and we can know who's who when we hear just the voice?

Rae used to say that she always hear me before she sees me that's because she recognises my voice and i'm THAT loud, yes I know....... BUT that's not the main point. Main point is that she recognises my voice because she knows me!

For me, I feel a little uneasy over the phone if the voice is someone's voice I don't remember. I just feel really insecure about listening to an unfamiliar voice. Well, I don't know about you but that's for me. That's why most of the time I would prefer to text someone I don't know than to call.

So after reading all I have to say about voice, I just realised after an eventful week, how can I not recognise the ever so familiar voice that's calling out to me everyday? How can I ever forget that voice and choose to believe the other unfamiliar voices that SEEM familiar?

I don't ever want to forget that voice ever again.

So close to reaching that famous happy end

Was watching Enchanted at home and heard the song by Jon McLaughlin, So Close.

AND I GOT REMINDED OF JASLYNN NG!
Woman in Jakarta/Bundung/WHICHEVER PART OF INDONESIA, you're finally coming home tomorrow! :D Wheeehooo!

Life's not that bad afterall :)

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close

"神 啊 ， 求 你 为 我 造 清 洁 的 心 ， 使 我 里 面 重 新 有 正 直 的 灵 。
不 要 丢 弃 我 ， 使 我 离 开 你 的 面 ； 不 要 从 我 收 回 你 的 圣 灵 。"

Running

Quit running away and face your problems.

What can i say?

And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
What can I say?

God's gentleness

"For myself i think i get furthest into the heart of this truth when i think of greatness as grace of the one who puts Himself as one with us that He understands how we feel, taking our weaknesses and difficulties and ddoubts and fears as His own. God is our Father - setting ever before Himself the loftiest purpose concerning us, yet ever seeing our weaknesses, feeling it, and stooping tenderly to help us. That is the gentleness of God"

You have also given me the shield of Your salvation;
Your right hand has held me up,
Your gentleness has made me great.
Psalm 18:35

Phuket

Heh! Family's going to Phuket in March and we're gonna stay in 2 hotels!
Firstly: Ratana Apart Hotel





Credits: From Ratana Apart Hotel's web
Looks really good and hopefully we'll not be cheated! Hee!

The next hotel we're gonna stay in is a FIVE star family suite! THERE'RE LIKE 2 JACUZZI in the room itself! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO it's gonna be awesome! HOPEFULLY I WON'T BE CHEATED TOO!

Checkout the floorplan!

Credits: From Sea Pearl Villas and Spa Resort

I AM EXCITED FOR MY REAL BREAK!

Third day of a new year

It's the third day of a new year and i'm hanging on.

"Giving up is a temptation"

Hello 2011!

Spent the first 2 hours praying for 2011.
The way we enter is important too!

Not much resolutions for 2011, but one main one would be to get deeper in everything.
Deeper with the Holy Spirit, deeper in love with God, deeper in love with the word, deeper in love with God's people, deeper, deeper and even deeper.

Believing that 2011 will be the year filled with breakthrus and even more breakthrus.

Let my heart beat together with Yours.