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Sunday, August 28, 2005

this photo is vintage. i like it alot.
ahhhh!!!! its killing me!!!
the monotony is killing me!!!!
Friday, August 26, 2005
this is the day where i can say i did absolutely nothing at all.
really nothing.
with the stupid swelling in the right ankle not going away, there was really nothing i could do.
not that i could help it.
all i did was eat.
then sleep.
then eat.
then sleep again.
occasionally i read my book ( angels & demons, dan brown, borrowed from my brother's friend.. )
then i went to sleep again.
nothing. n-o-t-h-i-n-g.
i did nothing today!
what is the world coming to?
oh man oh man oh man..
i think i'm going to slip into depression soon.
very very soon.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
fucking curb.. fucking drop... fucking sprained ankle...
Monday, August 22, 2005
got some riding time today.. just over 2 hrs outside my house.. until my damned blister appeared again and forced me to stop riding..
was practicing my sidehop, as usual.. and.. as..err.. usual.. i just couldn't do it right..
sure i was getting up stuff but the movement just didn't feel right. i'm sure if i were a bystander i'd look very stupid doing the move..
nevermind, i've still got the whole week to practice..
whole week minus wednesday (mambo!), saturday (huanmin!) and sunday (realrun...).............
Friday, August 19, 2005
anyway the last post really didn't seem like me, but then again, who is the real me?
a new thought came to mind.
something about someone asking me something about army stories.
i'd like to state a few things. some things to get off my chest.
1.) I'm not a very good story teller.
2.) Army stories are never appreciated by people who are not involved in the story in anyway.
3.) Nobody wants to hear army stories, especially girls.
4.) Put the first three points together, you'll get the conclusion that I'll never EVER share an army story with you if you're not part of the story.
5.) Don't bother asking me to tell u army stories. I can't even narrate a story book well, much less a personal experience.
in short.
Don't bother.
in a really funny mood today..
alot of things are happening, but at the same time alot of things are NOT happening.
my guess is that latter is affecting me more than the former.
i feel like there's alot of things to do, but all i want to do is ride my bike.
but i can't. i can't just ride my bike and don't bother about everything else that's going on in this world.
yet.
if i don't ride my bike, there's nothing that motivating me to do the other things i 'need' to do.
on top of that, i feel like a loner now.
no friends to jio out for a drink. even if i had, i would be too lazy to bother to call them.
nobody calls me out for movies and shite anymore. what the hell is happening to my life man.
the only things that seem to be keeping me together are my bike. and my platoon.
but.
somehow i feel like there should be something *more* to my life right now.
but everybody says, 'army takes ur life away'
'army makes ur social circle smaller and smaller until it disappears'
'army makes u stupid'
'army makes u lonely'
'army takes away ur girlfriends'
'army takes away ur gay friends'
'army...'
army this army that, how true are all those?
or is it just something we.. I do to myself that leaves me in this situation?
i want to call somebody out for a drink or movie.
but when i look at my contacts, its pathetic.
oh my.
what's happening?
should i ride in the weekend?
i'm thankful for my platoon.
platoon 7 charlie company 5 sir 3 sib 3 div.
in the weekdays they are my source of both happiness and unhappiness.
but when the weekend comes, time is just so short to do everything i want to do in a weekend.
argh
what should i do?
Monday, August 15, 2005
today, i have fulfilled my deepest, darkest fantasy.
i've done something i've always wanted to do for the past 7 years of my life.
i'm finally an owner of both a 20 inch and 26 inch trials bicycle.
doesn't sound like much, but boy is it alot!
Friday, August 12, 2005
i will be the man of your dreams,
the one you have ever wished for.
i'll fulfill all your hopes,
and make true all your wishes.
i will be the shoulder for you to cry on,
the one who will always be there.
there when you need me,
there even if you don't.
i will be the ear that will always listen to you,
the one who will share your highs and lows.
always ready to hear you out,
always there to take you out.
i will be your dream lover,
your one and only.
for only $50 per hour,
so what are you waiting for?
91708293.
hurry. call now.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Chasin' that neon rainbow
Alan Jackson
Daddy won a radio
Tuned it to a country show
I was rockin' in the cradle
To the cryin' of a steel guitar
Mama used to sing to me
Taught me that sweet harmony
Now she worries 'cause she never thought
I'd ever really take it this far
Singin' in the bars
Chasin' that neon rainbow
Livin' that honky tonk dream
All I've ever wanted
Was to pick this guitar and sing
Just tryin' to be somebody
Just wanna be heard and seen
Chasin' that neon rainbow
Livin' that honky tonk dream
An atlas and a coffee cup
Five pickers in an old Dodge truck
Headin' down to Houston
For a show on Saturday night
This overhead is killin' me
Half the time I sing for free
But when the crowd's into it
Lord it makes this thing I'm doing seem right
Standin in the spotlight
Chasin' that neon rainbow
Livin' that honky tonk dream
All I've ever wanted
Was to pick this guitar and sing
Just tryin' to be somebody
Just wanna be heard and seen
Chasin' that neon rainbow
Livin' that honky tonk dream
Daddy's got a radio
He won it thirty years ago
He said "Son I just know we're gonna hear you singin'
on it someday"
I made it up to Music Row
But Lordy don't the wheels turn slow
Still I wouldn't trade a minute
And I wouldn't have it any other way
Just show me to the stage
Chasin' that neon rainbow
Livin' that honky tonk dream
All I've ever wanted
Was to pick this guitar and sing
Just tryin' to be somebody
Just wanna be heard and seen
Chasin' that neon rainbow
Livin' that honky tonk dream
I'm chasin' that neon rainbow
Livin' that honky tonk dream
Sunday, August 07, 2005
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a bunch of jibberish that means nothing to anybody but me.
Friday, August 05, 2005
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
after some deliberation i finally decided to write this about myself. not that anybody would bother, but at least it will become the place where i will go to remind me of how i am. maybe that would bring some consistency to my behaviours.
to myself,
your jokes are never funny. so don't tell them to anybody anymore.
keep them to yourself. and when people ask why you're laughing to yourself, shake your head,and keep laughing at your own private joke.
learn to save consistently. whats the point of saving two thirds of your salary only to blow it on one date. don't be generous when you have cash and stingy when you don't. find a moderation.
spend more time with your bike. she'll reward you for it.
its about time you get a girlfriend eh? maybe not. you ain't too ready for it yet. so chill dude. bike first girls later.
you've got a good ear, but you ain't got a good tongue. learn to speak, and speak coherently. when you do speak, speak with relevance not abstraction.
concentrate. work in camp may suck, but leave everything in camp. when you ride, think of riding. when you're watching a movie, think of the show. when you are out with friends, be out there with your friends not back in camp with your platoon.
take the time to know your platoon better. more interviews more serious talk less joking and clowning around. your guys are not coming to you to talk about their problems anymore. either that or they really have no problems anymore. ( to my platoon guys who are reading this, which do you think is true? )
get ready for what lies ahead in life. your enormous dreams and ambitions may not come true, but that shouldn't stop you from trying to achieve it.
think more of the universe, the world and the animals around you.
to my friends,
live in my present.
don't live in my past, for i will not remember you.
don't live in my future, for my future will never have you in it.
don't wait for me to make the first move. it normally doesn't happen. however this does not apply for alexis. riding is an exception i will always make.
if i do things that are rash or irrational, don't put me down. cause i may seem like i don't care, but i do.
if you will forget me, i will forget you.
but even if you don't forget me, i will still forget you.
i never forgive. i just keep mum.
i may not forgive, but i will forget. but if i forget, don't remind me. for if i am reminded, i never forgive.
don't lie to me. because if i ever find out, i never forgive.
i AM forgetful, but i dislike constant reminders. choose the right time and place to remind me, that would be enough.
i observe everything. but i keep mum.
when i offer to pay, you know i have spare cash, so don't reject my offers.
when i am stingy, you know i don't have cash, but i still will not ask you to pay.
to the people who do not know me.
i don't like you.
if it seems i don't like you, its true.
i don't like you.
i may seem like i'm not looking, but i am.
i don't like you.
i observe everything. but i keep quiet.
i don't like you.
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